CHAPTER 21

A/N A small jump in time ok?

For the past three months, me and Edward have become very good friends, we have watched a lot of movies with the gang and by ourselves and we have shared a lot of coffees and conversations where we discuss movies, books, music, our families, a lot of subjects but never our pasts.

Bree has asked me about him, she says that she sees a change in me, and that she thinks it´s because of my friendship with him, last time I saw her she told me I looked very happy but that she is curious to know what I haven´t tell him anything about my past yet, she started asking me a lot of questions and I ended up crying and telling her that I didn´t want him to think I am a broken woman who probably can´t have children. She told me that friends support each other no matter what and that maybe I need to think if that the reason I haven´t done it yet is because I have feelings for him, I mean not friendly feelings but romantic ones, and that in reality I am afraid of getting my heart broken again. She tells me I need to give him a chance because he is not Peter and he might surprise me, for good.

I have been thinking about what she told me, about how I truly feel about Edward getting very distracted because suddenly I scream when I feel his voice right behind me. "Oh My God Bella I am so sorry, I thought you saw me coming in your classroom" he apologizes while I blush feeling very stupid for screaming. Next thing I know, Alice is in my classroom asking if I am ok and why I was screaming. I try to talk but she doesn´t let me until I put my hand in her mouth, covering it and I say "Thank you Alice, I was just thinking and didn´t listen when Edward came to my classroom, i´m sorry I scared you" I hug her and then I turn to look at Edward who only says "hey, no hug for me? I believe I got scared by your scream as well" I roll my eyes and hug him and then I look at him asking what is he doing here, if he needs anything to which he replies "yes I actually need you to come with me to have lunch, what do you think?" I tell him yes and grab my purse, Alice is looking at us smiling and before I say anything she walks away saying "already sailing Bella" and starts laughing.

He drives us to a small restaurant outside Port Angeles, thank God it´s Friday and he picked me up today because by the time we will return to Forks it sure will be dark and the parking lot at school is kind of scary. He once again put the Jason Mraz playlist and we start singing I´m yours at the top of our lungs. I love spending time with him, he is smart, educated, has a beautiful soul and always makes me feel happy, he is an adorable man, he always teases me when I tell him that but I know he loves it, and I love it as well, I love… I think I do have feelings for him. Realizing that makes me stop singing and stare at him. He looks at me and sees the apprehension in my face and asks me what´s wrong. I lie and tell him it´s nothing and in that moment I decide that I need to talk to him, he needs to know about my past. He grabs my hand and intertwines our fingers together, he´s still looking at the road and tells me "whatever it is Bella, I am here, I want you to understand that, I am not going anywhere"

We arrive at the restaurant and we get seated at the windows where we can see people walking in the deck, we order our meals and we eat in silence. Finally he grabs my hand again and asks me to look at him "Bella what´s wrong? What did I do? All I know is that we were singing and suddenly you stopped singing and got all weird on me. talk to me sweetheart, you´ve been kind of putting a distance between us, what´s wrong sweetie?" at those words I just look at him, tears threatening to spill and I hear him saying "shit" before taking out his wallet , throwing some money in the table and taking my hand. We start walking until we reach a bench and then he sits me and stands between my legs, touching my face and asking me once again what´s wrong.

I throw my arms around his waist and start crying, I don´t care that we are in public, that I am probably going to look awful, I just sob while he rubs my back saying it´s going to be ok but I need to open up to him. I finally look at him and whisper "Ok"

Ha! I needed to end the chapter here! Because the talk was going to make it a very long chapter and I prefer it this way.

Next chapter? The Talk