SM own twilight. I just enjoy borrowing the characters.

As always special thanks to my pre-reader In tenebris ambulare.

Chapter 20

Alice decided my eye make-up should be a little darker today since the outfit was edgier. She had gone and bought me a nice pair of boots with a small heel. I think she was more excited than I was. Not to mention she pulled the 'I saw you in them' card. After that there is no point in arguing. Rose had sympathy for me and simply left my hair down and curled it a little. For that I was grateful. I noticed it took all forty-five minutes to get ready. I rushed down to the lobby as quick as I could.

Tony was leaning against the reception desk laughing with the guy behind the counter. He looked incredible in his black jeans that hugged his ass to perfection and his dark grey shirt undone at the top letting you see just a slight dusting of chest hair. When the hotel employee notices me walking up he stops mid-sentence and stares at me. This of course causes Tony to turn towards me. His eyes widen and darken as he takes in my appearance. I walk up and stop a foot away from him.

"Damn baby, throw those fucking chucks away. Had I known how unbelievably sexy you would look in those boots...just damn" Tony attempts to get his thoughts together.

"I think that was a compliment. So, thank you" I say shyly

"Yeah Baby, definitely a compliment" He wraps his arm around my waist and we turn to leave. I don't know if it's Tony or the fact I feel as sexy as he tells me I look but I turn to the employee still gaping behind the desk and wink as we walk out the door.

"Babe, you stay at my side tonight. I can only imagine the thoughts running through other men's minds tonight. That very well may be a good damn thing" Raising his brow I realize he is dead serious

"Ok" I relent "I promise, where are we going tonight anyways?"

"A little club not far from here. Twilight Eclipse" he mentions. I groan "What babe, bad choice" he questions looking worried

"There's this guy sleazy guy at the door that gives me the creeps" I tell Tony. He pulls me closer to him and whispers in my ear.

"No one will fuck with you, I'll knock their asses out" he holds me impossibly tighter "Babe, I promise, I will do all I can to protect you" His voice is strained and I know he is talking about so much more than just beating up a sleazy bouncer at a small club. I stop and place my hand on his chest right above his heart. He seems to calm slightly with just a touch.

"I know Tony, you have proved that to me already" I look at him dead in the eye so he knows I'm serious.

"Bella" he sighs, I'm momentarily taken back because I am not sure I have ever heard him call me Bella.

"Yeah" my voice barely above a whisper.

"Promise me something?" As soon as the words are out of his mouth I start shaking my head. He grabs my face making me look directly in his eye. "Fuck" he sighs "You have to promise me" he stares hard at me trying to find the right words "Promise me that...that if it comes to it...between you and me...Save yourself" I don't move. I don't speak I just stare. His voice grows louder and frantic "Fuck, Bella. Promise me. Then let's go inside and dance our asses off" I chuckle at the sudden outburst. Again I make a promise I might not keep.

"I promise, Tony" Twice now I have made the same promise. One that as the days go by, I'm pretty sure I might break.

"Good" he nods. He grabs my ass "I can't wait to get this ass on the dance floor"

We were only around the corner from the club when we stopped so it takes no time to get to the door. To my dissatisfaction I notice the same bouncer from my Birthday. He still looks as creepy and gross as before.

"Hello, Birthday girl. I was wondering when you would come see me again" he waggles his eyebrows suggestively

"I think not Dude, She's with me don't even fucking think about it" Tony seethes. Looking at tony he smirks

"Yeah...Dude, I'm pretty sure we are at capacity here. Once this one comes in" he nods towards me. Tony pushes me behind him protectively.

"Well then, I guess it's a good damn thing we have a private room reserved. Names Cullen. Do your job and look it the fuck up" Tony snaps and as soon as the bouncer realizes that Tony indeed has a room reserved he changes his tone.

"Right, Cullen. Go on ahead" He doesn't even bother with checking our ID. He just opens the rope and motions us forward.

We walk silently to our reserved room. I can tell Tony is still tense from the events leading up to getting here. Whether it be our talk or the bouncer. I reach for his hand and squeeze it assuring him I'm right here with him. He smiles a crocked grin and leans down to whisper over the music.

"Fuckers lucky, if I didn't think it would ruin our night. His ass would have been laid out on the pavement as soon as his eyes made contact with your body"

"I know babe, I know" I say rubbing his hand trying to dissipate the anger from his body.

"Good, now let's shake that sexy ass" laughing at his change of tune I throw my head back.

"You really are obsessed with my ass aren't you?"

"Nah, Babe. It's a great ass and all but I'm pretty much obsessed with all of you" I shake my head

"Sometimes, you are a complete ass. Yet somehow, you know all the right words to get me all bothered" I say before processing what it was I was saying

"Fuck Doll, Don't say shit like that to me. Especially when I can't do anything about it" I blush when I realize that one comment caused a not so little problem.

"My bad" I giggle

"It's all good, Come over here and sit while we wait for the drinks I ordered"

"What drinks?" I squeak. I need to keep a clear head otherwise I may seriously jump him and mess this whole fucked up situation more.

"Damn straight, that's why we are only having one"

"Mouth filter. Ugh. I don't know why I can't control it around you" I mutter embarrassed at my lack of self-control.

