BPOV

"No," I said. "This is where I draw the line. Its one thing to spend all this money on baby clothes and toys, but lingerie..." I made a face. "Hell no."

Alice frowned. "But Bella, you and Edward need to have some fun," she told me honestly.

I shook my head. "No, Alice. Edward and I need to get our lives together, and I need to shape that guy into a father in months. The last thing I need is for him thinking that I'm a sex toy. So no," I shoved the lacy piece back in Alice's hands, "I don't want this."

As Alice went to disagree with my statement Rosalie piped up.

"Alice, she has a point," Rose added quietly. "Edward has a hard head and a dick that's just as hard. Lingerie is not going to help with the issues their having." Rose shrugged as she went to examine a rack of babydolls. I didn't want to know what she was going to be doing with that.

I turned to Alice. "I'm sorry," I said quickly. "Its just..."

"I understand," Alice said quietly, pouting and looking up at me from under her lashes.

Her classic pouty face. The one she used to beg and pled with anyone to get what she wanted. How many times had she tricked me into the dumbest things because of that face?

I wanted to cry.

"Fine!" I threw my hands up in the air in exasperation. "Whatever you want!"

She grinned. "What level of reveal?" she asked in all seriousness.

Did I want to be dirty to Edward, give him a little surprise? Well, its only natural for couples to be dirty and touchy.

"How about four?" I suggested, breaking out into my own excited and anxious smile.

Alice squealed, stomping her heels on the hard wood floor, attracting attention from a few bystanders. But I couldn't help but be excited with her. Alice had been my guide in everything for all the years of my life – of course I always trusted her, no matter what; whatever she suggested I always took it into some kind of consideration at some point, some time. The only time I'd never taken Alice's advice was with Jacob, but that was a whole other book I never wanted to open again. Edward is my new book – even if Alice is against it. As much as I hate to admit it, Alice is usually right – like she's physic almost. What she wanted, suggested, or told anyone was usually the right thing to either do or say.

But that didn't mean she never goes overboard. Actually, Alice is just kind of, slightly prone to going overboard because of her aggrandized emotions.

It was obvious, too late, that what Alice would pick out would be a level five, no doubt. Alice was like, the Queen of Lingerie. And to say I was terrified would be an understatement.

Within seconds Alice came running back to me, where I was still frozen in thought.

"Okay, Bella, I have a fabulous idea!" she said in all seriousness. "I will pick out the sexiest outfit for you and Edward to explore tonight, and then you guys can have all your little kinky fun and all that. But," she held up a babydoll and thong set, "you need Edward squirm right now." She winked and I sighed.

"Alice, Edward and I don't need any alone time any time soon," I complained. "We are having a totally serious conversation tonight and I don't want to throw him off track with sexy lingerie." I made a face. Damn, I knew this stuff would really throw that dude off.

She nodded. "But your so keyed-up right now, Bella," she disagreed. "You need this – you both do. Its normal for couples to have fun sex, even if they need to have serious conversation. Please?" she begged. "It'll be so much fun for you." Alice paused. "And Edward."

I hated that Alice had to be right. I hated that she was right. I despised it! And yet I couldn't deny it. For a quick moment I thought about the pros and cons.

Edward always seemed to be at much more attention – and I didn't mean his erection – after or during sex, so that was definitely a good thing. Well, only for after. It was so easy to control Edward's pleasure and attention during sex! But there were more cons to this. I didn't want Edward to get the wrong idea of our sex life or of our relationship, because that wouldn't help me in the long run. It was barely helping me now. And then we had to talk tonight about moving in together – that's a big step, and I wouldn't want to end it with a fuck, no matter how good it would be. It would be the foundation of our future together and our baby's life – I didn't want his eyes clouded in lust or his hands on my body when I tried to speak. That couldn't happen.

And even if we had sex before our big talk, Edward would want it again – and to be fair, so would I.

And the number one pro and con would be that sex is fucking amazing! Pro because...well, sex is fucking amazing. And a con because we would want it over and over again, until out relationship was just fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, bang, bang, bang, bang, bang. I didn't want us to come to that.

So with great distress and remorse, I agreed to it all.

Saying I didn't want to is a lie, but saying it is right is too. I didn't overly want to do this, but with Alice, there is no fight.

"Make him beg, Bella," Alice advised me as she shoved me into a changing room, tossing the babydoll onto the floor. She gave me a wink before I slammed the door in her face and locked it.

My eyes stared at the little piece for a few moments, noting that Alice had yet to show me my level four-five lingerie. I could only imagine what she would have found. When I'd told Edward I would text him later, I guess I was anticipating something slightly dirty to come of the shopping trip, but then once it came time...I wasn't too excited about this.

But I complied to Alice's little fun. At least I would have more of Edward's attention if some pressure could be taken off.

