I couldn't sleep about an hour and a half ago (it's 5:38 AM now) so I decided to write for a while instead of finishing the second "The Hunger Games" book, Catching Fire (which is an awesome series so far in my opinion BTW)… It's been a while since I posted a chapter and I didn't edit this chapter, so I hope it's good and has little to no mistakes…..

I know I've been saying for a while now that this was gonna be the Epilogue, but… It's not… It's just a regular chapter and you'll probably get another one before an Epilogue cuz I found more story to develop before I move on…

So here's Chapt 21

A few days later, Kelsey stood in the graveyard and watched from a distance as her father's body was lowered into the ground. The service was small, no one outside of the families of the covenant and Brooke were there. Evelyn was able to spin the story that the media heard since William Danver's was already reported as dead, so she said that her father was the one who died. Tyler and Reid both alternated their time at the house with Kelsey and Caleb spent a lot of time either at the hospital with Pogue or with Sarah. Caleb and Kelsey hadn't spoken much to one another or seen much of each other since the few nights after their father's death because they were both having conflicting feelings about the situation and didn't want to start a fight in their already fragile family. It wasn't the time or place for them to go off on one another, but it was an inevitable confrontation that they were both trying to avoid.

"You okay?" Reid asked, seeing that Kelsey was deep in thought. Kelsey just nodded her head, not looking up at him. "Kels…" He pushed and Kelsey snapped her head up at him. "I'm okay, Reid. Why wouldn't I be?" She asked, tears falling from her eyes. "You shouldn't be okay." He said and Kelsey wiped away the tears. "Let's get back to the car. I can't be here now. Not after they..." She said as she started walking back to the Limousine they came in. "Kelsey…" She heard Reid say behind her, so she turned around but wasn't greeted to the face of her sympathetic boyfriend. She saw the face of the person who her brother supposedly killed a few nights ago. "Chase." Kelsey murmured under her breath and blinked several times to make sure that she wasn't imagining things. "You okay?" She heard from behind her, and she abruptly turned around and saw Reid. "I thought I saw…" Kelsey said, turning back to where she thought Chase was and nothing was there. "Nevermind." She said and Reid raised an eyebrow. "What's up, Kels?" He asked and Kelsey hugged him. "You know that I haven't been sleeping well lately and I'm probably a little delusional." She said and Reid kissed her forehead. "So you thought you saw something?" He asked as they started walking. "It's nothing to worry about." Kelsey tried to brush it off. "You sure?" Reid pushed and Kelsey lightly kissed him. "Positive. It was nothing." She said and Reid nodded, letting the topic go.

"You ready to go back to the house?" Evelyn asked as they all walked towards the limo. Kelsey didn't answer, just got inside and blankly stared out the window with a vacant expression on her face. As everyone else began to get in as well, Caleb stopped Reid before he got into the car. "Is she okay?" He asked and Reid shook his head. "Not even in the slightest, Caleb." He replied and began to rub the back of his neck. "She's sad, hurt, confused and could probably use her brother right now." He said, knowing that Caleb and Kelsey were purposely avoiding each other. "Thanks for letting me know." Caleb said before getting in the car himself and making Reid sigh in response.

"Where's your head at, Kels?" Brooke asked her friend once she was in the car. "I love you Brooke, but I really don't feel like talking right now." Kelsey said, crossing her legs and turning to the window. "Kelsey, shutting everyone out isn't gonna make dealing with this any better." Tyler said and Kelsey scoffed. "I know that Tyler. I just don't wanna talk right now." She said and Caleb shook his head. "Something on your mind Caleb?" Sarah asked and Kelsey looked over towards her brother. "Yeah Caleb. I don't see anyone forcing words out your mouth." Kelsey said and Brooke rolled her eyes and leaned over towards Reid. "They're gonna argue now, aren't they?" She asked and Reid sighed. "Hopefully. I'm tired of all this unspoken hostility." He said, leaning back in his seat and waiting for one of them to initiate the fight.

