Chapter 22: Clearing the Water
Author's Note: THANK YOU, reviewers, for both your reviews in general and for pointing out a certain…something I forgot about…GULP! I added the necessary *precaution* we all must learn about in high-school to ensure Kai and Shin had a perfectly safe, lovely time…Again, thanks for pointing that out. Writing fanfics at 3 in the morning can often lead to huge oversights. So that's my excuse. Not much of one, but meh! It's fixed, now! :D
This chapter is QUITE different from the last. This one gets...K+? Maybe a T...well, anyhoo...I really hope you like it! I know it's shorter than my other more recent posts, but hopefully it isn't a dissappointment!
Also, I am horrified by the AWFUL writing apparent in my last few chapters (at least, on their initial posting)...I always return and revise after publishing...probably a bad move, but meh! SO sorry about that! Hope it hasn't put too many people off!
Anyway, hope you enjoy this!
Please R&R~!
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Shinichi woke up to blissful chaos. Something he never would have imagined before having met Kaito, and yet, the phrase was perfectly accurate to describe his morning.
Waking up to the warmth of his boyfriend's leg and arm stretched over him, he smiled only to find a slightly less welcome guest roosting in his hair. Needless to say, Yuzu the dove was quickly shooed away by an overly-possessive Kaito. ('He's mine, dove! Go and make bird babies up there with Kaiki! We don't want any!')
After this little early-morning (especially from the boys' perspective…they'd not fallen asleep till quite late) squabble with feathered-friends, Shinichi was feeling slightly zombie-like and grouchy without his usual fix, but decided that hygiene came before anything else and thus dragged a not-unpleased Kaito to the shower with him.
Kaito enjoyed this morning cleansing particularly for several reasons. First of all, as his coffee-less tantei-kun continued to nod off in the shower, Kaito felt he had full license to step in and take charge as Shinichi's personal shower-guard and attendent…of course, this led, inevitably, to a sleepy Shinichi perched on Kaito's lap as the magician happily scrubbed him down in the tub…A few 'chance slips of the hand,' however, landed Kaito with a bright pink palm and pouty face…
Thirty minutes later, however, Shinichi had his mug of coffee cradled securely in his hands, sipping at it with an incredibly satisfied smile, his peaceful expression interrupted only as he half-heartedly rolled his eyes at Kaito's attempts to give him a full-back and shoulder massage WHILE cooking breakfast.
After working out his detective's over-tight muscles, Kaito stole a quick kiss and doled out French toast and eggs, dragging his chair as close to Shinichi's as the detective's inherent occasional desire for space would allow-this was after Kaito was rejected from his first idea (that he eat his breakfast while perched on Shinichi's lap)…
All in all, for Kaito and Shinichi, those waking hours were full of more affection, amusement and utter satisfaction than they could almost remember ever having had in a single morning. One particularly striking moment (for Shinichi) was when Kaito had produced for him a copy of A Study in Scarlet, something he'd been holding onto for just such an occasion, he said…and Kaito figured that sacrificing a segment of his Shinichi's attentions to that old-time rival of his, Holmes, was occassionally worth it, not only to see the astonishment and ecstasy on his detective's face, but for the way Shinichi, upon receiving the gift, stood suddenly, whisked around the table, grabbed Kaito forcefully by the shoulders, and kissed him deeply.
Ahhh yes…I think that was worth it. I still get the view, after all… Kaito was currently stretched out with Shinichi on his living room couch, Shinichi absorbed somewhere in the book, Kaito's head comfortably positioned on his chest as he scribbled notes to make use of come Heist night…
"Ne, Shin-chan?"
"Mm?"
"Is that your phone ringing?"
"Mm, yeah, suppose so."
Kaito raised an eyebrow at Shinichi's distracted responses. "Want me to get it?"
"Sure, Kai. Go ahead."
Grinning, Kaito turned, lifting Shinichi's shirt to plant a quick, sneaky kiss on his stomach (earning a little squeak from Shinichi) before leaping up happily to answer his Shin-chan's phone…
"Moshi moshi, this is Kudou Shinichi," Kaito said seriously into the phone, grinning at Shinichi for his response (said detective's brow furrowing indicating some return to awareness).
"Shi-Shinichi?"
"Oh, hey Ran!"
