Wow, I sure did take a while, didn't I? Well, spring break ended and there's only a month of school left so it's been workworkwork for me. Sorry guys!
Anyway, I'm dedicating this chapter to MelloandMatt because, well, your review made me laugh; though I really don't know why. Haha. On with the story!
So as luck would have it, all the other guys who had asked me to the ball already found other dates. I waited too long to answer them. So here I was, with the ball tomorrow night, and I only had two options: Go with Sirius or don't go at all. I could add the option of going to the all alone, but I don't want to have to explain to Sirius why I rather go alone than with him. After giving it some thought, and with the coaxing or Avery and Lily, I finally decided to go with Sirius. Avery and Lily were too happy about it if you ask me.
"Sirius?" I stopped him before he made his way down to breakfast. James and Peter were already there. I had stayed back today so that I could talk to Sirius.
"Yeah, Moony?" Sirius asked. He was busy putting things into his backpack.
"Um, about the ball tomorrow," I fidgeted around, feeling nervous all of a sudden.
"What about it?" Sirius tilted his head to the side, looking pretty cute.
"Did you find a date yet?"
"I told you I wasn't getting a date, remember?"
"Yeah, well, uh…" Why was I so damn nervous?
"Did you pick a date yet?" Sirius asked with a smirk on his face. He probably knew what was going on already.
"Well, err, they found other dates." I mumbled.
"I told you that you were taking too long," Sirius grinned. I blushed and mumbled incoherently. "I hope you aren't deciding to go with me as a last resort."
"Of course not, Siri," I replied, smiling at the small pout on his face. "And besides, I wasn't so sure I wanted to go with those guys anyway, I didn't know them too well."
"Great!" Sirius came over and put an arm around my shoulder. "I'll meet you in the common room at seven, okay?"
"Sure," Sirius and I shared one last smile before we hurried down to breakfast.
On the day of the ball, I found myself feeling very nervous, though I had no reason to. I felt like a kid going on my first date ever. But why was I feeling this way? Sirius and I were going as friends; this wasn't a date. I had a hard time eating during meals and I couldn't focus in class.
Well, a lot of students weren't focusing. Everyone was too busy talking about the ball and what they were wearing. Most teachers just gave up and let us be. This was the first ball to be held at Hogwarts in years.
I caught a few glimpses of Sirius and found that he seemed very at ease. I guess he had to reason to be nervous since it wasn't a date. But, why was I nervous? After what felt like forever, classes were finally over. Everyone rushed to their common rooms to prepare for the ball. I went into our dorms and found James and Peter already there.
I greeted them then made my way over to my bed to put my stuff away. Peter was digging through his trunk for the right outfit to wear while James settled down for a short nap. I was too nervous to sleep and I already knew what I was going to wear, so I had nothing to do. I wonder where Sirius could be. He still hasn't returned to the dorm.
"Hey Remus, what do you think I should wear?" Peter asked, holding up two dress robes.
"The one on the left," I replied. It was much cleaner looking than the other one, but I didn't tell him that part.
"Thanks," Peter put the robes on his bed and went about trying to decide which shoes he's going to wear with the robes. I laughed a bit at how anxious he seemed, but at least he had a reason to be nervous. Unlike me, he was actually going on a date. After fidgeting around a little more, I finally decided that a shower would help relax me. I grabbed my towel and made my way to the bathroom.
I was in the bathroom for over an hour, but felt much more relaxed when I got out. I was still a bit nervous, but it wasn't as bad as before. I looked at the clock and saw that I had about two hours before I was supposed to meet Sirius. I might as well get dressed now so I don't have to do it later. I went over to my trunk and pulled out my dress robes. James and Peter went over to the bathroom for a shower while I got changed. I noticed that Sirius still hadn't come back to the room. Where could he be?
After putting on my robes, I went over to the mirror. The dress robes were new. My mom sent them over when I told them about the ball. I turned around and smiled at my reflection. I didn't look half bad. I combed my hair back a little then said a spell that would dry it, and another that would keep it in place the rest of the night.
Once I was done getting dressed, I sat on my bed and rested for a while. My thoughts kept drifting back to Sirius, who still hadn't showed up. Wasn't he going to get ready? James and Peter eventually came out of the shower and got dressed. We all talked about what we thought the ball was going to be like. We still had an hour to go before we had to meet everyone, anyway.
"I wonder where Sirius is," I said to no one in particular.
"Yeah," Peter nodded. "Doesn't he have to get ready for the ball?"
"Did he tell you anything, Moony?" James asked.
"All he said was to meet him at seven in the common room," I replied. I glanced at the clock; twenty minutes until seven.
"Maybe we should head down now," Peter was looking at the clock, too. "It's almost seven."
James and I nodded and the tree of us made our way down to the common room. The room was full of people chattering away about the dance. Lily wasn't there yet so we all found an empty couch in the corner of the room and sat down there to wait.
