AN: The only reason that held me back from posting this was that some stuff didn't feel right and I had to figure out a way to change them without messing up the line of events, events that are sorta everywhere in mind right now.

"This is great" Jesse exclaimed as they walked inside Chloe's apartment.

"Definitely something" Beca murmured while looking around.

"I'm gonna go get us drinks" Jesse peeked her cheek before he walked away

"You're late" Chloe sipped her punch.

"Sorry" Beca apologized "But I'm here now" she gave her friend a fake grin and waited for Chloe to give her a piece of her mind for being late. Chloe opened her mouth to say something then glanced at Beca's hand

"Oh my god, Beca what's wrong with your hand?" Chloe's eyes widened with worry

Beca moved her hand "I punched a guy"

"Who did you punch?" Stacie asked jokingly

"Just a guy from work" Beca answered casually "Thanks" she smiled at Jesse when he handed her a beer

"What are you guys talking about?" Jesse asked before sipping his drink

"I was filling them in on this" Beca showed him her hand as she drank from the beer.

"You guys should have seen her," Jesse said proudly "She knocked his tooth out" he shook his head as he looked at Beca "it always hurt when you punch me, but I never thought it was strong enough to knock teeth out"

"That's because I never really punched you Jess" Beca playfully punched him while still holding her beer "I happen to like your face, it would be a shame if something bad were to happen to it" She clicked her tongue

"Why thank you" Jesse put a hand on his chest in appreciation

"Wait, you seriously punch someone?" Stacie asked in disbelief

"Yep" Beca nodded

"Who got punched?" Amy asked as she joined them

"Beca punched a guy from work-What did he do to deserve it?" Chloe was the one speak

"Well," Beca took a second to phrase her thoughts

"Can I tell them?" Jesse asked

"Go ahead" Beca shrugged bring the beer to her mouth

"So, Bec told me earlier today that some guy at work was hitting on her but didn't tell who he was because I go bananas when anyone makes a move on her or something." He said the last part in disbelief

"You do" Beca nodded

"Anyway, so I go to pick her up after work and we run into him in the parking lot, I go to talk to him and tell him to back off. And if we're being honest I wanted him to make a throw a punch or something so that I'd punch the shit out of him with reason, but he didn't. As we walk back to my car he calls Beca on her choice in men and Becs walks back and punches him" he threw a punch in the air "he didn't see it coming,"

"is he suing you for knocking his tooth out?" Aubrey asked

"I'm confident that he won't" Beca answered "If he sues I sue" she shrugged

"Damn, Shawshank got her hands dirty for her man candy" Amy rested her elbow on Chloe's shoulder

"Dude, stop calling Jesse that"

"I don't mind" Jesse threw his arm over her shoulder

"What will you do if I don't, knock my teeth out?" Amy asked teasingly

"She can't, her hand is busted" Stacie said

"My right hand is fine, so yeah. Won't knock off your teeth but will hurt like a bitch" Beca took a sip then held the beer with her left hand to clench her right one. "Wanna feel my knuckles on your face?" Beca asked casually

"No one is punching anyone," Chloe stepped closer to Beca and held her hand up.

"You didn't get ice on it, did you?" She asked. Beca shook her head

"Why? It wouldn't have gotten this bad if you did" Chloe looked up to glare at Jesse

"I told her at the parking lot to get ice for her hand, don't look at me like that" he said in his defense.

"You usually listen to him, why didn't you?" Chloe questioned

"I had something more important to do than put ice on my hand" Beca changed to beer to her right hand as it hurt to hold it with her busted one.

"What's more important than taking care of an injury?" Aubrey asked in confusion

"Sex of course" Stacie said in a matter of fact tone "I can believe you had to ask Aubrey, it's too fucking obvious"

"It's harder to tell nowadays, Beca's sex life got better in the last couple of years" Aubrey said

"True" Stacie pointed with her drink at Aubrey "Good job keeping our friend sexually satisfied" she winked at Jesse who looked away while gulping his drink

"How did this go from my hand to my sex life so fast?" Beca asked after clearing her throat "you're changing the subject, now" she glared at her friends and hoped the blush she was feeling on her cheeks wasn't noticed by anyone.

"Okay" Chloe smiled bringing the drink her mouth "Well before you guys got here, we were talking about playing some game, we're debating whether to play truth or dare or suck and blow"

"Wow, you guys do realize we're all thirty and over right?"

"I'm not" Emily jumped in

"We're all over thirty except for Junk" Beca rolled her eyes

"So what?" Chloe shrugged "These are games you'd play at a highschool party"

"You know what, never mind, let's act like teenagers"

"Let's take a vote on this" Jesse said "Thumbs up if you wanna play suck and blow, do the rock and roll sign if you in for truth or dare" he grinned

"Let's rock and roll then," Jesse did the rock and roll sign when the majority voted for truth or dare.

