Chapter 21 : Bella Tastes Edward
I sat in Alice's room now. Edward was off hunting with his brothers. It was time for another girl chat with Alice. Alice was...well, Alice, I noted amused. She was very fidgety as she sat across from me. I blushed slightly. I don't know why I was hesitating. It wasn't that I was unused to the terms – Alice had been wonderfully helpful to me in that regard. I think it was more of how she would answer that was causing me to linger across from her. Sometimes not knowing a yes or a no was more comforting. I sighed. Alice fidgeted more, and seemed to be bouncing up and down with excitement. I looked at her beautiful face now, as a small smile creased my lips.
"Alice..." I began shyly. "Edward and I have been practicing being more intimate..." I said almost unnecessarily. Alice would know already I'm sure of it. But still, it was leading up to the question I want to ask, and I figured a little more delay in knowing might make me a bit more comfortable about the awkward question I was going to ask Edward's sister.
A grin spread across Alice's face as I spoke. I could tell that she was dying to ask me all about it, but she had the grace to not pester me about it. I would tell her eventually in my own time she figured.
"It's going very well I think. Edward thinks so too." I said as my eyes beamed now. Alice nodded as I mentioned Edward. I assumed that meant that she was in agreement that Edward thought they were going well also. I wondered if Edward had talked to her about it? Huh...he might have. It didn't matter anyways, so I shrugged the question out of my mind.
"Alice, I need your advice." I stated simply.
"Of course Bella. I'm always here for you. You know that..." she said softly. Her voice was so wondrous. It almost dazzled me, as Edward sometimes did with his eyes. I blinked before speaking once more.
"Edward makes me feel so good Alice. You know I want to make him feel good too..." I said, blushing slightly.
To my surprise Alice made the "I can't hear you" gesture again like she did a few weeks ago. Without missing a beat I replied to her unvoiced command. "I want to suck his cock Alice...". My face reddened now. I hadn't really expected to say that out loud. It was just a reaction to the gesture, I realized. Oh God, I hope Alice didn't accidentally use that gesture at our lunch table, I thought to myself. I pushed that thought out of my mind immediately.
Alice's radiant smile seemed to burst through the room as I spoke. She nodded for me to continue, and waited patiently for me to do so.
"So, I know you can see the future...like if someone decides something, and all that..." I began. Her eyes were shining at me now. I could see the love for me on her face.
"So, I've already decided that since Edward seems to be in control, and he's made me feel so wonderful...that...I want to reciprocate with him...tonight." I finished. "So do you see any problems with Edward's control if I..." I began. My eyes became glossy now as the image of what I was about to speak entered my mind. My heart started to race. "if I suck Edward's cock tonight?" I finished in a whisper.
Alice took my hand in hers. I loved the icy cool smoothness of her skin against mine. Her eyes went dark and blank then. Several seconds later they returned to their lovely amber colour.
"Everything will be fine Bella..." she said softly, and pulled me close to her. I felt her cool embrace, and her soft black hair brush against my cheek. "I'm so happy for you two..." she whispered into my ear. Just the sound of her voice gave me goosebumps.
"So Edward will be able to maintain his control..." I reiterated to myself. The idea sent a shiver through my spine.
"He'll be fine Bella. He's been practicing his control too - more than you know!" she said with a laugh and a wink.
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That night I lay in bed anxiously awaiting Edward's arrival. I was in my pyjamas of course, as I always was. Underneath the flanel fabric was the light pink bra and panty set I'd bought with Alice. IT was the plain jane pair. I didn't want to make things too awkward for Edward. I wasn't even sure he would go along with it, but then Alice's vision... Of course he would go along with it, Alice had seen that he would and everything would be alright. I sighed contentedly. Having had advanced warning that my untried oral skills would be enough did wonders for my shaky confidence.
I didn't have to wait long for Edward to arrive in my room. He slipped through the window easily, and
smiled as soon as he saw me. I smiled back. Now everything felt complete in my world – I was with Edward once more. I got out of bed, and walked over to him never once taking my gaze off of him. When I reached him, I put my arms around him, and kissed his cheek softly.
"I missed you..." I said softly.
"I missed you too Bella." Edward sighed back.
