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Disclaimer: These characters belong to Stephanie Meyers, but this story line is my own. KLAG.

Bella Pov

"Baby, please let me take you out. Let me make it up to you.",He asks, craning his neck to look me in the eyes. He walks forward and the look he's giving me is panty dropping.

I almost tell him yes on the spot. I'll do whatever he wants me to do if he keeps looking at me like that.

"This was planned already, baby. I had to make reservations, and...Bella can you just...", He closes his eyes and exhales through his nose.

"Bella, sweetie. He went through alot to plan this", Alice encourages, and I strike her a look. But then I remember, she's on his side.

"Of course he did!", I fold my arms. I realize that it is a little bratty of me so I sigh. "I appreciate what you went through for this dinner, but I'm sorry Edward. I really need time to think", I say sincerely, and he looks crushed. Alice shakes her head from side to side.

"Think about what", Edward questions but I can tell that he already knows the answer.

"Think about us.", I reply in frustration, and it may have even come off as me snapping at him, but really I'm just annoyed. I really just want to think about any and everything other than what happened lastnight. But every time that I see him, I'm reminded of last night.

He thinks that it's just about the dance, but it's not. It's about his feelings for Victoria. I'm not sure that I'm comfortable with it.

One day he may realize that what he feels for her is more than friendly, and I won't be able to handle loosing him. I'm more prepared right now.

I can just break it off now, and deal with the heart ache, and the feelings of loss because I'll miss him.

I can pack up my things, and catch a flight home right now, and forget about Edward. I can do that.

I walk away from him yet again, his mouth open, and his face looks pained and bewildered. He can't seem to understand why? That question is written all over his face. I turn with out saying another word.

I walk up the stairs to the room that I've been sleeping in, and pull out my bag. I go and grab my toothbrush from the bathroom, along with my toiletry bag. I pack all of my things so that when I come back from shopping I can leave immediately. I need time away from him to think.

I stop and grab my stomach. Fuck it hurts. I need to lay down.

There's a knock, and the door opens its Jane.

"I'm ready Bells", she announces. I drop my bags on the bed and grab my purse, putting the long strap across my shoulder. She looks at my bags skeptically. "Looks like you're leaving."

I nod. "Yea, after we're done shopping", We walk down the stairs to Alice.

"Bella-", Alice starts, and I know what she's going to say. I hold up a hand.

"If it's not about shopping, I really don't want to talk about it Alice. I'm sorry.", I say and she looks like she understands. She pushes aside her worry, and bubbles up with excitement.

"Well, lets go then",She bounces in her usual fashion, getting us out of the doors to her rental.

We hop in, and ease out on to the road in silence.

I feel Alice gaze at me ever so often.

"You know Bella", she starts. I look over at her. "I still don't think we should go to Tyler's", she glances at me then back at the road shaking her head. "Even if you don't go with Edward-"

Jane cuts her off. "-Yea what's that about Bella", Jane scoots to the middle seat and leans forward to look at me skeptically. "You turned down dinner with Edward"

I shoot her a look. "Jane, you saw what he did",

"Yes, and I saw you too. With Mike, and Tyler-", Jane lists.

"-and James.", Alice finishes and I look in time to see her roll her eyes. "He was so mad that you were willingly talking to James."

"I was trying to get him to talk to Victoria", I explain, snapping out of frustration. I move my hair out of my face. I feel like everyone is pressuring me to let this go and I don't do well under pressure.

I feel like no one understands.

"Look it doesn't even matter. I don't really want to talk about this okay", I say in a 'drop it' tone. Then something occurs to me. "Wait how do you even know that I turned Edward down", I ask Jane.

"Garrett told me", she replies and I look back at her.

Whats going on between her and Garrett?

"What's with you two", I ask her.

"We are just really good friends. He's easy to talk to, and I'm pretty sure that he feels the same way about me. I kept him from a lot of fights last night. That guy has a temper", She explains and I shake my head.

"It just seems more than friendly, and I don't want there to be a problem between you and Kate. Plus, he's my cousin, and your my...", I trail off and she laughs.

"We aren't sisters anymore Bells", she hugs my shoulders and I laugh.

