Chapter 21

Why I Was in Love with You

Kai was in his now homeland, Phoenix Fire, and yes, the place really is on fire. It is like a living hell. This is now where he resides ever since the accident that caused the death of the one he loved to suffer and die.

Kai was in his room trying to cope with the death of Kira even though it was more than one month ago. He just couldn't get over it. Kira meant so much to him and he thought he would spend his whole life with her. But he was wrong.

Here he is now, living a lie. Living a life he shouldn't be living. He should be with Kira, and one year later, he'll be back to the way he was. But that didn't happen.

Instead, her life was taken away and his true form too. Without Kira, he could never turn back into a human. But can't he just find someone else that he could love and cherish? No. It was impossible. There was no one else out there who could ever replace Kira. She just meant too much to him.

As Kai had flashbacks of their fondest memories together, he fell down on the floor into tears. He began to pound the ground so hard, his hands were bleeding.

"Why?! Why?! Why?! WHY?!"

He just kept on pounding and pounding the ground until the Chief Phoenix Demon, Hiroyuki, heard Kai's heavy pounds and came into the room.

"Young Kai, what is the matter?"

As he saw Kai on the ground, with his hands bleeding and his tears falling to the ground, he knew what the problem was. Hiroyuki went up to Kai and helped him up. He placed him on his bed and began to talk.

"Kai, what is wrong? Why are you pounding the ground until you're hands bleed?"

"It's just…I don't want this life. I never wanted it. I never expected it. I just wanted to live life the way I want to. By following my heart, and to be with the one I love and to return to the world that I belong to. Not here in this hell."

Hiroyuki stared at Kai and saw more tears fall to the ground. He got up and gave Kai a piece of paper and a pencil.

"Kai, my boy, take this."

"What the hell is this?"

"It is a piece of paper and pencil obviously."

"Yes Master Hiroyuki but I meant, what am I suppose to do with it?"

"Write a letter."

"To who?"

"To the one you love is who."

"Why write a letter to Kira when she's dead and she won't even get it?"

"Don't think of the negative Kai, think of the positive. Think of Kira."

"Okay. Whatever you say Master Hiroyuki."

Kai took the pencil and the paper and began to write. "Here goes nothing."

"Just let your feelings out Kai and tell everything to Kira and how much you love her."

"Alright."

Kai began.

Dear Kira,

Well, here I am. Writing this letter to you. A letter I think will not make it to you but I pray it will. Anyways, I am a man a few words, I think. Especially when it comes to this whole, setting your feelings free. Anyways, I hope you won't be mad at the fact that this letter is short but I'm going to try my best. Especially since it is for you.

So, where should I start? How about my whole identity thing?

Well, I really am a human you know? Well, I guess that isn't so hard for you to believe. Anyways, so it was exactly ten years ago. I was six that time. I was doing some errands for my mom when I decided to pass by the cemetery. You see, my dad passed away when I was four so I thought I'd pay some respect to the old man since he did so much for me and my mom. So I went and while I was paying my respects, I heard some weird rustling sounds and I was curious. So I went to the bushes to investigate and the next thing I know, I was in the hands of what I thought was a vampire since it was sucking the blood out of me. I then went unconscious and when I woke up, I was still in the cemetery. I thought it was a dream, yeah right it was.

I went home and when I went inside, the vampire came out of no where and attacked my mom. It just grabbed her, and just kept on sucking her blood until she had no more blood and was dead cold on the ground. I wish that I did something but I couldn't. I was just a helpless child. And where did that vampire come from? It stalked me home is how.

As I saw my mom's body turn to sand and disappear, I was terrified. I didn't know what the hell I was supposed to do. The vampire then grabbed me and took me to its lair. It then told me I am now officially a Phoenix Demon. I didn't know what the hell he meant. I just obeyed every word he said so that way, I wouldn't get killed.

So it was when I turned 16, the head chief of all Phoenix Demons, Master Hiroyuki, said,

"Young Kai.

Now that you are sixteen,

You have the power to turn back to a human.

But in order to do that, you'll have to go back to your home planet,

And you will find the woman that you want to spend the rest of your life with.

If you stay with her and cherish her for a year,

You will be free from who you are now."

How can I refuse an offer like that?! So I listened to what Hiroyuki said and I left, to venture off into some unknown world. The world I never got the chance to experience.

As I began to find the woman of my dreams, I failed at every attempt. They were just, not who I wanted to be with. They weren't, they weren't the people I could imagine being with for the rest of my life. I kept on feeling like that until I found you.

When I first saw you in that lake, and I saw your face, I just felt something. Something strong. A strong, connection I guess is what I'm sating. And I knew at the moment I helped you up and stared deep into your eyes, I knew you were the one.

But now, how can I be with you forever now when, you're gone? I know you're never gone because you are always going to be in my heart. Anyways, let me just end this letter.

I just want to say I am in love with you because of who you are. You aren't those kinds of people who take advantage of others, who doesn't judge people for how they look. You're just, you're just, you. I don't really know how to explain this but really, all I'm trying to say is that I love you for who you are and I don't want you to change anything about you. I know it's real confusing but,I hope you understand.

Anyways, good bye Kira.

Love,

Kai Hiwatari

As Kai sealed up the letter, he noticed something. H noticed that he didn't forget about Kira unlike what the rules say.

"How, how is that possible?"

Hiroyuki entered the room.

"It is possible because of your love for Kira. It was and still is, so strong. Because of this strong love and bond towards her, the memory of her still rests in your heart no matter what the rules say Kai."

Kai sighed.

"Hiroyuki, why didn't you tell me this before?"

"I never knew you were the type who enjoys spoilers."

"Spoilers? How is this whole strong love towards Kira a spoiler?"

"Kai, when I first saw you, I knew you rather keep to yourself then express your feelings. This is why I did not tell you about this because I knew if I did, you'd never express your feelings to that girl you want to be with. You'd just keep on holding it in your heart and this does nothing but cause more pain."

"I see. But now that I'm done this letter, what will I do with it?"

Hiroyuki took the letter and threw it out the window. "Master!"

"Let your love find a way and when you do, your letter will too."

Master Hiroyuki left Kai's room.

"Thanks Master Hiroyuki. And Kira, rest in peace for alright? And hopefully, we'll reunite someday very soon."

Kai left his room and the door closed.

"I love you Kai, and hopefully we will reunite someday soon."