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Title : Set Fire To The Rain
Genre : Drama, Romance.
Disclaimer : I don't own the characters unfortunately. They are the property of HBO and Charlaine Harris ! I only own my OC, Alyssa Bennett.
Beta Reader : Artemis Wolfe
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Chapter 20 :
Rage was boiling inside of me. I was furious, I was sad and that was only because of Eric Northman, that stupid and arrogant vampire, the one who was standing right here. I looked at him as if I wanted to kill him and honestly I was surprised that my fire wasn't already appearing. Usually when I was that angry, I was burning and I could destroy many things. Then right now, it wasn't happening.
In fact, I wasn't even feeling myself getting warmer. It was like it wasn't working, it was like I didn't have any power and that angered me. I needed it and I needed it right now. Of course, I didn't want to kill Eric like I killed that awful vampire a few weeks ago. I just wanted to hurt him as much as he had hurt me and was still hurting me.
That was childish but he was a powerful vampire and I just had to show him that I wasn't a fragile human he could tease and play with. He needed to understand that he had no right to mess with me and my feelings. Because that was exactly what he was doing. I just wanted to show him that I could defend myself against him.
Then why wasn't it working ? Why wasn't my fire coming ? It was so frustrating and I didn't understand why it was like that. Perhaps it was because deep inside of me I didn't want to hurt him, just like when we were at The Fellowship. That was possible but right now I knew I wanted to hurt Eric.
" Everyone is alright and they've made sure that the hotel is safe. " Eric said and I knew he was talking to Godric since he was the sheriff.
Then his eyes went between Godric and I. Was there a problem ? Why was he looking at us as if he wanted to rip my heart out ? I hadn't done anything wrong and if he continued, I knew I would lose control of myself; My fire wasn't working, okay. I would find another way to show him my anger.
" Am I interrupting something ? " Eric asked bitterly I think. Honestly, what was wrong with him ? Godric was my friend and I had every right to be with him, we were only sitting on the couch, very close to each others… That was all.
If he wanted to be alone with his maker then he should let me stay in my own room. Stupid vampire…
" Of course not, Eric. " Godric answered calmly and I guess he didn't notice the way Eric talked to him. How could he be so calm ? Well he had spent a thousand years with him after all, he knew how to deal with Eric's attitude.
Eric's eyes were still fixed on me and a smirk appeared on his face. He shouldn't do this, he shouldn't try to tease me, he shouldn't try to test my patience.
" Are you angry my dear Aly ? " He asked and chuckled.
And that was too much for me. He had no right. I stood up and walked towards him, my fists clenched. That only made him laugh even more. He wasn't going to laugh anymore. I stood now in front of him and I slapped him with all my strength. It hurt, my hand was going to be sore for a few days but then it felt so great at the same time.
I hoped he could feel how hurt I was because of him and I hoped he could feel all my anger thanks to this slap. He deserved it, no one could blame me for my gesture. I would even say that Sookie would be proud and happy. And now I also knew how she felt when she slapped Eric in Fangtasia. I felt so much better now.
And I could tell that Godric and Eric were surprised by my gesture, and seconds after my slap, Eric's fangs were extended and he just looked murderous. Okay, maybe I shouldn't have slapped him because Eric could hurt me but I lost control of myself.
" You shouldn't have done that. " Eric growled and suddenly I felt a jolt of pain in the back of my head. Eric had his hand around my throat and I was pinned against the wall. I was having difficult to breath and I was pretty sure that Eric was going to bite me. My heart skipped a beat and now I was scared, terrified. I didn't want to be bitten again, especially by Eric and something told me that he wasn't going to be gentle. I couldn't regret slapping him because he deserved it but I had never ever wanted this.
I closed my eyes, waiting for the bite. It was going to hurt, I knew it.
" Eric. " Godric growled and I opened my eyes to see that Eric wasn't moving. He was struggling against his own desire to bite me, just because Godric had said his name.
I think I should thank Godric for saving me, again, however I knew he was going to reproach me my attitude with his child. I could already hear him saying that I was crazy, that I should have done this, that Eric cared about me. Perhaps he was right but I wasn't like him, I couldn't control myself like he could. I was human and sometimes I was a little bit too impulsive.
" Release her, Eric. "
" She pushed me too far Godric. " Eric answered as his grip on my throat tightened. I moaned in pain and if he continued, I would soon be dead because of the lack of breath. What an amazing way to die, especially after surviving a vampire, a monster and a bomb.
" Eric, release her now. I know you don't want to hurt her."
That was the biggest joke I had ever heard. Of course, Eric wanted to hurt me but since Godric couldn't see Eric's face, he couldn't know. I think that Eric wanted to kill me right now but following Godric's order, he let go of my throat and stepped away from me.
I coughed and held my sore throat. I would have bruises tomorrow and everyone was going to ask questions. So great !
" Alyssa, I think you should apologize to Eric. "
" Are you kidding me Godric ? Why should I apologize ? Okay maybe slapping Eric wasn't the best thing to do but he deserved it and you and I both know it. Eric should be the one apologizing ! " I screamed and that hurt because my throat was sore.
