Chapter 21
The pair sat under the Oak tree for two hours, there clothes had dried from their wet bodies and both of their hair style were considerably different from the beginning of the day, Jen remembered how she had re straightened hers twice due to the nerves of her first teacher to parent interaction. She was surprised her hair didn't curl after her encounter with Tilly's parents, she blushed at this thought, maybe one day when they were allowed to be together she would meet them properly as Tilly's girl friend. This was exciting as it would mean they made it, they would still be together after a year, that would be amazing. What if her parents became curious as they knew how they met or how long they had been together. She recalled Tilly's father looking sceptical as she spoke to them about the girl, he must have seen the way her entire body and mannerisms changed when his daughter was close to her. This could still cause problems for Jen's job he could tell the school that they were together during the time of teaching, all the time they had worked hard not only at the difficult times but at keeping the relationship a secret, it would be for nothing.
Tilly could see the teachers face had changed a little from moments before, her face had been completely relaxed and the only movement it showed was when a breeze had swept across it and her hair took flight for a second and relayed back across her cheek. Now her face was stern , her eyes were focused and narrow, her cheeks were clenched as she grinded her teeth thinking and her hands were no longer seductively stirring a pot of chocolate spread they were drumming along the matt. "Jen? Penny for them?" Tilly asked in reference to the teachers thoughts, Jen was oblivious until the teen placed a hand onto her shoulder causing a jump out of her. "Sorry babe, what did you say?" Jen replied consumed by thoughts, "I was asking what you were thinking so hard about" the teen commented again. "Nothing really" Jen replied but as soon as she said it she could see the teens face recoil as she knew the teacher was lying again. "I was thinking about your Parents" she dropped her head a little, it was an odd thing to admit to your teenage girlfriend, Tilly's head however bounced up in concern. "Why Jen?" she removed her hand from the teachers shoulder, a habit when parents are mentioned you resume the innocent role.
"Nothing bad, I was thinking how one day imagine having to tell them about us. But then I panicked how they would react, your father did not seem to like me this morning" Jen genuinely looked worried, she loved this girl and they had kept this a secret for the vital point that no one would disapprove , when it came the time to branch out and tell those closest to you who you chose to love, it was daunting. "Jen my mother loves you already, she tells me all the time I should find a girl like you. My dad is grumpy, he still does not like the fact that I like women, he thinks im too young to decide what I want to be, but this chose me and you chose me. As long as im happy they will be" Tilly reassured the teacher a little but her look was still vacant to Tilly, she tried to turn the table. "How would your mum like me" she asked, involuntary Jen released a little smile, she looked to the teen with a little sparkle in her eyes "Oh Til she would love you so much, she always seems to know what's best for me" she laid back onto her elbow and was back to Tilly being the only one there. "When I came home and told her I thought I was a little different I panicked so much as it wasn't the norm. She waited for me to tell her and her smile stayed as she nodded, she simply waited for me to finish pacing and explaining how confused I was and finally admit it, and she kept the smile and said she knew. She had known before I was willing to admit it. It was reassuring babe, the support was endearing" Tilly loved how Jen talked about her past and her family she had such an energy about her that was inspiring and contagious.
Tilly watched Jen speak, her own face mimicking the expressions spreading across her girlfriends face. "Have you ever brought a girl home to her?" Tilly asked sounding a little jealous in her voice, she was not sure why but when it comes to speaking of ex partners the feeling of jealousy sweeps you, you wonder if they did everything better. Did they make her happier or satisfy her better than you would. Tilly realigned her head and looked back into Jen's eyes which were trying to hard to read the teens. "Yes one, im not much older than you remember, there was not a queue Tilly" Jen smirked as she joked breaking up the tension a little. "She was in Uni with me, we were friends, alcohol fuelled and curious we experimented and all the broken pieces and thoughts fitted. We only went out until the end of term which was 3 months but I took her home at the end of term and although I didn't tell my mum we were dating she must have known. I came home one day over the summer in a state as we had split up and she knew, she told me one day I would find someone I would mean the world too and would have the same interests as me. Someone I would fit into and become my soul mate" Tilly pointed a finger to her chest holding her head high in a mocking but asking way. "Believe me babe she would love you" Jen reaffirmed. "Am I your soul mate?" Tilly asked smirking as Jen seemed to have side stepped the gesture, she knew the connection they had, when they were not together the world did not spin right. "Hmmm… well I love you, I cannot resist you, I cannot stop thinking of you, I hear your name in certain circles and it drives me wild and I do not imagine the rest of my life without you. I think that makes you my soul mate" Jen replied poking the girls chest.
