"Has one look at this Sesshomaru caused you to be so aroused?" His voice wad quiet as he whispered in her ear and Azya felt a shiver course through her sexually frustrated body.
This Inu youkai that had taken her in, healed her, protected her, and taught her, was causing her so much distress. Not only had he proven that there wasn't anything he couldn't do, he was the most perfect being she had ever seen. His pale features were sculpted but not too hard, complimenting the marks on his face. She had to get away from this tormenting youkai before he became her undoing. She could feel his arousal pressed against her back as he held her against him. It wasn't right. She knew that being human, she couldn't want or lust after a youkai. Now after one look at her pack mate, all thoughts were slipping through the window.
"Please let me go..." She whimpered. "I can't..."
"If this Sesshomaru desired you, what would your answer be?" He growled before she felt him nibble her neck.
"This... isn't right..." Azya whimpered, hating the fact that she couldn't compose herself like she was wanting. "You are a... Lord... and Inu youkai... I am... human..."
"Do not listen to the conversations of those around you," he mused as his hand slid up the center of her body and she bit her lip to try and contain any possible sounds as his hand rested on her sternum. "There is little possibility of this mark ever fading and you are a Western royal as long as it remains. Your race is not of any importance to this Sesshomaru."
"N...no... I have to check on Rin..." Azya forced out as she felt a warmth pool in the center of her body.
"You refuse this Sesshomaru?" She could hear the hurt in his voice and flinched as he let her go and stepped away.
"You misunderstand me," Azya snapped as she turned around, but he disappeared from the room. "Damn it!"
Azya dressed quickly, grateful that Priscilla had brought dry underwear with the clothing she had grabbed. It was one of the kimonos that Sesshomaru had made and smiled as she studied the colors and patterns of flowers, but knew she needed to find the sexually frustrated youkai as well ad find Rin. Finding Rin was priority and Azya ran out of the rooms as she pulled her hair into a messy bun, focusing on the child's energy that she could still feel and familiarized herself with the architecture as she ran. Unfamiliar faces that had vaguely familiar energies moved out of her way as she ran. She found the study and opened the doors to see the beautiful child that she started to love live like family.
"Azya...?" The brown eyes child frowned and Azya came to her and pulled her into her arms. "You're okay! What happened to your eyes?"
"The mark I bear has completely healed me and now I will be able to see your beautiful face. Are you okay, dearest Rin?"
"Yes," Rin grinned.
"I'm glad. I have something I need to do, but I'll be back soon. Pay attention to your lessons and if I'm not back then listen to Priscilla, okay?" Azya smiled as she set Rin down.
"Okay, but what happened?"
"Story time later, lessons first," Azya spoke before leaving the study and focused on finding Sesshomaru's energy.
She could feel his hurt, but a rage like she had never felt overpowered that hurt. Cursing under her breath, she focused on where his energy was and hurried through the large castle until she came to the dojo she trained at. She took a deep breath and opened the door even though she wanted to run the other way, and saw Sesshomaru surrounded by over a dozen soldiers as they sparred.
"You are not welcome in here," Sesshomaru growled, not even bothering to stop his sparring.
"Return to your stations, men," Azya snarled, Sesshomaru's anger pissing her off.
"You do not order my men!" The angry Lord appeared in front of her and she saw a red hue around his amber orbs.
"I bear your family's mark, dog, and if I tell them to get back to their posts, they better fucking listen!" Azya snapped.
"Insolent human," Sesshomaru hissed as he reached for her but stopped centimeters from her neck as the soldiers disappeared from the dojo instantly.
"You know that you cannot hurt me, dog. You are acting like all those bitches after being told no, and too sexually frustrated to even wait around to listen as to why."
"This Sesshomaru has no reason to listen. You refused me!" He hissed.
"And for good fucking reason too!" Azya snapped. "You don't even care to understand. Not only was there a child worried sick because I could have been hurt, but you can't just go around asking for a rut just because your pack mate happens to be just as sexually frustrated. I trust you Sesshomaru and I know you wouldn't hurt me like that, but the last male I let in took it too far. You can't just expect someone to say yes to sex after being sexually and emotionally abused and having the only way out is to be in a fatal accident."
"Woman," Sesshomaru growled as the red in his eyes started to fade.
"I am talking so you will shut up and listen," Azya interrupted, feeling her eyes sting with tears. "I trust you. I have always felt safe near you or even within your barriers. I haven't had that for who knows how long, Sessh, but I can't just have some sexual relationship as a mutual convenience no matter how hard it was to control myself. You have helped me rebuild myself from a weak girl who would say yes for attention and not be strong enough to care about the consequences.
"No matter how hard it was to not jump you, I can't just give in for possible a one time deal or knowing that it won't be anything other than that. Can you understand that? I know I hurt you by saying no, believe me, it hurt me too and I would rather you hate me than you hurting because of this," Azya cried, her voice quieter as her anger faded. "You are the most perfect being that I have ever met but you don't go dancing with the devil even if your promised a good time."
"Azya," he frowned as he took a step towards her and she stepped backwards, feeling her tears spill over. He continued to walk towards her and her back hit a wall. He reached her and she flinched as he brought his hand up and cupped her cheek. "Do you really think that this Sesshomaru would wish you harm?"
"You wanted to," Azya muttered as she turned her head away from him. "If not for this mark, you probably would have."
"This Sesshomaru was not thinking clearly and never been told no when asking for something."
"You had a tantrum like when a child is told no."
"That is possibly the closest description, yes," he mused as he lifted her chin so she had to look at him. "This Sesshomaru... I apologize for my behavior. I lost some control when I had smelt your arousal, all just because the first thing you saw was your pack mate with no clothing."
"Not that you need an ego boost, but you are a very attractive Inu youkai and perfect. I yet have to see a fault," Azya chuckled and saw the corners of his mouth lift slightly and touched his cheek, "but I still have to say no to you Sessh while I still am able to. I am not ready to give into a relationship so deep."
"This Sesshomaru is patient," he smirked before his arm came around her shoulders and held her close.
"Why me...?" Azya felt her face heat up at his words as she gripped the fabric of his haori at his waist. "There are so many youkai here literally dying for your attention."
"It is your right as the alpha female of this one's pack, not just because we are bound by that mark you bear, but because this Sesshomaru and this one's inner youkai has chosen you. This Sesshomaru cares not for a mate who only want wealth and power. Since joining this Sesshomaru's pack, you have proved that you can provide even when you did not have your sight and you could protect your pack."
"But I'm human and you have shown your hatred for half-breeds. Both races are pathetic and weak..."
"Azya," Sesshomaru lifted her head to make her look at him and she frowned. "You are neither weak or pathetic. You are strong and determined. You have taken down one of the stronger females within this one's home and showed mercy and respect. You are well-taught and continue to learn both in mind and body. As for the distaste for the half-breed, Inuyasha, that is against him alone. This one's sire was killed protecting the half-breed's mother and the half-breed is brash and does not think. He does not learn from the battles and pines after a woman who is made of clay and cremated ash that died half a century ago instead of taking care of the one in his pack. He is but a child with no teachings."
"Your thoughts of power and gaining your sire's fang has changed since your last encounter."
"The Tessaiga is useless to this Sesshomaru now."
"And what would you do if I was never ready for what you desire? Or if I die? No matter how strong I am, I still am human and more vulnerable to injury and sickness. Your blood can't heal me forever."
"If that time ever comes, then Sesshomaru will handle it, but you are here for now," he spoke before he pressed his lips to her brow. "Come, it is nearly time for the midday meal."
"Insufferable dog," Azya chuckled as he pulled her into his arm and carried her out of the dojo.