"I love the honesty, I hope you never find a way to control it" he shrugs unfazed

We each get a beer and relax. Before long Tony jumps up off the sofa and grabs my hips.

"Come on Babe, Time to dance"

"Here" I gesture around our private room.

"Hell fucking yeah, I'm not sharing your ass with all those nasty bitches down there" he points out the glass window to the dance floor below.

"Fine, if it keeps me from having to watch all those women undress you with their eyes"

"Agreed" he smirks. Cocky bastard

We dance song after song. Laughing and relaxing into step with each other. His hard body pressed against mine. Dancing with Tony is much better then dancing with Rose or Alice. I just seem to fit into his body. Each song bringing our bodies closer to each other. I turn to face him and feel his erection pressing into my stomach. He leans down and presses his lips to mine. I moan in appreciation when his tongue slides against my bottom lip. As our tongues begin to dance as our bodies were doing minutes before, I instinctively hitch my leg over his hip. This earns a groan from Tony as he deepens the kiss further. I fist my hands into his hair and try to bring him impossibly closer. He backs me up until I am flat against the glass window. As he moves from my lips to my neck, I realize this is getting out of hand and quickly. When his lips connect to the spot behind my ear I can't find it in me to care. I grab his face and pull his lips back to mine I kiss him with all the passion I can muster. Tony grabs my ass and lifts me up, my legs as if having a mind of their own wrap around his waist. He walks us both to the small love seat and sits down. I slowly rock my hips into his feeling his erection grow what must be painfully harder.

"Oh god" I moan "Tony we have to stop" I pant still rocking into him

"Fuck that, you feel too good" he moans. Returning to my neck. Oh god I have to stop this.

"Tony" I say. Coming out more like a whispered plea. "We can't"

"Fuck Babe, I know" he rests his head in the crock of my neck. I lightly run my fingers through his hair. Wanting to still touch him in some way.

"Babe, that's not helping" he chuckles. Lifting his head I can see his lust filled eyes. He lifts me up and sets me on the couch next to him. He walks over to the cart in the room. He closes his eyes and sighs then turns around and offers me a drink.

"Water?"

"Yes please"

He fills up two cups and brings one to me. He sits next to me and puts his arm around the back of the couch. I lean into his side and sip my water. Tony is unusually quiet for a few minutes and then takes a deep breath.

"That was fucking hot. I could get used to that. I'm glad you were able to stop because I was a lost cause. Who knew there was a sex kitten inside that innocent exterior" he jokes effectively cutting the tension in the room.

"Ouch" I feign hurt "you thought I was a prude?"

"As much as you blush...who knew?" I laugh and smack his chest causing his water to spill into his lap. I crack up laughing

"Guess that's as close to a cold shower as I can get, thanks doll" His eyes light up with humor. Then sighs.

"It's time to go babe"

"I know" I pout

"Don't do that, it's really fucking sexy"

"I'll try to remember that"

We leave the club walking back mush slower than we had on the way there. I hold Tony's hand as tight as I can. We don't talk we just walk. As if knowing I am about to lose it, Tony pulls me close and tucks me under his arm and holds on tight. We arrive at the hotel much sooner than I would have liked. Tony looks down into my eyes. Then up at the stars I can see the turmoil behind his eyes.

"Babe, just remember...no matter what...YOU kick ass. I enjoyed the fun we've had" he stares directly into my eyes. One hand going to my chest "I will always be here for you" I try and try to hold back the tears I feel filling my eyes. The last two days have just felt like good-byes.

"I know" I sniffle "The same for you" I place my hand on his chest right above his heart

"I need my tough girl, none of those fucking tears" he wipes my cheeks "No one is good enough to make you cry"

He leans down and kisses me with so much emotion it causes me to cry again. He pulls away leaving me wanting more. Pulling me in close for the most emotional hug I have ever had. Tony kisses my head and whispers.

"Not good-bye, Doll. Until later" he doesn't wait for me to reply. He simply walks away. Shoving his hands in his pockets and looking up at the night sky. Although, before he turned to go I caught the tear sliding down his own cheek.

I barely make it through the lobby and into the elevator before I collapse to the ground. I have never been more glad for an empty elevator then tonight. On my knees in the hotel elevator I sob. I cry for Tony, for Masen, for my children, for my family, for my friends and finally I cry for myself. All these people will be affected by the decisions I make. I hear the elevator ding but I make no move to stand. I feel two sets of hands as they lift me and help me into the room.

"How" I say still crying

"I saw you needed our help. We haven't pushed this whole time but maybe it's time to let us in" Alice encourages

"She's right Bella, we might not be able to help physically but our ears still work. Sometimes all you need is someone to listen" Rose adds sitting me on the couch. I sniffle maybe they are right. Maybe they are the key to figuring it all out. Maybe just maybe I can talk myself through this decision.

"We. Need. Coffee." I say between hiccups. I take a deep shaky breath. 'My tough girl' Tony said "Lots of coffee. It's going to be a long night"

I promise, I will figure this out. There has to be a way. Life can't be this unfair.

Can it?

I wish I had a good reason why this update was late but I got nothing...;) Let me know what you think. I love and appreciate all the comments you guys give me.