"Yea, but that's still a bit weird", I say lowering my eyebrows at her.

"Nothing's going on between us. He was pissed at Kate, and I just talked him through it", She explains and it has me thinking. Was Victoria talking Edward through his anger at that party as well. I don't want him running to her every time that he and I have a problem. She would know all of our business, and I would never know what she knows.

God I hate their relationship. If they hadn't dated it may have been a little less annoying.

We all get quiet and I can slowly feel tension bubbling up in the car. We sit for a few minutes, no one speaking as we enter a parking spot.

"I still think that you should go with him", Jane says out of nowhere and I snap. I sigh heavily, yanking my seat belt off, opening the door and hopping out.

They follow. I stop some distance from them with my arms folded. "Bella, you're fucking stubborn. He said that he was sorry", she walks towards me and I turn to walk ahead of them.

I wish everyone would just mind their own business. They have no idea why I'm upset.

We shop in silence the first thirty minutes, then out of nowhere Jane starts doing stupid shit that make Alice and I laugh.

"You two make me wish that I had a sister", Alice says as we reach her car after our shopping excursion. We put our bags in the trunk, and get back into the car, heading back to the house. "Listen Bella, Victoria is the closest thing that I have to a sister. I grew up with her. I don't always agree with her, or what she says or does, but...", she shrugs glancing over at me. "We're basically family.", she explains, and I can tell that there are so many reasons that she said what she said .

I understand all of that about Victoria. I'm simply deciding whether or not that I can live with it. I love Edward, I do. But sometimes you have to ask yourself is it worth it?

Then it hits me like a ton of bricks.

It is worth it. Edward is worth it. We are worth it.

When we pull in front of the house I find myself smiling, wishing that I had came to this conclusion earlier.

We walk into the house and I immediately go up the stairs looking for Edward. I want to apologize to him. I did my share of wrong last night too, and I should have explained to him the whole James situation.

I walk past the bathroom and see Edward in the room next to mine with the door cracked. I smile because I love his voice. What's he saying?

I zone in on his words.

"-It just pissed me off, but I'll just...think of something else", He sighs heavily, tapping his phone against his open hand.

I see a hand touch his wrist. "Just give it time, okay", I hear a female, and place the face to be Victoria. The hand moves. "Thanks for this.", she says excitedly.

Thanks for what?

"Reservations are at nine thirty, so you need to hurry up and get dressed", he pushes, and I cover my mouth to hide my gasp.

Is he taking her to dinner? Why would he do that? Why did she accept? I thought that she was into James? I take a few steps back and enter the room that I've been staying in, closing the door behind me.

I can't stay here!

I take a deep breath and close my eyes, inhaling and exhaling deeply to slow my heart down. My pulse is racing and I can literally hear my heart beat as my adrenaline rushes.

I push hard off of the door, grabbing my bag.

This is what I had planned on doing anyways.

I open the door walking off to the front door. I almost make it out, when I turn to close the door, there Edward stands. His eyebrows knit, his eyes taking in my bag and my sneaking form.

"Bella, where are you-", He starts, his eyes looking between my eyes. I just want him to hurt just a fraction as bad as I do. He can't possibly be as crushed as I am.

"Heading over to Tyler's.", I point out the door.

"Why are you taking your bag",He puts his hand on the door, taking a step toward me.

I shrug and sniff looking away from his gorgeous face. "I don't know, I uh... I may stay the night. It may be a very long night. Who knows", I take a step back out of the house.

"Bella-", He asked in a pain laced tone, cutting me deep. I almost loose courage and strength to say what I have to say.

As I build up courage, my anger brews. I glare at him to stop from crying. How dare he invite his ex on a date? A date that he had planned for me.

I can't handle that!

"No Edward, stop it! It's done. We are done. I am done talking. No more talking okay. I'm breaking up with you", I fold my arms, and stare at him. His eyes search my eyes, and I see him get angrier by the millisecond.

I don't wait for him to speak I walk down the stairs and to the road. I didn't count on it being this cold, nor do I have a plan, but I know that I needed to get out of there and away from him. I also know that I'm fucking cold.

I get about a mile down the road when a car stops in front of the side walk where I'm about to cross. I look at the car as the window rolls down. "Hey Bella. It's freezing out here. Where are you walking", It's Mike.

