Okay, so my original intention was to upload this before Friday. But that didn't really pan out because I hadn't even finished it before then because I had a rather eventful Friday, Saturday and Sunday with a anime/video game convention I went to. And when I got all three days, I was completely bushed to hardly do anything. So this is why it's late. So I hope you all enjoy!

It's one of those sleepless nights. One of those nights where I, for the life of me can't seem to sleep for whatever reason. I had been laying in silence in my bed for nearly two and a half hours now, desperately trying to get some sleep, but no avail. I sighed as sat up in my bed and looked to the side of me and smiled warmly as I silently looked at my husband who was sleeping soundly. I giggled lightly to myself when I saw him unconsciously move one of his arm around my body, trying to pull me closer.

I caressed his cheek softly moving my thumb against his jawline and lightly kissed him on the forehead before I stood up out of our bed. I silently slipped on my slippers and made my way to the sliding doors on the other side of the room that went out to our room's balcony. Though, when I was walking across the room, I was drawn to the desk in the corner of the room. I opened one of the drawers and sifted through it as quietly as could, trying not wake Yuji.

After rummaging through said drawer, I let out a silent gasp at what I saw. It was a sonogram I had gotten years ago, sometime after my daughter was born. I went out to the balcony where I was a greeted by a cool and gentle night breeze. I leaned over the railing as I gazed at the sonogram in my hands.

It was the sonogram I had gotten when I found out that I had become pregnant once again, three years after Mana was born. The sonogram of mine and Yuji's unborn son. I was around four months pregnant at the time when we were given very grave news. I had ended up having a miscarriage. It left both Yuji and I heartbroken. Though out of the two us, I'm pretty sure I was devastated the most. I had blamed myself for what happened to our baby and while I never told him any of this, I silently thought that he blamed me as well.

Tears formed at the corner of my eyes as I recalled the events leading up until we were given that unfortunate announcement.

I was smiling from ear to ear as I watched my daughter play, awaiting Yuji's arrival home from work. See, I had just discovered that I was pregnant again with our second baby. Yuji and I were to go to the hospital when he got home to get an ultrasound to see how the development was going and get the gender of the baby.

"Love you, mama!" My three year old daughter, spoke out running over to me with a beaming smile.

I smiled brightly and picked up the small child, setting her my lap and gave her a barrage of kisses on her cheek, getting a fit of giggles out of her. "I love you too, baby." I kissed her one more time on the back of her head. I loved my daughter to death and while we hadn't told her yet about her unborn sibling, I wanted her to know just how much I adored her.

She turned around in my arms and lightly pressed her lips to my cheek, smiling at me with a giggle. In returned, I kissed her forehead and smiled at my daughter once more. "You're too cute, Mana." She beamed at the compliment with another giggle.

My attention was drawn from the girl in my arms to the door when the knob turned. I smiled instantly seeing my husband's handsome face step through the door.

"Welcome home, Yuji." I stood up, scooping Mana into my arms, kissing Yuji's cheek.

"Glad to be home." He smiled, pecking my forehead. He looked toward Mana. "Were you good for mama today?"

"Yeah!" She pumped a fist into the airs, getting a laughing reaction out of both of us.

"We should probably get going," Yuji stated, turning his phone's screen toward me displaying the time. "Your appointment is in about forty-five minutes."

"Yeah," I nodded. "Should we take Mana over to your mothers to watch her?"

"Sure," He smiled. "Mom's been wanting to see Mana for awhile away."

"How does that sound, little one?" I turned my head to look at her. "Papa and I have to go do something for a little bit. You want to go over to Grandma Chigusa's to play while we're gone?"

"Yeah, yeah!" She exclaimed happily.

"Well, that wasn't hard." Yuji chuckled.

We took Mana over to Chigusa's who was more than happy to watch over Mana while we were at the hospital. Once we got to the hospital, we waited until Yu and I were called back for our appointment by Dr. Ishihara.

"So, I take it your ready to get the first look of your baby?" She asked.

"Yep!" I said gleefully, getting a giggle from her.

Like last time, she had me pull my shirt above me belly, which had slightly grown over the last few months and began to move the wand around giving us a full display of a small, but still developing figure in my stomach. Yuji and I both smiled at each other when we saw what was on screen.

"There's you baby." The nurse said quietly, but I could hear happiness in her voice as well. "Would you like to know the gender?"

"Yes, please." Yuji nodded.

"Well," She started. "From the looks of it, it looks to be a baby boy."

"A boy, huh?" I asked in a quiet tone. Inside, I was cheering loudly. I was certainly very excited to have both a daughter and a son. And I knew Yuji was as well.

"Now," She said smiling, putting on her stethoscope. "Would you like to hear your baby's heartbeat?"

"Yes!" I said excitedly, getting a giggle out of the woman.

Very lightly, she lowered the metal plate over my belly and began to move it around, trying to get a heartbeat. It was then that she had a look of concern on her face.

"Oh dear." She said quietly in a very concerned tone.

