A/N: I think I get it...so I write the other chapters and I get the reviews calling me mean...evil, sadistic, and more uses of the word fuck than Ive heard before (maybe not but close) but then I write the last one and I get praised...okay I get it... Maybe... Word of warning you may get cavities/ diabetes with this chapter... I have a new word I created a while ago for when I was writing a chapter like this...
FLUT...youve been warned...
Never wrote anything like this so hoping I did alright. Also I asked a few of you about what song I could put up on here that may fit the chapter. Thanks for all the feedback but I decided to go with one I already knew the lyrics to but the ones suggested will def be in chapters a little futher on or next story...I do suggest watching the official video on youtube...and no the song doesn't have anything to do with meat...well maybe...Enjoy
Deftones
"You've Seen The Butcher"
Don't wanna take it slow,
I wanna take you home,
And watch the world explode,
From underneath your glow,
I wanna watch the way~
You creep across my skull~
You slowly enter,
Cause you know my room,
And then crawl your knees off,
Before you shake my tomb...
I wanna watch you close,
I need to see for sure,
And then the tape is on,
Who do you think we can show?
I wanna watch the way~ You creep across my skull~
You slowly enter... Cause you know my room... And then crawl your knees off ...And then you shake my tomb
You enter slowly,
You know my room,
You crawl your knees off,
And then you shake my tomb.
"I will not be a part of this, you ask too much from Shepard, from us! She has saved you all from the Reapers, she needs to be with her loved ones, not torn away kept in isolation for your experiment. That she may come around...as you so put it. Shepard is leaving and that is the end of this discussion."
"I understand your hesitation doctor but Shepard is suffering from severe head trauma..."
"You understand nothing...she has been through enough for all of our lifetimes and she is not to be used as a lab rodent...So that you may see if your experiment works, doctor"
The last words oozing with contempt. The Asari doctor could not believe what she was hearing
"This will not be done, her mind is too fragile and being alone is NOT the answer. She will never forgive us, me for letting this happen and I will not allow it."
Admiral Hackett lets out a small sigh. He was trying to think of anything to say to both of the doctors in the room to come to some sort of an agreement. He knew this might not be the best way for Shepard to cope with the memory loss but they were running out of options.
"And Admiral how is it that in all the years you have known her, all the missions you have had her go on for you and the Alliance, succeeding in every one of them, can you sit there and tell ME that isolation is the best course of action. When being alone is all she has ever known...Mindor, Saren, the collectors, the reapers the alpha relay!" Her voice getting louder with each example.
"You all turned your back on her when all she did was fight for you, died for you."
Tears starting to fall lowering her head, her voice becoming almost a little more than a whisper.
"It's all she has ever known...is to fight for someone, everyone and once again she is being pushed away into a life of solitude until the galaxy needs her again, no." Shaking her head at the last word...
"I even turned her away when she was at her lowest point and I will never forgive myself for that." Her voice cracking with the last sentence her eyes looking down at her hands in her lap, nervously rubbing them together. The Asari doctor composes herself while she wipes the tears from her eyes with the back of her hand looks up and continues
"But there is one thing she will always do and that is to protect the ones she cares for most until her last breath and now that is what I will do for her. I will never give up hope no matter how bad it gets, my resolve will never falter. I will devote my entire life to getting her the proper care she needs and not some senseless attempt at a cure that you are proposing."
"Doctor please…" Admiral Hackett begins… "All we want to do is help her and this may be the only thing that will work. All the treatment doctor Gallagher has tried since Shepard has been here has not worked. She has continued to lose her memories starting with crucible and the doctors here feel her mind will continue to deteriorate until she has nothing left to remember.
Dr Gallagher continues. "We have no idea why this is happening to her and we have no idea what memories she is losing. It seems only when she is alone, does she start to remember what happened and th...
"So why when she saw me did she remember everything." Frustration and anger coming out with each word, tears continuing. "She remembered everything that happened with me and the crew. Everything you have mentioned to me that she has apparently been forgetting, Shepard was able to recount it all. She told me all her memories came back to her once she saw us. So why would this idea, your idea work?!And why should I care about what happened on the crucible, all I know is she kept her promise."