"Remmy! You're early!" I looked up at the sound of my name. I didn't see anyone at first, but then I saw that someone was making their way through the crowd towards our couch. As the person got closer, I realized it was Sirius. I let out a soft gasp once he was within sight. Sirius looked good. He always looked good, but he looked better than usual in his dress robes.
His robes were black, but when they caught in the light, they looked dark blue in color. The blue black color of his robes made his eyes stand out even more in his pale face. He left his hair hanging down freely as usual, but it looked neater and shinier. I felt the urge to run my hand through his hair.
I know I had told myself countless times that I was getting over Sirius, but love isn't something you can let go of just like that. It took me a while to realize that, but better late than never. When I manage to get over him, I know that Sirius will always have a place in my heart.
"Hey guys," My silent musing was interrupted by the arrival of Lily. Peter was meeting his date in front of the Great Hall so we all made our way out of the common room.
The ball was more fun than I expected. The food was better than usual and we had found a nice table near the stage. The band was wonderful as well. Sirius had even managed to convince me to go out onto the dance floor a few times. It was awkward at first, but then I found myself having a lot of fun. The strange nervousness that had been bothering me all day was finally gone.
"Remmy, let's go dance again," Sirius said over the music as I took a drink out of my goblet.
"But we were dancing not five minutes ago," I replied with a small laugh.
"Aww, come on, Remmy, please?" Sirius pouted and gave me the puppy eyes look and I just couldn't resist. I laugh and let him lead me through the crowd of dancing people.
As soon as we got to a decent spot, the music stopped and was replaced by a much slower song. I noticed that a lot of people were leaving the dance floor and the only ones who were left were couples.
"Maybe we should wait for another song," I said softly, already trying to make my way out of the couples around me.
"But Remmy, you said we could dance," Sirius grabbed hold of my hand so I couldn't go anywhere. "What difference does it make if it's a fast song or a slow song?"
"Alright, Siri," I sigh in defeat and turn to face him. He gave me a small smile and put his hands on my waist. I lifted my hands and put them up to his shoulders. We swayed slowly to the music. I couldn't help but feel at ease slow dancing with Sirius.
After a while, Sirius tightened his hands around my waist, pulling our bodies closer together. I stiffened at first. I was surprised by his actions but soon relaxed. I moved my hands higher up and laced my fingers together behind his neck. It was odd hoe perfectly our bodies seemed to move together.
The first song ended and another slow song started up but Sirius and I were still dancing. I rested my head on his shoulder and felt a small weight on my head that told me that Sirius was resting his head on mine.
Once the slow songs ended, Sirius and I left the dance floor. But instead of going back to our table, Sirius lead us outside and into the school's courtyard. The place looked magnificent underneath the moonlight. The moon was almost full, so I could see just fine.
"I thought it would be a good idea to get out of there and get some fresh air for a while," Sirius explained, taking a seat on one of the benches. I smiled at him appreciatively. It was getting a bit hot in there. I went and took a seat next to him.
A soft breeze came, blowing his long dark hair around his face a little. His pale skin seemed to glow underneath the moonlight. He looked so amazing. A small shiver ran down my spine. Sirius seemed to have noticed because he put an arm around my shoulder to keep me warm.
He looked down at me and I looked up at him. I found myself getting lost in his eyes. Before I had any idea what I was doing, I found myself leaning forward, closing the gap between us. Our lips met. His lips felt softer than I remembered. I could taste hints of the food we had and pumpkin juice. Sirius was still, probably shocked at what I was doing. I shouted in my mind for me to stop, but my body refused to listen.
And then I felt Sirius's lips moving against my own and I couldn't think of anything else except how wonderful it felt. My tongue made its way out f my mouth and ran itself along Sirius's bottom lip. He gasped and opened his mouth a little, allowing me entrance. I explored his mouth slowly, savoring the taste that was Sirius. It was euphoric.
After a while, we parted for breath. I stared up at Sirius. He had a glazed look on his face. It was a mixture of shock and confusing and…excitement? Happiness? I wasn't too sure about the last one.
Once I caught my breath, I realized that I had done. I kissed Sirius. Oh, crap.
"Remus?" Sirius said slowly, unsure of what he was going to say.
"I…I" I stuttered, standing up from my seat. "I'm sorry."
And then I ran. I ran out of the court yard and away from Sirius as fast as I could. I could hear him calling my name, but I kept running. What the hell had I done?
I hope that the length of this chapter made up for its tardiness. Anyway, I'm sorry for those people who didn't want Remus and Sirius to go to the ball together. And for those who can't wait to see them get back together: This is the second to last chapter! Yup, that's right, just one more chapter and it's the end of this story. I'm almost sad it's over. I've been working on this for a while now.
But, I do have a story idea that I plan on carrying out after I complete this. It's another SBRL story. I'm going to have Harry try to get his godfather back together with his old boyfriend, Remus, after he escapes from Azkaban. The idea is still a jumbled mess in my head but I'm trying to make sense of it. What do you think about it, though? Opinions are nice.