Chapter twenty-one
The rest of the night was amazing...that was until the reception ended.
Alice and Jasper had to basically rip Edward and I apart, we put up a pretty big fight too. Jasper in the end got Emmett, and he literally ripped him from my arms, like a son that got ripped from his mother's arms...Ok, that sounds really gross, but still, it was. We both got dragged away, our eyes only held longing as we headed in opposite directions. I hadn't the faintest idea how I would sleep tonight without Edward, I haven't slept in a different bed with him since the day we 'confessed' our feelings.
Esme was the nicest about it, telling me reassuring words such as 'You will see him tomorrow,' or 'He's in just as much pain as you are, so let's try not to make things worse.'. I knew that Esme's heart was in the right place, but I honestly think that she made it worse. Like saying about tomorrow. What about now? What about when I'm tossing and turning in bed because Edward's arms aren't around me? Then there's the whole 'pain' thing, me being in pain was bad enough, but Edward? I think Rosile's grip on me tightened, because all I wanted to do was run to him and hug away his pain. I DON'T WANT THIS!
"Stop being a cry baby Bell, I'm the one getting married tomorrow!" Alice said, her eyes never leaving the road.
My eyes, however, stayed looking out the rare window wistfully, hoping that Jaspers car would come back into sight with my angel inside. I sighed, he's not coming back...A warm hand covered my hand, lightly creasing it. I looked up, Esme looked back at me with a heart filled smile.
"Don't worry Bella. It won't be long." She said, pulling a strand of hair from my face and tucked it behind my ear. I blushed. I wasn't too sure what Esme meant about the 'it won't be long' part though. It could mean the obvious about me seeing Edward soon, or it could mean...so many other things. I would have asked what she meant by her statement, but I thought against it just in case she did mean the obvious.
It didn't take too long to get back to the apartment building. Walking through the halls, all I could think was Edward, it just added to my yearning for him. Going past my apartment, a quick idea flashed through my mind. Alice unlocked the door, letting Rosile and Esme in, now waiting for me. I took a big breath, and asked.
"Alice?"
"Yeah Bell?" Alice replied, her new nickname for me felt a bit strange, but I shoke it off.
"Um, well since your apartment doesn't have enough rooms and all...can I just sleep in my apartment and come over as soon as I wake up?" I asked quickly, though Alice talks faster so she picked up every word.
"No Bella. You're staying at my apartment. We're all just going to get blankets and pillows and sleep in the living room together." She said firmly.
I sighed, "Alice...its bad enough I don't have Edward to sleep with tonight...I just want to sleep in our bed so I still have his smell..." I knew it was going a bit out there and all, but I wouldn't be able to handle myself sleeping in different blankets and pillows with no smell. I would probably sneak off while they were asleep, grab the truck and go to Carlisle's, I'm serious, I probably would.
Alice smiled lightly at me, "Ok...I'll come over and get you up when I get up. The wedding starts at one and it's going to take a while to get ready." I groaned. I hate dressing up...
"Fine. Thanks Alice." I said, getting the keys out of my pocket.
"Don't mention it. Night." She bid farewell.
"Night, say sorry to the others." I said, Alice nodded, and disappeared into her apartment.
I unlocked my door, going in quickly and closing and locking it behind me. Now that I'm alone I noticed that I'm about as cold as a pops tickle, so I went to the fire place, and turned it on. I sat in front of the fire place. Sure. It was getting uncomfortably hot being so close to the fire, but I didn't really notice. What I did notice however, was how much my heart was colder not being close to Edward. No matter how hot the fire was, it would never melt my emotional coldness.
Just then a ringing sound came from my bag that sat beside me. I grabbed my cell out of my small black hand bag, who in the world would call this late? It's probably about one already!
I answered the phone, "Hello?"
"Bella?" My favorite velvet voice spoke through the phone.
"Hay Edward."
"I miss you."
"I miss you too."
"I love you."
"I love you too Edward."
"But I love you more." He claimed. I rolled my eyes, please don't tell me we turned into one of those couples that stay on the phone for hours say 'you hang up.'...
"Edward..." I gave him a warning tone.
"Fine, fine, we love each other equally." He said, laughing.
"Is there any importance as to why you called?" I asked.
The line went silent, I would have thought that he hung up if I couldn't hear his breath in the background, "I miss you."
"I know Edward. But why did you call at, like, one? You should be asleep."
"Why aren't you?"