I would never apologize for what I had done. And Godric couldn't force me to do something like that, no one could force me. I cared a lot about Godric but I wasn't going to let him tell me what to do. I wasn't an object and no one could order me around, and especially not Godric. He was my friend, maybe more than my friend but it didn't matter.
" Alyssa, don't be so childish. You shouldn't have slapped him, Eric was just trying to make you relaxed. Just apologize."
He was treating me like a child and I hated that. Of course, he was siding with his stupid progeny. I could understand him because he loved Eric, but I had the right to be angry. And I wasn't going to apologize.
Eric was an asshole.
" I won't and you know that Eric should be the one apologizing. He tricked Sookie into drinking his blood ! " I should have never said that but it was done.
" So you're jealous of Sookie, Alyssa that's so sweet. " Eric said, teasing me.
Yes, I was jealous but I wasn't only jealous. And I didn't like the fact that Eric was making fun of me like that.
" I'm angry because you weren't here when I needed you, because you preferred saving Sookie instead of me, your human. You told me I was yours, that you would protect me, that I shouldn't fear for my life but what did you do for me tonight ? Nothing, I could have died but you just didn't care because you had tricked Sookie into drinking your fucking blood. If you're so obsessed with her then I don't care but just let me alone and don't pretend that you care about me because you don't. "
I was panting but it felt good to finally let it go. I wasn't used to be so angry and to scream but now I knew this was right. And I needed this.
" Alyssa, that's enough. " Godric said but I just didn't care. It wasn't fair towards him but he would understand.
" That's not enough Godric . I'm right and we both know it. If you hadn't saved me, if you hadn't protected me I would be dead because Eric just doesn't care about me. He didn't want to protect me. Your progeny is just a selfish jerk, perhaps he wanted me dead. "
Eric and Godric were ready to say something but I didn't want to listen, so I ran towards the bathroom and slammed the door as hard as I could. I made sure to lock the door too and then I fell to the ground. I knew I couldn't leave the room because it was too dangerous for me so the bathroom was the only way to be alone. I faintly heard Godric telling Eric to give me a break and at least, he understood and I just hoped that Godric wasn't going to be too angry.
However for now, I just wanted to forget about everything and everyone. And I wanted to cry alone, when no one could see me and even if these two vampires could hear me.
I had fallen asleep in the bathroom and only woke up a few hours later. Since it was daylight, Eric and Godric were probably asleep and it was better like that. I looked at myself in the mirror and I just looked like a mess. My eyes were still a little bit red from crying but strangely, I didn't have many bruises on my throat, which was great. We could see that someone had hurt me but it was okay I guess.
And then I thought about what had happened… I was feeling guilty for screaming at Godric because of Eric. Godric didn't deserve this and I would apologize to him later but I would apologize to Eric. Honestly, the more I thought about it, the more I knew I was right. And I decided that I was going to avoid him for tonight and for as long as I could.
Perhaps that was very childish but I didn't care.
Anyway, I just needed to stop thinking about my vampire's problems. I just wanted to relax and get out of the bathroom. Then what could I do ? I didn't want to stay in this hotel room watching Godric and Eric sleeping, and I didn't want to go out because it could only lead to trouble. So I think I only had one solution and this solution was Sookie Stackhouse… I could spend the day with her. Yes, I could and I was going to do this.
I silently got out of the bathroom and noticed that my two vampires were very much asleep. Good, they weren't going to notice my absence. And now, I was in front of Sookie's hotel room door and knocked. What if Sookie wasn't awake ? Then I would spend the entire day alone and bored, well not the entire day since it was already the afternoon.
" Alyssa ! " Sookie said and opened the door.
" Hi Sookie; I was thinking that maybe we could stay together for the rest of the afternoon. I'm a little bored. "
She smiled brightly at me and took my hand. " Of course, we can. Jason is with me, I'm sure you don't mind. "
I shook my head. I didn't really know Jason, of course I had met him in Bon Temps but I had never spent time with him but I'm sure he was great.
And so that's how I spent the rest of the afternoon. We ate and we talked a lot. Sookie kept complaining about Eric but for once I was on her side, even if I didn't tell her what happened between Eric and I or that I was jealous and hurt. She definitely didn't need to know this because she would be just so annoying.
We also talked about Godric and Sookie liked him, well who disliked Godric ? She was surprised because he was so nice towards human and so strong even if he looked like a teenager. Yes, he was very different from Eric or Bill.
Before I knew it, it was already nighttime and I decided to go back to Eric's room. I was a little bit anxious to be honest. I just didn't want to face him, then it wasn't like I had the choice. I could just hope that it would be alright. I took a deep breath and finally came in.
Godric and Eric were awake, talking and sitting on the couch. And when I came in, they both looked at me. Okay, I was pretty sure that one of them was going to yell at me because I hadn't stayed in the room.
" We have a meeting with Nan Flanagan in twenty minutes, be sure you are ready. " Eric coldly said and left the room.
Okay, I wasn't expecting that but I wasn't going to complain. Since Eric was gone, I could talk to Godric alone.
