Dedication!!- This chapter is going to be dedicated to TheOnlyAlice, for her brilliant reviews :D and letting me beta her ah-mazing story ;) she rocks :D
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Big Girls don't cry- Fergie
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry
Luckily I wasn't the only parent to be late, which made me feel a bit better, at least. Not that I could function many emotions, my mind was still a complete whirlwind, as the love of my life had just kissed me and told me he didn't want to lose me again! I was barely conscious.
"Miss Swan hello?" The lady nearly shouted me, waking me up, from my daze.
"Oh sorry yes, come on Nellie let's get home." I said, taking Nellie's hand and guiding her into the car.
All night Nellie had to waken me up, usually pinching me, she wanted to tell me all about her amazing day, but I could barely pay attention to her, my body and mind was still in shock. She got very annoyed with me and I got annoyed with myself, I apologised more then a few times.
Finally it was time to put Nellie to bed, wishing her goodnight, singing her, her favourite song and kissing each of her cheeks twice- but she was always fast asleep by then.
I decided to make myself a hot chocolate- trying to calm my mind, how was I ever going to get to sleep? That's when I heard the house phone go off, I quickly ran to it, not wanting it to wake up Nellie.
"Hello?" I asked, closing the lounge door, so that my voice wouldn't wake up Nellie either.
"Hey, I hope you wouldn't mind- Alice gave me your number." The velvet voice spoke, sounding huskier though, it made my breathing and heart stop.
"No, no I don't mind." I whispered, it was always hard to regain my voice when Edward surprised me like this.
"That's good." His husky voice said, it made me want him so much, how had I coped with all these years? "I just well.. "
"Well?" I asked, my heart paused as well waiting for his answer.
"Well.. wanted to know if you wanted to meet up sometime? Well actually preferably tomorrow really, as I'm going back to Forks." Crap, I really wanted to spend tomorrow with Nellie, but when would i get the chance to see Edward before the wedding? I guess Alice could look after her, she would like that.
"Tomorrows, good with me." I replied, biting my lip- a habit I thought I got rid of.
"Great. Can we meet at Starbucks at 11?" 11 sounded early, was he planning to spend the day with me?
"Yeah sure, Bye Edward." I said, it hurt saying goodbye to his magical voice.
"Bye Bella" he replied, I took a deep breath then put the phone back on to the receiver and decided to ditch the hot chocolate and ring Alice instead.
I rang Alice who more then openly agreed to look after Nellie and would come over at ten- so she could pick out what to wear for me, great.
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The morning came quicker then expected, Nellie came into my room as per usual now and quickly got very excited when I told her about Alice, I didn't even need to apologise for not spending the day with her.
Alice came at 10, but insisted that she had to ask me something before I got changed.
"What Alice?" I asked, dreading the answer.
"Oh lighten up a bit!" She said, punching my arm, "Nellie! Come here," Nellie was in the lounge and quickly came into the kitchen, where me and Alice were, "right now I have a question to ask you sweetheart."Now Nellie was giving her, her full attention," Now you know I'm getting married next month," Nellie nodded, "And you know your Mummy is being one of my bridesmaids, well I thought it was kind of cruel, for you to not be anything! So how would you like to be the flower girl!" Alice chirped, making me jump. Nellie screamed in approval, obviously liking Alice's idea, I didn't. I knew it was a con so that Alice made sure I told Edward some how about Nellie, I just sighed.
"Mummma! Mummma! Did you hear that!" Nellie chirped as well, pulling my sleeve while jumping up and down.
"Yes, yes I did darling." I grunted, while giving Alice evils- she just smirked.
"Nellie would you like to come with me to go dress shopping today?" Alice chirped, which made Nellie scream even louder and jump higher.
"Hmm, I'll take that as a yes, now lets go and get your Mummy sorted out for her date!" Alice insisted, I was glad that Nellie didn't fully understand what a date was.
"It's not a date!" I grumbled under my breath to Alice.
"What ever you say, Bells." She said back, I just grunted again.
Nellie had always loved playing with my clothes and jewellery and today was no exception. She stroked all of Alice's clothes she brought and tried to fit as many necklaces around her neck as possible, I just laughed at her- at least she was having fun.
Eventually Alice decided on a darkish blue fitted blouse, with a black mini skirt and tights. I had admit I did look extremely nice, but maybe a bit dressed up for just getting coffee? Alice just laughed at that and told me I was being stupid.
Soon, too soon, it was time for me to go, Alice made sure I was breathing right before she let me go, then hugged me tight and said it would be fine- like she would know! I picked Nellie up and swung her in a circle in my arms, making her giggle, it was strange how her tiny giggle made me calmer instantly. I got into my car, then went down the road to Starbucks.
Edward was already there, to my relief- even though I knew he would never stand me up, it still felt better. He picked the table the furthest away from any other table, in the back corner, he looked so sexy on his own. Wearing a pair of tight fitting jeans and a tight fitting top- showing his abs, god did he look good.