"Shinichi!…Your, your voice…did you…?" Ran's voice stumbled over itself as she struggled to find the right words. "So that's what your message last night meant…it makes sense why you left, then, but…but wait! How-did this happen?"
"Well, you see, Ran," Kaito grinned into the phone, facing the receiver, "when my boyfriend and I are together, the sparks are just so incredibly magical that-" but then he pouted as an affectionately exasperated Shinichi took the phone from him, effectively cutting him off.
"Sorry, Ran. That was Kaito just now."
"Hehe…sort of got that…but HEY, your voice, it...it's still...Shinichi! Does that mean you…you really are…?"
He smiled. "Yeah, Ran. It's a little hard to explain, especially over the phone, and I…don't know whether it's permanent. I'm not banking on it, to be honest…but for the time being, I definitely have my body back."
"That's…Shinichi! That's great! I can't…I can't believe it! Well, then, we should do something fun to celebrate as long as you're back that way!"
"…like…?"
"Oooh, I know! Do you and Kaito want to go out on a double-date?"
"W-what?" Shinichi blanched, pulling the receiver back to stare at it as if it had sprouted horns.
"Sounds fantastic, Ran-chan!" Kaito plucked the phone back to say. He then, much to Shinichi's displeasure, had performed a moderately impressive series of acrobatic feats to keep his detective from retrieving said phone, grinning madly as his tantei-kun chased him over the house, slinging 'stupid thief!' and other mild insults at him, all the while Kaito energetically continued making plans with Ran.
"Well, Kaito-kun, Shinichi doesn't know Tomoaki-san that well, so-"
"Tomoaki-san?"
"Oh, umm…I mean, Araide-sensei..."
Kaito met surprised and amused eyes with Shinichi. Both of them could clearly imagine the blush blooming all over Ran's face.
"Yes, Ran-chan? What about Tomoaki-san?" Kaito continued sweetly.
"Oh, um…" She gulped but then seemed to regain her bearings. "Anyway, since this is really supposed to be for Shinichi, Kaito-kun, I thought we could invite Hattori-kun and Kazuha-chan to come along! It would have to be tomorrow at least, then, though…it's such late notice, after all…"
"Hmm, Hei-chan…not a bad idea! Sure! Do you want to do the invitations on your end, Ran-chan? I'll make sure to get our little detective all primped up for tomorrow!"
After a few more happy giggles and last-minute scheming on both ends, Kaito hung up Shinichi's phone to turn to face a fierce glower from his detective.
"Whatever could be the problem, Shin-chan?"
"Kaito, you…what's next? Are you planning on joining Ran on one of her shopping trips?"
"Only if you're the model!" He winked, and then let out a happy little trill at the blush which crept up Shinichi's face.
"Oh, whatever. So what's the plan, then?" Shinichi sighed, slumping his shoulders in resignation as he turned to return to his place on the couch.
"Well, Shin-chan," Kaito quickly moved in to circle his arms around Shinichi's shoulders, situating himself comfortably beside him, "first of all, Ran-chan gets the gist of the transformation, so she said she's got the alibi all covered. Second of all, we're leaving the date plans to the girls."
Shinichi raised an eyebrow. "Is that wise?"
"Heh, don't forget who I am, Shin-chan," he grinned, and then said, in a voice which was a dead-ringer for Toyama Kazuha, "That AHO Heiji's so distracting I totally forgot our plans, Ran-chan! Where were we thinking of going, again?"
Then he grinned at Shinichi, who rolled his eyes.
"Wouldn't it have been easier to just say you'd help pick?"
"Nope! This is much more interesting. This way, the girls get a chance, but if I disagree with their choice, the ball's in our court, right?"
"Oh, fine…you're really…something, aren't you?" Shinichi closed his eyes and leaned back against Kaito, who instantly wrapped his arms around him, pulling him back to lean more comfortably on his chest as they stretched out together.
"You love me, though."
"I do."
