I heard another roar echo through the forest and paused landing on a branch. "Where do you think he is at? Levi asked, I looked up at the branch above me. Another roar echoed, "North." I would switch between flying through the air and using my gas to jumping from branch to branch. I was running on pure adrenaline, I could feel the pain from my injuries screaming at me to stop. My brain was yelling at me to keep going and my heart was telling me that if I don't get Eren back we were all good as dead.

I saw Eren in the distance and I saw the female Titan attacking him. I increased my speed and Levi grabbed me from the sky. I stared at him wide eye and when I glance back I saw the female Titan eating Eren. I gasped and Levi shot back into the sky. I quickly followed and saw Mikasa trying to fight the Titan herself. Levi quickly blocked a blow from the Titan to Mikasa and I grabbed her pulling her into a nearby tree.

Levi landed, "Did it eat Eren?"

Mikasa nodded and I felt my heart stop. This was all my fault. I shouldn't have sent him off after the female Titan by himself. He wasn't powerful enough in his Titan form. "Is he alive?" I choked out.

"Yes, I can feel it." She said. "Let's get him back!" I hissed and Levi nodded. The three of them shot back into the sky and chased after the female Titan. I could tell my gas was low as soon as we got closer, "Where is he?"

"Her mouth!" Mikasa yelled, I nodded and heard Levi tell her to leave it to us. I knew Mikasa was powerful but I don't think she could handle the female Titan because I could barely fight her. I attached my cable to the back of her head and saw she was trying to grab me. I easily cut through her hand and sliced all the way down her arm.

I looked at Levi and realized that we needed to get rid of her arms before we could even attempt to get to her mouth. I began to work on her left arm while Levi worked on her right, I wasn't even resting, and I just kept cutting away until I saw her arm drop to her side. Levi was able to cut off her right arm and I quickly sliced through her jaw. The Titan's arm regenerate and she reached out for Mikasa, who was trying to get Eren out. Levi shoved her out of the way and landed in a nearby tree.

I was so focused on Levi falling that I didn't realize the Titan was reaching towards me. "Helena!" Levi yelled, but it was too late the female Titan slammed me as hard as she could. I flew backwards and my back slammed into a tree. I felt the air escape my lungs and I gritted my teeth in pain, I could feel myself growing weaker and weaker. Evenutally I was going to pass out but I was trying my hardest to fight that feeling.

I attached my cable to her leg and began slicing away at her legs while Levi worked on the arms again.

The female Titan stumbled backwards and slammed down into the ground. Her arms dropped to her sides again and Levi quickly snatched Eren out of her mouth. I watched as Mikasa raced towards her but I quickly grabbed her. "You need to know when to walk away!"

She growled and nodded. I let go of her and we chased after Levi.

000

I watched as body after body was laid out to be identified and taken home. I walked over to the four bodies that used to be my friends. I knelt down and took off the patches of their jackets just liked Levi asked and said my goodbyes. I had tears streaming down my face until I pulled off the final sheet.

Petra still had her eyes open and her nose looked like it was snapped in half. She was still covered in blood and her eyes were still wide with fear. I choked out a sob and gripped onto her patch tightly. I broke down completely, she was the last person that was a part of my brother.

All of them were.

"Helena?" I looked up to see Levi. He sighed sadly and knelt down beside me. He slowly wrapped an arm around my shoulder and that made me break down even harder. "I couldn't save her" I choked out.

"Helena, you did everything right. Stop blaming yourself. And think of this, she is with Phillip now. She's happy and you have more people watching over us." Levi whispered. I nodded and he pulled me up. He led me over to Lady and helped me up on her. I handed him the patches and he placed them in his back pocket.

He climbed onto his horse. I watched as a soldier scream at Erwin saying that we had to get his friends body. Erwin said no. I remembered exactly where the body was. Levi and I almost got killed trying to get it.

"We tried to get it." I muttered. He whipped around, "Not hard enough."

Levi grabbed the soldier by his collar; he pulled him up and locked eyes with him. "She almost died. Shut up and get on your damn horse." He dropped him and Levi nodded for me to follow him. I did and once everyone was mounted on their horses, we were off towards the wall. My job was to watch after the supply carts that were carrying the dead.

I kept my eyes forward and tried to ignore the smell. I knew my friends were in there dead. I felt eyes on me and looked up to see Levi staring at me. He quickly looked away and I did too. I felt rumbling and turned around to those idiots racing back with the body on their friend on their back.

"Morons!" I hissed. I watched as Mikasa raced to help take down the Titan. I went to help out and gasped out grabbing my side. I was pretty sure the last time the female Titan hit me I broke some ribs.

I looked at Levi, who was holding onto his leg. He looked up and shook his head like he was telling me not to worry about it.

I watched as Mikasa took on the Titan and unfortunately his friend that went with him died. "Drop the bodies." I looked up at Levi, who was ordering the men in the supple cart to dump them. My heart stopped and I looked at Levi pleading for him to figure out another way. His eyes were firm and I nodded.

"Do you want to die?! Do it!" I yelled, Mikasa and the soldier were racing towards us. Finally the men in the cart began pushing one body after another out. I watched as the last body tumbled out and really wished I didn't.

The first thing I saw was a hand that had a scar from biting their hands, the blanket flew off of the body slightly and I saw light red hair. I took in a sharp breath and looked away, "I'm sorry, Petra"

I looked up at the sky to see a group of birds flying overhead. I still remember what it felt like seeing them outside the walls for the first time. I felt hopeful that maybe one day, we wouldn't have to hide behind a wall.

I had to keep going. I lost my mother, brother, and now the sister I never had. I had to keep going for them. Levi needed my help in trying to get humanity back in our grasp. And I couldn't leave Levi. I loved him. I wanted to spend every single second, I could get with him. He put a spark back in my life that disappeared when Phillip died.

The wall was getting closer and closer. We weren't even gone a day, the looks the people were going to give us and the whispers that we were going to hear. They didn't understand the horror that was out there. They didn't see their teammates die before their eyes. They didn't have blood on them that wasn't even theirs!

I watched as the gate opened and I felt my heart sped up. We quickly reached the next gate and I slowed Lady down. Levi jumped down from his horse and I went to get off, he stopped me.

"Stay on and keep your eyes to the ground." He led his horse next to mine and the yelling began. I heard men say we were weak and I even had a man point to me saying I was the reason we weren't making any process because women made horrible soldiers. I growled and Levi grabbed my leg. I looked down at him and he gave me a weak smile.

I relaxed and nodded. Nothing I could say would make these people believe me. Nothing. Not a single damn thing and that had to be the most frustrating thing ever. I tuned out all of them until a plump man ran up to Levi.

My face paled over and my eyes widen when I realized who it was.

Petra's father.

I watched as Levi's world crashed around him. And I watched the look on her father's face when Levi handed him the patch from her jacket, I watched him break down with his wife. And finally, I watched as her family collapsed when Levi explained her body could not be retrieved.

I had seen so many families' reactions when they were told we lost their loved one were gone, and I also had the pain of spitting out the lines as well. I had to tell three families that their sons were dead and we couldn't bring their bodies back.

The Titans weren't just killing our loved ones.

They were also mentally and emotionally destroying us. And I think that was worse than the killing.