Ahh the wondrous joys of being so deeply in love I thought to myself as I gazed into my Angel's eyes. They were deliciously amber tonight, and coupled with Edward's breathtaking beauty – together they took my breath away.
"Edward..." I whispered.
"Yes Bella?" he replied easily.
"I'm so eternally in love with you..." I said sweetly. I meant every word of it. I knew now that the love I had forever would be ever lasting. Edward stiffened slightly, but relaxed immediately. I was used to it. My "eternally" comment reminded him of my desire to be a vampire and be with him forever. He was opposed to it, but I was working on him. It was a moot point though – I knew now after my experience with James that one night, that Alice had already seen me as a vampire. It would happen. It was more a question of how, and when to my mind. Not tonight apparently, I smiled to myself, so I pushed the thought out of my head. Edward replied to my loving profession with one of his own.
"Forever is not enough time to truly love you as you deserve." he replied. My heart jumped. I loved when Edward spoke like this. It was so different. It was so sweet. It was so Edward, I realized. I took his hand in mine, and brought it to my face. I pressed my pale cheek against his icy coldness, and felt a shiver run through my body. Edward cocked his head to the side slowly. He smiled at me softly, seeming to understand something. Lately, although I loved the way Edward and I practiced with each other – in an effort to strengthen Edward's control – I began to yearn for the way we used to be.
Not that I didn't love the way our relationship had evolved – it was heavenly. But with all our practice sessions occupying our time, I began to miss the soft sweetness we used to share with each other. Edward took my hand from his cheek, and pressed it to his lips.
"Bella...you are my reason for being. Without you I am like a ship without a sea." he explained in typical Edward fashion. I sighed. He really did have a different way of saying things. It was one of the many things that endeared him to me.
I wanted tonight to be special. I wanted Edward to know just how much I loved him. I didn't want it to be about me, like all the previous nights of our practice sessions. Tonight would be my turn to make edward feel good. But first, I just wanted to revel in the undying love we had for each other. I tried to make a clever comparison to my life without Edward. Dog without a bone? I grimaced inwardly at that. The last thing I needed was to use the word bone around Edward. Think Bella...!
"Without you, I am like a flower without the sun" I finished. Edward smiled then.
"You are a delicate like a flower, aren't you...?" he said brushing his hands over my forehead. I closed my eyes and lost myself in his touch. "But no flower ever smelled as sweet..." he said as his lips brushed over mine. Oh God Edward...I love you so much. Everything he said was like the sweetest music to my ears. My dark chocolate eyes met his radiant gold ones then, and time seemed to lose all meaning.
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I guided Edward to the bed, and gently pushed him back down. Edward's sharp eyes gazed at me questioningly. My pulse and breathing were betraying me, I groaned. I knew how our practice sessions started out, and ended...but this one would be different. The anticipation was making me anxious, and my vital indicators would reflect that. I forced myself to calm down. Breathe slowly Bella, I reprimanded myself. To a degree, it worked. Edward still knew something was different though. Darn those vampire senses. They were so difficult to fool...
I climbed into the bed, and got to my familiar place beside Edward. I put my arm around him, and within seconds his lips met mine. We began kissing softly, and then gradually the passion between our lips intensified. I could feel Edward's tongue in my mouth now, playfully dancing with my own. His scent was overwhelming me, and the sensation of his tongue sent tremors through my body. I could feel a smouldering heat deep inside me. The fire grew with each passing kiss. My breath started to come in gasps. My desire was increasing now. Edward recognized these signs immediately. I felt his hand move to my pyjama top, and felt his fingers lightly brush against the cloth covering my breasts. My hand reached for his, and I pulled it away gently. Edward looked at me questioningly, wondering what he had done wrong. I smiled at him.
I got up slightly, and shifted my body. My leg was over his waist in a flash, and within seconds I was straddling Edward's waist. Edward's eyes narrowed, but did not lose their radiant gold. My hands trembled, and my pulse started to race as I reached for one of the buttons on Edward's shirt. My small fingers found it, and I was unbuttoning it when I felt Edward's hand around my wrist, gently locking my hand in place.
"Bella..." he began, his tone slightly stern. He obviously knew what I was attempting, and did not approve. I didn't let that dissuade me
"Edward....do you trust me?" I asked him meekly.