"You really wanted to say that" Beca looked up at him

"Totally" Jesse sipped his beer as they walked to where everyone gathered and pulled a chair to sit on. Beca sat on his lap.

"Who wants to start?" Chloe asked as she sat Indian style on the floor

"I'll go first," Stacie jumped on the couch. She looked around then asked "Chloe, truth or dare?"

"Dare" Chloe shrugged

"I dare you to give Beca a hickey on her neck" Stacie laughed watching Bumper sit up

"Please not my neck" Beca grunted watching Chloe get up from her seat "Wear a scarf to work" Chloe grimaced

"Just do it" Beca titled her head to give Chloe better access to her neck.

"Okay" Chloe exhaled brushing Beca's hair aside as she leaned in.

"Wait I wanna watch this" Bumper jumped from the couch and ran to where they were sitting. Beca rolled her eyes.

"How are you hanging there Jess?" Beca asked noticing how quiet he was.

"My wife is receiving a hickey from her friend while sitting on my lap, never been better"

"You're not drooling, are you?" she asked and got no answer

"It's low enough so that when you're wearing a shirt, the collar would hide it" Chloe said pulling away.

"Thanks" Beca smiled tightly then titled her head to Jesse and tapped his cheek.

"I'm fine" he shrugged gulping his beer

"Jesse truth or dare?" Chloe asked sitting back on the floor.

"Dare" Jesse replied

"I dare you to act out how you met Beca,"

"Okay," Jesse laughed "Becs" he tapped her shoulder so that he could get up.

"This is gonna be fun" Beca said getting up. She watched Jesse take a sip from his drink before clearing this throat.

"Bec you be me," he said taking her hand before she could sit as he pulled his phone and started to type "here's what you say back" he handed her his phone. Beca took the phone and read the lines he typed to herself as she nodded

"Okay" he rubbed his hands together.

"And 3, 2, 1 go" Chloe called.

Jesse held Beca's shoulder's and turned her around.

"I was standing by the bar" he explained then he tapped her shoulder. Sighing Beca turned around. "Hey stranger" He poked her shoulder then hiccupped and pretended he was about to get sick. Beca glanced at his phone to read "Um, you okay there?" she read in a bored tone.

"Yeah" he nodded holding on to her arm. "So," he stood up straight "You're the least rapist looking guy here,"

"Action: chuckle. Thank you" she read then looked up

"Yeah, could you drive me home?" he asked

"Sorry?"

"Could you" he pointed at her "Drive me" he pointed at himself "home" he smiled as he pointed aimlessly behind him

"Do I get to share your bed?" Beca read fast then looked up "I can't believe ask me this" glared at him

"You were giving me really vague signals Bec, I honestly thought it was your weird way of asking to sleep with you" he explained

"Okay, let's just get over with" she huffed

"Okay-" he nodded before going back in character "Fuck no, how do I know you don't snore—Never mind, I'll find someone else" He acts like he's about to lose coordination then walked away

"Hey wait. Acton: reaches over and puts hand-"

"act them out no one wants narration" Stacie groaned

Beca rolled her eyes walking up to Jesse and placed her hand on his shoulder "Where do you live?" she asked

Jesse turned around "Bec had a hand bag with her that night" he explained pretending to look inside it "my address is on these somewhere—" he paused "Bec handed me bills" he turned to their friends

"Okay" she sighed pulling her own phone "I'm gonna type it down here, for the gps" she narrowed her eyes looking at him

"I swear I typed it for the gps, 'cause I didn't want your unpaid bills to get lost" he promised her

"Why were you carrying unpaid bills around?" Bumper asked in puzzlement

"I was supposed to pay them but got caught up with work" Beca shrugged handing Jesse his phone. He took it and went back to his chair.

"Bec puked on me on our way to my car" He sighed wrapping an arm around Beca when she sat on his lap "And sang a lot on our way" he smiled taking the beer from Beca's hand to take a sip

"The dare was to act out how we met Jess" Beca reminded him "No need to tell them everything that happened after that" she took her beer from him.

"Well, that was terribly acted" Chloe said watching them

"A for effort Jesse, and nothing for Mitchell 'cause she wasn't even trying" Stacie said between sips

"I was that bored and annoyed the night we met, Bec nailed it" Jesse said giving Beca his fist, Beca nodded fist bumping with him while keeping eye contact with Stacie.

Jesse grinned "Bec, truth or dare?" he asked

"Truth" Beca groaned

"Yes" He exclaimed "thank god for your laziness" he kissed her cheek knowing that she only choose truth because it meant she won't have to move "What happened the last you placed a bet?"

