New Beginnings

A Twilight Fanfic

Chapter 21

Edward's POV

The minute I walked out of my room, I mentally slapped myself. What had I just done? What would she think of me now? I knew what Bella did was wrong, but obviously I was biased. I sighed, knowing that I had made a huge mistake, and had practically handed her over into Jake's hands. I leaned against the wall in the hallway, deciding what I should do, and I just gave up and headed to the kitchen. Once there, I opened the fridge and took out a bottle of vodka, and poured it into two cups. I put the vodka back, and took the cups to the bedroom. Bella looked up at me once I came in, I sighed, and sat down in front of her, and handed her the cup. She looked at it, confused.

"It's vodka, just take it," I told her, sternly.

I don't think she wanted to take it, but she did anyways, and set it on her lap, cupping it in her hands. I quickly gulped mine down, without stopping, and then once I finished, I sighed, and closed my eyes. Setting the cup on the nightstand, I fell back onto the bed, groaning.

"Edward.." said Bella.

"No," I said, "Bella, honey, why don't you see Jake's just...hurting you? He wants to get to you, I don't know why you're not seeing that! Yes, my company has become a rival of your old one, but that means nothing. You have to understand that this happened just recently, and no one planned it. I love you for you, Bella. Please, I don't know how else to show you."

I opened my eyes, and took her hand, tracing my finger over the ring I had placed on her the night before.

"And I still want to marry you, no matter what. You're my everything, Bella, and you always will be, and nothing will change that, I swear," I vowed.

"Edward," she said, her voice shaking.

I looked up at her, to see her eyes filled with tears. I got up, and cupped her face in between my hands, and kissed her with everything I had. She kissed me back, and my heart finally stopped pounding on my ribs, relieved. I pushed her down, underneath me on the bed, and deepened the kiss, stroking her face with my hand.

"I'll love you forever, no matter what," I said, against her lips.

"I'm sorry, Edward," she whimpered from underneath me.

I pulled up from her lips, and stared into her chocolate brown eyes. I saw nothing but confusion, and terror in them. Was I scaring her that bad? Did she really doubt me for Jacob?

"Bella..." I whispered.

"I...I don't know who to trust," she whimpered, looking away, "I'm so sorry.."

"Bella, it doesn't have to be like this," I pleaded.

"Edward-" she started, but I cut her off.

"Bella, I'm sorry if I got too ahead of myself, but please! I mean come on its Jacob, he hurt you," I cried.

"I need time to think, Edward," she said, plainly as her eyes filled with tears.

I closed my eyes and leaned against the bed frame, holding my head in my hands. I heard her move on the bed, and I was surprised when I felt her hug me slightly around the shoulder.

"It doesn't have to be like this, Bella," I whispered, pleading.

"I'm sorry, Edward," she said, and got up, and I heard her run out my bedroom door.

I heard her moving around in the other room, probably getting her stuff.

How could this turn so wrong?

A soft whimper escaped my lips.

It seemed like she was moving in just yesterday, but it feels like she's lived with me my whole life.

My heart felt as though it were being torn apart, and I felt a few tears slip down my cheeks. Reality hit me when my apartment door slammed closed.

She was gone.

She was really gone. I didn't even know if I was going to get her back ever again. I cried now, fully, as tears slid down my cheeks freely. I fell down sideways onto my bed, as I sobbed. I couldn't even remember when I'd cried this much, but when Bella left, she took a piece of me with her. I gripped the bed sheets as memories of last night coursed through me. I groaned, and squeezed my eyes tighter, thinking of what Jacob must have said to her.

'He doesn't care about you'

Fuck, I cared about her more than anything else. I'd give my life up for her, then, and there.

- Or had he tried a different method?

'You don't deserve him'

I practically hissed at that one. I couldn't help but wonder if she would still be curled up to me in my arms, if we just hadn't gone to work. I gritted my teeth, and stared at the bedside alarm clock; it was just after noon.

Just a few hours ago, we'd been happy, fulfilled, and so in love, and now?

That was all I needed to know, before my final solution bolted into my mind.

I wasn't going to let Jacob take her away, and I definitely wasn't going to allow Bella to get hurt.

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A/N: Short, I know! Sorry, but hey, it's a faster update.


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