Ok everyone I am in college and I am getting my children's book published ass soon as I find a bokk agent and so much going on now that I know that I don't have time to do this but I'm going to. So here is a nother chapter for Winning Big. It's been a long time since I put one up. Luv Sin!

Glen…

The moment Sage walked out of the elevator with Punk behind her I saw red. "What the fuck Sage? Hasn't he put you through enough shit already? I'm speaking for everyone when I say that there is no way in hell that he is getting in this limo with us. I'll fucking kill him before he can!"

I realized it was the wrong thing to say when I woke up in the back of a cab with Jeff and Adam sitting beside me. I sat up some and grabbed my jaw as soon as I did. It felt like it was broken. "Left, right combo following with the upper cut right?"

"And a round house as you were falling. I can't believe that you would talk to Sage like that after last night. Are you trying to push her off the edge? And Punk isn't here because he wanted to be in fact Vince is the one that is forcing him to do this. He wants Phil to see her at her worst so he will understand that he was completely wrong about her. Sage isn't happy about it either. Vince spent twenty minutes talking to her into saying yes. He is her bag boy for as she needs him asshole. We are dropping you off at the hospital to get your jaw looked at. This is for you for after you are done. Sage changed your ticket to a first class for any plane to where we are going. She also has someone meeting you at the airport so call us when you get there. We are taking all your bags but you carry on with us. So don't take too long asshole. Oh and we are having a talk about how you talked to Sage when we see you again." Adam growled as the cab stopped at the doors of ER and Adam got out before Jeff pretty much pushed me out of the car and on my ass.

I shook my head as I got up and watched them speed away as Adam tried to close the door. "That girl knocked me out I can't fucking believe it."

Esha…

I knew what that blank look on her face meant. I knew her act. She may be bringing him with her but that doesn't mean that she believes his shit. She wasn't stupid enough to believe that even if she is trying to push everyone away from her. "It's not going to work you know that Sage. I'm not leaving you ever again. Now you stuck with me baby."

Sage looked at me and for the first time in years I saw the Sage that was broke and lost. "I think you are the one stuck with me. After all I don't think that Dave could ever part with ya dear."

Everyone might think that she is crazy for letting Punk come with her. But I knew that there was more to it then everyone else knew. With him with her she was the in that had control of what happens between them. She needed some control at the moment and I wasn't going to be one of them to take it away from her.

That was why she was pulling him closer and trying to pull away from. Too bad I'm here because I won't let her pull away me. Fuck everyone else I have her back. Nothing and no one will stop me. I felt sorry for him if he tried to though. I would tear him apart and scatter his body parts all over the world.

Now me, on the other hand knows he is up to something called the same ole shit. If he thinks that she has her guard down and unprotected he was wrong. Well, mostly wrong anyways. Her guard is halfway down. But she has me at her back so he won't be fucking with her this time. It's just not going to happen. Because we all know that we can't trust a snake like Phil.

Sage…

Hospital where mother died…

I walked into the hospital and knew that this would be the last time that I saw my mother. She was gone to me now and that was what hurt me the most. Made my heart hurt so much I thought I would die but it kept on beating and I kept on moving towards her room.

When I got on the floor her room was on Daniel my cousin was standing outside of her door and he was crying. It was the second time I saw him cry. The first one being when his brother died. Now my mother was gone and he was doing what I couldn't. "Sage, are you ok?"

"Whenever Esha asked me if I was ok he looked up at me and then raced towards me and gathered me up in his arms like that would help the pain go away? "I'm fine."

Daniel pulled away from me and looked at me. "Go in my mom is in there, she didn't want to leave her alone. I'm so sorry Sage."

"Thank you." I forced myself to say before I moved to the side and went around him and towards the room that he was standing by.

"You just had to leave didn't you Sapphire? You couldn't stay and watch your daughter finally become the one that she is becoming. She is growing up so much that it isn't funny. I am so proud of her. If it was last year she wouldn't have left no matter how much you wanted her to go. She has grown so much. And now when she needs you most you are the one that leaves,"

"There is no need in making her feel bad Aunt Sharon she did what she did because it's her. It's just the way she was." I said as I walked into the room and she looked up at me.

"Oh, I didn't realize that you would be here so fast." She said to me and I looked at her.

"This is my mother that we are talking about. I would have been here before she died but I wasn't allowed. So don't be so surprised that I got here so fast." I said to her and she nodded as she let go of my mother's hand and stood up.

"I'll give you some alone time with her to say goodbye." She said before she moved to go around me.

"I can't say goodbye to someone that isn't there now can I?" I hissed and she looked at me sadly.

"If it was up to me I would have told you. But I swore to your mother that I wouldn't tell you." She said to me and I locked eyes with her.