"What's that supposed to mean Kelsey?" Caleb asked, trying not to raise his voice or his temper. "It means that you should just say what's on your mind instead of holding it in because you think I can't handle it." Kelsey said, turning her entire body in the direction of her brother. "Which is?" He asked and Kelsey chuckled. "You blame me for dad's death." She said and everyone else looked around in shock. "Sweetheart I'm sure your brother doesn't feel that way." Evelyn said and Kelsey rolled her eyes. "Your mom's right Kels. Caleb doesn't…" Brooke started but stopped herself when she looked over at Caleb and saw him silently seething.

"I asked you not to get involved Kelsey. You promised me that you wouldn't." Caleb said, and Kelsey nodded. "And I kept that promise despite my better judgment. Ask Reid, Tyler, or Brooke." She said. "Then why did we just bury our father?" Caleb yelled, frightening Evelyn, Sarah and everyone in the limo but Kelsey at the tone in his voice. "Because you didn't make our mother make the same promise?" Kelsey yelled back in the same tone as Caleb. "Evelyn's the one who came to the dance. Evelyn's the one who came up with the fucking idea to convince daddy to will you his powers. And because she made sense with her pitch, I went along with it! Do I wish it happened differently: Every damn day. But can I change it: No." She said and the two siblings locked eyes. "I had it under control Kels." He said and a single tear rolled down Kelsey's eye. "You were dying, Caleb. Every time you were hurt or something bad happened to you, I felt it. I felt you drifting away from me and I couldn't do anything to stop it. If you were in my shoes, you'd…" She started but Caleb cut her off. "I wouldn't have Kels. I would have found a way…" He said and Kelsey chuckled. "You had me watched like a hawk, Caleb." She said. "The only other solution I thought of was sacrificing my own powers, and I wish I'd have done that instead." She said and Caleb shook his head. "Don't say that." He said and Kelsey leaned back in her seat. "Why not?" She said and Reid answered for him, all of them knowing the answer but not willing to speak the words. "Cause you're powers and life force are one. You would've died Baby Girl." He said and Kelsey didn't say anything. "Kelsey…" Sarah said, looking hesitantly at her friend.

"All I've done since I came back to town is cause a lot of trouble for the people I care about." Kelsey said. "If I wasn't here, none of this would've happened." She said and Caleb's expression changed from anger to confusion. "I wasn't saying anything like that, Kels." He said and Kelsey chuckled. "If I would've sacrificed my powers instead of letting Evelyn convince me to get daddy to do it, he'd still be alive and Chase would still be dead. I was being selfish. Just like I was when I decided to come back from London." She said and Reid looked at her confused. "What are you saying, Kels?" He asked and she sighed. "Everything I've done since I came home has been based around me. But now I realize that I've screwed things up for all of us in doing that. So at the end of the semester, I'm going back to London. I should've never come back in the first place."

By the time Kelsey finished speaking, the limousine pulled up to the front of the Danver's mansion and she was the first one out the car, leaving everyone else sitting there in shock. She quickly rushed upstairs to her room and changed out the dress she was wearing and threw it in the back of her closet, not wanting anything to do with the outfit she wore to bury her father. She then quickly put on the first shirt, pair of jeans, and sneakers she found and quickly headed back downstairs, wanting to get out the house as quickly as possible. "Where are you going?" Tyler asked, when she got downstairs, seeing that they were all in the foyer. "I'll be back before dinner." She said, grabbing her jacket and rushing towards her car.

"By the time Kelsey got down to her car, Brooke was leaning on the drivers' side in an outfit similar to Kelsey's. "How'd…" She started but stopped herself and shook her head. "Tyler." She said and Brooke smiled and nodded her head. "You know you two really should just start dating and get it over with." Kelsey said and Brooke sighed. "We're working on it." She said and Kelsey raised an eyebrow. "What are you talking about?" She asked and Brooke waved her off. "Not now. What I need to know is why you said that you shouldn't have come back from London." Brooke said and Kelsey shrugged and leaned on the car next to her friend. "Everything was so much easier when I was there." Kelsey said and Brooke nodded. "There weren't psychos trying to hurt me and the people I care about. My dad was still alive." She said and Brooke nodded. "Boys weren't fighting over you…" Brooke threw out there and Kelsey shook her head. "They did that in London. They just weren't as close as Reid and Pogue are." She said and Brooke laughed and agreed. "But I shouldn't have said that." Kelsey said, leaning on Brooke's shoulder. "That's not the only thing you shouldn't have said. You basically said you wanted to kill yourself." Brooke said and she nodded. "Have you noticed how fucked up I've been lately?" Kelsey asked and Brooke scoffed. "That doesn't excuse saying those things. We all wish things would've happened different and that Uncle William didn't have to die to save Caleb, but there's nothing we can do about it now. Dwelling on what you could've done won't change anything." Brooke said and Kelsey nodded. "You're right." She said and Brooke smiled. "Damn right I'm right." She said and Kelsey lightly chuckled and shook her head.

