CHAPTER 21: Love me harder
The next morning, Dean stood in the kitchen as he cooked breakfast. He kept thinking about Paige's words. He didn't want to be confused anymore. It seemed as though every time he had made a decision of some sort, it still wasn't the right one. As he carefully served the meal onto the plates, he walked into the dining room where he was met by Paige as she stood by the door.
"Saraya. I didn't even know you were up. I didn't mean to wake you" Dean said as he took a seat. "I made us something to eat before the appointment." "It's alright Jonathan, I can get something on the go" said Paige. "What do you mean?" Dean asked. "I just spent the last hour making this for us." "I've done some thinking last night, Jon" said Paige. "And I've finally made up my mind. I'm…leaving."
"What?" asked Dean. "I'm leaving" said Paige. "I'm not happy here and neither are you. I'm going back to England and I'm raising this baby there…and I'm not coming back." Dean stood up and walked towards her. "Please Saraya, you don't have to do this" he pleaded. "You don't have to go." "I have to Jon" said Paige. "Is this because I'm going to see Colby?" asked Dean. "Yes Jonathan it is" said Paige. "That and the fact that you're quitting the company."
"I can make my own decisions, Saraya" said Dean. "Whether you like them or not." "You see that is the problem!" Paige shouted. "You're always picking everyone else over me! I thought you already said your goodbyes to him and you're still after him!" "Damn it Saraya he was my best friend! My fiancé!" said Dean. "I can't just let all of that go!" "But you have to" Paige said tearfully. "You have to make a choice. Me or him. This baby…our baby or him."
"I won't make that choice" said Dean. "I can't and I won't." "Then I won't stay here" said Paige. "And there's no need for you to know this child as well." "That is not fucking fair Saraya and you know it!" shouted Dean. "You can't take my kid away from me! I HAVE RIGHTS!" "WELL NOT ANYMORE YOU DON'T!" shouted Paige. "WHAT EVER RIGHTS YOU HAD ARE OVER!" Paige turned to leave but as she did, Dean grabbed a hold of her arm and spun her into a kiss which caught her completely off guard. Her hands wrapped around his shoulders as her baby bump gently pressed up against his tight abdomen. "If you leave, then what else will I have?" he spoke.
"I don't know" said Paige. "And it really isn't my problem." "It is so your problem" said Dean. "Why?" asked Paige. "Because you forgot something" said Dean. "Oh really and what is that?" asked Paige. "You forgot that I love you" said Dean. "And I can't stop loving you". He leaned into give her another kiss. "And if you must leave….then leave. I won't keep you here." He walked over and opened the door. Paige sighed as she folded her arms. "I'm not going to go anywhere."
"You mean…you're not?" Dean asked. "No" said Paige. "Besides Jonathan. I'm 6 months pregnant. How am I going to travel that far anyway?" Without word, Dean wrapped his arms around her with relief. "Are you really sure that you want me now?" Paige asked. "Yes" said Dean. "I'm sure." "Then we're going to need to talk about some things" said Paige. Dean nodded as the two walked back towards the dining room where they took a seat at the table.
"Look" said Paige. "I know….I know that a part of you will always love Colby and I'll need to learn to live with that…whether I want to or not." "It isn't easy" said Dean. "Since when were things easy?" asked Paige. "Since when was life easy?" "I just need to see him. Just one more last time" said Dean. "He's been in my life for a long, long time and I just have to do this for myself."
"Be careful going about getting closure" said Paige. "Remember what happened the last time?" "Yeah. I do" said Dean. "If it'll really make you happy to go see him then please by all means do" said Paige. "Saraya, you know it isn't about that at all" said Dean. "It's about finally letting go."
"I wish that it didn't happen to him" said Paige. "Are you saying that because you really mean it or because you're just saying that since I'm here?" asked Dean. "Of course I mean it" said Paige. "Even if I hate a person, that doesn't mean that they deserve to be in a coma." "You hate him?" asked Dean. "Yes. At some times yes I do" said Paige. "But….why?" asked Dean. "Because" said Paige. "He's the one who've you cheated on me with and left me for." "I cheated on you with AJ" said Dean. "Yeah but like I said, you didn't leave me for her" said Paige. "You left me for Colby. You left me for him and then you came back and now…we're going to be parents before our time."
"Everything happens for a reason" said Dean. "Whether we understand it or not it does." "Is that why everyone in the world hates me right now?" asked Paige. "Is that why I am out of a job and no one is even thinking of rehiring me ever again?" "I don't know" Dean whispered. "I didn't think so" said Paige as she stood up. "I'm going with Ms. Levi this Sunday. Maybe then I'll get some answers. I don't know. I just gotta start somewhere."
"Saraya" said Dean. "What now Jonathan?" asked Paige. "You're just going to have to love me harder than Colby. You'll have to." "Saraya…" Dean trailed off before pausing. "Don't…don't be afraid that I'm going to leave you again because trust me I won't." "I hope not" said Paige. "Because I honestly don't know if I can be able to take it again. With that, she walked away and as she did, the phone began to ring. Dean stood up and walked over towards it and answered. "Hello? Yes. This is him. I'm…I'm sorry he…he what? Are-re….are you sure he did? Oh-my God." In shock, he dropped the phone onto the phone as the person on the other end of the line continued speaking.
"Yes Mr. Good he did" said a female voice. "Mr. Lopez has indeed finally woken up. Hello? Mr. Good? Mr. Good? Hello? Hello?"...
A/N: SETH FINALLY WOKE UP! Who'd ever expect that to happen? But what is to happen next? Find out soon :-) Also review if you'd like and there is a new poll question up: "What will Paige and Dean's baby be?"