I sighed, "Because you're not with me." I told him truthfully, seeing no reason to lie.
"Same here." He whispered.
"Is everyone at your end asleep?"
"Yeah, they all went out like a light as soon as they got back. You?"
"I'm not sure, I'm in the apartment."
"Oh?"
"Yeah, I asked if I could stay at the apartment, I would have freaked if I stayed at Alice's without anything that reminds me of you." Damn why did I say that?! Now he's going to think I'm needy and possessive!
Edward chuckled through the line, making me pounding heart lighten, "Hm, well at least you have that! I was having a freak session here too, that's why I called, I just needed to know that you're safe....and to hear your voice."
I smiled, "Well I'm fine, I don't think I'm going to get any sleep though."
"Hm, me neither...Hay, I gotta go, I think Jaspers waking up."
"Oh, ok, well...night." I grunted, not ready to say good bye.
The cell went dead, I sighed and closed it. Well that was a mood kill. My skin finally let me feel the full force of the heat, making me shrug back, rubbing the burning hot skin. I got up, heading to m- I mean Edward's room; I took off my cocktail dress, replacing it with one of Edward's shirts. I quickly grabbed the giant gold comforter from the bed and my laptop from the side of the room, then made my way back to the lounge.
I hadn't written any of my story for a while, so I guess I might just finish writing the rest of the chapter I'm half way through. I threw the blanket on the couch first, going into the kitchen to make a coffee and to find something to eat. I let the water boil as I poked my head into the fridge. I don't know why, but for some reason I had a craving for ketchup. I grabbed some leftover chicken from two nights ago and heated it up in the microwave. I don't particularly like using microwaves, but I didn't want to wait an hour by using the oven.
Grabbing some bread and butter out too, I quickly got together the bread for the sandwich and grabbed the ketchup, smothering the bread with it by the time the microwave went 'ding!'. I got a mitten and grabbed the hot plate out, the smell of roasted chicken filled the air along with the ketchup, making my mouth water. I used a knife and fork to get the chicken onto the bread, then adding more sauce to it. After my 'masterpiece' was done, I put the scolding plate in the sink and quickly did up my coffee.
I picked up the plate and the coffee and walked back to the living room, placing the items on the coffee table. I sat down quickly and dug into the sandwich, I honestly didn't know what got into me, but I couldn't slow down.
Hm...Needs more sauce.
I got back up to get the sauce when I heard a click and the door open. My heart pounded. Who would be here at this time in the morning?! I quickly ran into the kitchen, grabbing a rolling pin from the bench. I stayed at the corner of the door, praying that the most likely burglar would just take what he wants and leave. I mentally kicked myself for having the kitchen light on, but if I didn't, I think I would panic more then I am now! I don't even think that's possible but I didn't want to know if I could have a heart attack or not.
The footsteps lightly echoed through the apartment, the worst thing was, they were heading in this direction! I had a death grip on the piece of wood, my eyes closed shut as my breathe deepened at every footstep that was heard. My eyes shot open as I heard one squeak in the dining room, right beside the door. I saw a foot at the bottom of the door frame, my head jerked up, I lifted the pin. As soon as he stepped in I banged the piece of wood into the trespassers head. Hard.
He fell onto the floor, he didn't fall uncurious though, his hands cradled his head. Though as soon as I hit the man, I knew that I regretted it as soon as I did.
Holy. Fucking. Shit!
"Edward!" I screamed, dropping the rolling pin on the ground and dropped to my knees in front of Edward, wrapping my arms around his arched back and chest, pulling him to me. Edward's hands around his aching head, I brought his head up to mine, one of his eyes closed tight in pain, the other one just managing to stay open.
"W-well at least I don't have to worry about you if I need to go out..." He groaned out, laughing a bit. I couldn't help bit lightly laugh, grabbing his hand and pried it from his head. I didn't see anything that bad. No gashes, no wounds, only a lump. I sighed, thank god. I wouldn't only feel guilty for the time the wound would be there, but also when Alice kills me for nearly giving Edward a black eye! -he doesn't have a black eye-.
"Oh god Edward I'm so sorry!" I whispered.
"It's okay love. It's my fault anyway, I should have said something instead of trying to surprise you." He muttered, a cute smile on his face.
I let out a small laugh, "Yeah, you should have." I lightly lifted myself a bit, my hands on Edward's shoulders. His arms wrapped around my mid stomach as I lightly kissed his bump, I could feel him shutter under me, so I bent back down and kissed his nose playfully, trying to lift his spirit.
