Chapter 20 – Peace is my enemy

13th July 2010

I was so busy in my own grief and pain that I never got to see others who also live in misery…I guess I met a miserable person today.

…_...

I opened my eyes only to jerk them back close. The morning sun shine was shining brightly on me. I groaned as I felt the unbearable pain in my head. I slowly opened my eyes and tried to adjust the light. Once that was done, I looked around at my surroundings. Trees everywhere and I was lying on the ground. I left something heavy around my waist; I peered down to see a hand. I followed the hand up to the owner to see Sam lying next to me, his face buried in my neck.

I felt exposed; like I'm naked then it hit me. I looked at myself; a coat was wrapped around me. I quickly removed it to see I was wearing white shirt, I peered inside the shirt to see myself naked. What the hell? I looked at Sam who wasn't wearing his shirt, which means I had it on.

I quickly sat up only to get a blow of pain in my head. Ugh! What happened last night? I looked around and realized that we're in a forest.

What are we doing in a forest? And all alone? I felt the fear rising in me, what if…what if Sam and I did something? And even if we did, why can't I remember anything? Then it hit me…did he rape me again? No no no…this can't be it but what else could it be, I wouldn't do something with him willingly. The only other reason explains why we're naked.

I hurriedly in fear moved away from him which made him jerk awake. He looked at me groggily then sat up rubbing his eyes.

"What happened last night?" I asked very scarily and slowly

He stopped rubbing his eyes and looked at me. He frowned "What do you mean?" he asked confused. No not confused, I knew it was all an act.

Tears fell down my face "You did it again, didn't you?" My voice was low but full of venom

He looked confused "Did what again?"

"Don't play with me!" I shouted standing up "You raped me! You raped me again!" I cried

He looked at me aghast "What are you talking about? I didn't rape you!" He exclaimed

I glared at him "Really? Because it looks like you did! You are such a selfish bastard who always brings his needs first. I never should've trusted you!"

In a second he was in front of me "I. DID. NOT. RAPE. YOU." He growled out

Even though he looked intimidating, I refused to back down "You know, it's really hard to believe that since you did it before and last night…oh god" I moved back and leaned on the tree. I felt like doing something to myself, something like killing.

"I didn't rape you"

"Then explain why I'm naked and you're without a shirt!" I snapped

H sighed and rubbed his face in frustration "You were drunk last night and for gods sake, nothing happened between us. You woke up in the middle of the night because you were uncomfortable in muddy cloths, so I gave you my less muddy shirt."

Then it hit me, everything that happened last night flashed across my mind. I remembered when Matt gave me the bottle to enjoy myself and I angrily took it from him. I remembered when I fell from the building. I remembered me annoying Sam. I remembered him taking me on a boat. I remembered falling in the mud. I remembered changing my cloths and I even took off my bra and panties, how stupid of me. I remembered everything.

I looked at him to see him looking at me or shall I say glaring at me. Before I could utter a word, he got up and picked up my dress which was now covered in dried mud and threw it at me.

"Get dressed. We're leaving" He said and walked away

I stood there and watched him leave. I felt bad and guilty for saying all that to him. He didn't do anything, nothing happened between us. I should've asked before I reacted. But it's not like I'm gonna apologize; he deserves my hatred because of what he did before.

I turned around and went behind the tree and changed quickly. I then looked around to see him sitting by the river. Sighing, I walked over to him.

"Here…your shirt" I said extending his shirt.

He took it without any words. He quickly wore his shirt and was up "Come on, we ha-" he stopped mid sentence and gasped when he looked into my eyes.

I looked at him confused "What?"

"Your…your eyes" he stammered

Confused by his words, I walked over the river and looked at my reflection. The reflection wasn't clear but it was clear enough to see my eyes which were currently yellow. I gasped at myself. How did this happen? Sam has yellow eyes, did he do something to me?

I turned around "Wh-What is this?" I asked scared

He too looked afraid. "Sam!" I snapped him out of his gaze "What's hap-happening to me?" I stammered

"Your eyes…they're yellow" he said slowly

I glared at him "I can see that but why?"

"I don't know" He finally said

I glared at him. This is all because of him. All this is happening because of him. "You have yellow eyes…did you do this to me?" I asked aghast at the thought

"What? No! I wouldn't do this to you. This isn't even supposed to happen"

"No it isn't!" I snapped. Now I really wanted to know the truth. "Enough secrets. Enough lying. Enough pretending. Tell me what the hell are you! Tell me who this Delilah is! And tell me what's happening to me!"

