A/N: Sorry! I actually feel horrible for how long I've left you's waiting. This is the second last chapter I wasn't going to post it until the last chapter was ready but I didn't wana make you's wait. Hope you's enjoy.
Mitchie's Prov
Just over a week later and Shane got his wish, everything was back to how it was or close enough to it; he acted as if I didn't exist or I was some invisible obstacle he would take a large berth around if he had to walk past or near me. I tried to talk to him a couple of times but he practically ran away or acted as if he didn't hear me I was crushed, but no-one besides my friends cared. People were still stuck in the lie Tess had created so I was still getting cold shoulders and nasty things being spread about me behind my back, like Shane and I were faking this break up…if only.
I hated myself for the pain I'd caused myself, I dug out this big gaping hole in my chest and there was no-one else to blame for that and worse than that I hated myself for the pain I'd caused Shane and for what because of a few whispers and looks? I couldn't believe I'd let myself give into peer pressure like that - I had let on it was my rational side that talked me out of our relationship but that was a lie-, I mean I gave up one of the best things that's ever happened to me just to please people who after this Summer I'll probably never see again. I wish I could take it all back.
I hated sitting around feeling sorry for myself all the time, but I had tried and failed with Shane on several occasions, he wanted to forget everything that had happened surely I was selfless enough to grant him his only wish.
Shane's Prov
I crossed out another day on my calendar, only six more days I had to suffer through before I could escape this place. It got harder instead of easier after Mitchie and I's last conversation trying to ignore her in class, not looking at her when I saw her around camp, not sitting with her at lunch, not laughing with her in Brown's cabin during our "punishment" lesson. It was harder when she tried to talk to me like we could just be friends, I didn't want to just be friends with her I was in love with her if we couldn't be together I just couldn't have her in my life at all.
"Shane, we're gonna go help Brown and Dee set up for the Beach Jam." Nate said breaking me out of my staring competition with my calendar, no matter how much I wished it staring at it wasn't going to make the days pass faster anyway.
"O.k. I'll see you's down there later." I forced a smile at both of them as they left.
Mitchie's Prov
I picked a spot on the beach where I could still see the stage but wasn't near the groups of girls who were taken on more qualities of a school of piranha fish these days, ready to pull me apart at any second. I felt safer when my friends joined me and blocked them from my view.
"Nice spot." Ella complimented as she folded her legs and dropped down onto our blanket beside me.
"For you." Caitlyn smiled handing me a slushy.
"Thank you." I smiled taken it off her and taken a sip. "They're good."
I had mastered playing "fine" around my friends it wasn't right to bring them down.
"Are you sure you don't wanna sing tonight?" Ella asked again for the millionth time.
I shook my head, "I don't really have any song prepared."
"You can't have run out of songs." Caitlyn smiled. "You have like a million written in your book."
I just shrugged, I didn't want to sing, I didn't feel like it but I wasn't going to go into that right now. "I'm happy just watching tonight."
They both just let it go after that seeing I wasn't going to cave and obviously didn't want to talk about why I wasn't going to cave.
"Oh look it's…"
Ella shot Caitlyn a warning look making her trail off before both took a quick peek at me.
"Who is it?" I wondered out loud looking behind me.
I found who my friends were staring at, Nate and Jason struggling with music equipment as they tried to carry it over the beach to the stage. Both my friends looked extremely guilty when I turned back to them liked they just committed a crime which made me giggle out loud for the first time in a while, it felt weird. They both looked confused at my reaction.
"Why are you laughing?" Caitlyn asked.
"Sorry." I apologised when I finished snickering. "You's just look so guilty."
"Shouldn't we be?" Ella asked.
Her question stopped my light-hearted mood dead in its tracks, "No. Why would you think that?" I answered.
"Oh, it's just well their…Shane's friends and we thought because of everything…"
I cringed mentally maybe I wasn't the best actress after all; "I'd like to think they were still my friends too. It's fine honestly I don't mind you's saying "hi" to them I wouldn't even mind if you's hung out with them."
"Really?" They chorused at the same time.
"Really." I half smiled looking back at them, they were still struggling. "Maybe we should give them a hand."
I was on my feet and walking towards them before any of my friends could say anything more.
"Hey guys." I smiled when they were within hearing range.
"Hey Mitchie." They smiled but I heard their unsure-ness.
I ignored it and continued, "We thought you's could use a hand." I smiled taken a large speaker of Nate's pile.
"Thanks." He smiled gratefully.
The conversation picked up gradually as we made a couple of runs from Brown's store to the beach with more music equipment but the only question I wanted to ask was the subject everyone else was avoiding.
"Woop's Mitch, I think something was leaking on you." Ella said pointing out a patch of grease on my shirt.
"Damn." I frowned. "I better get this off and soaking before it sets." I said rushing to set down the kick drum I had in my arms. "Will you guys be o.k. without me?"