"We didn't have sex for two weeks" She answered

"Sneaky. But you know what bet I'm talking about, the one that made you hate bets"

Beca sighed leaning against his chest "I hooked up with a guy" she answered before sipping from her beer

"I remember that, the bet was whoever doesn't get laid that night would have to be our slave for a month" Stacie laughed

"Chloe passed out drunk that night and didn't get laid" Emily chuckled at the memory

"Worst month in my life, you guys were awful" Chloe said to her friends

"No one forced you into the bet" Amy shrugged

"Never got why Beca swore off bets after that, though" Chloe narrowed her eyes at Beca who was playing with Jesse's hand

"Did he give you an STD?" Aubrey asked

"Yeah, something like that" Beca chuckled softly as she interlocked her fingers with Jesse's

"When was this again?" Jesse asked

"8 or 9 years ago" Chloe answered him

"Fuck me" he swore under his breath in realization. He knocked her up. Jesse watched Beca put the empty beer down then wrapped her in his arms to comfort her.

"Moving on—Em truth or dare?" Beca asked while stroking Jesse's cheek when he rested his chin on her shoulder.

"Truth" Emily answered

"Okay" Beca sucked her teeth thinking "So, ever used the fact that you're famous to get away with something?"

"Like what?" Emily asked

"I don't know—A speeding ticket?" Beca shrugged

"Yes" Emily grimaced "more times that I'd like to admit"

"Does it really work?" Aubrey asked

"Sometimes" Emily answered

"ever done it Bec?" Jesse asked

"Why would I? Not a lot of people know who I am Jess. And for that I am grateful" She said getting up "I'm gonna go get another drink"

Beca walked straight to where she knew Chloe kept the good stuff, she grabbed a bottle of whiskey and went to the bathroom. Jesse saw her walk down hall. "Um, guys keep playing I'm gonna hit the bathroom" he got up and followed Beca.

"Bec, it's me, open up" he knocked on the door. As he was about to knock again she unlocked the door. Jesse peeped inside the bathroom and saw her take a seat on the edge of the bathtub. There was a bottle of whiskey in her hand.

"Hi" she said looking up and cracked a smiled watching him sit next to her then looked down at the bottle in her hand and kept staring at it.

"What are you think about?" he asked nudging her

"I'm thinking of how amazing our buddy Jack is" she shook the bottle looking up "All I have to do is drink it up and bam no more thinking" she sighed looking back at it before she decided to put it down.

"I don't wanna wake up with a headache tomorrow, so brace yourself and let's hope what you say about taking things out is true" She exhaled

"Well, I got all the time in the world, and our friends would probably think we're having sex if we take long, I'll just mess your hair and voilà" he said making her chuckle

"Good point." Beca nodded "Okay, so I should get started huh" she cleared her throat

"Um, I don't really remember the guy, we were so fucked up that night. I just woke up in a dump of an apartment and let myself out. The girls and I enjoyed making Chlo do useless shit for a month which was so much fun." Jesse wrapped an arm around her shoulder, she rested her head on his chest "few months later the morning sickness started, that sucked big time. And you know, before I realized I was with child, I drank a lot, like I'm surprised my liver is still functioning, I just got my big break back then and got a lot of attention, did a lot of partying." She wiped her cheek with the back of her hand "I killed him or her" she started to sob uncontrollably. Jesse rubbed her arm "You know the first thing I said when I saw the test," she looked up trying to control her sobbing "if it could just die—" She choked on her own tears not able to finish her phrase. Jesse press her against his chest and let her cry it all out while wiping her cheeks.

"Stay here I'm gonna get you water" Jesse unwrapped his arm from her shoulder when she calmed down

"No, don't go" Beca wiped her cheeks, watching him get up

"Okay" he sat back "So still think it wasn't my fault?" she asked

He nodded "Bec, you didn't know you were pregnant when you were partying." He held her chin up "You didn't intentionally 'cause his or her death, stop blaming yourself" he leaned in and kissed her to comfort her.

"Please" he said pulling away

Beca sighed getting up, she ran the water to wash her face. "How do I explain this?" she gestured to her face. Her eyes were puffy.

"You don't owe anyone any explanation" Jesse shrugged getting up

"I hate to admit this, but this felt good" Beca said looking at him through the mirror as he stood behind her

"You know what will make you feel better; forgiving yourself"

"Jess, it's not that easy" Beca rested her hands on the edge of the sink

"Beca, don't give me that crap, it's been 9 years. You had more than enough time to find peace with yourself. You're not even trying" he said and braced himself for the worse

"I'm sick and tired of this feeling, and I don't know how to 'find peace'. It's just there, the guilt. And it hurts so much" she wiped her tears that didn't seem to stop falling.

"c'mere" Jesse put his hand on her shoulder slowing turning her to him and hugged her.