He looked away "I ca-"

"-Don't you dare tell me that you won't tell the truth. You bought me in your fucking life and now I want to know the truth!" I bellowed

He didn't answer. I so badly wanted to hit him for that but I resisted.

"Sam! Tell me, I have a right to know!" I again said

Still he didn't answer.

"Sam! I sa-"

In a second I was pinned against the tree with him glowering at me. He looked so intimidating and that scared me to no point.

"You wanna know! You wanna know the truth! Here's the truth! I loved a girl and she died in my arms! She cursed me to be this monster forever! This is the truth!" He yelled

He was shouting so loudly which was scaring me. I flinched as he moved his face closer to mine. His face softened "I loved a girl and she died" He said softly and then loosing his grip, he moved away from me.

I suddenly felt bad for him, I don't know why but I did. Before I could speak he continued "I still remember our first meeting. I was playing basketball and she was cheering for me.…"

Suddenly pictures started folding in as he said.

"Sam! Sam! Sam!" Everyone cheered in the basketball hall.

Sam smiled at the attention he was getting. He was the heartthrob of his school. Girls were his toys and boys were his minions. Loosing wasn't an option for him, he had to win. In two minutes he had to score or else his team would loose.

He bounced the ball up and down while dodging his opponents. He was getting to the basket…nearly there…suddenly his eyes landed on the cheerleading girls but one caught his attention. She stood there cheering, wearing the cheerleader cloths. Her long blond hair and green eyes were the attraction to him. She was the most beautiful girl he ever saw and in that moment, he knew she stole his heart.

Suddenly someone took the ball from him, only then he realized that he was standing there like a statue. Before he could react, the other team had scored and they won. Sam sighed "Oh well" he muttered

Sam's team glared at him. Coach Stan looked pissed, he thought. "Sam! What the hell were you doing standing like a statue in the middle of the game" Coach snapped

The people who were cheering before were now 'booing' him. He couldn't let them do that, after all he had an reputation.

He held his hands up "People, listen up" he said

People stopped and the hall became quiet. He grinned and winked at the cheerleaders who bounced up and down as he did.

"People…Today wasn't a victory because technically I had let them win" He knew he had to make up some excuse of him loosing like this because he had never lost in his life and today he did, all because of that girl.

He looked at her and saw her looking back at him. She even smiled and his heart missed a beat. He quickly looked away, back at the people.

"You see…They are just kids in this game..." He said pointing at the team who had came from the other school.

"We…" He waved his hand around his team "We're tough champions and we know how to win a game when we have to. So today I thought we should let the others have a go but next time I wouldn't let them go. Just like all years, I will win our next match as well!"

All cheered. His team boys picked him up on their shoulders. All was good. His reputation had no harm and people still loved him.

Boys placed him back on his feet. Sam was in a hurry, he had to meet his friend, not just friend, his childhood best friend. Sam was about to run for it when Kyle 'Sam's friend' tapped on his shoulder "You know, even though you sometimes suck…you always get the best of it, how come?" Kyle said smiling. Kyle, bronze hair and blue eyes.

Sam smirked "Try being me sometimes"

"Yeah, I'll try to be the playboy bunny" HE said jokingly

"Dude, girls love me because of my playboy reputation. If you want girls, try to be me sometimes, I'm sure one or two will notice you" Sam said

Kyle chuckled "SO where you up to?"

"I have to go meet Kenny"

Kyle frowned "Dude, that guy's a douche-bag" Kyle exclaimed

"That douche-bag is my best-friend and let's not forget that you're a dick sometimes" Sam said smiling even though he felt angry at what Kyle had said about Kenny.

Kyle sighed "Fine do whatever you wanna do but I'm telling you, one day you'll regret being his friend"

Sam rolled his eyes.

He chuckled, stopping the story. "God knows how true those words had been. If I had only listened to Kyle…"

Sam was on his way to meet Kenny when he bumped into someone. He stopped and looked up to see that girl again. His heart nearly stopped at the sight of her, it wasn't a normal reaction for Sam because he never felt like this for anyone.