Smiling, Kaito bent forward to plant a kiss on Shinichi's forehead, but the detective's words stopped him part-way. "You know, Kaito. About what you said to me last night…I'm not sure if you know how much your words really meant to me…"
Eyes widening, heart speeding up as he listened, Kaito held Shinichi tightly against him, his arms crossed around the detective's chest… "Shinichi, it was nothing, I was just worried so-"
"You really did something to me, Kaito." Shinichi turned around to look at him directly, still sitting half in his lap. "I know I'm feeling more optimistic partly because I'm back in this body, but…that isn't all of it. Not at all. I feel…different this time, Kai. I feel, less unsteady. Much more stable…I almost feel," and he gritted his teeth. "I almost feel like…I'm not scared of turning back to Conan anymore. Of course, I am in terms of getting stuck that way and…I'm not a fan of all of the…inconveniences of the form…" He blushed a little at that, and Kaito smirked, squeezing Shinichi a little more tightly to him.
"But I'm not scared in the way I was. I've been terrified, actually...not just for my body, but for my mind. I've been so conflicted-worried that Edogawa Conan had become too much a part of me, worried that Shinichi was no longer the real me…scared that each time I turn, that I become less and less aware of who I am, that with each transformation, my sense of self, my awareness of my identity…all of it! I was scared of losing it all…"
Staring up into Kaito's eyes, he smiled. "Not anymore, Kai. I'm…not scared anymore. I know, now…and it's because of you…"
"Kudou Shinichi is Edogawa Conan," Kaito said softly, smiling at him with absolutely indefatigable love. "Your experiences, Shin-chan, are your own, and who you are…you aren't who you are only because of your first 17 years as Kudou Shinichi. You are who you are…" and he lightly brushed a wispy strand of hair away from Shinichi's eye, "Both because of your first 17 years as Kudou Shinichi and your most recent three as Edogawa Conan. You are this person," and he gently leaned in and kissed his forehead, "that I love…" Leaning down, he kissed his cheek. "And I wouldn't change you, how you are, right now…for anything."
For a time, they just watched each other, and then Shinichi leaned up to kiss Kaito softly on his lips.
When they separated, Kaito smiled at him, again, pulling him in for a tight hug. "What do you want to do tonight, Shin-chan?"
After a while, Shinichi looked at him seriously. "It's 2:30ish, right? There…is something I'd like to do…"
"Prepare for another sleep-over?"
"Barou," Shinichi smacked him lightly, only making Kaito grin more. "That's part of it, but not all. Pack your bags, though. We're sleeping at my place tonight."
Kaito cocked his head questioningly, and Shinichi's smirk softened. "What I'd like to do…I want to do it while I can, and it's something I can only do thanks to you, Kai, so…" He closed his eyes again, and Kaito pulled him in once more, delivering soft kisses to his eyelids.
"I don't really need to bring pajamas, though, now do I?" He smirked in his ear, and Shinichi smacked him lightly again before leaning back against him, laughing.
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It was almost lunchtime, and Ayumi was staring at the clouds passing by the window. She was having the hardest time paying attention to today's class. Oh, well…not like math using decimals and fractions was too difficult, so she could zone off once in a while, right?
Sighing, she let her eyes wander, once again, to the empty seat beside her, and her thoughts, invariably, wandered to Conan-kun.
Conan-kun. Her friend, crush, and the biggest mystery in her young life. The brilliant boy who had come into their lives from out of nowhere, and who had taught them so much…she trusted him completely and yet, he had always seemed to have so many secrets. While it hurt her that he never seemed to really let them in, she always chocked it up to his being more mature than they were…which was, with the exception of Ai-chan, definitely true.
But now…now there was a secret right before them, out in the open…and he'd even promised to tell them. Ayumi was sure his absence today had to do with it. But the question was, what was the secret? Why did he have to miss school for it? And when would he tell her the truth?
It was just so hard to wait…to wait to really hear his secret, so she could finally, really, be close to him. Whatever it is, Conan-kun, I'll always be your friend.
With a smile, she directed her attention back to the current math problems, and even raised her hand to answer a few, but every so often, her mind would again drift off elsewhere…
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School was out, and the four of them began their usual commute home…as they passed through the gate, though, they saw someone they knew.
"Shinichi-san!" "Shinichi-oniisan!" "Shinichi-niisan!" The three real kids exclaimed in unison, racing up to the young man leaning against the side of the school gate.
"Hey, you guys!" Kaito grinned at them. "How was school?"
"It was pretty fun," Genta answered. "Hey, niisan, are you going to show us some more tricks today?"
"Hm…good question. It's a possibility, but there's something else I…"
"Is it about Conan-kun?" Ayumi interrupted. "Is it about his secret?"'