It did, he lightly chuckled, nuzzling my stomach with his nose, causing me to giggle. "I missed you so much...so much..." he muttered, kissing my stomach through his dress shirt.
I blushed furiously, he can be incredibly sweet when he wants to be...ok, so he's sweet constantly, so you can't blame me for missing him terribly, "Me to Edward, me too." I whispered, running my hand through his bronze locks, though staying away from his lump on his head. "How do you feel?"
His hands were on my thighs, running his hands up and down my bare thighs, "Hm...I don't know...Maybe I need a distraction from the pain...What do you think?" He asked seductively, I couldn't help but laugh. Only Edward can make a near death experience fall under the 'sex' category in under a minute.
"Hm, well I personally think that's a great idea...But what about tomorrow when the guys find out that you're not there? Won't they be mad?" I asked, my finger tips lightly grazing the skin of his face and neck.
"Don't know, don't care." He said, getting up carrying me with him. He brought me to the couch, laying me down with himself on top of me. My hands around his neck, about to kiss him when he stopped me, well, turned away at least. I would have been incredibly hurt if he didn't have a curious look when he saw my forgotten sandwich and coffee on the coffee table. He hopped off of me to my dismay to look at the half eaten food, lifting the top of the bread up to see what was inside it. It was then that I noticed the strong smell of ketchup coming from the sandwich, making my cravings come back.
"Bella, why did you put so much sauce on your sandwich? I think there's more ketchup on this then there is the bread and chicken." He stated.
"Um...I don't know...I just suddenly wanted ketchup." I said honestly.
Edward's head popped up at the statement, a grin eloping his face, though he said nothing. He was practically glowing; I had no idea why, "Edward? What?"
He came over to the couch again and lifted me up, putting me on his lap before kissing me furiously and passionately. Our tongues eloped each other as my arms went around his neck, one of his arms around my back and another cupping my neck, keeping me as close as possible. I didn't get my answer, though I don't think I minded, whatever it was, I thank it.
My inner thighs started to tingle. I wanted Edward to help me with this problem, so I grounded my hips into his manly hood, making him grow almost instantly. He moaned into my mouth loudly, causing me to moan from the vibrations. I wanted him, BADLY! So I continued to grind myself into him, trying to get as much friction as possible.
Edward flipped us over, his lips never parting from mine. His hands went up my thighs to my hips, lightly pulling at my panties and pulling them down my legs. He lifted up his body to allow the panties to go down my legs, then throwing them somewhere, the direction was unknown, but I doubt that we would be losing much sleep over it either. If we get sleep that is. Edward was only wearing a wife beater and sweat pants, which all came off very easily. Edward didn't remove his dress shirt from me, he kept it on, both his hands now exploring the flesh underneath it.
He positioned himself at my entrance, slowly going in. With every trust our moans increased, with every moan our movements became more and more animalistic. I don't have the faintest idea on how we stayed on the couch the whole time without falling off, or what we're going to do about the cum stains in the fabric. But that would be tomorrow's problem. This was today, and I'm in the arms of the man I love deeply, and him showing me just how much he loves me back.
It didn't take too long for us to climax, Edward had me on top so I collapsed on him, our sweaty skin shined in the light of the fire. We both breathing heavily, my head rested on his chest. I could feel the tiredness of my body winning over. Edward leant down over the couch and pulled the blanket over our bodies. I would have protest because of the heat that we already created if it was summer and I had energy to do so. But its winter and I'm fighting to keep my eyes open at this very moment.
Edward kissed my forehead, "Sleep love."
I couldn't speak, only nodding weakly. I drifted off to sleep in my lovers arms. All I knew was that when I would wake up, I would finish my ketchup covered sandwich.
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I wish that the sun was the thing that woke me up. I wish that a freak storm was going on outside that woke me up. I wish that there was a war that woke me up. But sadly, none of them are what woke me up. I would have rather them to be the ones that woke me up. Heck. I'd rather all three of them were what woke me up! But no. Unfortunately I don't have that kind of luck.
"Bella! Edward! Up NOW!" Alice...
All I could do was groan, I looked up at the pissed off pixie. I would have gotten up if both Edward and I had clothes on, which just made this situation so much worse. I instantly became self conscious and pulled the blanket to my chest tightly, Edward sensed my movement, obviously not knowing that we had company.