"Yeah, go on slacker." Caitlyn teased.
I stuck my tongue out at her before rushing off towards our cabin. I ran flat out ignoring the dirty looks I was getting and smiling vindictively as I stirred up some sand throwing it around some of the girls that had been giving me dirty looks earlier. I was enjoying it so much that I wasn't keeping my eyes on where I was running and crashed into the arms I'd been missing this whole week.
"Sorry." I apologised looking at the ground instead of him.
"It's fine." He mumbled moving around me to walk on.
It was the first thing he'd said to me in over a week and even though I'd promised to myself I'd leave him alone like he wanted I couldn't I was weak, selfish and only human.
Shane's Prov
"Shane, wait."
I shook my head and continued to walk on despite the fact I wanted to stop, "Too hard." I whispered to my unwilling feet to get them to move.
"Shane, please." She pleaded hopelessly.
Her helpless, hopeless tone beat out my warning and my feet stopped and turned me around to face her. I was glad –idiotically- I stopped when I looked at her, she looked as hopeless as her tone.
"I'm sorry." She repeated.
"I know." I smiled at her; I couldn't help smiling at her. "No harm done."
She shook her head slightly, "Not about that." She answered looking at me meaningfully.
I cringed away from what she was getting at I didn't want to talk about this, "This was a mistake." I voiced my thoughts then regretted it when I did because of the hurt that clouded her face when my words sunk in. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to be so harsh it's just…never mind I have to go." I said turning on my heels.
"Shane?" She called after me confusion and sadness mixed in her tone.
"I think it's better if we just stay away from each other." I said over my shoulder before beginning to walk off.
"Well, I don't think so." She disagreed sounding stronger than she had a moment ago.
I walked on trying to ignore her praying she'd just leave it alone and not make this harder for me.
"I'm not gonna stop trying with you." She warned.
I closed my eyes pinching the bridge of my nose before letting out an unsteady breath, "Don't." I begged under my breath before walking on faster to get away from her.
The pain in my chest felt fresh, I knew I shouldn't have stopped to talk to her I knew I was going to suffer after it. I was going to suffer every time she tried to talk to me about what happened I was suffering every time I seen her already I had to stop her from trying again I had to make her not want to talk to me.
Mitchie's Prov
I was sick of taken this lying down, it was out of character for me I always fought for what I'd wanted before and I was going to do the same now. I rushed back to our cabin grabbed my guitar and ran back to the beach forgetting about my stained shirt.
"Dee!" I yelled over the music when I found her.
"Mitchie, you're gonna have to speak up." She yelled back when I finally got her attention.
"Is there any space in tonight's line up for me?" I shouted.
She held up her finger to indicate she needed a second as she flipped through the notepad in her hands, "I can fit you in right after this one." She called pointing at the stage.
"Thanks." I smiled at her rushing to the side of the stage to wait and give the backing band my music.
He could ignore me while I was talking but not when I was singing.
Shane's Prov
I hid amongst my friends when I found them, thankfully Ella and Caitlyn left when I appeared they didn't say why but I knew their concern was Mitchie the instant I showed up, I didn't mind their quick departure they were just more unwanted reminders of Mitchie and I didn't need more of those, she was already on my mind every second of every day.
I wish she would just leave everything alone but I heard the fight in her voice she wasn't going too. I would've paid a million dollars to hear that fight in her voice and her words the few days after we ended our relationship but when I was able to pull myself out of my self pity party I started paying more attention to the whispers. Everyone was aware of our break up, but that didn't seem to matter they were still saying awful, cruel and very much untrue things about both of us but Mitchie seemed to be getting it worse than me, girls were so much meaner about each other than about boys. The more I had to listen to them talk about Mitchie like that the more I wanted to protect her, and when I thought about how I could only find one option, leave her alone. If Mitchie kept trying to talk to me, to fix things she was gonna ruin my plan and the rest of her stay here because I'd give in to my own human weakness and take her back in an instant.
"Ladies and gentlemen, a last minute performer; give it up for Mitchie Torres." Brown announced.
My face must have been a sight the second I seen her walk onto the stage how did I not see it coming, she was gonna make me listen one way or the other. She looked confident as she took the famous rock stance feet apart with her electric guitar hung around her neck, despite the unflattering mumbles from the crowd. She searched the crowd until she found me before she begun.
Don't walk away
Like you always do
This time
Baby you're the only thing
That's been
On my mind
Ever since you've left
I've been a mess
You won't answer
Your phone
I'll say it once
And I'll leave you alone
But I gotta let you know
I wanna get back
To the old days
When the phone
Would ring
And I knew it
Was you
I wanna talk back
And get yelled at
Fight for nothing
Like we used to
Oh, kiss me
Like you mean it
Like you miss me
Cause I know that you do
I wanna get back
Get back
With you
Her fast paced rocky song came to a shock to those around me most were expecting some sad heartbroken song from the sounds of their whispers. I wasn't; she was fighting hard and to do that she was gonna perform as best she could.