Dr gallagher slowly stands up realizing she had hit a nerve with the other woman sitting across her desk. "Yes she remembered when she saw you and yes it could have been the start of all her memories returning but I have to ask you doctor. What happens if her mind does start to regress and she can barely remember herself much less you? As far as the crucible , Admiral Hackett and the alliance need to know that information so they can study it and hopefully be able to use it if a threat like this ever comes up again. Surely you would want your future together to be as safe as possible. This treatment I am proposing is only meant to help her and I am positive it will help with the trauma she suffered."
The doctor is trying to look as compassionate as she could. She was not thrilled with having to resort to violence but if pushed hard enough she would. the Asari doctor was proving to be difficult and if a compromise was not reached Liara and anyone else was to be removed from the situation.
"Do not talk to me about our future or how safe it will be! You have no idea what we have seen and done, no idea how much Shepard has sacrificed for all of you. We owe her everything. She does not deserve this, what you are proposing is nothing short of barbaric. She made this galaxy safe for our children. Our child will no what peace is because of her."
Liara lays a hand on her stomach and smiles. She closes her eyes feeling the love towards their unborn child grow as the baby does. Neither one of them could wait until she was in their arms in a couple of months and the more she thought about leaving with her love and start their family the more her mood began to change. Even with the treatment the doctor was proposing she found herself glowing. Still, she was unaware of the actual purpose of the doctors proposal.
Doctor gallagher mislead the Asari and Hackett that Shepard wasn't recovering, she blamed the Admiral for telling her about Anderson dying and made it seem like that was all she could take and the final reason Shepard tried to take her own life. The doctor proceeded to tell them that Shepards mind was deteriorating quickly and her treatment would give her mind time to heal and she would be able to recount everything slowly. The doctor informed them that she was worried if Shepard did not gradually remember her mind coiuld be flooded with all the past pain of her life she would have a mental break. She had to be careful what she said though as it would not take much with the Asari around to figure out the doctors lie.
Of course the drugs she was being given when she was a sleep were only hindering her recovery process. The process that doctor Gallagher had proposed was to keep her in isolation for a time and gradually let her remember on her own by giving her different triggers that allowed her to recover each memory. If that didn't work everyone was at a loss. The human doctor however has ulterior motives for getting Shepard to remember. She wanted the crucible and the power it held and she knew Shepard had all the information she needed locked away. It had been hard for the doctor to get in good with the Commander as she didn't seem to trust easy. Even though she had convinced Admiral Hackett that this was the best option but this Asari was being problematic and would have to be dealt with if she refused to cooperate.
The expression on the womans face sitting across from doctor Gallagher was hiding how she truly felt. She was furious. Furious that anyone would suggest this type of treatment. Wanted to warp them both through the wall but kept her composure as she stood up running her hands down the front of her coat and turned to leave the room.
As they both called for her to please sit in order to finish the conversation and possibly reconsider. She pauses as she reaches the door, stops briefly enough to look back and spoke through gritted teeth as the rage finally begins to show on her face, hands glowing blue.
"She is leaving with me to recover. I will be with her every moment if I have to...do NOT contact me again with your ridiculous notions and as for you Admiral Hackett, she did her time for your alliance she is now hear-bye retired."
As she starts to leave she pauses again turning to the remaining two people in the room as they both sit in stunned silence , with a coy smile, biotics glowing around her entire body she finishes the conversation with the words
"There. is. one. last. thing." Pausing between each word for effect." If I hear, that anyone has contacted my bondmate without my authorization and mentions any of this I will fillet them with my mind."
With that she walks out the door with a small smile on her face, headed for her love knowing she got her point across with the utter shock presant on both their faces. As she made her way back to where Shepard had been waiting a sad, worried look came across her features as the conversation replayed. She started to fear the worse that Shepard would forget who she was, who her friends and family were, everything. As she got closer to her destination the feelings of love overcame her as she neared her bondmate the look she had was replaced with a beautiful smile.