I slowly slipped off my shoes and then my clothes, picking up the new piece. It was sheer pink and opened in the front to give full show of the tight satin thong. The attached bra pushed my breasts up so much I was sure they would fall out with the right movements.

And there is going to be a lot of movements tonight.

My fingers trailed along the beaded sparkles at the hem of the material, that touched to tops of my thighs, then at the bust. It was really pretty...I would hate to use it to my evil advantage.

"No," I mumbled as I examined how my ass looked in in. Perfect, that's how. "This guy is putty in my hands – I have him wrapped around my finger," I decided, bending down to my purse and rummaging around for my phone.

This better get him worked up, I thought as I pushed my boobs further up. I pressed the picture application and sent Edward his little tease.

~*~

"I miss this," Rose said, jutting out her bottom lip. "We hardly go out anymore or spend time together. I mean, this baby is like out key to spending time together."

I groaned. "I know," I said flatly. "We're all too busy with our guys." Maybe I shouldn't have been so annoyed about it, but I was beginning to realize the love-hate relationship I had with Edward. At times I loved him – not full love love – and others I wanted to slap him upside the head and say, "What the fuck, dude?" Funny how I probably wouldn't have been taking this so seriously if I wasn't pregnant.

Obviously my attitude had alerted my good-hearted girls that I wasn't too impressed about something – the something being Edward Cullen.

"Bella, what's wrong now?" Alice asked, confused.

Before answering I shoved a few French fries in my mouth and took a sip of my diet coke. Not only was Alice almost clairvoyant, but she could be brilliant at times and that included knowing when someone was upset. Sometimes I wondered if she had some weird other power about emotions or whatever.

My head fell to the table – literally missing my burger by inches – as I groaned in annoyance. "I'm frustrated!" I whined, drawled out the word.

"Yeah, Edward can do that to you," Rosalie laughed. I lifted my head slowly, to glare at her. "Sorry," she apologized dully.

But I sighed and dropped my head again. She was so right and I hated to admit it. "I know," I whined again, my voice muffled by the table and my arm. "Your right. The guy's a fucking dick that thinks with his dick and needs a hobby, besides casual sex. He is gonna be a fucking father – which is a huge God damn mistake that I'm going to regret." I lifted my head to look at their blank faces. "He doesn't tell me," I mumbled, "but I know he doesn't want a baby." I pouted, hanging my head.

It was frustrating enough for me to bring a baby into this world without a job, relying on a guy that strived from sex – hence the reason I ended up pregnant. I was a quick fuck for him. Why did I feel provoked to go through this with Edward instead of being a single parent? What made me think I could whip him, of all people, into a father in mere months?

Well, I had to come up with a plan.

I sighed, rubbing my head. "I don't know how to prepare him for being a dad, guys," I told them quietly. They inclined to hear my words. "Its going to take more than a book and a TV show to get him ready, but how? He doesn't know he's going to have to spend all this money for a baby, seeing as I'm lacking in the job part, and he hasn't even realized he's going to have to get up during the night. He's not going to have a peaceful sleep anymore. Fuck!" I snapped, exasperated, leaning back in my chair.

For once my rambling put a silence to my girls when I needed their advice the most. I could understand that neither of them would know what to do, because clearly they could not relate – I mean, their boyfriends weren't horny, little soon-to-be freaks!

"Bella," Rosalie said after a moment, weaving her fingers together on the table and leaning forward unsurely. I watched her, hoping she had some idea that could help me. She shook her head and tried again. "Bella, my brother may be a hard head, but I know he really cares about you. He does have a lot of growing up to do, but you have to be patient with him," she told me. I nodded bluntly, knowing that I couldn't shape him that quickly over night. "He's not going to just let you go, Bella, " Rose continued. "I've talked to him, and even though he's so not that impressed with me right now, he is scared about being a father. Edward doesn't think he can do all this stuff."

This really grabbed at my interest.

The very thought that Edward – that hot, strong man – was scared of having a baby, gave me a wave of pity. I wouldn't have thought he even got frightened of anything, especially children. And the fact he thought he was incapable of caring for me and a baby was ridiculous. If he tried, if he got prepared, he would be ready and he could do it. But at this moment, I had to be glad I wasn't that far along in my pregnancy.

"What do you mean he doesn't think he could do it?" I asked with new interest and curiosity.

Rosalie sighed. "Edward has never cared for a woman, and now he has to do that and a baby. You just need to talk to him and educate him," she told me with a shrug.

"Educate him on pregnancy, women and children?" I asked incredulously.

Well, here comes my teaching career, back at me.

For the first time, Alice put in. "Yep, Bella, your gonna have to teach that guy how to take care of women and children." She grinned.

"So good luck," Alice and Rosalie said in sync.

I smiled and laughed, knowing they would still be there for me through the thick and thin this would bring.

And I knew that all we needed was a drastic event to change the way Edward was thinking about his abilities as a father, lover, and boyfriend.