A/N: I apologise I didn't have time to update yesterday and when I did I wasn't on wi-fi and it's awkward to update when on my USB modem. I will update the other three stories tomorrow so that you're not missing out on any updates.

Wishing that I'd realised what I had when you were mine

Pete looked around him as he entered the halls of the hospital the next day. He instantly spotted Addison stood at the nurses' station with another guy. He slowed down instantly and watched them as he slowly continued to walk. Addison laughed at the guy and shook her head before she wrote something down in a patient's file and handed it to a nurse. The guy grinned as he said something else to her and placed a hand on her arm as he laughed. Addison raised an eyebrow and turned her head to look at him. He continued to grin and nudged her side before he turned to his own file. Another laugh left Addison's lips and she shook her head once more. It was obvious just by looking at them that they were close.

"Shut up." Addison laughed and shoved the guy.

"Make me." He smirked and continued to write in his chart

"You are such an evil man, Dr. Spoof."

"You love it." The doctor smiled before he handed his chart to one of the nurses behind his desk as well.

"So I have you believing," Addison commented and leaned against the nurses' station.

"Hey." Pete cleared his throat as he walked closer and looked between the two of them.

Addison turned her head and her lips curved into a huge grin as she saw him. "Pete."

He gave a soft smile as he looked at her. "I hope I'm not interrupting anything."

"No, it's fine." She shook her head. "I didn't think you'd be here yet. Did Alba go to nursery okay when you dropped her off?"

"She didn't really want to stay there, but I told her I'd pick her up again soon."

"Did she cry?"

"No, she was fine."

"Really? Wow." Addison looked at Pete shocked.

"I promised to pick her up again soon." He looked back at her.

"So do I but she still cries."

"Maybe it's easier for her to part with me," he joked.

"So long as she's okay."

Pete nodded before he eyed the doctor next to Addison. "If you're still busy I can just wait in the canteen."

"Nope, I'm free." She smiled softly. "Let's go."

"Okay." He nodded again. Addison linked her arm through his as they made their way to the canteen. They waited in line to get their food before they found and empty table and sat down.

"I'm starving," Addison commented as she stabbed her fork into her food.

"You always are." Pete took a bite of his salad. "I need to feed you more often."

"You do," she agreed and nodded. "I haven't felt this hungry since I was pregnant with Alba." Pete slowly lifted his head from his food and looked at her in silence. "What?" Addison asked and looked at him, mid-chew.

"You're not pregnant, right?"

"What? No," she scoffed. "You've knocked me up once. You're not doing it again."

"We only just started sleeping together again."

"I'm not pregnant, Pete." Addison looked at him.

"Alright." Pete looked back down at his salad

"You don't seriously think I am, do you?"

"I was just wondering." He shrugged. "You never told me about any guys before me or after."

"There were no guys after you. The fact that I'm a mum scared them off." Addison looked at her food and stabbed it with her fork.

"No one?"

"I went on a few first dates but that was it." She shrugged. "None went any further than the main meal."

Pete nodded and ate some more of his food. "You didn't introduce me to your friend at the nurse station."

"Joe? He's another attending here." She gave a shrug and glanced at Pete.

"You seemed...close."

"We're good friends." She nodded. "He's been there for me since I found out I was pregnant."

"Oh." Pete nodded slightly and looked back down at his salad.

"He made sure I was eating while at work. He made me take my breaks and stay on my break longer than I should. He's been really good."

"Sounds great."

"Are you jealous?" Addison raised an eyebrow.

"Why would I be jealous?" He didn't look up at her as he stabbed his salad.

"You are so jealous." She laughed. "You're jealous of Joe. He's married, Pete, happily married."

"Can't be that happy given the way he looks at you."

"He's gay." Addison laughed again.

Pete glanced up at her before he looked back down at his food. "Didn't seem gay to me," he mumbled.

"Well, he is. He's so gay." She grinned. "You don't have to be jealous."

"That's not the point."

"Then what is?"

"It's just…" Pete sighed and looked up at her. "That should have been me. I should have been there to make sure you were eating properly. To make sure you got enough rest. It was me who was supposed to take care of you. There are all these people in your life who were there when I wasn't. And now…now that I finally have you again, you're here and I'm in LA. And I mean this…this Joe guy he gets to see you every day. And I don't. So yeah…I'm jealous."

"Oh, Pete," she spoke softly and squeezed his hand. "I'm sorry." She looked at him, sincerely.

"It's not your fault." He looked back at her.

"I have photos and videos," she offered.

"Yeah." Pete nodded.

"I wish you had been there."

"Yeah, me too." He gave a small smile. "So...he's really gay, yeah?" Pete tried to sound casual as he took another bite.

"He's really gay." She nodded.

"Okay then." He smiled softly.

"You have nothing to worry about."

"I know." Pete nodded slightly.

"I've managed to get tomorrow off. I thought Alba could go to nursery in the morning so we have time together and then we'll get her in the afternoon."

"Sounds good." He smiled softly.

"What would you like to do with our morning together?"

"Hmm, personally I'm happy with spending it in bed." Pete smirked and leaned closer over the table. Addison laughed softly and stole a quick kiss. "We can do whatever you want to do."