Their soppy moment was in full swing, and neither had a reason to stop. Tilly scooted over and sat cross legged in-between Jen's, "Kinda makes me feel sad for the rest" Tilly sang, probing Jen to return "Nobody does it better, baby you're the best". The pair laughed and the trees danced along in the wind, it was as it was supposed to be, nature has a way of being atmospheric, it makes you feel as it feels.
Jen passed a look at her phone, "Its nearly 5 babe, we should be getting back to the park" she looked as sad about it as Tilly did but they knew they would have to leave soon otherwise the others will ask questions. "I cant believe were back at school next week, these holidays have gone so quick" Tilly sighed, "Time flies when your having fun babes" Jen winked, "Its not all bad, im officially your teacher till the end of your school year" she smiled, they were both excited about this, as long as they can stay together this would be the best year of their lives. They were past the awkward unresolved tension section, they had moved their relationship along to the stage where they were both happy and in love. If they could handle the year and all the complications of school etc they will be on the home free.
They gathered their things off the floor and stuffed them into Jen's boot, the teen folded the matt respectively and laid it on top of the carrier bags and returned her gaze to the floor to see if they had forgotten anything. Tilly felt a little odd again, she felt as though for now she would have to leave the life they had created and the love they had given to each other at this place, all the moments had become memories now and Tilly knew she could keep them safe and think of Jen when she wanted. Her feeling was changed to good ones, this school term was going to be great, she would be taught by her girlfriend and they knew there love was real so hiding their signs of affection in school would be fun, almost like role play. Although they could not disappear on trips like they did over the last few weeks they can still meet up in the evenings and weekends, and they always have Jen's classroom. Tilly blushed a smile as she thought of sneaking around with the teacher in the place she worked and Tilly learnt.
Tilly caught the teacher frowning, she could not read the teen sometimes "You will get wrinkles if you keep frowning at me" Tilly joked and ran a finger mockingly along her eyes and forehead, "I can see one now" she joked causing Jen to slap her shoulder and look into the mirror in her car, "I do not, im only a little older than you sweetheart don't get clever" Jen loved the banter they shared. "Your still young enough for a spanking young lady" she poked out her tongue and manoeuvred her way around the car to the teens side mocking an authoritive power stance, "Teachers are not allowed to hit students" Tilly replied duelling with Jen. "Teachers are not supposed to steal the student for a day of frolicking in the lake either, hmmm… maybe I should consult the handbook and stop this tirade" she had replied the perfect winner, Tilly looked stumped she could not top it.
She thought for a few minutes and looked blank back, "Babe don't get glum, I always win" she joked back and returned a smile to the teen. "Shall we make a move back then, the guys will think we have gone without them" Tilly motioned standing up from her leaning position ready to jump into the car, Jen stayed watching her "I believe we had 5 more minutes on my clock" she pointed to her lips and demanded a kiss, chuckling to herself, she moved to stand in front of the girl and placed her arms either side blocking her in. She leant in and their foreheads touched, she watched the girls eyes dart to her lips and she knew she desired her kiss too, she sub consciously licked her lips and it drove the teen wild, she was mesmerised by the teachers tongue, she gave in and locked her lips to Jen's and they rotated their mouths moving their heads slightly to the right to allow the angle to comfort the full desire. Their hands caressed each others faces and allowed their hands to run through their now silky lake smelling hair and finally resting their hands on each others hips as they fell full swoon into the kiss.
After the five minute curfew they released their kiss and forced themselves to disconnect slightly from each others grasp, they had to leave, if they continued this embrace they would not be leaving each others side. Jen smiled and ran a finger over Tilly's lip and walked around to the drivers seat and climbed in shutting her door, Tilly did the same and slipped her shoes back on smiling. She buckled up and wound down her window, resting her head against the chair and smiled goodbye to the scenic heaven they reversed away from. Jen momentarily did the same, and looked at the beauty next to her, this moment for a while could not get better.