"What's the matter?" Yuji asked nervously.

"There's..." She hesitated. "There's no heartbeat."

"What!?" Please tell she's joking. She can't be saying I think she's actually saying. "Are-Are you sure that it might be broken? Or-or..."

"I'm positive," She nodded furrowing her brow as she looked at me. "I just replaced my last stethoscope about 2 months ago."

"No..." Tears welled up in my eyes as I put my hand over my mouth in both shock and despair. This all had to be just a horrible nightmare. None of this could be true...

"I'll..." She said up with an apologetic and sad look on her face. Yuji and I could tell she deeply saddened by this as well. "I'll give you some time alone."

Once she left the room, there was nothing but silence for awhile as Yuji and I tried to process what we had just been told. He looked toward me once he heard me starting to cry even more now.

"Yu-Yuji..." I faced him with tears staining my face. "It's-It's all my fault!" I covered my mouth as I began talking.

"No no no no." He said as quickly as he embraced me, where I began to cry my lungs out into his chest. I felt him caress my hair. "This is nobody's fault, Shana." I heard Yuji begin crying too.

For weeks after, Yuji and I were deeply depressed about our deceased unborn son. We both more or less forced happy smiles to make sure we didn't make Mana sad.

It's been eleven years since that day. For years, I had always blamed myself for what happened in silence. I was the one was carrying our baby. So I felt responsible as a result. And I just couldn't help but feel like Yuji secretly blamed too.

"Shana?" I had been crying so much that I didn't notice my husband get out of bed until he had called my name from the bedroom. I wiped away my tears quickly as he walked up to me and flashed him a forced smile.

"What are you doing up so late, hun?" He asked sweetly.

"Oh, no reason." I said. "I just couldn't sleep. What about you?"

"I noticed my beautiful wife had left the bed." He said wrapping his arms around my front and placing several kisses down my neck, making me giggle a bit.

He unwrapped his arms around my and moved next to me, but noticed I was holding something. He immediately frowned when he saw what it was. "You found it, huh?"

"Y-Yeah..." I stammered.

There was silence between the two of us. Nothing but a depressing atmosphere as we thought about what happened all those years ago.

"Uh, Yuji!" I suddenly turned to him with a frantic look on my face, obviously surprising the man.

"Wow," He stepped back a foot. "What's the matter?"

"Do..." I needed to get this off of my chest. I took a deep inhale and let out a deep exhale. "Yuji...Do...Do you blame me for what happened?"

"What?" He breathed. "Shana..."

I didn't look at him, instead looking toward the wooden surface of the floor with an ashamed expression across my lips.

"Shana, have you thought that all this time?" Yuji asked in shock. "All these years...You've thought I blamed you for that miscarriage?"

I slowly nodded and balled my fists together. "I was the one who was carrying that baby! I should have been aware of the baby's health! There's no way it couldn't have been my fault!"

Before I could even react, Yuji suddenly grabbed me and locked me into a tight embrace. "You idiot..." I heard him say quietly in a melancholy tone. "I would never blame you for that. It's not your fault for what happened to that baby. It was nobody's fault. There's nothing we could have done."

I felt him softly, loving and reassuringly kiss the side of my head making me smile. I turned my head up to look at him, but still frowned.

"But, Yuji..." I started with a sad tone. "If I hadn't had the miscarriage then-"

"Will you stop?" He said in a laughing voice and silenced me with a soft kiss on both my forehead and lips. "I'm perfectly content with our small family as it is now. Would I like to have another baby with you? Of course I would. But I don't need to. I'm perfectly happy with how our small family is right now. Mana and you are all I need. You both are all I'll ever need."

I wiped a tear from eye after he finished talking. I felt like a huge weight had just been lifted off of shoulders and off of my heart. I was happy to finally know that Yuji didn't blame me for what happened to our baby all these years.

"Thank you, Yuji." I smiled, leaning up and softly kissing him for several seconds and pulling away. "I love you so much."

"Of course, honey." He kissed my forehead again, stroking my raven looks and cupping my cheek. "I never blamed you for anything for even a second and I never will. Don't ever think that again. I can't imagine how much that kind of worry took a toll on you. But don't worry anymore."

"Yeah," I nodded slowly. "Thank you, Yu-kun."

He kissed my forehead once more before he kissed my lips again, this time for about two minutes before he pulled away and lightly gripped my hand. "Come on, let's get back to bed."

And we did just that. I snuggled back up to my sweet husband's chest and drifted off into deep and peaceful slumber. I was glad to learn that Yuji never once blamed me for that fate that happened to our son. A large and heavy weight had just been lifted.

I apologize if I got any details about the pregnancy stuff wrong during the flashback. I tried to do research on how somethings work to make this as accurate as possible. So I hope I managed to at least get some of it right. I also hope that the drama doesn't seem forced or anything. Because I don't really know if I can do drama well.

Anywho, hope some of you liked this chapter! Leave a review and tell me what you thought!