"I really don't mind."

"Hmm, we'll decide in the morning then." Pete leaned forward and quickly stole another kiss.

"Sounds good." Addison smiled softly. Pete smiled as well and leaned back into his chair. "Enjoying your lunch?" she asked.

"Yeah." He smiled softly. "It's quite good for hospital food."

"I've had better."

"Definitely," he agreed.

"What was Jess' birth like?" Addison suddenly asked.

"Jess' birth?" Pete looked at her, surprised. "Well, it was a natural birth, but quite a long one."

"How long?"

"About twelve hours. I left work around noon to get Anna to the hospital and Jess came just after midnight."

"Wow that was a long labour."

"Yeah, it was." Pete nodded.

"How did Anna cope?" Addison asked and looked at Pete.

"During labour?" He looked at her. "Well, she pretty much spent the twelve hours yelling at everything and everyone."

"Some women are like that." She nodded and sipped on her water. "Did she not get any drugs?"

"She didn't want any until it was too late."

"You both must have been so relieved for Jess to finally arrive."

"I was." Pete smiled softly at the memory. "She was so beautiful."

"Who did she look like when she was born?"

"She was perfect, she still is. Her eyes were a lot lighter than they are now and she had so much hair."

Addison laughed softly at the image. "Sounds cute."

"I can show you pictures some time." He smiled softly.

"I'd like that." She nodded.

"I'll show you next time you're in LA."

"Sounds good." Addison smiled softly. "How did Anna die?" she asked, softly.

"She had a haemorrhage in her brain. When they found it, it was too late to operate."

"Oh my god," Addison gasped. "In her brain? How did it happen?"

"I don't know." he shook his head.

"That must have been so awful."

"It was a difficult time." He nodded.

"I can't imagine losing the one I love." She shook her head.

"What Anna and I had was...complicated."

"Complicated?" Addison looked at Pete. "How?"

"We were young when we got married. Too young, probably. I asked her because it felt like the next step in our relationship. We grew apart. We thought a baby would bring us closer together, so we tried for one and we got Jess. But I don't think it would have worked out. Of course I wish she was still here but more for Jess' sake than for my own. She deserves to have a mum in her life."

"So, if Anna was alive, would you still be with her?"

"No." Pete shook his head slightly. "The pregnancy made us grow even further apart rather than bringing us closer."

"Why?"

"I don't really know." He gave a small sigh. "Anna changed. She always lived for her job. She hated not being able to work full time anymore. I could barely get her to rest. We just stopped seeing each other kind of. She stopped talking to me. She wouldn't let me touch her. She just changed. Or maybe I just never got to know that side of her before." He paused and gave a small sigh. "I mean, she was great. She really was and that's something I've always told Jess, and it's the truth. I guess we just weren't made for each other."

Addison nodded and squeezed Pete's hand. Pete looked at Addison and gave her a soft smile. "Do you miss her?" she asked, quietly.

"I wish she could have been there for Jess."

"But do you miss her?"

"Are you trying to make me sound like a horrible person?" He forced a small smile on his lips. "Honestly, I don't know. I did at the beginning, and I still do at times now. It's not always easy raising a teenage girl by yourself."

"I just want you to be honest with me, Pete. I need to know."

"I miss her as a person, as the mother of my daughter. I don't miss her as my wife." Pete looked at her sincerely.

"Okay." Addison nodded.

"She wasn't the one for me." He watched her.

"I get that. I would have liked to have met her," Addison admitted.

"You would?" He looked up at her.

"She's Jess' mother."

"She is. Jess looks up to you." Pete looked at her.

"She does?"

"Yeah." He nodded. "I can tell."

"She hardly knows me."

"I can tell by the way she looks at you, and talks to you and she loves spending time with you."

"I don't want her to feel left out." Addison shrugged. "I enjoy spending time with her."

"That's nice."

"Does she have a mum role model?"

"Not really." Pete shook his head. "I mean there's my mum and there's Lindsey, but that's it."

"Okay." Addison nodded.

"She's close with them."

"That's good."

Pete nodded and gave her a smile. "The other week she dragged me out to find her an outfit to wear to her friend's birthday party, but it ended up in a disaster and she said she wished you were there to help her instead of me."

"She should have said when she was here. I would have taken her shopping."

"Maybe next time."

"I could take her shopping when we come to LA? Buy her some dresses so she has some ready."

Pete smiled softly as he looked at Addison. "I'm sure she'd like that."

"Me too." Addison smiled. Pete smiled softly and took hold of Addison's hand that was led on the table. "I don't want to go back," she sighed.

"I don't want you to go back." He laced his fingers with hers. "I wish we could just leave."

"Me too."

"How about we just sneak you out?" Pete smirked. She laughed softly and leaned closer to kiss him. He smiled softly against her lips and placed his other hand on her cheek.

"I should really go." She sighed.

"Okay," Pete whispered and softly kissed her again.

"I'll see you tonight."

"Yeah, I'll see you tonight." He nodded.

"Bye." Addison kissed him again before she stood up and walked away.

A/N: I'm not feeling this chapter at all. I'd rather it had been rewritten but that's not possible right now. Thoughts?