"It's not you I distrust. It is myself!" he replied forcefully.
I looked at my wrist now, bound in his icy embrace. He released my hand then, and stared at me. His face softened.
"I trust you Bella. But tell me please...what are your intentions?" he asked warily.
I knew I had to reassure Edward. The fear of the unknown was truly frightening to him. His control and my safety were of upmost importance to him. To be caught off guard, or unaware...like the night not so long ago...was a maddening thought to Edward.
"I want to make you feel good..." I explained, and then bit my lip nervously. My face blushed redder now. Edward's breath was coming faster too. Did he know what I meant? Did he piece together my surprise so easily? Or was he just excited at the possibilities? I didn't know.
"How?" he eyed me cautiously. He wasn't outright rejecting me, I noted surprised. He was merely curious as to what I wanted to do.
"I want my hands on you Edward. I want my mouth on you. I want to touch you the way you touch me..." I explained meekly, and then looked at the floor.
I heard Edward's sharp hiss of breath, and then the air rushing quickly as he was out of the bed in a flash. "Absolutely not Bella!"
I looked at the empty bed beside me, and then to Edward standing on the other side of the room. My shoulders slumped, defeated. My lip was trembling now. I'd bungled everything. Alice's vision was wrong. Something must have changed. And I wanted to. I really wanted to make Edward feel good. I was embarassed now, and his rejection stung. A tear fell down my cheek followed by another. I let out a light sob.
"Bella..." Edward said, his voicer soft. "It's not you. It's me. It's too dangerous. It's not that I don't want you..." he reasoned. I wasn't buying it. My confidence staggered, I got off the bed, and let a breath of air escape my lips.
"Sure, sure..." I said, mimicing Jacob, as another sob escaped my lips.
Edward was beside me in an instant. I could see the regret in his eyes now. Regret that his response had hurt me. "I'm sorry Bella. I didn't mean it. It's just too dangerous." he tried to explain.
"It wasn't supposed to be like this. Alice had seen it. Everything was going to be fine. She said you'd been practicing your control..." I snuffled. I felt Edward's body tense instantly. I didn't know why. I looked at him, confused to his reaction. Edward turned away from me awkwardly. What had I said? He let out a slow breath, and studied me astutely.
"Alice said everything would be fine?" he asked me directly.
"Yes." I replied.
"And you told her what you were planning to do, exactly?" he continued to question me.
"Yes." I answered again.
Edward sighed. He began unbuttoning his shirt as I watched dumbfounded. He looked at my incredulous expression now. "I'm sorry. If you would rather not, I understand. I've behaved hideously just now. I'm sorry Bella..." he said, and began buttoning his shirt back up. He never finished one button before my hands were on his chest pushing him back down onto the bed. I smiled at him now.
"You really mean it Edward?" I asked him with a goofy grin on my face.
"I have been working on my control Bella." Edward said awkwardly, and turned his face away from my questioning eyes. "I think it would be okay. I'm stronger, and more resistant to the hunger now." he explained. "But" he cautioned "you must stop if I tell you too. Please Bella, promise me."
"I promise Edward..." I whispered, hardly able to breathe. Edward nodded.
I moved my hands to the other buttons on his shirt. They were trembling now. I worked each button free, and watched the material fall away from Edward's chest. I gasped at the perfectly smooth muscles I found there. Edward was perfection personified. I ran a finger down his rock hard chest. I could feel Edward shiver under my gentle touch now. I filled me with a sense of power now – knowing I could make Edward quiver the way he made me. My hands trailed over Edward's granite smooth skin, and I revelled in every crease and bump I felt on his muscular chest. My breath was coming fast now as my fingers explored Edward. I moved to his face, and kissed my way from his lips, and down his neck. His eyes closed, and I felt him tense slightly as he felt my warm lips across his glorious pectoral muscles. Edward's body shuddered as I planted trails of kisses over him now. His breath was coming gasps, and I marvelled at the way he reacted to my touch.
I let my tongue poke out from between my lips. Edward's eyes were wide as he watched it inch closer and closer to his smooth stone flesh. It was very cold, but I was loving the feel of my warm wet tongue on his hard icy skin. Edward trembled again. "Oh Bella..." I heard him whisper.
