I don't own Gundam Seed (although I wish it was)

It's just that I was bored and wrote this story in my mind and decided to put it online. This is an AsuCaga

Fanfic and I'm writing it in a form of drabbles

I hope I could hear a lot from those who would be reading

If what I'm attempting on doing is good or bad ))

This is my first time so…

PLEASE BE KIND

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It was already eleven in the afternoon when she finally set foot once again on her made-up castle. It was already too late for breakfast and lunch would probably be the last thing that would come on her mind for the time. As she scanned the place that had been her home, ever since her mind could remember, it was all too clear to her how Athrun's place was a lot more different compared to where she was right now.

She knows that, and her mind would always be reminded of that whenever he was no longer around.

The lights that pass by the glass windows emit a different unfamiliar feeling.

The tiles felt colder beneath her feet despite the carpet.

The silence was just too deafening.

The more people that inhabits the place, the more stranger they get

And the more she realizes all of this, the more she yearns to be with him.

But this was probably the last thing that could happen right now…

"Okay, so would you mind telling me the reason why you traveled a hundred miles from space just so you could get here?"

"Athrun, can I stay at your place for a while"

And that's the story of a supposedly fine morning, screwed up by a knock on his door.

All in all it gave her that weird feeling inside, it wasn't fine but it's not something to nag about. For Pete's sake it was awkward enough that he accused himself of peeping at her legs when it was her fault from the beginning wearing a man's clothes during the aftermath of it all. She knew that they would have to talk and the guy needs a friend more than ever, so even though she hates the idea, she concluded her little field trip and went back home, which felt less of a home when her husband's not even around.

And speaking of mornings…

"Where have you been?"

I killed myself and went back just so I could answer your question and check if you've had breakfast already

"Kisaka, why are you here?"

"Just answer the question, Cagalli"

He looked straight in her eyes. Waiting for answer

One that he prefers.

But she refuses to say so.

"I'm not a child. I' m here in front you, aren't I? I got home safe. I don't know if there is anything more to talk about."

She walked passed him. Denying him the opportunity to make her vulnerable to his bent teachings

Her steps moving forward, pretending to be unaffected, eager to get away from him.

But then, he refuses to let her go. And not even facing him, she knew that her morning was not the only thing that would start.

"I heard you cancelled another meeting with Roy Meitner"

"…"

"Why I ask me when you already know?"

"I'm not asking-"

"Then why do you care so much?" she cut his words with her own as she faced him, unwilling to back down from something he insinuated. His eyes were looking straight at her. She can sense him trying to take control of her life, of what she would do and who should she be with and that made her sick to her very gut, realizing that she was now facing an entity who she never thought would become as he is right now, at this very moment, far from being a father, he was a stranger.

"Sooner or later, you have to give up you silly relationship with that coordinator"

"…"

"Did the person you hired to investigate about my life, also predicted that for you?"

At first it was just the seriousness and the sarcasm but…

"Cagalli, that's enough!"

"And who are you to tell me that!"

The shouts and the argument came along.

She answered back returning the same coldness and appalling statement back to its source. Ever since the man in front of her did what she never knew he was able to, Cagalli suddenly found herself being unable to forgive him. The guilt was eating her inside, not being able to, especially when the man became her guardian ever since the death of her father. But she could never do it, no matter how hard she tried and everything changed since then…

"I care about you, Cagalli"

"Really? Did you? Then look at me, do I look grateful to you right now?"

"Cagalli, he doesn't even belong here and he doesn't deserve you either"

"And who are you to say that?!"

Her blood was boiling with anger. She could feel every bounding pulse waiting to explode from her veins. She was so mad at him that tears reappeared without her sensing them. They were not the only ones that were on that hallway and she wasn't even near her room, but the people took it upon themselves to clear the area. Everyone present took notice of them, but both neither of them cared.

"You wanted to control me. You even threatened me. Suddenly the person I knew you once were disappeared."

"Cagalli, stop being this way."

"Huh? Me?"

"End it, before the both of you gets hurt any further…"

"How can you say that? Why of all people, are you the one saying now huh?!"

"Cagalli, he's not the reason why you exist"

"The future of a nation rests in your hands; do you understand what you're putting at stake?"