His arms tightened around my waist and pulled me back to him more, his face nuzzling my hair. I wasn't entirely sure if he was asleep or not, but he's gonna be awake soon! I nudged him HARD in the ribs, which caused him to flinch back.
"OW! Bella!? What the hell!?" He cried in pain, his hand cupping the saw ribs.
"Edward...." Alice let off a warning tone.
"Alice, what are you doing here?" Edward asked, a curious expression imprinted on his face. Oh god, don't tell me he's forgotten...
"I think I can ask you the same thing! It's MY wedding day, and you're supposed to be with MY fiancée right now! Why are you here!?" Alice yelled.
"I couldn't sleep without Bella." He said plain and simple, though I blushed.
"Hm, you couldn't sleep without her, or you couldn't whack off without her?" Alice shot, glaring at Edward. I wasn't going to get made at that, but it is pretty mean. Alice is getting married in a matter of hours, she has a right to be pissed at the maid of honor and best man for sleeping together.
Edward growled, "No Alice, I can't get to sleep without Bella." He managed to say through his teeth, he seemed to be phased by the comment. Probably hurt.
I put a hand on his chest, which seemed to calm him down. He looked down at me, his eyes telling me all about his frustration, "Edward, maybe you should go." I said, he was about to protest before I put a finger on his lips, "It's just for a few hours. Alice and Jasper need us right now. We can't always be selfish."
Edward grunted, his forehead on mine, "But I want to be selfish...I don't mind."
I shook my head, "No Edward, I mind." I turned to Alice, who gave me a pleased look, "Um Alice, would you please go back to your apartment for a bit? We're kinda....Yeah…" I said embarrassed as hell.
Alice laughed, nodding, "Ok, twenty minutes." I nodded, then Alice left.
I collapsed back onto Edward's chest, I may have sounded confident before, but now I regret ever saying those words. I'm not ready to get up. And I'm sure as hell not ready for Edward to leave! Edward pressed his lips onto my hair, the nuzzled it slightly.
"Do I really have to leave?" Edward whispered, his voice sounding broken.
I looked up, Edward's eyes looking down at me sad, I lifted myself up a bit and rested my forehead on Edward's, "I'm sorry, but we have to help them."
"But I don't want to leave."
I bent down and pecked him softly before pulling away, "We're only going to be away from each other for a couple of hours, I'll have my cell on me so you can call whenever you need to talk. Just remember Edward. Jasper needs you, and your sister needs me. It's their day, not ours." I almost passed out when I said that. Why? Why the hell did I say 'our' day?!
A smile appeared on his face, "Hm, well when it's our day, we aren't going to be superstitious about the bride and groom can't see each other crap."
"S-sure..." I said, blushing.
Edward kissed my nose playfully, "So...When is your next period due?" He asked bluntly.
My face light up, my stomach had birds flying around in it. I sighed, I knew I'd have to tell Edward sooner or later...I just hoped that they would have came already, I mean, I could just be majorly late, you know, first time for everything right...
Right?
"The twentieth..." I muttered softly.
There was silence for a few moments, moisture started to form in my eyes. I knew it. He changed his mind. He seemed so excited about me getting pregnant, and now that I probably am, he's going to leave...Figures.
"Well that explains the ketchup..." He said, almost sounding stunned.
I nodded, I never thought of that...I untangled myself from Edward's grasp and got up, trying to blink away the tears. I got up and grabbed Edward's shirt from the ground, I quickly threw it on and went off to my room, Edward called for me, but I didn't bother. I went to my room and grabbed out some clothes, changing so I'd be ready for when I go to Alice's to help her out with the wedding. I didn't know what would happen between Edward and I. I wasn't even sure whether or not I'd be coming back tonight. But Alice is still my friend. It's her day today. So I'm letting her have it.
In frustration I ripped off Edward's shirt, pulling up a clean pare of panties and a bra. Before I could put my shirt on Edward's arms went around my stomach, pulling me to him. I tried to struggle against him, but he wouldn't budge. I just let myself rest against his frame, the tears that hadn't shed, shed.
Edward must of heard me whimper, because he pulled me around to face him, I brought my hand up quickly and whipped away the tears, "You don't have to stay with me, I'm not going to force you to." I said forward and clearly, not daring to look him in the eyes.
His fingers came and cupped my chin, forcing me to look at him, his face showing anger and frustration, "Bella, why the hell would I do that?! Did I say something or mislead you to think that after I basically begged you to have my kids that I would leave you?"