Kaito grinned at her, crouching down a bit, and said softly, "It is. He's…waiting for you guys, if you'll come with me." Looking across at Haibara, he added "What about you, ojouchan? Are you coming?"
Haibara rolled her eyes. "Might as well…just to make sure that baka doesn't screw things up too completely…"
15 minutes later, the group of five had wandered into Beika park, and Kaito didn't have to lead them from there… The kids made a beeline for the area where they knew he'd be…the area they'd first really gotten him to play with them. He'd been so cold before, but then one day, as if a shell had melted off, he had joined in, played soccer, even played tag with them! Those times were pretty uncommon, though. More often than not, Conan-kun would participate in whatever they wanted to do out of what seemed like patience and resignation.
But I know he really does have fun with us, sometimes… Ayumi set her expression firmly, as she again articulated this conviction to herself.
This particular area of the park was pretty empty. There were no kids around at all. In fact, the only person there was a young man who looked like he was maybe just out of high school, sitting on a swing, staring up at the trees.
Ayumi's heart began to pound as she looked at this young man from behind. His hair was dark-brown and quite neat, but there was one unruly spot in the back…a very familiar spot. Her eyes widened, and she froze momentarily. Looking around, Genta and Mitsuhiko seemed to be in similar states.
Looking up again, she began to slowly walk towards the young man in the swing. She felt drawn to him, as if she couldn't help but continue on, even though part of her was scared of what she'd find.
They were standing right beside the swing set, staring at him. Ayumi took a deep breath and said, in a small voice, "Conan-kun?"
Instantly, the young man stopped swinging, and slowly, he turned to face them. His deep, cerulean eyes were penetrating, scary yet comforting at the same time to the Shounen Tantei…his face was so familiar… and slowly, his expression softened into a gentle smile.
After her brave initial effort, Ayumi suddenly found herself speechless. Try as she might, she couldn't wrench her eyes from his, and he seemed to be telling her…so much…
He smiled again, and then said, "Hey, you guys. Sorry for missing school today, but…I guess you can see why, now…" He trailed off and looked down, his smile fading into a look of concentrated, deep thought.
"But.. so you're…you're really…" Genta spluttered, but then couldn't get anything else out.
Smiling, Shinichi just nodded.
Shock washed over them, and for a time, they could do nothing but stare. Mitsuhiko gathered his bearings first, slowly looking between Shinichi and Kaito, then resting his eyes back on Shinichi.
"I…don't understand," he said. "Are you…are you really an adult? Or…or a kid?"
Shinichi turned his soft gaze to rest on Mitsuhiko and smiled at him gently. "An adult," he answered.
Despite themselves, a twinge of feeling-whether of betrayal or shock or of understanding, confirmation or relief at finally knowing-washed over them.
Ayumi forced herself to ask the next question. "Are you…are you really…Shinichi-oniisan, Conan-kun?"
He turned his gaze to rest completely on her, and nodded. She gulped, heart fluttering. "Then…then who…?" And she pointed back at Kaito.
Easily crossing the distance to crouch between Shinichi and the kids, Kaito grinned and produced a carnation for Ayumi. "Kuroba Kaito, ojouchan. Wonderful to finally meet you by name." He smiled as she hesitantly took the rose. Her eyes then flicked back up to Shinichi, and hurt and confusion were shining in them.
"W-why, Conan-kun? I mean…um, Shini"
"Ayumi-chan," Shinichi interrupted her to say, "You can call me Conan-kun as long as no one else is around. If you want to, that is…" he trailed off.
Boldly, she walked forward until she was only a few feet from where he sat in the swing, still watching them. "How, Conan-kun? And…why didn't you…I mean, I guess it makes sense why you didn't tell us, but…" Tears were threatening to spill from her eyes, and in an instant, Shinichi had left his spot on the swing, and was crouching before her, hands on her shoulders.
"I'm sorry, Ayumi-chan," he said gently. "It was…a kind of experimental poison that did it. One night, when I was at Tropical Land with Ran, I followed some suspicious-looking guys in black…and they slipped a pill down my throat and ever since that day…" he sighed, and she looked up to meet his eyes. "Ever since that day, I've been Edogawa Conan. And even though at first I thought that nothing would ever come of being Conan…that it was just a horrible accident that had ruined my life, I realize now…"
He met eyes with Kaito, who smiled, pushing him on.