They drove for an hour and Tilly started to remember the route back, seeing the fields she passed and the supermarket where they had brought supplies. They had only actually eaten some party rings, neither could bring themselves to look at them long enough to try to control the laughing. Tilly climbed over her seat and into the backseat as Jen tried to look behind to see what the teen was up to. She opened the hatch between the boot and back seats and rummaged around in the boot for what her mind was searching for. Jen looked frantically in the mirror and quick glances behind when she felt secure in a lane. "Tilly what in god's name are you doing" the teacher asked a little confused, she did however take a slight distracting moment to focus on the girls wiggling bum and let out a smile. "Aha" Tilly pulled out something and climbed back into the front seat looking pleased at herself. "What have you got?" Jen asking already laughing at the teens face as she pulled a smirk.. She held out a jar to the teachers face and flicked off the lid, she had brought the chocolate spread back out to play. Jen raised her eyebrows and watched the teen as she dipped a finger in and teased the teacher, she threatened her with the now chocolate covered finger waving it around her face and arms as Jen tried to concentrate on the road in front of her, her stomach doing flips as her eyes stole cheeky glances to the teen.
Jen focused on the red car in front of her and read the licence plate over and over she was trying to take Tilly out of her mind for a few more minutes, the urge to pull back over was intense but she knew they had to get back by 6 to meet the others and to pull over would take a lot longer. She felt a cold finger run down her arm and her arm tensed trying to keep it steady and tightened her fingers around the steering wheel, she kept her eyes focused on the car in front, the licence plate was becoming fuzzy. The warmness of Tilly's tongue worked its way over the length of her arm and her lips parted for a moan to escape, the cold finger worked again and tickled her along the crease of her neck, she shivered and ran a hand threw her hair becoming caught up in the moment. She eagerly awaited for the teens tongue to finally satisfy her waiting touch, Jen licked her top lip and followed the lick along her teeth and bit her bottom lip as she tried to control the effects of the sensual touch. Tilly's hot breath reached its way along Jen's neck and she shuddered anticipating the next move, she shut her eyes briefly forgetting she was driving as the teen leant over and held on to Jen's leg and the back of her seat as she licked along the teachers neck, Jen tilted her head to the side to allow the access but fighting her lungs to take a breath.
The girl licked all the way around the teachers neck and ran a finger to pull her dress down a little exposing her shoulder, she laced it with a trail of chocolate and kissed, letting her mouth linger a little to tease Jen, she could feel her leg tapping with excitement and she let her tongue back out to lick the shoulder and as far as she could reach along the teachers collar bone. Jen was struggling, her hand kept lifting from the wheel as she wanted to touch out to the girl, she released her grip for a moment to change gear and her hand could not help but take a divert on its direction back, she allowed her hand to graze along the teens leg and she the fireworks in her stomach exploded, she was officially turned on. Tilly flew backwards as the car swerved to the side of the road and Jen's buckle was off within seconds and she threw herself on top of the shocked red head, the teachers lips took no time to find the teens and they roughly kissed both succumbed by their overwhelming urge. Jen released and wiped under the girls lip where she had eagerly over kissed leaving a red lipstick smudge, "You young lady nearly caused an accident" Jen joked as she ran a finger along the girls chin. "I have no idea what you mean, I was peckish" Tilly replied and could feel the teacher moving on top of her, her hands were caressing as much of the girl as she had access too. Jen sighed as her heart beat through her chest, "Babe you drive me crazy, I would love to ravage you here but it is ten past six, we have to go" Jen pursed her lips to look sad and trailed her finger along the teens face and lifted herself off the girl and sat back in her own seat, regretting the move already. "Well" Tilly sat herself back up and played the violated look, secretly she did not want it to stop. "Miss Gilmore your self control is disgraceful" she joked and Jen rolled her eyes, throwing her head back to giggle, she kept her hand on the steering wheel still trying to control her breathing. She held the other hand in the teens and for a few minutes they both looked as their hands intertwined and Jen ran a thumb over Tilly's, together they will make it.
Jen kissed the teens hand and started the engine, they drove in silence savouring every last bit of tension that filled the car. They arrived at the theme park and both climbed out of their seats and walked around the car waiting for the others to join, Jen could still feel her legs being a little uncooperative, the rides, lake and car scene had left her a little flustered and tired. She let out a little yawn and shut her eyes as her hand covered her mouth, she let out a stretch, "Keeping you awake am I" Tilly joked and sat next to the teacher on the bonnet of her car. "Well now you mention it" Jen replied mocking for a second, "Its been a long day babe, and I think that cold lake took it out of me a bit" she rubbed her arm sub consciously reliving the cold, she had however been warmed up by Tilly and the new blush creeping its way across her cheeks agreed with it. Tilly let out a laugh as she knew exactly what the teacher was thinking, she looked her eyes forward and watched as her friends came out laughing and jumping around, all soaking from the rides and by the looks of it all hyped up from caffeine and adrenaline. They waved when they saw them and all noisily made their way over to the two girls who were smiling for their own reasons.