The tears started up again, it was true. He never gave me any reason to me to think so lowly of Edward. He wanted me to get pregnant, I must admit I kinda wanted to get pregnant also, and he already went into a baby store and I had to basically physically stop him from buying a nursery! So why do I keep thinking so lowly of him? Of me? I didn't even know the answer to that...
"Y-you didn't..." I whispered.
"Then why? Why did you think I would leave you?"
"I-I don't know...I just don't think I'm worth it, ok." I said, fighting back as much of the tears as possible.
Both of Edward's hands cupped my cheeks, he crushed his lips onto mine and kissed me passionately. I could taste the salt of my tears in my mouth along with Edward's saliva. I closed my eyes and threw my arms around his torso, pulling him impossibly closer. Edward pulled away first, our lips were the only thing that lost contact, his forehead resting on mine.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, I-" Edward cut me off, pecking me.
"Bella, you are worth it." He whispered, kissing me, "You are worth it, and this baby..." He put his hand on my stomach, love filled his eyes, "You're making me the happiest man in the world. I would never leave; I don't think I'd be able to leave even if you wanted me to."
I smiled weakly, "I'd never want you to..."
Edward smiled, and pecked me again, "We're going to have a baby."
"Please don't get too excited, I don't know yet and I don't want you to get your hopes up." I said.
He shook his head, "You are, you're late, you're getting cravings, AND it's my sperm. So there's no doubt you are." He said cockily.
I laughed, remembering when he first said that day's ago. I know that most of the signs are pointing to me being pregnant, but I still have a bad feeling about this. I just joked, saying the same thing I said last time, "Thinking a bit highly of yourself today aren't you?"
This time he laughed, pecking my nose, making me giggle, "Hm, I only speak the truth." He said smugly.
It was then that I noticed that not only was I only in my blue laced bra and panties, but Edward wasn't wearing ANYTHING at all. Oh, and I could feel just how happy he was too. A bit too happy for my liking. I pecked him on the lips one more time, breaking away from his grasp. I whipped away the dried tears from my cheek and grabbed the shirt that I didn't get to put on because of Edward's interference. I was about to grab the pants before Edward wrapped his bare arms around me once again, his hips pressed up against mine, he obviously hadn't gotten rid of his problem.
"Edward...The wedding." I muttered as Edward started to ravish my neck.
And like fate, Edward's cell went off in the living room, the ring tone always annoyed me, but this time it's a god send. Edward groaned into my neck, unwrapping his arms around my waist and storming off to the lounge room. I followed him in amusement, watching him walk butt naked down the hallway is most probably the most cutest thing I've ever seen in my life.
Edward grabbed the cell out of his sweat pants pocket and answered bitterly, "Hello...I'm at home...I was worried...I'll be there soon...Yeah, sure...Ok...Look, I'm going to get there ok, stop panicking!...yeah, bye." He hung up and sighed, I couldn't help but giggle at my completely frustrated boyfriend. His head shot in my direction and scold.
"I have to go..." He muttered, grabbing his pants and shirt and throwing them on. He somehow managed to wrap his arms around me and kiss me without before I realized he was gone from his previous space at the couch. I pushed him away by the chest, moving him so I could get free. I shook my head, kissing his cheek sweetly.
"Good bye love." I said, winking.
Edward laughed before his face turning completely serious, "Please be safe." His face started to turn in pain and sadness.
I smiled, bringing his head down to mine and pecked his forehead, "I will."
His hand came down to my stomach and lightly rubbed circles into my abdomen, "For you and the baby." He whispered. I creased his cheek, "You have to go so I can get changed before Alice comes over and kidnaps me."
He laughed, kissing me one more time, "Bye love."
"Temporary goodbye." I said, before watching Edward walk out the door.
I walked back to my bedroom, grabbing out my pair of jeans. I couldn't be more happier. I had finally told Edward about the late period and he worshiped me for it. Everything in life was good. I pulled up my jeans and headed out the door to Alice's, before I could open the door Alice opened it, her face showing her pissed off mood.
"I told you twenty minutes Bella. Not thirty." Alice snapped.
"Sorry." I muttered.
"Whatever, now hurry up! It's seven twenty-seven and I haven't even gotten your hair done!"
I didn't really know how to reply, so I just nodded. This is going to be a very painful five and a half hours…I just hope I have enough time to get Alice's present before the shop closes…