A/N: My first real attempt at smut...if you don't want to picture them having any sex...do not read any further...

the rating for this chapter and possibly the next will go up to do graphic sexual descriptions...you've been Warned !!!!!

Disclaimer: If I owned them...I'd be Sara tonight!

He sat down on the bed, his eyes first scanned the room then moved over to Sara who was in the closet trying to find ties she knew that Grissom wouldn't be wearing anytime soon. "We're going to have to restock" she called from inside the room. "I don't really know which ones you like and which ones are expendable!" she came out with several draped over her arm. "I'll let you decide. Do you need two or four?" she knew he'd been okay when she'd originally tied his wrists but the minute his ankles had been confined was when the problem began.

"Let's start with two and see how it goes...okay?" he swallowed and his words came out in nearly a whispered tone. Sara nodded and held out the choices for him to pick. Thankfully the two he chose were those that she found worthy of destruction and not something she'd like to see him wear with any of his tailored suits.

"You know, we don't have to do this?" her tone was gentle and full of compassion and understanding.

"Yes we do" he looked up at her with blue orbs. "If we don't, we'll never know if we can move foreword from this and I for one don't want to be afraid of trying new things...anymore" he looked up shyly at her and was rewarded with the wonderful 'Sidle smile' he so loved. "I want to explore things with you...new things to keep our lives interesting, if I can't do this..." his hand motioned to the ties., "How can I know that I'll be able to do anything else?" she sat beside him.

"Maybe it's just too soon?" she soothed him with her voice while she gently ran her hand down his arm. "Maybe we're expecting too much for ourselves and we..." he looked up at her, pulled her into a gentle embrace and smiled.

"Sara, you're the one that went through it first-hand, how do you honestly feel about this?" he waited, knowing she was weighing her words carefully.

"No..." he started to nod, misunderstanding where she was going. "Not no as in no I don't want to do this...I do, but no, I don't want you to dismiss the fact that what Natalie did effected all of us, Me, you and the entire team...everyone's afraid to say anything about what happened because they're afraid to dredge up memories., too late...the memories are there and I'd prefer to talk it out, get everything out on the table like we're doing and put it behind us...Natalie wins if we can't move on...and I for one already showed that bitch that she's not going to stop me from loving you" she pushed him backwards on the bed as she straddled his waist. "She's not going to stop you from loving me!" she nudged him toward the headboard with her hips and crawled along with him. "She's not going to make me afraid to live, to try new things., to do...this" she gently looped one of the ties around his wrist and smiled. "Are you?"

"Are you as in...are you going to let her do this or are you as in ... am I ready?" he was stalling and Sara started to smile slightly.

"Are you ready for this?" she hung his arm from the tie and bobbed it up and down like the arm of some marionette. "Do you think you can handle this..?" she felt him harden beneath her. "Big Boy?" she teased then scooted up and back causing the smallest amount of friction as she heard him hiss in response. "Guess I can take that as a yes..." she leaned foreword to gently secure his hand to the one side of the headboard but didn't realize that her motion put her breast right in his face. He reached up with his tongue and lapped at the pert nipple that was tantalizing him. "Ugh...God" she pushed forward unintentionally as he first lavished her breast with his tongue, then expertly caught the nipple in his teeth and drew it to his mouth, all without the use of his hand. "You don't play fair!" she moaned receptively. She let herself enjoy the moment then looked into his eyes, without question he knew if she was asking him to proceed with the second tie and nodded decisively. "You're sure?" he didn't answer as his mouth was otherwise engaged but she wasn't about to complain, she slowly wrapped the tie around his second wrist then gently raised his arm above his head and secured it to the other side of the headboard. "You okay?" her breath was heady with arousal and came out in gasps.

"Ummmmmm" he continued working his lips and teeth from one breast to the other. His hands opened and closed as he tested the bonds. Sara had tied them this time with a slip knot that could easily and quickly be released should the situation call for it but the smile on his face, the glow in his eyes told her that all was going well. She decided to skip tying up his ankles for the time being and instead, linked her legs over his to give him the feeling of being confined without actually tying him down. He seemed to understand what she was doing and bucked his hips up against her causing her to gasp again..."Good...Sa...ra...soooooooooo good" he mumbled around his mouth of flesh. Sara smiled and kissed his neck, "Love you" he murmured against her skin..."Love you so much...so good for me..." his eyes closed and he was a million miles away...thoroughly enjoying himself and the situation this time.

"You okay?" She was trying hard not to wiggle to much, she didn't want him to be the only one giving pleasure so she suddenly sat still. "Are you ready for me?" Gil lifted his head releasing his hold on her nipple.

"Ready? Ready for what?" his voice groaned out as she started a slow slide down his body. She planted warm wet kisses from his nose, lips, on each side of his neck sucking loudly...then she nibbled each earlobe and then moved to the dip in his neck nearest his shoulders. Her hands kneaded and rubbed soft enticing circles everywhere her lips and mouth followed. Down his chest where she laved at each of his nipples till they pebbled and he seemed about to lose control. "Are you going to tie me up?" he wiggled his ankles to show what he meant. She shook her head slowly.

"Not unless you want me to...?" she hoped he didn't but knew that there was a real possibility he would push himself to the limits because he was the scientist and probably viewed this as an experiment. He looked into her eyes as she leaned over him. "If you want me to Gil...I'll do so because you ask me to...but if you would prefer, I can always use my body to..." he shook his head answering her question. He felt that if he didn't proceed with the original plans, he would never have a true answer.