My chest was pounding now. My pulse was thundering through my body as my desire for Edward only increased as I explored more and more of his chest with my lips and tongue. Edward sighed under another caress, and I began kissing my way down his stomach now. His eyelids fluttered as I continued to touch and lick and kiss his chest.
I could feel a dampening between my legs. I wanted Edward so badly now. I wanted to make love to him. I wanted to feel him inside me. I shook the fleeting thought of making love to Edward from my mind. I hadn't talked about that with Alice. I had to behave, and follow my original plan tonight. Besides, tonight was all about making Edward feel good.
Several minutes passed. I worked my way around Edward's chest, and then decided to go for it. My trembling hands reached for the button of his jeans. I felt Edward's whole body tense as he felt my hands undo the button. He looked at me wide eyed.
"It's okay Edward. It's fine. Alice said so..." I said reassuringly. Edward looked completely dumbfounded. Was he more surprised my actions, or the fact I'd discussed this with Alice? I didn't know. It didn't matter. I felt his body relax slightly.
My fingers worked the zipper of his jeans down now. I could tell Edward was hard already. I pulled the jeans down slightly. Edward shifted his body, aiding in the removal of that article of clothing. My face went red now. I was staring at Edward now, naked except for a pair of underwear. I was immediately aware that he was hard. I could see the outline of his cock straining against the fabric. Edward looked down, slightly embarassed. I couldn't breathe as I stared at Edward. I heard his musical voice prodding me.
"Bella...breathe..." he said. I nodded, and took a breath.
My hands were shaking. I found it difficult to focus. My vision was completely centered between Edward's legs. I could see Edward's cock twitch slightly under the tight fabric, and my whole body seemed to melt with desire. A shuddering sigh escaped my lips as I watched Edward's tightly covered cock move before my eyes.
My hand reached out. I had to touch it. Oh God. Was this a dream? Edward's eyes were wide now, watching my trembling fingers make my way towards him slowly. They had a look of pleading in them, as if he wanted to feel me on him so badly. Seconds later, I obliged the unspoken words. My fingers ran up and down Edward's underwear lightly, over the bulge. Edward moaned lightly, and I gasped. My mind was running wild now. It was so big! My hand was touching Edward's cock! Well through the underwear, I reminded myself. I would rectify that error soon enough.
I moved betwen Edward's legs now. His cock seemed to grow in size, as my face was only inches from his underwear now. I moved closer, and began to caress his member through the fabric. Edward's face scrunched up in pleasure as I did so. I looked into Edward's eyes now, as my lips moved ever closer to the fabric barely concealing him from me. Without breaking my gaze, I planted soft kisses along the cloth now, kissing up and down his hard shaft. Edward's hands balled into fists, and I saw his jaw clench. I was amazed at how his body was reacting to my inexperienced touches.
My hand reached the waistband of his underwear, and slowly pulled them down. My eyes glazed over with lust and wanting as Edward's cock came into view to my virgin eyes. My body was shaking now. I looked at his cock...at it's girth, and length, and my whole body seemed to be a raging inferno of lust. All my dreams and desires did not do Edward justice. It was just....perfect. Smooth and hard as a statue he stood erect for me. I had to feel it. My hand reached out, and I felt my soft delicate fingers wrap around Edward's thick shaft. Edward growled now softly. I looked at him alarmed, but he nodded his head.
"I'm fine Bella..." he reassured me.
"Edward...you are so beautiful..." I whispered, as a tear fell from my eye. I knew it was silly to cry, but I was so happy. Edward loved me. Edward was hard for me. Edward was trying so hard to make a physical relationship between us work – because he knew it was what I wanted.
"I love you Edward..." I said, as my hand gripped his shaft tighter.
"I love you Bella. You are my everything..." he replied, as his eyes closed.
My previous "homework" practice came back to me. I hovered over Edward's cock now, and let my tongue touch it. We both shivered as soon as my tongue made contact with Edward's quivering cock. My breath was gasping now as I felt the icy cold shaft with my warm and wet tongue. I moved my mouth to him now, kissing the shaft up and down, and trailing over the head. Edward gasped as my lips worked their way around his hardness. I could feel his hands in my hair now.
