CHAPTER 21
I felt numb, I stood there in shock. My face ashen. Fozana wasn't moving, wasn't breathing. I fell to floor with a loud sob. Pounding my fist on the tile floor.
I heard a door open upstairs, and someone barrel down the steps. It was Natsu. He entered the kitchen in a run.
"What's wrong?" He asked, it was more of a yell.
I looked up at him, tears running down my face. I let out a silent scream as I held Fozana's body in my arms. She was still warm. But, I knew that her body would be cold soon. Natsu sat down on his kness beside me, wrapping an arm around me. He rubbed my head.
I felt something warm in my hands, it was Fozana's blood. I turned to Natsu, leaning into his chest, crying.
"It's all my fault! I should have never let her jump in front of me!" I sobbed.
Natsu glanced around the dark kitchen, seeing the bullet hole in the window.
"It's not your fault Eyrx, she saved you. And I am forever grateful for that." Natsu said in a small voice.
I glanced up at him, he wiped away my tears.
"She...she always wanted to be cremated. She wanted to be in the winds when she died. Could... Could you.." I couldn't finish the sentence.
Natsu kissed my cheek.
"Of course."
He helped me to my feet, my legs were still numb. I glanced at the kitchen doorway, Happy stood there, a sad look on his face.
"I'll be in our room." I said in a whisper.
Natsu only nodded.
I climbed the stairs, with an expressionless face. Happy beside me. I went to my bedroom door. Happy followed.
"Happy... I just want to be alone." I said, closing the door softly.
I climbed back in bed, pulling the blankets around me. The darkness let my tears roll freely.
She was dead. The last link to my past was dead. No one in the world would ever truly know what it feels like to hold my burden. But there was still Natsu. He was the only one who wasn't from my past who understands.
I cried into the pillow.
I barely heard the door open. Natsu couldn't hear me cry. I turned away from the door. Wiping away my tears. I felt the bed dip as he climbed into bed. He wrapped his arms around me.
"You can leave me if you want. I'm just a burden to you now. You can find another guy." I said, taking his hand.
He turned me to face him. The look in his eyes made me flinch.
"I would never leave you Eyrx. Never. I would go to the underworld and back to see you. I would ride on the longest train ride to see you. I would kill to see you." Natsu said kissing me hard.
I nodded and rested my head on his chest.
"So did you do it?" I asked, not wanting to say it.
"Yes, I found a container too." He said.
"Then tomorrow I want to track down her killer and torture him until he confesses. I want him to feel pain." I said.
I leaned up on one elbow. Looking Natsu in the eyes.
"I would never leave you either." I said and leaned to him and kissed him. Then I laid back down, my head on his chest and I fell asleep, to Natsu rubbing my head.