"To the um...I'm going to the airport actually.", I say looking down. "I'm going home"

"Hop in. I'm on my way to the airport too. I have practice in the morning", He says and I smile thankful that he came down the road because it's freezing.

I get in and we take off towards the airport. Mike begins to talk and I hear him, but I'm consumed by my thoughts.

I broke up with him!

Fuck, and I miss him already. My chest hurts. I can't be with someone that puts their bestfriend before their girlfriend.

How would he feel if Jake was now my best friend and we had a 'friendly' dance in front of his friends? It's fucking embarrassing.

Not only is it embarrassing, it hurts. He continues to hurt me. I'm done with him. I'm done with us.

Edward Pov

I feel it. I've been running away from relationships for years to avoid this feeling. To avoid feelings. I knew that I needed to avoid all of the payback from how I treated women coming back to haunt me. But it came back in the form of Bella. This woman broke me.

It's hard to express how I feel for Bella. I know that I'm in love with her. I know that in these short months I have fallen so hard for this girl it's like she open my eyes. Bella opened my heart and taught me that love is possible. She's all that I need, and I realized that after only knowing her a month. I knew that I would be satisfied with her, and only her because of how she made me feel.

I've been with plenty of girls, and none of them came close to Bella. They can't even compare; not in looks, or personality. None of them can even match her sexually. Bella and I have something special and she told me that she felt it too. How can she let this feeling go? Our love is one in a million. Our love has completely changed my life for the better. I can't let our love go. I can't let this feeling go.

The feeling of my heart leaping out of my chest when she smiles at me. My breathe hitching when she blushes, because fuck my girl is beautiful.

But she's not my girl anymore, and that fucking sucks. Why is she doing this to me? She knows how I feel and she's rejecting me. Is she running from how she feels about me? Something is not adding up. She can't just be pissed about a dance.

"Was that Bella", Garrett asks walking with me towards the bar.

I nod. "Yeah, she's going to that party at Tyler's house", I shrug slouching on the bar stool staring down at my hands.

"Kate's over there too",He says, then he nudges my shoulder and I look up. "You want to go crash it? I was going to go hang out with Riley at Royce's cabin but this is better. Let's go", He nudges me again.

"No, I'm good here man. She'll be back. I don't want her to think that I don't trust her.", I don't bother telling him that she just broke up with me. She probably just really needs to think without me breathing down her neck. If I go to that party to check up on her it'll only make it worst.

"You may trust her, but fuck, I don't trust Kate.", He says looking over his shoulder at a girl as she walks by looking at us. She waves as she passes by and he winks.

"I still can't believe you told her that you needed space on this trip. Bella would have had my balls if I told her that", I say with a laugh thinking about my girl. I haven't kissed her in twenty four hours. I haven't held her, or made love to her in longer and it's killing me.

"Bella already has your balls. You've turned pussy since you've been with her.", He laughs, as I smirk staring down at my phone wishing that she'd call me. "Edward listen man, it was a party, and you both fucked up.", He shrugs.

"She was only reacting to how I treated her. I know how she is", I reply to him and he fold his arms and rubs his chin.

"Okay so you're not mad at her for going to hang out with a guy that wants her? That doesn't worry you?", He asks and I shake my head no. "Wow. Shit Edward, even I'm pissed at her"

"She'll be fine. Kate's with her", I shrug and stand from my seat.

"That's what I'm worried about Ed. Kate's a bad influence.", He says and I laugh because it's true. "Hey tell Victoria to go spy for us", Garrett says and I shake my head no, stretching my arms.

"She's using my reservations. She should be leaving soon", I reply to him grabbing a cigarette out of my pocket.

"With who", He asks, taking a glance around the room.

"She's going with James.", I reply as I reach for my lighter.

He shakes his head. "Can't believe that she's going anywhere with that fucking loser", I put the cigarette to my lips walking towards the front door. He follows. "When Bella gets back, make her sit down and hear you out. She's just stubborn and she does shit without any real thought.",

I nod because I know this about her. I know just about everything about my girl.

Except, she's not my girl anymore.

I open the door to walk out when I feel my arm being tugged back inside.