"I realize now how real the relationships I made as Conan really were. You may not have known me by my real name, Ayumi-chan, but who you got to know…the person you considered your friend…he wasn't a lie. I still consider you guys my friends. You're very important to me, and I hope…someday, that you'll forgive me."
Slowly, Ayumi nodded her head, letting her tears fall in earnest, and gently, Shinichi pulled her into a hug, letting her cry on his shoulder as he gently rubbed her back.
Finally, Mitsuhiko and Genta moved closer. "Um, uh, Conan…" Genta said awkwardly, looking more confident when Shinichi turned to him without looking the least bit surprised. "The-the bad guys. Those guys who poisoned you. Are they…?"
"They're mostly gone, Genta. However…" and his voice lowered, sounded a little darker as he said it. "There are a few…and one in particular…a sniper…who's still out to get me…and that sniper only knows me as Conan…"
The kids all gasped, and Ayumi pulled back to stare him in the eyes in concern. "Is that why you were saying it was dangerous for us to be around you too much?"
Shinichi nodded. "Yeah. In the past, you guys, when the main organization was still around, the most dangerous thing I could have done would have been to tell you my identity…because if they found out that I was alive, they would have killed everyone. Everyone I love…all of my family, my friends…they certainly would have taken you from me…"
"But now…you're safer with me in this form than as Conan…I know it's hard, but I want you guys to promise me that you won't do anything that might endanger you. I…will not have them take you guys…"
He stopped, and Ayumi flung her arms back around him, clutching him tightly once again. The two boys moved closer, too, and Shinichi noticed they were shaking.
Smiling, he gently let go of Ayumi, letting her continue to hug him around the neck, and then, leaning forward, he gently drew the boys close, hugging them all three to him together. "It'll be okay, though, you guys…"
"But…but the sniper," Mitsuhiko whispered.
"Kaito's with me," Shinichi answered evenly. "And I won't fight him as Conan… He won't target me as an adult, because he doesn't know me, okay? So you don't need to worry…I mean it."
When he released them, and they all spilled back a little, he smiled, letting them stare at him.
"It's weird," Genta said. "You do look like Conan, but it makes it harder without the glasses…"
"Oh? Well that's easy to fix," Shinichi said, reaching into his shirt pocket and pulling out the glasses which had been his defense, his shield to hide behind for so long…but now, they were simply a mark, a memento, of Conan. Slipping them easily onto his face, they all gasped.
"Wow…so that's what Conan-kun would look like as an adult," Ayumi whispered. She blushed a little, something that did not go unnoticed by Mitsuhiko and Genta, who both glared a little at Shinichi.
Chuckling for a minute, he then turned serious once again. "Listen, guys…thanks."
They looked at him questioningly.
"I mean it…thanks for…not hating me. I know it's a lot to swallow, but…"
"Well, it kind of makes sense in a way, Shinichi-san," Mitsuhiko said softly. "I mean, Conan-kun was always so far above our level in everything and…well, you never really seemed like a kid, I guess…"
"Are you going to still play with us, Conan?"
"For sure," Shinichi smiled at Genta. "Things are kind of complicated right now, and as far as I know, I could end up turning back into Conan any day, now…but even if I stay this way for good, I'll always find time to see you, okay? I meant what I said…thanks to you guys, I was really able to make some real friends. So thanks…"
Looking across the street, Ayumi said "Are you moving back into your old house, then, Conan-kun? All alone?"
"Well, that's…" Shooting a little glance at Kaito and blushing, Shinichi said "I'm…not sure, but I'll probably stay there a lot…I'll invite you guys over, sometime. Of course, I'm right by Hakase's so it shouldn't be too hard to figure out."
At a gentle touch on his shoulder, Shinichi looked up to see Kaito smiling down at him, gently taking his hand. Standing up, Shinichi looked down at the Shounen Tantei, and the extent of their height difference became fully obvious for the first time.
"No fair! I thought you'd always be short," Genta muttered.
Smirking a little, Shinichi said "You want to see the view? I can hold you now, you know."
"Hah, I'd like to see you try!" Genta snorted.
"Sorry, kiddo, but I'm going to veto that one. Shin-chan needs to keep his beautiful figure, and doesn't need too many arm muscles messing it up," Kaito joked, earning him a slap from Shinichi.