"Hey what happened to you pair? We looked for you for ages?" Maddie asked a little annoyed at Tilly for ditching her, "Sorry babes, I was feeling a little sick so we got some air and they would not let us back in so we just sun bathed by here" she smiled sweetly and Maddie bought it, Jen let out a little hidden breath she had been holding onto. "You all have fun?" Jen asked smiling and the teens all let out laughs and smiles and agreed, "Yeah it was fab Jen you should have joined us, Bart spewed on the one ride and Maddie screamed so much we nearly got thrown out" Sinead replied, it was endearing to Jen how much they all had grown to like her. She was younger than the other teachers, and as she was a student teacher she was a little more lenient with behaviour, they knew she would have a laugh with them. "Jen can we ask something?" Sinead asked, causing Jen's head to slowly look back up, "Erm.. Yeah course, what's up hun?" Jen replied a little trepidation in her voice. "Mum said you had a letter this morning and we were wondering if it was about your placement" Sinead was obviously the chosen one to ask as she was closest to Jen, Tilly tried to hide a smile as she knew the answer to the secret they all wanted to know. "Well yes actually it was, im assuming you all want to know whether I will be your teacher next year?" Jen asked she was taunting the teens as she had all of their attention. Sinead and Bart answered the same time both eagerly awaiting the teachers reply.
"Well its bad news" she looked down playing the teens, Sinead and Maddie crossed shocked faces, mouths open, Jen smiled inside they truly looked gutted, it was moving to Jen, she had became fond of her class too especially this bunch and one student in particular. They all looked to Tilly to check the truth and she nodded a sad nod to correspond what the teacher had said, Bart kicked a can on the floor and swore, "This is stupid how can they not have you back, you're the best thing at collage, you actually make us want to go to class" he ranted and held his hands to his head, it was true that Jen had helped him a lot and renewed his faith in the education system, he had just passed his exams due to her help. She felt a little bad as he stormed around stomping as Sinead held his shoulders "Its ok babe, calm shhhh. Jen will still be living with me and mum so you can come and bug her for help all the time" she thought and turned "You will be staying in the village wont you, they haven't moved you anywhere" Sinead was concerned and the tear forming in her eye told Jen she needed to stop the teasing and out the teens out of their misery. "I shall be living with you, I shall see you all the time. Bart come here" Jen called out to Bart who still angry and seemed to be taking it out on the can, he obediently turned to face her and leant on the side of the car in a strop. "The bad news of it all, is I have the placement for the next two years, so you will have to put up with me for a while longer" she beamed a smile back and caught Sinead's hug as she jumped into Jen's arms laughing, Bart practically shoved her out the way and hugged Jen too, "That was totally mean Jen" he stated and hugged her again, she let out a heartfelt laugh as he ran and air punched the sky. This day could not get any better, Jen glanced to her right and winked at her girl, who was shaking her head mockingly at how mean Jen had been.
They all jumped back into their designated cars, Maddie resumed onto Jen's backseat which she didn't mind, she needed a rest and if they were left alone again, she would not be able to make the drive back. She let out another yawn setting Tilly off yawning too, Maddie laid in the back and by the time they drove out of the car park they could here her stifled breaths as she slept. Tilly looked almost jealous, she too was shattered and could not hold another yawn from exiting. "Babe have a nap if your sleepy" Jen smiled to the teen, "That's not fair, your tired too I cant leave you to drive alone" she weakly replied she knew within the next few moments she would not keep that promise. Jen let out a little laugh as the teen finished the statement with another yawn and had already snuggled her head into the seat, she watched Jen drive for a while and blinked every time the teacher looked back and their eyes met. "Tilly sleep" she encouraged as the teen had one eye open concentrating, not wanting to miss her face. "I think I am babe, I just want your face to be the last thing I see" and it was, she blinked her last blink and her eye shut joining the other one. Jen kept her looks over she loved to watch the girl sleep, her nose twitched every so often and she looked so peaceful, little smiles formed and Jen could feel the world stop each time, her heart gave an extra beat. Angelic and addictive.
The pressure created from an ex can cause friction for new relationships, even though you never knew the ex you can just see the remnants left behind. You bombard yourself with expectations and comparisons driving yourself crazy dwelling on the non important facts. Even though you have chemistry with the new love, you are plagued with the history. The good thing about history is that it is not always carved in stone, its there to be re written and there is always room for better memories.