A smile only Shepard could bring to her face. Her smile grew even more when she saw her love waiting for her then leaping into her arms when they made eye contact, both falling into the embrace with passion, kissing each other deeply, not caring who was in the room. As they broke away from the kiss Shepard looks upon her love with lust in her eyes. She leans in kissing her neck moving her way up to Liaras ear and slowly whispers. "We need to leave...now." Liara nearly melts with each word coming from her love.
"By the goddess Kerry I may not...make it."
Shepard runs her hands down her loves back as she starts kissing Liaras lips once again. Liara let's out a slight squeal as Shepard grabs her ass,lifting, to pull her close. She pulls back from the kiss slightly opens her eyes and says.
"This ass is mine and I want it now."
With that, liaras desire bursts to the surface, her eyes swirling from blue to black, hands grabbing at Shepards backside, hard, gaining the same squeal from the woman she loves. She leans in as she initiates a light meld saying. "Not if I get my teeth into yours first."
As they are lost in each other liara shows Shepard what she was planning once they reached their destination. The meld slowly fades, Shepard nearly collapsing, breathing heavy looking back into liaras eyes.
"Liara...please." Is all the words that she can form.
That was the day they came back into each others lives and it is one day Liara will never forget. As Liara walked through the door and saw Shepard she thought it was a dream that she never wanted to wake up from. She had seen the shocked look on everyone's face sitting there and it was concerning until Shepard was in her arms holding her as tight as she had ever felt before. Liara started a meld and they both said they thought each other was gone. Neither wanted to let each other go and as much as the entire Normandy crew who was there wanted to see their commander, they found themselves pushed out of the room by Miranda, Tali and even Aethyta.
She wanted to see her daughter, was happy she was alive but they would not let each other go. Eventually they both walked out of the room, finding everyone else anxiously waiting out in the hallway. After they all greeted her, Shepard and Liara were called into doctor Gallagher's office along with Admiral Hackett. After the conversation turned to Shepards treatment Liara began to get curious and asked Shepard to leave for a moment.
That night after they got back to the on base apartment Hackett arraigned for them that they would share for a while, they spent the entire time in each other arms just wanting to feel each other again and never let go. They both were eager as ever to relearn one another but they both made sure they took their time, turning the entire night into one giant euphoric experience. As exhausted as they both were, the feeling of being in each others arms of each kiss and caress was enough to push their fatigue away, each touch filled with a possessive desire to be one again. Each climactic finish only pushed them to want more until the final time became an unbelievable feeling that swept through the both of them and it felt like it had lasted far longer than it did.
They both held onto each other tighter then ever shaking from the surreal feeling for what felt like hours. As the sensations of the past few moments slowly went away they laid there happy just to be in the moment, knowing there were many more nights like this in the near and far off future.
With all Shepard had been through the goddess had shined down upon her life and given them both what they needed, each other for centuries to come. The Lazarus project had extended her life but after the crucible fired and synthetics started to fail the alliance had found Miranda Lawson and with the help of her sister and other doctors, 'rebuilt' her, increasing her life span even further.
As much as this wonderful news was, Shepard did not want to wait for something so important ever again. She had decided the moment she saw liara again that she needed to spend the rest of her life with her love. She woke up the next day, more towards the afternoon, before liara and slowly made her way to her bag, barely able to walk from the previous night activities, a coy smile on her lips as she started rubbing her legs trying to get the feeling back into her extremities. She grabs a small box that Ashley had given her while Liara was in the doctors office. The lieutenant commander had stumbled upon it after they crashed right before she told Liara to stay in the quarters. Williams figured if Liara found it that it would be that much worse for her so she kept it hoping she would be able to give it Shepard.
The commander bought the bonding bracelet months ago on their second visit to the citadel. She never found the right time to propose but tonight would be. She had put it in her pocket of the clothes she was going to wear that evening at dinner. Turning around to look at liara smiling as wide as she could, she couldn't help it , this is the life she wanted. What she said to liara after they defeated the shadow broker was the truth, marriage, little blue children, a life together was what she wanted and now she was finally getting the life she deserved, they deserved.
