I notice that the peacekeepers are gone and the door functions as a door again. I walk back inside and sit down on the sofa. I grab the Chat-Thing to check my messages.
(2) New messages. I touch the screen to see them. But they aren't from Cato..
_Marvellous: Hey Clove
_Marvellous: Did you heard that sound too?
You: What sound?
_Marvellous: A buzz. I looked out of the window and saw a flash.
You: Hmm.. I didn't hear anything.
That must have been my pebble stone. I'm sure!
_Marvellous: Okay
You: Can you go to your balcony? To check it again.
_Marvellous: Sure.
I waddle to the balcony and grab another pebble stone. I let it fall, just like I did before. Again, it returns. I can see Marvel from here. 'HEY MARVELLOUS.' I yell. He looks up 'HEY!' He waves. I walk back inside to the Chat-Thing.
You: And?
_Marvellous: Yeah same sound.
You: I know what it was .
_Marvellous: What?
You: A pebble stone.
You: I threw it.
_Marvellous: Why did you threw a pebble stone from your balcony?
You: I wanted to hit Capitol people.
_Marvellous: Hahaha
You: I'm out. Gonna sleep.
_Marvellous: Kay bye
You: Bye
I look a last time at Cato's chat. But there is no new message, he was going to text me. But he didn't.
I walk to the closet and grab a purple pyjama. I lay down on the bed. My head still feels so heavy.
I lay my head down and close my eyes as I drift off to a deep sleep.
I open my eyes, take a look around me. Woods, I almost recognize everything here. I walk quietly between all the trees. I am like a puzzle, but I don't feel complete. There is a piece missing and I don't know where it is. I don't know where Cato is. He is that one little piece. But that one piece does finishes the whole puzzle of my life. But it's lost. And I have to find it.
'CATO?' I yell 'CATO?!' I finally see him walking. Why didn't he say something back?
I run towards him. 'Cato?' Again no reaction.
'CATO?' I swing my hand in front of him, but it is no use. '
Can't you hear me?' I say. 'Can anybody even hear me?!'
I run to the cornucopia. Suddenly Cato and Glimmer come out of the woods and hug each other. They just did what? 'CATO!?' I scream.
But nobody seems to hear me. 'CAN'T YOU F*CKING HEAR ME?' I yell to him. 'I'VE GOT A LOT THAT'S ON MY MIND RIGHT NOW.'
But I still don't think that he can hear me. Then I realise that I'm not breathing. Normally I don't think about breathing. But I do know now that I'm not breathing.
Am I… am I dead? 'Cato? I can't breathe. Can you hear it too?' I ask him. But no response is coming. And I don't ever think that it will come.
I am already dead. The last piece is taken away from me. And a puzzle can't be finished without that one piece. I am dead. Dead is forever.
'Cato just try to hear my voice?' I say. Then I realise that he can leave. Leave me. Suddenly it's his choice. Maybe love is just a game to him. And I am just another piece.
'Come with me? We can run away. Run away from life?' I ask him. But I realise that I am the one who died. He said that he would protect me, but he didn't.
I open my eyes and breathe heavily. 'CATO?!' I scream. But this time there is no one to come and make me feel comfortable.
'I.. I can breathe.' I mumble. Not that anyone is going to hear me.
I'm all alone. And no one is going to save me if I'm going to die, not even Cato.
'It was just a dream Clove.. just another stupid dream, or more like a nightmare. Where you get killed inside and outside.' I think.
Because suddenly there is no one who is going to save you. I am going to die, We all die. There's nothing you can do about it. It is going to happen.
But when am I officially dead? When my heart stops beating? Or just when I am that unfinished puzzle? When there's a part of me missing, my heart ripped out. Well everyone has a missing piece. Just like Cato said 'Nobody dies as a virgin, life fucks everyone.' But I just can't afford to think like that.
I walk slowly to my living room. I'm starving. Where is the food? Can I order food?
The Avox said that there was a.. a red button. Why red? 'Red is bad, except Blood. Blood is good!' I remember my dad's quote.
But why always the red button? I don't know. I just press it. Before I know it there's someone knocking on the door. I walk towards the door, and open it.
The red haired Avox is standing in front of me. 'Can I have breakfast?' I say to her. She shakes her head.
'Well.. can I have lunch?' she still shakes her head.
'Dinner?' I ask. She nods. Is it already evening? Wow how long was I asleep?
'Okay thanks.' The Avox walks away and I close the door.
I grab the Chat-Thing to see what time it is. [19:42]
(6) New message(s). What? What did I miss? Huh? I tap the screen.
Cato: Hey.
Cato: Clove?
Cato: Still asleep?
Cato: -.-
You: Hey, sorry. I don't know how long I was sleeping..
_Marvellous: Clove you've been sleeping like a day now.
_Marvellous: Are you going to wake up, or sleep forever?
What?! A day? Was I asleep for a day?!
You: What?! A day? So it's the 3th day now?
_Marvellous: Uh yeah. You've missed a lot.
You: Tell me.
_Marvellous: Nah you'll figure out tomorrow.
You: What happened?
_Marvellous: I can't tell you now. Can I visit you this evening?
You: If Cato isn't coming, that's okay.
_Marvellous: Okay, gotta eat now. See you later.
You: Okay bye.
The Avox knocks on the door. I walk towards it and open the door. She gives me my dinner plate. 'Thanks' I say. She nods and walks away.
I close the door, I feel sorry for her. She can't talk. The Capitol has cut off her tongue..
I sit down and eat my dinner. The time has flown away. Tomorrow I have to train again.
My head doesn't hurt like before. I am happy that it is already the 3th day, now I don't have to be bored all day.
I just have to figure out tomorrow what happened, it can't be that worse right?
