Lost:
Chapter 20:
Eponine's mind is spinning. This kiss with Marius is something she feels like she's always wanted, but at the same time it feels so wrong.
"Stop it Eponine!" she yells in her head. Nothing is stopping her though. She doesn't even remember this boy, yet she can't help herself from what she's doing.
Marius slowly pulls away and smiles at her. Eponine is out of breath and she feels like she's going to have a panic attack. She can feel the medicine kicking in and she can't see straight.
"I…" she tries to say, but no words can come out. Marius smile fades.
"Did you not like it?" he asks, looking completely broken.
"No…I….what about your blonde friend?" she asks innocently.
"Enjolras? Oh, I didn't even think of him…"
"No…the girl, the one who's been in here with you ever day…crap what's her name?" Eponine searches her memory for the blonde girl. Marius throws his hand to his head and collapses on the chair.
"Cosette…crap," he says. "Eponine, you have to promise not to say a word about this."
Eponine is taken aback. "Why?" Marius sighs and takes her hand.
"Cosette's my girlfriend. And this will kill her. Also, we can't tell Enjolras." Eponine looks around the room trying to stay calm.
"Hey, hey, it's okay," Marius says, holding on to her hand.
"Why…why can't we tell them? Why did you kiss me if you have a girlfriend? Why is this happening? Did I like you before? Did we have something before? What is going on?" she starts asking. Marius shushes her and strokes his hand through her hair.
"I kissed you because…because I used to have feelings for you, before I met Cosette. I don't think you've ever had feelings for me, though. We've always been like brother and sister. And we can't tell them because Cosette will either break up with me or kill me…or both, and Enjolras…well Enj has a crush on you." Eponine is surprised to hear this.
"Someone has a crush on me? I look awful, though."
"Gosh, Eponine, really? Is that what you think of yourself? What made you start thinking all of that?" he asks, but then remembers she can't remember a thing. "Sorry…I forgot." She laughs at the irony.
"Eponine, you're beautiful. Every guy you know thinks that. No one can ever tell you differently, and I hope no one ever has." He says, squeezing her hand. Eponine feels the room spinning and moves uncomfortably in her bed.
"Is the medicine kicking in?" he asks and she nods. He puts his hand behind her neck.
"Get some rest. They'll be back tomorrow to hound you with more questions. You have to be ready," he says and kisses her forehead. Eponine lets her eyes flutter shut.
After about a minute, Marius gets up and starts pacing. He's in trouble. BIG trouble. He just cheated on his girlfriend and kissed the girl his best friend is in love with.
What have I done? Marius thinks to himself.
The worst part is…he doesn't feel any regret to it.