"Are you sure you got this?" Lexie asked Mark. Kendal was now six months old and doing great. She was gaining wait like a champ. They had her on a high calorie formula to help with the weight gain and she now weights 13 pounds. She was a fast learner too. She could already say Ma, Da and ba, as well as crawl and sit up. She had just been put on solid foods and she was a little piggy. Her favorite food is anything with noodles. She could wave and she loved to pull her self up using anything she could get her hands on. "

Lex, I got this." Mark told her for the thousandth time as he gave Kendal who was sitting in her high chair, another bite of yogurt. Today was Lexie's first day back at work after being out for 6 months and she was nervous about leaving Kendal.

"I've never left her alone all day before." Lexie said with a pout.

"Ma." Kendal said with a giggle as she threw her bottle onto the floor.

"See she doesn't want me to go either." Lexie told Mark who just laughed.

"Lexie. Your working two days a week for 8 hours. I got this. We worked out are schedule to where one of us is almost always home with her. And if not we have plenty of friends willing to watch her. Go to work. Me and Kendal will be fine."

Lexie sighed. "Ok but call me if anything goes wrong!" She told him sternly. "Mommy loves you." She told Kendal as she kissed her bye. "Bye sweet girl." With a smile Kendal lifted her chubby little hand and waved back.

"Go save lives." Mark told her as he kissed her and pushed her out the door.

Lexie had had a fairly slow first day back. She didn't realize how easy it would be to get back in the swing of things. She had been gone for nearly 6 months but it was like she never left. She was in the middle of stitching up a little boy when Owen came into the pit.

"We got a trauma coming in!" He shouted as he threw the yellow trauma jackets at nearby surgeons, Lexie being one of them. Putting it on quickly she ran outside along with Alex, Jackson, and Meredith.

"23 year old male." The paramedic said as he opened up the ambulance doors. "GSW to the abdomen, left shoulder and right leg."

That's when Lexie froze. A GSW as in a gun shoot wound. This guy had been shot. Someone tried to kill this guy. Someone had shot her. No not someone Gary Clark had shot her. She couldn't move. The room began to spin and her breathing was getting harder. She heard someone yell her name. Was it Owen? Or maybe Meredith, she couldn't tell. Her balance began to get unsteady and that's when she fainted.

Lexie blinked a couple times her eyes adjusting to the light. Taking In her surroundings she realized she was in a cubical of the ER. Meredith was outside the curtain talking to someone she couldn't make out who but there was worry in her voice.

"Marks coming to take you home." Meredith told her younger sister. Lexie just nodded and began to play with the thin sheet that covered her. "What happened out there Lexie?"

"I - I don't know." She said with a sigh. "I saw the GSW victim in then I began to panic. I - saw Gary Clark and then it was like the shooting all over again. I panicked."

"Lexie he is dead."

"You think I don't know that?" Lexie shot back at her. "I was completely fine until today. I hadn't even thought about the shooting in months until now!"

Meredith just sighed and ran her hands threw her hair. "Once Mark gets here you can go home."

Right on queue Mark walked into the cubical, a happy Kendal on his hip. "Lexie." He said with worry as he came up to her bedside and kissing her. "What happened?" Mark new what happened. He new Lexie had freaked when she saw the GSW guy. It obviously brought back memories of the shooting, but he wanted her side of the story.

"Can we just go home?" Lexie asked quietly

"Of course we can." He told her softly as he handed Kendal to her and went off to find her discharge papers

The two arrived home and Kendal was fast asleep. Mark went and put her in her crib for her nap then went to find Lexie. He sighed when he saw her curled up in a ball on the couch crying. Sitting down next to her he pulled her up onto his lap and held her tightly.

"Shh Lex. Its ok." He said as he brushed her hair off her face.

"I just froze." She said in almost a whisper. "I feel so stupid. It was my first day back and I passed out."

"You are not stupid. You have gone through so much on the past year and a half. More then anyone ever should. You went through a shooting, then a daughter who spent the first three months of her life in the hospital. You are the strongest person I know Lexie Grey."

"Really?" She asked with sadness in her eyes as she looked up at him.

"Really." He said with a smile.

"I thought I was over the shooting." She told him as she sat up in his arms and wiped away her tears. "I hadn't thought about it in months."

"There are going to be things that remind you of it. You can't just erase it from your memory. You just have to think of ways to deal with it." He told her.

"Kendal helps."

"Well there ya go. Just think of Kendal when something reminds you of it. Or even better if your with Kendal, cuddle with her and play with her."

"Ill try." Lexie told him with a sigh.

"That's all I ask."