"Either of you seen Bella", Jane asks looking between the two of us. I feel like I'm being chastised. Jane looks like she'll put us in endless mental torment if we don't answer her in a way that she deems appropriate. Garrett points at me, and then raises his hands in surrender. "Don't fuck with me right now Garrett, I'm not in the mood"

"She left. She said that she was going over to Tyler's", I respond to her and her eyes snap to my face.

She glares at me. "You fucking let her go", She raises her voice. I nod, and she reaches her hand to hit my arm.

"What the fuck",I ask confused, staring down at her. Garrett laughs.

"Shut up Garrett. God, you two are fucking idiots." she rubs her forehead. "Did she actually say that she was going to Tyler's"

I nod. "Yeah, she said she was going."

"Okay, okay, okay", she taps her forehead looking down. "Did she have a bag with her"

I nod, and her face turns angry again as she hits both me and Garrett. "What the fuck", Garrett says and makes a face. This time I laugh. "Fuck you Jane. How does such a small person hit so hard?", She hits him again.

"Edward, you idiot. Bella left. She's going home", Jane explains and shit starts to add up.

Why would she take a bag to Tyler's and his place is only a little ways down from here? I knew that that was strange.

"She's going back to Seattle? Why?", I furrow my eyebrows in confusion. Is she that pissed at me?

"She's probably mad that I tried to pressure her into going with you tonight", She grabs both Garrett's arm and my arm pulling us to my rental. We hop in quickly, pulling out onto the road.

"Why would she leave? She has to spend money on another ticket. I told her that I didn't want her using her money on this trip", I smack the steering wheel pissed off at how this trip has turned out. "Fuck!", I smack it again.

"Take it easy", Jane says to me and it only makes things worst.

"Why would she break up with me and leave without telling me? Why would she lie? Is she trying to hurt me", I ask looking over at them for an explanation that they don't have.

"Wait, she broke up with you", Jane asks, and I nod. Both Garrett and Jane sigh heavily. "Fucking Bella! What's going on with you sweetie", Jane says to herself and I see Jane take out her phone. She presses buttons and puts it to her face. "Why would she leave without getting me?", Jane asks and I roll my eyes. "She's sending me to voicemail. How long ago did she leave"

"Ten minutes maybe, I don't know. Not long", Iam beyond pissed that she would do this. All because I danced with Victoria?

What does she want me to do? Does she want me to never see Victoria again, because I swear that I'll do it. I gave up my lifestyle for her, I can give up a friendship. It will crush Victoria, but I told Bella that I would do anything for her. I will do anything for her. I just want her to be happy.

I speed to the airport getting there in record time, and that's when the search began. We looked everywhere and we could not find her. I called her back to back, and so does Jane, apparently Garrett forgot his phone.

She wouldn't answer anyone's calls.

Finally I get a call after an hour of searching. I look down at my phone and shake my head. It's Alice.

I wish that it was Bella. Where the fuck are you Bella?

"Edward?" She shouts urgently and I immediately know that something is wrong.

"What's wrong?", I quickly reply looking around for both Garrett and Jane.

"I know where Bella is?",

Bella Pov

God damn it Kate! I can't believe her. This girl is drunk off her ass crying about Garrett at Tyler's party.

She calls me, and of course I have to come running. She'd do the same for me. It sucks that Mike might miss his flight. He offered to drive me back.

I guess that I will end up at that party after all. What a turn of events. Maybe I need this.

I could use a damn drink. The day that I have had; I deserve to have one. My heart is broken, and I'm tired of thinking about him. Wondering what he's doing. Wishing that it were me that he was enjoying dinner with.

When Mike gets there I walk into the cabin and search for Kate. I find her sitting on the couch in the living on her phone.

"-this is your fucking fault with your fucking games Garrett-", She screams, and I reach forward grabbing the phone from her.

"Hello", I say into the phone waiting for a reply, but it doesn't come. "Hello", nothing. I look at the screen of the phone. She's shouting at his voicemail. I shake my head at her. "Kate, we should go",

"No, Bells. I barely hung out with you at all lastnight. Come on babe, drink with me.", She stands quicker than she should be able to move for someone that's drunk. "I want to dance", And then she starts dancing, swaying to the music and I laugh because I needed this. I love Kate.

