Author's Note:

This story is rated - T/M (suggestive themes, mentions of rape) I'm not sure if this is meant to be T or M, so please let me know so I can change it if it's wrong, I rather not have my work taken down after I've taken the time to type and publish it!

Type of drabble - Angst/Tragedy/Romance

Name - 'Trapped'

Disclaimer - I don't own any of the characters included in this story, or even the ones mentioned.

Warnings - Boys Love. Mentions of rape. Don't like, then simple leave this page and don't read!

Pairings - SetoxKatsuya obviously!

I have no idea how I got to writing this, I thought of this idea whilst in the shower...funny how ideas can randomly come to you. Well I don't mind this one, I can't believe I wrote such a drabble, though it isn't much of one since it's so long, but I couldn't make it shorter without explaining things. I hope you enjoy. (Baka = idiot and Okaerinasai - Welcome home)

~Onto the story now~

I've been laid here for at least an hour, I'm too sore to want to move at this moment, lying here staring out of the window at the sky slowly fading from the hot sunny day it had been into the dark night.

He's upstairs, he has been since he left me here to sort myself out and then make dinner if he even feels like eating. He being my best friend Seto Kaiba, we've been best friends since childhood since I started to live with him from an early age. My mother and sister was in a tragic accident and my dad was too drunk to even take care of himself never mind his own son, so Seto agreed to take me in, he had had a younger brother by the name of Mokuba but his life ended a year ago due to a hit and run, a part of our families lives ending in tragedy but we stuck together through the hurt and the pain.

I am Katsuya Jounouchi, I and Seto live alone now, you could say I'm trapped, though he is my best friend, the things we do suggests otherwise, since we are in fact lovers. This happened a few years back when he wanted to take our friendship to something I thought we'd never become. The first night he raped me is still fresh and clear in my mind, no matter how much I wish it to go away. I was just going to retire to my room when he grabbed me by the wrist quite hard and span me into him, I stared up into sapphire eyes confusion evident all over my face, but before I knew it, he was opening my t-shirt buttons and running his hands all over my skin, then he progressed to undressing me completely, before long he was already raping me, I was so shocked and I think I even shed some tears that my best friend would do such a horrible act, but all I could do was stare out of the window as the rain poured down, the raindrops streaming down the window much like my tears were streaming down my face, since my pathetic attempt of stopping him didn't work. This carried on through the years, and gradually over time I chose to not care no more, he could do what he wanted, I felt too broken to care anymore.

That explains why I'm lying here on the floor, while he's upstairs working, he used to do his work at KaibaCorp but now he has started to do his work here, I preferred it when he was away from here though. I bet you think why don't I move out? Simple, because I can't afford to, I have no job and I barely even attend school anymore, my life has become such a mess.

I cook spaghetti bolognaise, and we eat in silence, once he's done he smirks at me and says "It was fun, we should play again" and retires to his own room, most probably to do more work. He never used to be like this, never used to be so harsh. Every time he rapes me all I can think is what has happened to my kind best friend Seto?

I run up to my room slamming the door, like hell it was fun! That sick bastard. If I ever moved out I wonder how he'd react, he'd probably make me stay, forcing me, maybe even blackmailing me, I don't know this person anymore, so I don't know his reaction.

I climb into bed and just as I'm about to fall into the land of dreams, my door squeaks open and I know it's him, since there's no one else here beside us two, he can't possibly want to do it again. But he surprises me when he kisses me tenderly on the lips and ruffles my hair, he never does that. Then he whispers my name whilst gently shaking me, I groan and open my eyes, I'm clearly annoyed and say "What? Can't you see I'm trying to sleep?" He gives me a tired smile before saying "I forgot to mention that I'm going away for a while, I need to sort some things out for KaibaCorp, will you be okay by yourself?" I scoff before replying with "Of course" he nods and then walks out. His behaviour surprises me but I decided I'd think more on that in the morning.

I thought his behaviour was odd but thought nothing of it. When he left I didn't bother to see him off, he probably wasn't that bothered anyways. I went to school for a change surprising people who hadn't seen me in so long, and came home expecting to see him, but he wasn't there. He hadn't been in contact since he left, I even tried ringing him but couldn't reach him, don't get me wrong I liked having the house to myself, I felt safe for a change, but he's been gone a whole month and now I'm starting to worry about him. Maybe he left? But why would he, this is his house; I thought he acted weird the night before he left.

I walk around the house; well it's more like a mansion than a house. I decide to walk into his room, I haven't been in here since we were kids and I see a note on his desk, I walk over to it and pick it up, it's addressed to me, so I open it, and as I read I feel tears parade down my cheeks.

Dear Katsuya

By the time you get around to reading this, I will no longer be in Japan, I know that during the time you have lived with me, you hated me, I also know if you could you would of moved out a long time ago. I know I'm hurting you, and I can't carry on doing so, though you probably will scoff when you read I didn't want to hurt you. Enclosed is a bank book, use this money to buy yourself a house to live in. Katsuya you are my best friend and have been for years, when we were younger I saw you as my best friend, but as we grew older my feelings began to change and I fell in love with you. The time we spent together made my feelings all the more stronger and turned into misguided desire that I couldn't hold back, the thought of ever losing you, you being with someone other than me, I couldn't accept, so I did something appalling and outrageous to you. I'm a monster I know, but the time I spent with you has been the happiest time of my life. I don't want you to forgive me, since I know you never can, you can even forget you had such a best friend, I hope that someday you can find someone who you love and who loves you back. All I wish is that you can find true happiness.

Seto

I drop the letter, my hands trembling and I collapse to the floor, teardrops cascading down my cheeks dropping onto the cream carpet. "Tell me these things, baka" I scream punching the floor "How am I meant to know otherwise?" 'That's right, you couldn't tell me, could you Seto, how could you?'

I have been living in the mansion for seven month and whilst I'm in the kitchen, I hear the door unlock and I know immediately he's home. He walks around the house, thinking I'm not there. He walks into the sitting room looking out of the window I spent so many days staring out of when he started his act.

"Okaerinasai" I say leaning against the wooden door to the living room.

He turns around and stares in shock at me before saying "Katsuya?"

I sigh before saying "seven months is a long business trip, don't you think?"

His eyes open more as he asks quietly "you... haven't left?"

"I was planning on leaving, I suffered for years because of you, I even had plans to search for a job so I wouldn't need to use your money"I say as I watch every movement he makes.

"Then why?" he asks in confusion and wonder.

I feel tears run down my face as I run to hug him; he's too shocked to return the hug. I let a shaky sigh out and a sob before saying "If you love me, then it's a different matter"

"Katsuya?" he says quietly.

"These arms kept me trapped for years, but if you tell me you love me then they become a safe haven for me. Don't they?"

He doesn't speak for minutes that seem like hours before he runs a hand through my blonde locks and says "its okay for me to say it?"

"Yes" I say.

"Even if I'm a monster?" he asks.

"Yes" I whisper.

"And...Even if this love is wrong?" he asks.

I sigh before murmuring another "yes"

He tilts my head up and before he kisses me passionately he says "I love you, Katsuya"