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Asma looked at him and said "Mash'Allah" to congratulate him but her eyes betrayed her incomprehension, perhaps too full of information at once.
"I'm very happy for you Spencer. " She saw that he was waiting for his answer. Seeing someone join the community was always something to celebrate for a believer, whatever religion it was. "When you told me that you believe in God, I was hoping that time comes. "She continued a little more confident.
"I've thought about it, it's been several months since it runs in my head and I cogitate on it, about God, about Islam, about everything. "
Reid's eyes seemed to explain his thinking faster than words could do, they were moving a lot, as if they want to seek what he had to say.
"You said it to someone else? "She asked.
"My friends know. "He replied.
By "friends" he pointed to all members of his team and she knew it was them.
"How did they react? "She asked, frowning slightly anxious to know if that was what put him in this state.
"The girls took it well, JJ said it will not change her feelings for me. "
"She is very nice. "Asma said, shaking his head, but the first part of response in all understood that some didn't take it as well.
"Hotch supports me and assured me he would keep me on the team, Rossi is happy for me. "He paused, the evocation of the name following cost him a bit. He opened his mouth and said:
"For Morgan, I don't think he understands. "
He eased the fact he had not mentioned that he didn't speak to him anymore and currently they looked at each other without saying a word.
"You think? "
"Yes, Morgan does not believe in God, he lost his faith when he was very young, and it's understandable," he defended him. "Between his experience and the work we do, there is something doubtful. So since I told him that I wanted to convert he tryied to tell me that I made a mistake. "
He looked at her eyes a little lost, as if he was talking with someone who could understand his feelings because she knew little Morgan.
"He went to tell Hotch that came to see me and told me I had to go the way I wanted, but he told him as he told Gideon when I had nightmares as he pointed out to others that I had trouble with guns when I got to the FBI. It is as if he put me constantly in the position of the child. "
Asma sought to meet the gaze of the young man looked down because he spoke of something painful.
"He probably did this to protect you. "
"I don't need to be protect. "He replied calmly.
"It's because he wants you to be safe Spencer, he is afraid that you get into troubles and he is afraid of not being the best place to talk with you. He has this place that can protect as a big brother but he can't be counselor because he probably doesn't have the life experience What M. Rossi and M. Hotchner, who take the role of a father or an elder who can advise you. "
Reid looked up at her and caught her eye, and smiled.
"Are you sure you have not studied psychology? "
She smiled and decided it was time to change the subject of conversation.
"You put away your chess? "She said, pointing to the empty chessboard.
"Yes, a new opponent is waiting. "He smiled, but thinking about Henry brought him back to JJ and his revelations.
"Asma, I have something to tell you. "
She looked curious but a little anxious about the tone he had taken.
"Asma, is that you're already made you realize you wanted to have something when you almost lose it? "
Spencer sought the least harmful way to address this thorny issue, a kind of slippery slope.
"What do you mean? "She asked him.
"I mean, I'm afraid" He looked for a moment without saying anything before making a raised eyebrow that was meant seriously and continued, "Now I'm afraid of losing you. "
She stood there without saying anything, surprised, and seconds seemed to be like an eternity to Spencer who had made a declaration of love to the woman he loved without knowing if it was mutual and if she was truly free.
"Why are you afraid of losing me? "She asked.
He answered.
"Because JJ told me that you had already been proposed official engagement. "
Asma looked in silence, it was probably surprised that JJ had say this to Spencer but in the end it did not seem to change much for her.
"I'm not engaged. I was made proposals, but I refused. "She paused as if to chose the words she had to say:
"But ... "She said, trying also to find the words to put on his thinking. "Yes, I've realized that I wanted someone at this point. This is the day when Penelope called me and she told me what happened to you. I was scared. Scared because I did not realize I could lose you like this. I did not realize the place that you had made in my life. "
She smiled shyly. They were, after weeks to ask questions, everyone finally had the answers they expected. At that moment everything seemed to be great.
"Asma, I have nothing to give to you, no ring or anything else, but do you want to marry me and spend the rest of your life with me ?" he asked with a smile.
"Of course I want." she answered in a smile.