" I'm sorry for my little outburst last night. I've never wanted to talk to you that way . I was just very angry at Eric and I'm still angry but I shouldn't have. You've done nothing wrong, you were just trying to help so I'm really sorry Godric. "
My fingers were crossed behind my back. I hoped he was going to forgive me because I didn't want him to be angry at me.
I loved him to much, in a friendly way of course… Or at least I was trying to convince myself.
" I understand but you should apologize to Eric, not me. "
I sighed, I wasn't going to do this but I wasn't going to get angry. Godric was just trying to be nice and he wanted Eric and I to get along. We could get along because that it was evident that I liked him but I just couldn't forget.
" No, I'm sorry but I can't. I know you're probably disappointed but it's just impossible. I'm sorry."
Godric shook his head but said nothing.
" I'll make myself ready for the meeting. " I said, grabbed some clothes and went straight to the bathroom. That was going to be a lovely night.
Ten minutes later, I was ready and followed Godric, who immediately sat down once he got in the room. Nan Flanagan was already here, just like Isabel, Eric, Sookie and Bill. I scanned the room, searching for a place to sit. Two options, the first one would make me sit next to Eric, and the second one would make me sit between Isabel and Godric. I guess the choice was easy. I sat down between Isabel and Godric but I could feel Eric's stare on me.
And then Nan started…
What a bitch ! I thought I would like her because she was so good at fighting for vampire's rights but she was just a good actress. Right now, I hated her but I knew I should keep my mouth shut and that I should control myself. I could really fuck up everything if I got too angry. It wasn't the same anger as last night and this time, deep inside of me I knew that my stupid fire would come back and that was something I needed to avoid. Godric didn't need me to cause him more troubles.
My eyes opened wide when Godric said that he offered himself to the Fellowship. That was crazy, Godric was going insane. I immediately looked at Eric and I guess I wasn't the only one surprised. Our eyes met and it was like I had forgotten all my anger towards him.
There was something wrong with Godric and we needed to work together.
" They wanted you to meet the sun and you were willing? " Nan asked and everyone was waiting for an answer.
" What do you think ? "
It was like my whole world was falling apart. That was impossible, Godric just couldn't want this. He just couldn't be suicidal. He was a vampire, he was immortal and he was my friend. He had no right to want this.
And now, I wasn't listening to anything. I could hear them talking but it wasn't important. The only thing I could think about was Godric and his desire to die. I still couldn't believe it, it was ridiculous…
I only came back to earth when Nan Flanagan left the room and everyone stood up. I was a robot, so I stood up too, not even listening to what was happening. I saw Godric and Eric talking but heir voices seemed just so far away. I just heard one thing, Godric said something about the roof. Why the roof ? It was soon going to be dawn, they couldn't walk in sunlight.
And then it hit me. Godric wanted to meet the sun, that was why he wanted to be on the roof. No, I couldn't let him do this And I wasn't the only one. Eric was just like me but he was stopped by Bill, who punched him in the face because of what Eric had done… We had better things to do than arguing about Sookie.
I hated Bill.
I slowly started to walk and Eric was next to me. " We have to stop him. I can't let my maker die and I'm sure that you understand."
I nodded and unconsciously took Eric's hand in mine. Yesterday I was screaming at him, I had even slapped him, and now, I was holding his hand and I was realizing that this was a whole new Eric I was with.
When we arrived on the roof, I let go of Eric's hand and I stood here, watching them talking… Eric was trying to convince Godric to stay alive.. He was trying so hard but Godric wasn't listening, he was so determined to die.
Sookie was now with us and I felt her hand on my shoulder, she was trying to comfort me. I was crying so hard…
This was just too painful.
" I won't let you die alone. " Eric said and my heart constricted. No, I couldn't lose him too. I couldn't lose Eric and Godric at the same time. I wouldn't allow that.
" Yes, you will. As your Maker I command you. "
Eric had no choice… And he left us alone with Godric but he looked at me one last time and I knew he was asking me to save Godric. I would try but if Eric hadn't been able to convince him, why would he listen to me ?
I walked towards Godric, and he looked at me. " You will be safe with Eric, he will protect you and I'm sure you'll take care of him. You are a very special girl, Alyssa and I'm glad we became friends. "
« No, don't do this Godric ! What am I going to do without you ? How can you do this to me, to Eric ? You have no right to meet the sun !»
I was trembling, I was crying. He just couldn't die, I couldn't live without him.
" Alyssa. " He started and wiped my tears away. " You have to let me go, this is my choice. "
" No, I can't accept this. I can't let you kill yourself. "
It was pointless, Godric was stubborn as a mule and he was so determined to die… But I was determined to make him stay alive and if I failed at keeping him with us, I just didn't know what I was going to do and what Eric was going to do to me.
I hope you liked this chapter. So what do you think Alyssa will do ? And what about Godric, is he going to meet the sun ? And what did you think about what happened between Alyssa and Eric ? I'm really excited about this chapter and the next one. About the next one, it will be posted sunday. I won't be able to post it sooner because I'll be extremly busy this week because of my exams...
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