He had the same face, same voice, same physique, but he was different now for the only reason that, he was now capable of making her cry. She wanted to save him from her own anger. She wanted to tell herself that he really cared for her and he was doing what he believes was right. She did, so many times, even though it will also make her remember the pain it bear. But nothing could ever matter now, for it was so clear to her, that what he wants is something that she despises the most.

…

"Hey, Athrun, care to answer a question?"

"Hmm…what?"

"What if I fall in love with another person?"

She could still remember his face back then and it was all too funny to remember. She was just curious of what will be his reaction and his eyes sure opened wide upon hearing her words. It was the third day after she officially became his wife. She wanted to spend the whole day with him, as the both of them sat at a bench in a park. Of course she was forced to wear a dress and a wig but it didn't really matter, if that's what it will take to be with him.

"!"

"Don't look at me like that! It was just a question"

But as his face turned back to the calmer one that he usually, it was not her turn to be caught off guard

"I'll let you go."

"Huh?"

"If that's what you want. Married or not, I'll set you free"

She suddenly thought he didn't even care. At first she wanted to smack some senses in him and walk out. So he won't even fight for her and as she looked at him straight in the face, his face was proof enough that he was serious and she was also dead serious on finding out

"Why?"

…

"He's a coordinator and there is nothing you can do about it. What you feel right now is demented. Stop using these emotions so that you could make him stay here. Stop being selfish and do what you have to do. Protect Orb."

"But I don't want that anymore!"

"What did you say? Do you even hear yourself! Huh, Cagalli!"

Suddenly his hands was gripping on both side of her arms, her answers cause his emotions to stir and his hands were clutching on her flesh so tight she couldn't break free. It was a stab of a word for the both of them. She also couldn't believe what she said and that it was the truth.

"To sacrifice the happiness of one, just so everyone could attain their own happiness, is that all I am to you?!"

From the beginning, she was just a toy for them? A sacrifice? For once it all came crashing down on her. Happy endings weren't really fond of her and she felt so stupid not to realize that sooner.

"Cagalli, you'll soon understand…"

"It's you who doesn't understand a thing about Athrun..."

"Cagalli, that man is the son of Patrick Zala, can't you see?"

"What now?!"

"What am I suppose to understand? That I'm a tool so that the people could live a more fulfilling life? So that someone else could be free? I knew that, it's not like I have choice but I could even accept that without a single question. But the situations different now! I can't marry Roy Meitner or any other man because Athrun and I, we're-"

"Cagalli"

Her words came to halt. Suddenly two pairs of eyes were no longer looking at each other and Cagalli felt his arms grow weak, as he finally let her go.

"Myrna"

"Lunch is ready"

That was how their conversation had concluded. Kisaka took his leave and Cagalli was left to sit down at the end of such a lengthy table fit for twelve people. Her appetite sure got all wind up. She didn't eat her breakfast but she doesn't seem to find lunch appetizing at all. Suddenly Myrna realized that she was already toying with her food, staring at blank space, remembering what had transpired earlier.

"Did I disturb you both on any way?"

"N-No, thinking about it, you did us both a favor"

"To set the distance from each other, atleast"

"He cares for you, Lady Cagalli"

"I don't know" she said putting a weak smile on her face

"Suddenly, everything feels different." But that smile faded by itself

"That shouldn't bother you so much. Kisaka he's-"

"Myrna" she refused to look at her,

The world is starting to disappear right before her eyes.

There's nothing she could hear.

A single drop from her spoon caused a stir as it went back to that bowl of soup she refused to even taste

She was looking at it, gathering up the time, the strength

And the fine bowl of liquid turned calmer, the woman beside her still waits

She looked at her, took a deep breath

…

"Why? You told me, you like me but in the end-"

"I do, more than you could ever know" he held her face between his palms with so much care, making her eyes look back at his.

"That's why I'll let you go. I want you to be happy the way you wanted it to be. If you fall in love with someone else, it means being with me will cause you pain and I love you so much for me to cause you that." His sincerity was causing her to become guilty upon asking. She shouldn't have asked and expect something funny for him to answer back. It was just a stupid question, made out of curiosity but suddenly the jokes on her.

"What about you, what would do by then"

"I'll live for you and wait for that 'next time' when I could again get the chance to be the reason for your happiness"

…

"Athrun and I are already married"

I'M BACK! I'm so sorry for the huge delay, anyway hopefully I could keep writing this story again. Thanks for the reviews and please still support my fics. Truth is I'm not quite confident with this chapter but hopefully it would suffice for now.