They had both been through so much before they met and it continued on after Liaras rescue from Therum. The tragedy continued and it didn't seem to let up. Benezia, Shepards death, almost loosing liara to her quest to bring down the shadow broker. The suicide mission through the Omega 4 relay, even Shepard getting arrested for destroying the relay killing thousands of batarians as the reapers threatened to come through. The reapers themselves but through it all they were able to find a way back to each other and now there was no war, no mission, nothing that one or both would be called away to deal with. This was the moment, their moment that they could share for centuries to come. They were finally getting the life they deserved after sacrificing so much to get there. Neither one knew if one or both would make it through any mission they went on but they would fight to the end even if only to see each other for a brief moment. Now there was no longer that worry it was just them and that's all they ever asked for.
Shepard crawled back into bed and put her arms around the love of her life breathing in her scent that had never changed. The pure bliss of these times shared, along with their future ones became all Shepard thought about. Nothing could ruin what they had what they would have and she started to feel anxious about that night and she wanted more than anything for it to be happening right now. For the moment though Shepard was content with just holding her as Liara leaned back into the embrace, a slight moan came from her blue angel as Shepard started to kiss her crests.
"I think I could used to you waking me up like this." Liara whispers as her eyes start to roll into the back of her head. Shepard knew every spot on the asari and what effect it had on her.
Dragging out the first word Shepard says. "So I will have to figure out different ways of waking you then? Can't have you getting to used to my touch, may not want me to after a while." Shepard whispers to her.
Liara rolls over and gently strokes Shepards hair loving the feel of it in between her fingers. " I will never tire of your touch" licking the tip of her loves nose. A single tear ran down Shepards face as she looked down. A hand gently whipping it away. "Kerry...Is there something wrong?"
As Shepard makes eye contact more tears start streaming down her face. "No...everything is ...this is all I've ever wanted when I was a child before..."
Her words trail off a little not wanting to think of her families death at this time, just how happy they would be for her at this moment. Regaining her composure a little she continues.
"Someone to grow old with, now ...now I have it and I never thought it would be possible. All the years of fighting, trying to survive each mission. Hoping I would have made my family proud, still do but... I was always a soldier, never knew how not to be anything different and knew I may never come back from a mission, accepted it until I met you and something changed. I felt like I could be something more, wanted more. Now I have what I want, what I thought I'd lost." Her tears continued as she stopped for a moment trying to convince herself this was reality and not her mind messing with her, grabbing a hold of liaras hand and looking into her eyes was all she needed to know this was all real. Seeing her love in front of her, tears present as well, Shepard knew this was the start of their future together.
"With all the problems with my memory right now I do know one thing is certain, I love you and I want to spend the rest of my life with you."
As she spoke she sat up and slid off to the edge of the bed gently pulling Liara with her. Her tear filled face showing only love and happiness. She started to speak but was stopped by Shepard's finger to her lips.
"Before you say anything I need to ask you something." Shepard moved off the bed as Liara sat up moving to follow her, Shepard places both her hands on her shoulders leaning in kissing her deeply, a soft moan came from the both of them as they enjoyed the moment. As they continued Shepard knelt down in front of her love she pulled the box from her pants and opened it. Still embraced in the kiss Liara missed what Shepard was doing until she felt her pull away a little. Liara open her eyes followed by her mouth as what was happening in front of her started to sink in.
She had loved Shepard well before she had ever said it and knew she felt the same way and they had referred to each other as bondmates before but now this moment is something she secretly dreamt of as well. Shepard had said she wanted to get married, mentioned it a few times during the war but was always quick to change the subject or make a joke that Liara would run away screaming after only a decade much less a century being together. Truth be told Liara had thought about this moment for a long time, since their first night togeher right before Illos. Liara was initially hesitant with telling the Commander how she truly felt for fear that Shepard would push her away and not want to be with her but that fear was erased when she heard Shepard say the same to her. That Shepard was afraid to do the same feering Liara would see the mess she was and not want her but when they finally did tell each other all their fears were erased.
Their bond became stronger after Saren was defeated and they spent their leave together and it continued to grow until it became something that no one could explain. They could feel each others presance, knew when one another was hurting or in a good mood. They were inseparable and most people they knew, already had an idea, mainly because Tali likes to gossip but they did everything they could together and this moment would solitify their bond into something that nothing could break.