"You might want to get a hotel before you leave here. I don't think I will be able to stay in the same house as you. You should have realized that I had a right to know. I watched everyday for more than five years as she died a little bit each day. I should have been the one that held her hand as she left this world. I should have gotten to say goodbye to the only person that mattered more to me than anyone else including me. But no everyone decided that they would go along with her and not say a word. Out of everyone you are the one that I hate the most. My own family hid it from me. Thanks now get out!" I growled and she quickly fled the room and I listened as her heels sounded further away from the room the seconds that she was gone.

I walked to the chair and sat down before I allowed myself to look at the woman's body that brought me into this world. That was when the flood gates reopened and I grabbed her hand. I was surprised by how warm it was but then realized that it was the hand that Sharon had been holding and that was the only reason it was still warm. And that was when it hit me. After today I'll never see my mom's smiling face again and it shattered my heart. "You lied mom. You lied and died without my permission. You sent me away and you think that since you are dead I can't be mad but I can. But not at you. No I could never be mad at you. I'm mad at myself for not seeing how weak you really were. I'm mad because I allowed you to talk me into going. I wouldn't have if you didn't push me too. Now I know why you were pushing so hard. But in the end all that matters is you lied and now you are dead and I'll never get to tell you everything."

I stood up and let go of her hand before I bent down and kissed her cooling forehead. "Now you are my angel."

I stood there until I could control the tears and get them to stop. Then I walked out and away from the room without saying a word. I wasn't ready to talk and everyone knew it. I had said enough today and I know that there was no way that I was going to have them all around me bugging me to see if I'm ok every two seconds.

"Esha take them to my house. I'll be there in a few minutes and don't say no because I'm not asking. I have someone that I need to see. I'll be home when I get there. I don't know how long I'm going to be." I said to her and she sighed because she knew who I was going to see.

"Are you sure that you should be visiting him so soon?" Esha asked her.

"Yes." I said before I started down the hallway to the stairs. I wasn't even waiting on the elevator because I needed to get out of there before I fell apart.

"SAGE!" Mark shouted but I just kept walking. I couldn't stop now. There was no stopping me now. I had to leave before they saw something they wouldn't like.

"Just leave her alone. Believe me she is doing this so she won't go off on any of us. Just leave her be." Esha said from behind me.

I was thankful for Esha in that moment and I wished that I could tell her so but I couldn't just yet. I wasn't ready to be emotional with anyone at the moment. I needed to hold onto the anger. If I don't have it then I'll stop being able to function and that isn't something that needs to be happening to me.

Esha…

I knew that she was trying to hold herself together. It wasn't hard to see when you knew what to look for. And there aren't many here that do. "Alright boys you heard the lady. Let's head to her house."

"You got to be joking me right? We have to go after her. She shouldn't be a lone right now. She might try to kill herself again." Jeff said to me and I looked at him.

"Let me tell you something about Sage. She doesn't need us surrounding her making sure she is ok every fucking second. And yes she tried to do it once but she won't try again. She knows that her mother would hate her for it. Sage isn't stupid. She was over loaded when it happened the first time. She is trying to stop herself from being over loaded again so we are going to leave her alone and allow her to go see her friend." I hissed and he backed up.

Sage…

When I got to the cemetery I shut off the car and slowly got out. There was no need to rush this. I knew that he wasn't going anywhere. So I slowly made my way up to where my mother would be laid to rest in a week. I sat down between where her grave would be and where my brother's grave was. I gently wiped dirty and mud away from it with my hand and then I laid my cheek on the picture of him when he was a child. It was the only picture that we could agree on when he died. That was when the tears came. That was when I allowed myself to fall apart. "Gage, why does everyone I love the most die? First you, then daddy died and now momma's gone too. I don't think I can take anyone else leaving me. I really don't."

Suddenly rain started to pour down and soak me and that was when I knew that my brother was crying with me. He was there for me the only way he knew how to be and that was enough for me to feel myself become stronger. I had to move on and he was telling me that with each drop that fell. "I love you too Gage. God you don't know how much I miss my twin brother. The only one that knew everything about me and still loved me. Even when we were younger you knew that there was something in me that was broke but you loved me anyways. Thank you for that."

"Well, I came here for two reasons. One and the most important one is Mom. But there is also another one about more than one guy. And honestly I think if I go back there will be more guys interested too. We both knew me that I'm not use to any of this. I don't want people to pretend to like me because bad things have happened to me and for the first time I believe that they actually like me for me. I believe that if I allowed them to get closer to me I can call these people my family. I'm just scared to even try anymore because I keep losing everyone that matters to me. I don't think that I could take losing one of them too. It's not something I would be good at handling and we all know that. I wish you were here to tell me what to do because we both know that I would listen to you." I said softly as I looked at the picture of a male copy of me.

"Let go and allow them in." A soft voice whispered on the wind and I smiled as I felt lips touch my cheek.

I put my hand when the lips touched to find it still warm and I smiled a little knowing that even in death my brother was there for me. "I will."