I hovered over the head now, my mouth open. I looked into Edward's eyes. Edward looked at me pleading – his eyes begging me. His mouth opened. His musical voice broke the silence.
"Tell me..." he whispered. I raised my eyebrow at him. Did he want me to tell him I loved him? What did he want. He glanced at his cock, and back to my eyes.
"Tell me..." he repeated in a whisper soft voice. My face went crimson then. The blush on my cheeks just made the desire in Edward's eyes intensify.
"I want...your cock...in my mouth Edward..." I whispered, as my heartbeat skyrocketed.
Edward's head slammed back against the pillow now, and his body seemed to thrash as he processed what I had spoken aloud.
"Yes....Bella....please...." he whispered.
I moved my mouth over his cock, and engulfed the head. I felt Edward's body tremble now as my warmth spread over his head. I guided his cock deeper into my mouth. One inch, two inches, three...I slowly made my way down. I wasn't sure I could fit any more in. He was so thick! Edward didn't seem to care. His eyes were clenched shut, and I could see his hands opening and closing now. He was trying to control his desire. I was okay...Alice had said it would be alright. And Edward would tell me to stop if I had to. I applied the gentlest pressure with my mouth. My cheeks hollowed as I sucked Edward lightly. He gasped as he felt the pressure around his cock. I moved my head up and down slowly.
"Bella...Oh God...that feels...." Edward began, but couldn't continue. He growled again, and I saw his hand move to his mouth. Was he biting his hand? I couldn't be sure. I kept up my oral assault on his cock. Since I could only get about 3 inches into my mouth, I continued to suck on him, while my other hand worked up and down on his shaft. Edward's body convulsed, and squirmed. He was still growling, but instead of being afraid I was aroused.
My head was bobbing up and down now, faster as I stared at Edward. His eyes were glued to my face, watching as I took his member into my mouth, and sucked it lightly with each downward movement of my moist mouth.
"Edward...I love...to suck your cock..." I whispered, my body quivering as I voiced my sexy confession aloud.
Edward's back arched slightly at that. His body was moving in random directions as with each bob of my head, his desire and pleasure increased.
His cock was covered in my saliva now. I placed both hands on his cock, and worked them up and down. Edward was lightly thrusting his pelvis now. As I moved my hands down, he would lightly thrust his cock upward. Edward's face was becoming contorted now.
"Bella...I'm...close..." he whispered frantically. I could see the desire in his eyes yearning for release. Oh God Edward...yes! Cum for me. Please Edward, just let me make you cum, I thought. I was pumping my hand quickly up and down his cock now as fast as I could.
"Bella..." I heard Edward moan. I needed no more warning. I took his cock in my mouth as deep as I could, and sucked on it hard. I felt my lips and mouth wrap around his cock, refusing to let go, as I moved up and down applying as much pressure as I could. Edward shuddered, and looked at me...his eyes shining now.
"I want you to cum for me Edward..." I whispered, and then took him back in my mouth. I didn't have to wait long. Seconds later, Edward's body froze for a second, and then began to involuntarily spasm. I felt his cock twitching in my mouth, and could feel Edward pumping his semen into me. I didn't know what to expect, so I just kept my mouth on him, as his seed continued to pump out into my waiting mouth. There was so much! He filled my mouth, and there was some leaking out of my mouth. I thought I would be sick or gag, but like everything else about Edward, it only made me want him more. It wasn't so bad, actually, I thought to myself amused. I could feel gobs of Edward's spent seed trailing out of my mouth and down his shaft. Edward was still shuddering uncontrollably. Gradually, the tremors in his body slowed, and he lay there completely drained. I released his cock from my mouth, and wiped away his excess sperm from my lips. I looked at him now, with a huge smile on my face. I'd reciprocated! I'd made Edward cum! I was over the moon. So was Edward, apparently.
I moved to him, and caressed his cheek. He looked at me speechless. He was completely overwhelmed by what had happened. Finally, he spoke.
"Bella...that was..." he trailed off. "That was the most amazing thing I've experienced!" he exclaimed.
"Nope." I said, a devilish glint in my eyes. "That was the most amazing thing you've experienced so far... " I corrected him. I smiled mischeviously before continuing. "Just you wait til tomorrow Edward Cullen...."