Secretly when Liara was younger and her and her mother would get into a disagreement she would go to her one spot no one could find her and think about what it would be like for someone to ' sweep her off her feet ' and now she had that in 'her girl' kneeling in front of her asking to be Shepards bondmate, wife whatever it was called. Tears start to flow full force as she was overcome with feelings of love, excitement, pure bliss.
"Liara T'Soni, You have brought a feeling of joy and love in me that I never thought possible. We have been through so much together in the years since we met. I didn't know what is was like to love or be loved before I met you and you helped me realize what is truly important in this galaxy and that is you, you have been what I wanted what I fought for, why I continued on trying to save everyone everywhere so I could have a life with you."
Shepard swallowed hard keeping her eyes on the visibly shaking Asari in front of her. She started to stumble over her words speaking quicker than she wanted to.
"I know this isn't ...probably... not how ...asari tradition is done and its not how I imagined it . Actually the two of us naked together was more a fantasy then how I wanted to do this but nothing ever happens as I planned In my head so why sh..."
Her rambling interrupted by her lovers lips on her own pulling her up into welcome arms, laying back onto the bed pulling back just enough to answer the unasked question.
"Yes my beloved I will marry you, bond with you be whatever you want me to be as long as its with you together. I can not think of anything that would make me happier than spending everyday with you. So, if that is the question you had planned on asking me through your rambling then yes I will be your bondmate."
As a smile came across Liara's face. Shepard pursed her lips and squinted her eyes in mock annoyance playfully swatting Liara's ass as the asari giggled. A look of tremendous joy became present on her face as what her love just said sank in. She had a good feeling on what the answer would be but hearing it only made her smile like she never has before. They held each other until Shepard pulls back a little looking deep into her loves blue eyes.
"You have made me the happiest person that has ever lived and I will make it my life's goal to do the same for you."
Liara looks on, as her heart continues to melt. "But you already have my sweet, you have given me everything I ever wanted. You have been my savior." Slowly kissing Shepard's lips then to her neck "My friend, my support when I thought all was lost, my protector...lover...my heart... My everything."Whispering the last few words in Shepard's ear.
The human was slightly trembling between each word spoken and kiss given.
"You have given me everything I've ever wanted and more. Now we are to be bonded and having a child together so you have fulfilled your goal at making me happy."
Her tongue darting out into Shepard's ear then biting a little. Liaras hands pulling her blonde hair back so her neck is exposed a little more as she moves down licking and nipping every so often leaving little marks in her wake as her love begins to run her hands down liaras back and crest both becoming mesmerized by each others touch. Liara rolls Shepard onto her back pinning her down lifting her hands above her head slowly kissing her way down Shepard's body until she reaches her breasts, sucking on her already hardened bud as her other hand squeezes the other. Moans of ecstasy escaping Kerry's mouth, hands playing with Liara's crests once again letting her know to continue.
Liara continues to suck on her nipple flicking it with her tongue while she takes it in between her teeth. Her lovers moans only increase as her other hand slowly works its way down to Shepard's stomach moving down one leg then gliding it over her loves throbbing center just barely grazing her opening as Shepard breathes in anticipating what's to come. Shepard lets out a sharp breath as Liara's hand snakes its way back up to her other breast again. Liara can feel the wetness on her fingertips just from brushing past Shepards core. Liara knows how wet she is, feeling the same in between her own thighs.
"Liara, please I need you." The words barely escape her throat in between moans the pitch in her voice going up as the feelings of bliss continue. Hands desperately grabbing at the sheets and headboard. Shepard was losing control, grinding her hips into the bed as Liara was slowly teasing every inch of her loves body. Slowly moving her hand back down to her loves sex, rubbing her throbbing nub slowly then sliding her finger in, curling up.
Shepard's eyes roll back at the pure pleasure she is feeling. Liara is pushing her over the edge and they were lucky to be in a private house. They never really had privacy on the Normandy as it was not completly sound proof but now it was different they were alone so they both were able to let go and completely get lost in the moment. Even if they werent they just got each other back and could care less who heard them, this was their time.