"I'm sorry I said what I did." Kelsey said and Brooke folded her arms across her chest. "You should be. You hurt everyone's feelings. Not to mention shattering the blonde guy in there that calls himself your boyfriend." Brooke said and Kelsey laughed. "I didn't mean to. I wasn't thinking right. I'm still not. My brain is short circuiting and with the funeral, my residual guilt and frustrations, and all these visions of Chase and not to mention lack of sleep…" Kelsey rambled out but Brooke stopped her when she heard Chase's name. "You've been seeing Chase?" She asked and Kelsey nodded. "It's probably a delusion, Brooke. You know that I haven't been sleeping well. And part of me is blaming everything that happened not only on me but on him. So it makes sense that my mind would manifest an image of him." She said and Brooke pulled her away from her and sighed. "Are you trying to convince me that story or yourself?" She asked and Kelsey put her head down. "Both of us. But really B, with everyone's emotions on overkill right now, I don't need to add anything else on the guys over something that could just be a delusion." She said and Brooke nodded. "Okay, but after you get a good night's sleep and these Chase things don't stop…" Brooke said and Kelsey nodded. "I'll tell the guys." She said and Brooke nodded.

"I should probably go inside and apologize shouldn't I?" Kelsey asked and Brooke nodded her head. "For the most part. But you and Caleb needed to hash your feelings out though. Now you two should be able to help each other deal." She said and Kelsey got off her car and headed towards the door with Brooke close behind her. "Before we go in, I just wanted to say…" Kelsey said, turning around to Brooke but was face to face with Chase again.

"You're not real." She said and Chase chuckled. "I'm standing here aren't I?" He asked and Kelsey shook her head. "Only because I haven't been sleeping." She said and Chase let out a big sigh. "Keep telling yourself that if you need to." He said and Kelsey rubbed her temples. "What do you want from me?" She said, frustrated and on the verge of tears. "I already told you. I want you Kelsey. And I'm not gonna stop until I get you. No matter how long it takes or where you go. I'll always be there." He said and Kelsey leaned on the front door and sunk to the ground and began to cry, only to be greeted by Brooke.

"Sweety what's wrong?" She asked and Kelsey looked up, seeing nothing there. "He's gone." She whispered to herself and Brooke looked around them confused. "Who's gone, Kels?" She asked and Kelsey started wiping her face. "I can't deal with this anymore." She said, slowly standing. "You saw Chase again, didn't you?" Brooke asked, standing next to her and Kelsey nodded. "I gotta tell them. I can't deal with this on my own anymore." She said before opening the door and heading into the Living Room.

"I don't think Chase is dead." She blurted out, gaining everyone's attention in the room. "What makes you think that?" Caleb asked, pushing all the day's earlier events aside. "He's been coming to me ever since that night." Kelsey said and Reid stood up concerned. "What do you mean 'coming to you'?" He asked and Kelsey sighed. "At first, it was in my dreams, which is why I can't sleep. But now, it's whenever. I turn around and expect to see one thing, and he's there. I can't handle it anymore. It's driving me crazy." She said, beginning to cry again and Sarah got up from her seat and joined Brooke in consoling her. "What do we do now?" Tyler asked, looking around the room. "We have to look into it."

SO what'd you guys think?

I apologize for the lack of Pogue in the chapter… I guarantee him in the next chapter… along with some other interesting stuff, like if Chase is still alive, If Kelsey is really gonna go back to London, If Pogue is gonna have clothes…

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