He smiled "Hey"

She smiled shyly "Hi"

"So uhm, I never seen you here before, you new?" He asked conversing

"Uh yeah, today my first day" She said nervously

"Well then since you have joined our school, how about introductions…" He extended his hand forward "Hi, I'm Sam"

She was hesitant at first but then she smiled and shook his hand "Delilah…I'm Delilah"

Delilah. That name was echoing in his mind. That name took over his heart.

HE walked over and sat by the river. I stood where I was and it was hard to move since I was so wrapped up in the story. "She was so beautiful that it hurt. Falling for her wasn't hard; anyone would have fallen for her. The boys in our school lusted for her and girls were jealous of her beauty. We had started dating but somehow she stole my heart. I avoided my feelings for her because love wasn't my thing; I was a one night player but then I fell for her so hard that it was hard for me to even live without her…then one day, I finally proposed her…"

Kenny and Sam sat in the dinner hall at lunch. Anna walked up to them.

"Hey Sammy" She said kissing his cheek

"Don't call me that!" He snapped. Sam didn't like being called Sammy, only Delilah called him that.

Anna sat next to him and rolled her eyes while Kenny laughed. She smiled at Kenny "Hi Kenny"

Kenny smiled faintly "Hey Annie" he said using the name he called since they were children.

Something passed through them. Sam looked back and forth between them and smiled shaking his head. He knew how big they both had a crush on each other but he never said it because he wanted them to express their feelings themselves. If it were another guy, Sam would have beat the hell out of him but it was Kenny, the guy who he trusted since childhood and he knew he was perfect for his sister.

"So are you going to tell me how you going to do it?" She asked looking back at Sam

"Do what?" He asked confused

She rolled her eyes "Propose, duh!"

He frowned "I don't know" He dropped his head on the table.

Anna patted his back sympathetically "its okay, we'll think of something"

"Why don't you propose her now?" Kenny said like it was nothing

Sam moved his head up and looked at Kenny as if he's crazy "Dude, you suck!"

Kenny chuckled "What, The quicker the better. She'll be here for lunch anytime now, when she comes, propose her"

Sam scowled "Yeah, easy for you to say"

Anna smacked his head. "Hey!" Sam said rubbing his head "That hurt"

"It was supposed to. Look, when she walks in here, get down on your knees and say the marry words. It's not hard" She exclaimed

"I'm nervous for god's sake! It is hard for me. What if she refuses? Then what?" He snapped

"Then you live on with your stupid playboy life" Kenny said laughing. Anna smacked his hand and gave him a look to stop.

Sam glared at him "Ha. Very funny" He said sarcastically

Kenny looked behind Sam "Looks like you've got no choice now" Kenny muttered

Sam turned around to see Delilah walking in with two girls in cheerleading suits. Great! He thought.

Anna pushed Sam off the table. He stumbled up and glared at her. Anna smiled sweetly "I think now would be the perfect time to say what you want to say"

"Oh she's coming right here" Kenny said

Sam quickly looked at her to see her in the far corner in the queue for lunch. He looked back at Kenny with a glare while Kenny was laughing for scaring him "That wasn't funny" Sam snapped

"Ok seriously just go and talk to her"

"Yeah come on, we'll go with you for moral support" Anna said getting up

"Yeah that will help…a lot" Sam said nervously. He was scared of her refusing him. Being nervous was a new feeling for him because he was never nervous with a girl before and right now his hands were sweating.

The three of them walked over to Delilah who perked up when she saw Sam. She pecked him on the lips. "Hey"

"Hey" He said

Then suddenly he got down on his knees and held her hands in his. "Delilah…You are the girl who ever trapped my heart. You are the girl who showed me how to love. You are the girl I would do anything for and you are the girl I love…I want to spend my eternity being in your arms, I want to spend my eternity with you and only you…Will you…Will you marry me?" He asked finally

Anna was in tears while Kenny kept giving her tissues. Delilah was crying too and the whole school was watching them crying as well, they all were waiting for her answer.

"I…I don't know what to say" Delilah sniffed

"Honey…" Anna said her voice a bit wavering. "This is the part where you say 'Yes'"

Sam glared at her. Despite the situation, she still thought of something sarcastic to say.

Delilah smiled, her eyes wavered over to Kenny for a moment then she looked back at Sam. "Yes…Yes I'll marry you"

The whole school burst out cheering and clapping for them. Sam picked her up and kissed her. This was the best day of his life.