She begins a shallow meld wanting to feel how the woman she loves, body was reacting to her. Liara had always been able to make Shepard feel as if every inch of her was electric and every touch, even the slightest had been able to fill every desire Shepard could handle. With the meld it made it that much more exhilarating. She could feel what she was doing and how it would fill Shepard's needs as well as her own.
What she felt this time nearly took her breath away as her lovers body was exploding with sensations she only ever felt when they reached their peak and came together. The meld instantly deepened and Liara lost all her concentration.
"By the goddess..."
The feelings were beyond euphoric and she could no longer concentrate until she heard Shepard barely say.
"Don't stop...please."
Liara forces herself to move down Shepard's body barely able to hold on as all the pleasure they were feeling had doubled and neither thought they could take much more. As she reaches her destination between her lovers thighs she is met with the familiar scent she had come to love. Shepard's slick folds were glistening and it pushed Liara over the edge knowing it was always caused by her.
She quickly pushes her tongue into the commander and as she licks her way up to her lovers throbbing bud Shepards legs tighten around the side of her head, her leg muscles twitching each time Liara touches her. Shepard's hands grab onto her crests hitting that spot that drove Liara over the edge. Two fingers slide into Shepard with ease glowing with biotics and as she curls them up Shepard cries out her name, back arching as her walls close around liaras fingers. Her tongue finds Shepard's swollen bud, each lick was met with Shepard crying out louder for her to continue and as Liaras finger found the spot inside her love they were searching for, it was all it took as they both cry out as their bodies explode into feelings of pure bliss. Liara continues to suck on her clit and move her fingers as much as she can, both shaking from their orgasm until Shepard starts to pull her lover towards her.
Liara slowly moves up next to Shepard desperately wanting to hold her. They were both quivering from the aftershocks of their last orgasm. Barely able to continue the meld liara can feel waves of love and absolute bliss coming from Shepard as she sends her own feelings of love back. They were both short of breath but were smiling still enjoying the aftershocks of their shared orgasm.
"Holy... christ, Liara where did that come from?"
"I assure you that was not just me...But I would love to experiment more and recreate those results."
"You think? Well we definitely have to practice and write it down whenever we..."
Her voice drifts off a little. Liara notices and looks up at her bondmate confused as to why she stopped talking.
"What is it love?"
Forcing a smile Shepard shakes her head a little, silently telling her it was nothing. Liara can see the conflict on Shepard's face and pushes a little.
"You know you can talk to me...please tell me what is bothering you...did I..."
"Please don't ever think you did anything wrong...ever...that was amazing, again...you could never do anything wrong with anything...just a passing thought I guess."
Liara rests her head on Shepard's chest, her blue eyes staring into green. "Just know I am here to help you carry your burdens...always. And remember you said that later." Liara says smiling trying to help her love.
Closing her eyes Shepard can feel the truth behind her words and she knows she can confide in her Asari. "It's just...what if? What if I forget this, times like these...us...what if I forget who I am or Cater..."
Not able to finish the last part. Feering the worst that she will forget their daughter. Caterina Benezia T'soni, named for Shepard's sister and Liara's mother. She couldn't stand the thought of being alive long enough to see her daughter almost become a matriarch and not know who she was. It scared her to her core but liara was there for her and they would get through it together.
"You know me I just worry about...well everything..."
"Kerry look at me...we have the rest of our lives together and our daughter will only make our bond that much stronger...I will be here for you, helping you with any problems...we will face them together. So please anytime you worry about anything let me know."
"I will...way to ruin a moment huh? Good going shep."
Slowly Liara moves closer to Kerry's ear and whispers. "I am sure you will find ways to make it up to me." Before she can say anything else she finds herself pinned under the commander, arms above her head being kissed passionately, thanking all of Shepards military training for giving her so much 'stamina'.
"Your turn."
"Goddess...Shepard I dont think I can take much more."
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"We have a problem, the Asari is not cooperating."
"We knew that might happen."
"She is also pregnant."
"We proceed as planned."
"Understood."