He got up as soon as he saw me, and gave me a kiss on the cheek- making me blush, "You look amazing Bella.". I just giggled like a school girl and sat down at the table.
"I hope hot chocolate is okay Bella, I know you used to like it when you lived with.. me." He said, handing me over a mug.
"Thank you Edward, but I could of paid for it myself." I said, taking the cup.
"No, you have came here today- that's already too much for me to ask." he said, which kind of confused me.
"W-what do you mean?" I asked, finally taking my eyes off the cup, to stare into his amazing green emeralds, the beauty of them always took me by surprise.
"Well Bella, I have been more then.. unfair to you. You do not know how bad I have been feeling for doing that to you! I couldn't of hated or regretted anything more Bella, in my whole life! And the worst part was, that I thought I would never, never see you again." His eyes stared so deeply into mine, like he was hypnotising me.. it worked.
"I.. I," But no words could come to my lips, "It wasn't your fault Edward! I don't blame you for a thing! You don't need to apologise, please!"
He just laughed and shooked his head, "How did I know that you would say that Isabella Swan?" Laughing still.
"But it's true." I spoke back.
"No, not to a normal person! That's what I like about you so much! Your such a selfless, caring person!" I blushed as he said that, but still couldn't move my eyes away from his.
"And so are you Edward! To help Tanya like that, even if you didn't like her that much! That must of been.. hard." I answered.
"I guess, but that is so much in the past. I want to look towards the future Bella." He said, taking my hand off the table and putting it into his. His skin was so warm and soft, it felt good.
"Me too." Was all I could manage to say out loud, was he really saying all of this too me? I mean, Edward Cullen!
"Let's get out of here," He whispered, seductively.
"Okay," I smiled back, feeling the excitement, "Where to?"
"I know a place." He winked, standing up, still my hand in his and led me out of the door- I hadn't even had a chance to drink my drink, but I didn't care.
He led me out of the door, onto the busy street and across the road, finally ending up at a very small sweet park. He sat me down on a bench and sat by me, he then took my hand into both of hands and looked into my eyes deeply.
"Now Bella, I want you to please, please answer this question correctly, you promise?" He asked, I just nodded wondering what he was going to ask, "What, what is it Bella? What are you hiding from me? Is it a boyfriend? What Bella- please tell me, it is killing me." How did he know me so well? Could I tell him, tell him now all about Nellie? What- how could I say it? I just, couldn't, but then I couldn't lie to his face either.
"I- I, had a baby." I whispered, his face suddenly did a double take, but he managed to compose himself quickly.
"Who with?" He whispered the question to, I could see he was scared that it was his. I couldn't tell him, not now Alice had promised me a month! This wasn't fair.
"Jake." The word just slipped out of my mouth before I realised. I knew that at the wedding Edward would see that Nellie's was definitely not Jacobs, but by then I could tell him about her, right?
I'd never seen his face look so hurt before. Jake! WHY Jake's name out of everyone's! Was I a complete dick! "You and him were.." But he couldn't finish his expression- he looked so hurt, it made me want to cry, so I just nodded.
"Yes, it was a while ago- it didn't, didn't work out. I didn't love him." I said, trying to make the pain go out of him- it never did though.
"Well, that was, unexpected I guess." He looked away from my eyes now and at the floor, letting go of my hands.
I couldn't help but act on my instincts, my arms immediately flew over him, hugging him as tight as I could, my two hands then went around his head, so i could look at him as I said, "But Edward, please! It's you I love! It's you I want to be with! Please understand that. I'd do anything for you, I love you!"
His hands became suddenly fierce around my waist, and the next thing I knew was he was kissing me, kissing me hard again, I kissed back, his soft lips felt so good on mine- I never wanted it to end. Eventually though he pulled away, but never let go of me, panting fast.
"Bella, I .. I need to think, you understand that right?" I nodded, this was more then acceptable, "I love you though Bella, I love you so much." He planted another big kiss on me, "But I do need to think and I have to go, I will, I will call you soon Bella. So soon I promise- I don't want to lose you again, I love you." He walked off out of the park then, I couldn't stop the tears from falling. What was I going to say to him when he met Nellie? He would hate me forever for lying! What could I do?
A/N: Eeeekk! ANOTHER cliffhanger, im sorryy really! :)
firstly I PROMISE soon that Edward will know about Nellie, it will be at Alice's wedding :) And i had SUCH a blank moment writing this, I literally just stared at the blank screen wondering what the hell to write! :L soo sorryy guys :L and also she kind of tells Edward about jacob :)
so yeah its a crap chapter- sorry, but I think the exams have gone to my head and now im just exhausted, but I did promise a chapter today, so didnt want to let you down! and yeah I think i deffo failed both maths and critical thinking today- woop :L
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