"Okay, Kate. I'll have one drink.", We stand and walk over to the bar.

As we are approaching the bar Tyler and his brother Matt appear out of nowhere. "Hey Bella, you remember these guys", Kate flirts and I stand there completely uncomfortable. I told this guy that I wasn't coming to his party yet here I am.

I nod, smiling politely, glancing at Kate watching as she takes out three shooters each and hands me a bottle. Fuck its gin! I can't turn down shots in front of everyone. God, this is going to royally fuck me up and I'm going to regret it in the morning. I just know it.

I pour our shots, and I hear Tyler speak. "Sexy ass bartender", He says and I roll my eyes.

We toss the shots back one after another hitting the counter, feeling the burn of our throats as the alcohol makes it way down. I feel a hand on my waist and I look down. It's Tyler's hand. I look back up at his face and he squints his eyes at me. "You sure that you can handle your liquor?", He hands me a shot. I toss it back handing him the glass staring at him, daring him to challenge me.

He does.

He tosses back three shooters looking back at me to show me how unaffected he was, and I smirk. "You drink rum?", He asked and I nod. He goes around the wall and I peek over to see him take out a bottle of rum and a bottle of Coke.

I smile because that's a drink that I can handle. I swivel in the chair looking back at Kate. She's dancing with some guy and she is having so much fun. I laugh. She's so carefree, its amazing to watch. I feel as though I've never had that luxury.

I still envy her ability to be carefree, I've always envied Tanya's. I'd even envied Edward and Emmett carefree nature at one point in time.

Now that I look around I feel my eyes opening to the world. Most of these college kids are carefree. Alot of them have money and if college doesn't work out for them, they have something to fall back on. Even Kate and Jane's dad's have money. Garrett and I are the only ones that aren't previledged.

We pretend to be carefree.

Well, atleast I do. I worry about everything, down to the possibilities.

"Bella",I hear Tyler say and I snap out of my thoughts. I see him holding a cup out to me. I grab the cup and take a swig. He takes ny cup placing it on the counter.

He pulls me up and onto the dance floor, and at first I'm nervous but eventually I feel the music. We dance and I laugh dancing around, swaying, actually feeling happy. I dance around, throwing my arms up completely enjoying myself.

He grabs my hands putting them on his shoulders as he grabs my hips moving me to the music. I throw my head back, and with closed eyes I sway my head from side to side smiling up.

I feel myself letting go of all of the drama, I almost feel carefree. I feel light on my feet, as I sing the lyrics. It feels so good to just let your hair down and be free. I don't often allow myself to feel this way.

I then began to feel a tingling in my spine and it radiates through my body.

I feel so sensual.

I rub my hands down my body, and it feels good. I imagine Edwards hands on my hips squeezing them as he dances with me. His body close to mine, I feel my body light up in flames. As my hands roam my body slowly I imagine Edwards arms leaving trails of fire igniting my body. I shiver almost.

God, I'm so hot! I start to tingle in other places. Places down lower and that's when I realize that I may be going too far.

I start to feel hot so I take off my sweater, throwing it in the corner. "Are you hot?", He asks. I nod and he smiles, he reaches down for my hand and I throw him a look.

"Let's cool off.",He smiles and tugs me to the living room. I probably should sit down. The alcohol hit me quicker tonight than it did last night. I sit on the couch and nervously drink down my rum and coke.

He sits next to me, placing his hand on my knee looking at me casually. I start to move his hand when I feel my vision blur slightly. "I'm going to go get Kate", I try to say and I feel like I'm talking in slow motion. Fuck I'm slurring already. How much did I drink?

"I can see her from here, look...", He points and I turn back and see Kate still dancing. I feel his hand creep up a bit and I look over at him, and slowly attempt to move away from him.

"What are you doing", I try to say and I feel myself slur.

"Getting to know you", He says as I feel his hand slip further towards my ass as his other hand reaches for my face.

"Can you stop?" I try to raise my voice to show my displeasure, but he doesn't drop his hands. I struggle to move away from him, and I feel one of his hands grip my wrist and I panic. "You're hurting me",