He quickly wiped the tear that was about to fall. I didn't say anything; I just stood there listening to the pain he had been living for so many years. "She died a month before our graduation. We had decided to marry on the day after graduation but we didn't get the chance..." His voice quivered "It was the Christmas night. I had gone out for some preparations for the Christmas ball that was supposed to be held in the palace but when I returned I saw her…bloody on the floor and my dad stood beside her holding a bloody dragger…"

Sam's eyes widened as he saw Delilah lying there taking her last breaths, the bags he had in his hands slipped down. Anna who was standing away from her father was crying her eyes out. Kenny stood next to James.

"Delilah!" He ran over to her and kneeled beside her.

She moved away from him. "Stay away from me!" She said angrily

"Wha-what happened?" Sam asked looking at his dad angrily "What did you do?" He shouted

"Sam…it's for your own good" James said grimly

Sam glared at his father "You think killing her would be good for me…Dad, how could you"

"I curse you!... you were too late to save me, to save your only love. I curse you that you will never find love again…a girl will hate you when she sees your true form…I curse you with the demon. A demon who shall tell you what you did to me, who will make you a monster and who will show you that you don't deserve love…I curse you" Her words died as she went limp in his hands. Yellow magic moved out of her body and went inside Sam's.

Sam sat there in shock. Then he finally took out his grief by screaming "Delilah!"

I flinched. Even though I was imagining the story, it felt like it was real. The scream echoed in my mind as I imagined what Sam had been through. I still can't believe his love Delilah cursed him. Why would she do something so cruel? Why did James kill her? His story was so painful that even my pain looked so small comparing to his.

"It was my fault that I couldn't save her…" He carried on "And I don't blame Delilah for doing this to me. I deserved it. She told me that my dad wants to kill her and I didn't believe her. If only I had listened to her, she would've been alive by now. She would've been my wife instead of you; she would've been pregnant instead of you…"

Imagining him and Delilah together was weird. I didn't like her taking my place. I didn't want her to carry the child I'm carrying. I didn't want her to be Sam's wife. What's wrong with me?

He wiped his misty eyes "I still live with that curse…" he stood up and turned away from me "When I first felt it, I started to have fits. I did things I didn't remember. It took me 26 years to get a hold of it…"

"You don't know what it feels like when you have something living inside you. It made me do things I never did in my entire life. It made me kill people, innocent people. It made me torture innocent's, hurt them. I felt joy hurting them. I cry for hours after what I do…"

I stood there shocked. He killed people. It scared me.

"It was my fault for killing those people…it was my fault for raping you. If only I had controlled the demon, all those people would be alive now, you wouldn't have been raped. But you see…I'm too weak to control him" I didn't know whether he was crying or not because his back was facing me but his voice was like he's crying.

"I know you won't forgive me. I too blame myself for what I did to you and I don't expect you to forgive me. And I don't know what's wrong with your eyes but I promise, I'll find something out"

We both stood still and quiet. I stood there thinking about what he just told me. I felt guilty, angry and sad. So many emotions played in me. A part of me wanted to forgive him because I knew whatever he did was not his fault but the other part of me didn't want to forgive him because he wasn't the victim, I was.

But somehow, right now I wanted to comfort him. Comfort him for loosing his love. Comfort him for loosing his happiness. Comfort him for loosing a perfect life.

I was about to place my hand on his shoulder when suddenly and dragger flew right past me, in the tree right beside me. Sam and I both turned around to see some men's running over to us.

"Shit" Sam muttered

I looked at him scared "What?"

He pushed me behind him "Listen no matter what happens, do not come out. Stay in one corner while I take care of this and if I fall…" He looked at me as if he was thinking aout falling "Then you run"

What the hell? I didn't want to leave him with these jerks who nearly killed me with a dragger.

"Who are these people?" I asked

Sam took off his shirt and handed it to me "They're the people who attacked me and your dad."

With that he started towards them.

Peace can't ever be mine. I guess peace is my enemy.

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Ok guys so very sorry for not updating on Friday. I have got a new job so that's why I wasn't getting time to update.

I hope you like this chappy since the secret is revealed. I haven't mentioned some parts; those parts will be added later as the story continues.

By the way, Sorry for any mistakes, I kind of rushed this so I'm sorry.

And thank you all of you who encouraged me for this story, I thought people stopped liking it but I guess I was wrong. So thank you and love you all.

Question of the day: Should Scarlet forgive Sam now?

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