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Shizuo

Shizuo closed his eyes, laying back. His lower half ached, his bones were fragile at the moment. If Izaya had managed to break something, he wouldn't be able to move for a while. He could see the lust in Izaya's eyes, change to panic and concern. His gaze followed Izaya's taking in the mess they had made and no doubt, they had stained the carpet.

He looked down in shock as his shirt was cut, bunched up and rubbed across his stomach, as a cleaning cloth. "What are you doing? Flea." There was a slight hint of panic in his voice as the other's hands slid underneath his body. He could see the strain in the flea's face as he lifted him up. "Oi, flea. Put me down." He struggled in his new lover's arms, his face red. It was mortifying.

"Shizu-chan, stay still." But he couldn't, as much as he loved Izaya, he had never wanted him to go this far, all he was doing was causing more trouble. He counted each step, the look on Izaya's face as he no doubt got heavier. This wasn't how it was supposed to be. Although he had never dreamed Izaya might feel the same, in an ideal world, it should be him looking after the flea.

They finally reached the bathroom, Shizuo looked away as he was lowered into the tub, he couldn't help wince, as his back, met the ceramic of the bath. He watched from the corner of his eye, as Izaya put the plug in and turned on the tap. He let out a sigh of relief as Izaya left the room. Gently he laid back, fingers moving over his hips and lower back. Nothing felt broken. Still it was his first time. He didn't know if the pain was normal.

One arm was uselessly against his chest, while the other was curled around his knees, as he tried to cover up his embarrassment. Izaya had the same feelings as him. He used his hand to wipe away the stupid grin that wanted to take over his face. The water reached halfway, before the flea stepped back in the room. "Where did you go? Flea."

"Cleaning up our mess. I still have clients, Shizu-chan." His face flushed, making him turn away, though he was sure Izaya had seen it. "Can you tell if anything broke?" Why was he asking such questions? Damn it. He didn't move as he felt Izaya's hands in his hair. He took the wash cloth, noticing how the flea wasn't looking at him. He was glad, who knew what it would lead to.

"I thought you broke my hip, it doesn't look like anything is broken." Who would have guessed they would be having this conversation. He could imagine the look on Shinra's face and the way Celty would type randomly in shock. And thinking of Shinra, he needed to make a decision. "Hmm. So no sex until you're better, Shizu-chan."

Did Izaya notice his disappointed look? "Seems so. We can do everything else. Just not...that." He had waited too long and now they were finally together, he didn't want the flea to stop. "The word is penetration, Shizu-chan. Does that include my fingers?" He finally looked up glaring into those mischievous crimson eyes. "Have you seen my file?" He couldn't hold it off any longer.

He could feel Izaya's fingers stop moving. That answered his question. He was a nosy informant who wanted to know everything. Of course he would see the file of his most hated enemy, well ex-enemy. "Shinra gave me a copy." Shizuo let out a small sigh. Partly because he was glad, he didn't have to explain everything. And because Izaya hadn't lied to him or tried to cover it up. "Good."

"Oh?" He could hear the hint of confusion in the flea's voice. He relaxed as Izaya went back to washing his hair. "You know everything, I don't have to explain it." But now there was something else bugging him, whispering doubt in the corner of his mind. "Flea, no. Izaya. Would you still love me, if I went back to being a monster?" Izaya's fingers didn't stop, he carried on washing his hair. "Shizu-chan, go back to who you were." The blond lowered his head, it wasn't an answer. "We're in this together, silly protozoan."

He shivered as Izaya licked the shell of his ear. "As soon as you're better, you have a lot to make up for." Damn the flea, being able to do that. His lower half twitched, his hand covering, so Izaya didn't see. It didn't stop those travelling hands as soon as his hair had been rinsed. He blinked, watching his new lover strip. "What are you doing?"

The flea smirked as he climbed in behind him. Shizuo cursed inwardly, Izaya had to be doing everything on purpose. Arms much stronger than his currently were, wrapped around his waist. He shivered as Izaya tweaked one of his nipples, his other hand travelling to his growing erection. "What are you going to tell Shinra?" His voice was low, breath hot against his ear.

"I can't be like this any more. I never wanted to be this weak." He jumped as the other nipped his shoulder. "Oi, flea. Watch it. That'll probably scar." His breath hitched as Izaya moved his hand,stroking him in an even rhythm. It wasn't long before his body tensed, before he released, once again having to clean himself.

Using his good hand, he tried to pull himself out of the bath, legs wobbling. He could feel Izaya's gaze on him, ready to help, if he needed it. Shizuo wrapped the towel around him, his head jerking forward as he sneezed. Was he getting sick again? The flea was there, quickly drying him, leading him to the bedroom. "I'll call Shinra for you, after I get dressed." He let himself be tucked in, watching through half lidded eyes as Izaya left the room. "Atchoo. Damn."

"Shizu-chan." He opened his eyes, feeling dizzy. Izaya was there with Shinra. He felt the flea's cold ring, as his hand was placed on his forehead. "You're burning up again." He couldn't hear what Izaya said next, his eyes closing briefly.

Shizuo shook his head, blinking. He needed to stay awake. "Shinra, I made my decision." The illegal doctor had his file in his hand. "Fix it." Shinra nodded. "Do you want Izaya to leave?" He shook his head. "No, I want him to stay." He held out his hand, Izaya taking it almost immediately. "Did something happen between you two?" Neither of them answered.

"My father did a lot of damage, Shizuo. Its going to be a long process and it will be painful." Shinra opened the file. "I'll need to operate on you and remove anything he did. But that's not all. I don't know what will happen, once you're back to normal, you might be even stronger." Shizuo lowered his head. He didn't want that either.

"You'll be in a lot of pain. Every muscle and bone, will need to get stronger. It will be worse than when you first broke your bones as a child." Ah, that he remembered. Every crack, fracture and broken bone. He had been relived when nothing had happened, after he lifted something. He had thought those days of pain, would finally be over.

He nodded, not trusting himself to speak. It was going to hurt, he knew it. But it was his own fault. He had wanted to be human, now he had to go back through the transformation to a monster, one that had taken years, the first time. "Okay. As soon as your temperature drops, we'll start. I'll see you soon Shizuo."

He felt the bed dip as Izaya joined him. "Is Shizu-chan scared?" He closed his eyes, not hearing the usual taunting that came with that sentence. This time it was genuine concern. "When I was a kid..." Shizuo looked up, seeing if he should continue or not. "Go on." He smiled, squeezing the other's hand. "When I was a kid, I tried to throw a fridge at Kasuka." The flea settled down next to him. "What did he do?" Another sneeze and a slight dizziness over took him. "He ate my pudding."

He could hear the other laugh. "Ah, I tried everything to annoy you in high school. I should have just stolen your lunch." Shizuo weakly moved his arm, elbowing Izaya. "I wasn't strong enough. My bones broke and I dropped the fridge. Luckily it fell behind me or I would have been crushed. After that..." His vision blurred, eyes closing. "Shizu-chan?"

"It kept happening, my bones kept breaking until they got strong enough. It took until high school." Another sneeze, he kept blinking trying to stay awake. "You should get some rest, Shizu-chan. You have another fever." Shizuo nodded, his eyes closing. "It hurt, it will be worse this time." His eyes opened as Izaya shuffled under the covers. "I'll be here this time, Shizu-chan." Shizuo couldn't stop his eyes closing. "Thanks,flea."

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