"You can't change what happened." Jesse said watching her look up.

"The only thing you can change is how you choose to deal with it" he stroke her hair

"Have you been hanging out with Stace? That sounded like something out of a psychology book" she sniffed

"Actually it's from a movie" he admitted

"Of course it is" Beca rolled her eyes.

"It's great advice" he shrugged "find a new way to deal with it." He stroke her cheek "Start by accepting the past, and we'll figure this out together" Beca nodded gazing into his eyes. "Because, we're a team, we're Jesse and Beca. We're Jesseca"

"Took you two years to find that" Beca shook her head in disappointment

"I know, I'm really disappointed in myself" he sighed reaching for a towel and handed to Beca. She took it from him and used it to dry her face.

"Seriously though Jesse, how am I gonna avoid answering why the hell was I crying?"

"Most of them are tipsy, doubt they'd notice." He snapped his fingers "Chloe got distracted with your hand and forgot the fact that we came late, so let's focus on your hand—Wait you have really bad pain tolerance we could like say you hit and started crying over it if they ask"

"So clever Jess, so very clever" Beca removed herself from his arms and put back the towel where it was. Glancing at herself in the mirror she asked "Jess could you get me my bag, I need to redo my makeup?"

"Yeah," he nodded and paced out of the bathroom, returning less than a minute later with her bag and a bottle of water.

"Drink this first" he handed her the bottle. Beca rolled her eyes taking it from him and winced when she held it. She then managed to redo her makeup without whining about her hand.

"Are they still playing truth or dare?" Beca asked putting her makeup back in her bag

"Yeah, they were playing when I was getting you your bag" Jesse got up from the edge of the bathtub.

Beca sniffed looking at him. "C'mon" she nodded at the door.

"Wait" he reached for her hand and pulled to him. "Yeah?"

Jesse leaned in and kissed her while running his fingers through her hair, soon enough Beca dropped her bag to wrap her arms around his neck and pull him closer to her.

"Why don't you wear this anymore?" he asked about the earspike she wore for the night while kissing her behind the ear before he pulled away.

"Because I get mistaken for a college kid a lot" she answered him breathlessly as he tucked a curl behind her ear "I'll go back to wearing earspikes when I'm over say like forty"

"Why?"

"Midlife crisis" She pulled him down and kissed him, hearing the door open she pulled him even closer.

"I was hoping I'd see someone's cute bum" Amy peeped inside the bathroom.

"If you came in the next fifteen minutes you probably would have" Beca said pulling away

"Bummer" Amy opened the door wide open. "c'mon" she nodded behind her "Bumper just got dared to sing baby by the biebz like opera while having an ice cube down his shirt, I thought you wouldn't want to miss out on this. And I also wanted to see Jesse's ass"

Beca picked up her bag and took Jesse's hand as they followed Amy back to where they were hanging.

"And I was like baby baby baby ahh fuck!" They heard bumper sing. Beca busted into laughed as she paced to catch bumper singing

"you can't stop" Chloe said in sing-song

"Baby baby baby, oh" Bumper sang

"Suck it up dude, and sing it like you mean it" Beca shouted jumping on the couch. Jesse sat next to her admiring how well and fast she could pull herself together despite her meltdown less than half an hour ago.

Bumper stopped performing the song under popular demand as it got obnoxious.

"Beca" Bumper hollered "Truth or dare?" he asked

"Truth" She answered taking the drink Stacie had in hand from her and sipped from it.

"So, you don't believe in marriage, right?" Beca nodded in response "Why did you marry Jesse then, and at what age did you stop shopping at the kids section?" he asked.

"If a piece of paper and wearing a ring make Jesse happy then why wouldn't I marry him?" she asked back then sipped from her drink "And as for the second question," she flipped him off

"Jess truth or dare?" Beca turned to Jesse and rested her elbow on the couch's arm.

"Truth" he answered

"Since you're so nice it makes wanna vomit sometimes, I wanna know what's the meanest thing you ever done?"

Jesse took his time think then said "I once saved over Abby's Pokémon game"

"Wow" Beca laughed "You're awful"

"No regrets, she deserved it" he shrugged.

AN: How did you find this chapter peeps? If you got any suggestions shoot, I'll see if I can slip them in there with my ideas.

As always, I am very grateful for your kind words you people are really nice, and I like you guys a lot, I'd hug you all if I could, thanks for reading.

UPDATE: To the dear guest that asked for hints. [insert shy giggle in french] Sweetheart, I don't even know what will happen next. I just have ideas all over the place waiting to be sorted out, just like my clothes and school work. I don't know if any other writer could relate but I hardly ever know exactly what I want in a chapter, as I'm writing this some stuff are clicking in my head and are kinda making sense, so here's a hint of what you'll find in the next chapter: Second anniversary.