"Hey, Conan-kun," Ayumi asked, looking up at the two bantering men.
"Oh! Yes, Ayumi-chan?" Shinichi grinned and crouched down to her eye-level again.
"Um, are you and Kaito-niichan…" She blushed. "I mean…he calls you 'Shin-chan' and he was holding your hand and…and that day we saw you under the tree…" Her face was bright red by this point, and Shinichi wasn't sure quite how to phrase his response. Lost for words, he spluttered around a little before saying, "Um, y-yeah, Ayumi-chan, it's um…what you're thinking, probably."
"Ayumi-chan?" She looked up to see Kaito crouching before her, too. "I need you to trust me that I'll take good care of Shinichi, so you guys don't need to worry so much about him. I know he's a daredevil detective and doesn't take care of himself, but that's why I'm here! I…love him, you see…" His joking grin slid into sincerity so quickly the kids looked mildly shocked, unable to do anything but nod, shooting glances back and forth between the two young adults...
"Oh! Um, do you guys want to come in for a little?' Shinichi asked, looking around at them. "I'm afraid I don't have much snack-wise, but I've got some hot chocolate and stuff, if you'd like," he added sheepishly.
Grinning at eachother, and then up at Shinichi, they all nodded, smiling.
"Great..." Then, noticing Haibara in the back, Shinichi shot her a slightly nervous glance, but she just shrugged, walking up to join the rest.
Ayumi looked surprised when Haibara walked up looking completely unfazed. "Ai-chan! You heard that, right? Aren't you shocked?"
She smiled at Ayumi. "Well, it is shocking, but Edogawa-kun's always been weird, wouldn't you say?"
A slight nerve twitched in Shinichi's temple at this, but Kaito quickly stroked his hair, whispering calming chants which quickly distracted him from one annoyance to another...his attention diverting instead to slapping off his boyfriend's roaming hands.
The kids laughed lightly at Haibara's comment. "Well, but still...isn't it incredible? We've been friends with the famous high school detective all this time!" Mitsuhiko grinned up at Shinichi, who grinned down at him slightly awkwardly, hand moving to rest behind his head.
"Yeah, it's really amazing…I mean, Conan-kun knew so much, but I didn't think…"
"No wonder we couldn't figure out all the cases Conan did..."
Shinichi smiled and crouched down in front of them. "Just to let you know," he said, "You guys do have a knack for detective-work, and I'm not kidding! If you really decide you want to be detectives, I'm sure you'll have no problem." He grinned a little more. "I'll even train you myself, sometime, if you want…"
"Really?" All three stared up at him in bursting excitement.
"Really, reall-"
"HOLD ON." Kaito cut in. "Boys and girls, just because you've been around mr. meitantei-kun here all this time doesn't mean you HAVE to be detectives...there are plenty of other worthy professions!"
Shinichi glared at him, mouthing something suspiciously like 'Hope you don't mean thieving...'
Kaito just winked at his boyfriend before returning to the kids. "If Shin-chan's supplying detective lessons, then the least I could do is supply the occasional magic lesson in with! What do you say?"
The Shounen Tantei had, by this, point, appeared to have reached a whole new level of hyper excitement. All seriousness of the past conversations momentarily forgotten, they all began to variously grab onto Kaito's and Shinichi's hands, dragging them forward and across the street to the Kudou mansion, eyes alighting with the promises of magic-detective lessons...
Shinichi met Kaito's glance, and the magician just grinned and shrugged.
After Shinichi unlocked the door to let them in, Kaito snatched him back from the threshold, pulling him out of sight of the kids and quickly into him. "That went well, didn't it?"
Shinichi smiled at him. "Better than I thought...they were...really understanding, weren't they?"
Kaito's smile was becoming more manic, but it maintained a stronger, underlying sincerity which shone through even more clearly. "They're good kids, and they're your friends, after all. You wouldn't expect yourself to choose badly, now would you?' And with a wink, he swooped in and kissed Shinichi on the lips before pulling him into the house.
I hope you liked this! I know the second-half was very light KaiShin...sorry about that! But I wanted to put the shounen tantei scene in somewhere...hope you liked it! I was worried it was unnatural at times, but...anyway, let me know!
Again, I love my readers and reviewers. THANK YOU SO MUCH! Please review again if you can! :) arigatou~
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