"Please Saaaaaaaarraaaa...I want you to...to...to...tie...me...up" he whispered slowly so there was no mistaking the intention. She lifted a tie and worked her way down one leg kissing, tasting and nibbling from groin to ankle where she reverently wrapped the silken material around his ankle, again using the slip knot she secured first one leg, then repeated the procedure and hesitantly secured the final side.

"You still okay Gil?" he nodded..."Good...you have to let me know...okay?" she was watching, waiting and biting the inside of her lip unsure of how he was going to react. Slowly he lifted his arms again...tested the bindings., then just as slowly lifted each leg as much as the restraint allowed...So far, so good. "Okay..." her voice cracked and Grissom suddenly knew just how hard this was on her.

"Sara...please come up here" he bucked his hip and motioned for her to rise up to meet his eyes. "I'm okay...I promise you..." his voice stuttered slightly but he had already started on stilling his own mind by reciting the Periodic Tables. "If I can't handle it...I'll tell you" he pulled his neck up so he could kiss her. "I promise...I'm okay...so far" he laid his head back down and she slowly slithered down his body till she was resting with her head on his stomach. She reached out with a tongue and tentatively probed his navel which elicited another gasp, a sigh and a gulp.

"You like that?" he simply nodded and his breathing became heavier as she moved further down trailing the soft line of hair leading lower..."You want more?" her voice was a Siren to a sailor adrift on an ocean, calling him to her...he could only nod his agreement. "You like when I do this?" she used her tongue to swipe at the tip of his straining erection. He whimpered and strained against the bonds. Sara smiled, lightly licked the underside vein and gently running her teeth against his skin. Slowly

she suckled at the tip then swept her tongue around the plum colored head "And this?" he bucked into her mouth and she quickly swallowed his entire length relaxing her throat so he could go as deep as he wanted. He pulled back his hips and she let him slip from her lips. "You're quite a big boy" she licked her lips and placed them back just over the head then sucked him further into her mouth as she twirled her tongue wherever she could reach.

"Yessssssssssssss" he wanted her to know that while he was okay...she was driving him toward the cliffs of pleasure...but he felt guilty that he'd slid his entire penis into her throat without warning her..."I'm .I'm sooor...so ... sorry..." he apologized and she immediately lifted her eyes to his..."I didn't...pre...prepare you..." she quickly understood and smiled.

"It's okay..." she wrapped a hand around the base and with her other she cupped his testicles and softly kneaded them. "I was ready" she assured him. It had taken months of practice, at first her gag reflex had been triggered every single time but eventually, she read and with a bit of inventiveness and toys had practiced enough to learn how to relax her throat muscles and take him in. When it had happened the first time, all he could do was stand there, pants around his ankles in their hallway as she leaned forward on his knees and buried her nose into his pubic area. She looked up, the sight of her, on the ground, taking everything he had to offer without him having to beg had been overwhelming and as he came...he cried and she simply bobbed her head, swallowed and hugged him to her.

Afterwards, he had explained that no other woman had so willingly wanted to do that for him and he assumed with his limited relationships that it had something to do with perhaps the taste, texture or he just wasn't positive and he sure and hell wasn't about to ask. She has assured him that while she was no scholar at it herself and he obviously wasn't complaining., that his taste and his texture was something that turned her on immensely and she looked forward to giving as well as getting oral satisfaction. He was equally astounded that she could actually make herself come while giving him pleasure but after the first couple times, he'd made her stop and told her in no uncertain terms that she would have to either let him pleasure her first or wait until she was done with him and he was more than willing to reciprocate in kind. She didn't tell him then but she kind of liked when he was a bit dominant with her.

He was getting close and he started to beg her to ride him to completion but she shook her head "This isn't about me...it's about you..." she resumed her position and continued the ministrations as he repeatedly pleaded with her to stop...she felt his legs stiffen and for a moment, she paused waiting to see what his reaction was going to be, this time thankfully it was because he was nearing climax and not from panicking.

"Saaaraaaa pleeeeeaaaaase no more...stop...pleaaaase, I want to come inside you..." his voice was nearly a high pitched whine.

She pulled her mouth from him for only a minute as her hands fingers worked his length..."Oh you'll come...and it will be inside me" she kissed the tip of his arousal once again..."Inside my mouth" and once again she swallowed him whole. He lost control, he felt the sweat dripping off his back as he arched and writhed under her and rode her mouth...she swallowed each spurt with a grin and kept applying suction until nothing was left. He dropped back to the bed but his hips continued their movement as if of their own volition. Sara swiped her mouth with the back of her hand, sat up and smiled at him. "You ready for round two?" she teased as she gently fingered his softening shaft.

"Oh My God woman, you're going to kill me!" he lifted his head to see if she was serious and when he realized she was teasing him...dropped it back to the pillow. Sara crawled up to him and briefly paused staring into his eyes.

"You doing okay?" he gulped and nodded unable to form words. "Good...now it's my turn..." she laughed as she scooted up over his stomach, up over his shoulders until his head rested right below her cleft. "Ready for dessert?" she chuckled and watched his eyes follow her mound as she lowered herself over his mouth.

"You planning on untying me?" he mumbled as his hands clenched open and closed.

"Nope!" she looked at him, pinned beneath her "You're doing this...hands free tonight!" she lowered herself and felt his tongue run up the crease of her folds. She hummed and growled her approval...

TBC