Don't look at me that way
I see it in your
Eyes
Don't worry about me
I've been
Fine
I'm not gonna lie
I've been a mess
Since you've left
And every time I see you
It gets more and more
Intense
I wanna get back
To the old days
When the phone
Would ring
And I knew it
Was you
I wanna talk back
And get yelled at
Fight for nothing
Like we used to
Oh, kiss me
Like you mean it
Like you miss me
Cause I know that you do
I wanna get back
Get back
With you
I ignored my friend's looks as they really listened to her chorus, the second time round, probably too surprised by her appearance on stage to really listen the first time.
You were the only one
I wanted
And you were the first one
I fell for
You're the only one
That I've been needing
And I don't want to be
Lonely anymore
I wanna get back
To the old days
When the phone
Would ring
And I knew it
Was you
I wanna talk back
And get yelled at
Fight for nothing
Like we used to!
Oh, kiss me
Like you mean it
Like you miss me
Cause I know
That you do
I wanna get back
Get back
With you
Get back
Get back
Get back
Get back
Oh, kiss me
Like you mean it
Like you miss me
Cause I know
That you do
I wanna get back
Get back
I wanna get back
Get back
I wanna get back
Get back
Get back
Yeah, yeah, yeah
I was stuck to the spot until she finished then I had to leave, fast. She wasn't going to let go and after that song it was obvious she was going to fight harder than ever I had to do something to stop her from wanting me, I wasn't good for her I needed her to understand that.
Mitchie's Prov
There was only a few, scattered applause when I finished, most of the audience were still in a state of shock but I didn't do it for their admiration, I did it for his. He met my gaze for a millisecond then he was gone and my heart sunk in the same moment. My message in my song was pretty clear obviously he didn't feel the same or care.
I slumped off the stage and into the comforting embrace of my friends close to tears.
Shane's Prov
I pushed through the crowd towards the side of the stage, ignoring the looks as people unfroze from the shock.
"Isn't she a peach?" Brown was smiling into the microphone as he came onto the stage to announce the next act.
I looked at the start of the queue at the steps leading onto the stage and found Barron and Sander gearing themselves up for their performance.
"Guys!" I called pushing past the other nervous performers.
"Yo." They smiled together.
"Did you come to wish us good luck?" Sander smiled. "Cause you know we don't need it." He finished chuckling to himself.
"Actually, I came to bribe you's for your spot in tonight's jam."
They looked at me first in disbelief then in astonishment when they realised I was serious.
"I know it's an odd request and I hate that I'm just barging in after you guys waited all this time…but I really need to perform and I need to do it now. I'll pay you's…"
"It's fine dude." Barron interrupted my babbling.
"Yeah, we'll just leave our performance as a surprise at Final Jam." Sander smiled pushing me up a couple of steps.
"Now ladies and gentlemen give it up for Bar…" Brown gave me a confused look as I walked onto the stage. "Shane Grey." He amended before walking off and towards Barron and Sander to get answers.
Mitchie's Prov
My friends and I had shuffled through the crowd to go back to our cabin but the instant I heard his name I turned around so quickly I nearly left my friends on the ground as I flung them around with me.
I watched him pick up one of the electro-acoustic guitars already placed on the stage before he sat on the stool in front of the middle microphone. My heart started hammering excitedly as his presence on stage began to raise my hopes.
I thought I was cool
But I just looked a fool
For so long
Now you're gone
Now you're gone
Yeah
Don't speak to me
Don't speak to me
I recall all our fights
Most of all, all the times
You would lie in my arms
Now you're gone
You're gone
Yeah
Don't speak to me
Don't be my aim
There's a lot that you don't know when you read between the lines
The future's out of focus when you're blinded by the light
It's the hope for all the hopeless in the worst of trying times
I resort to being speechless 'cause our love won't survive
Yeah, our love won't survive
Don't speak a word
His lyrics pierced my heart and deflated my hopes as I listened; my message had been crystal clear in my song and his was painfully clear too. He didn't want me. I swallowed hard trying to fight back the sobs and ignore the stinging sensation behind my eyes. My friends dropped their arms from being linked around mine so they could put them around my waist to comfort me.
Don't speak to me
Don't speak to me
There's a lot that you don't notice when you read between the lines
The future's out of focus when you're blinded by the light
It's the hope for all the hopeless in the worst of trying times
I resort to being speechless 'cause our love won't survive!
I stuck out his performance to the end hoping there would be a twist in the song one that would say he doesn't mean anything of what else he just said and he'd come down into the crowd and take me in his arms, a true Hollywood ending. But it didn't happen when he finished he dumped the guitar and just walked off without one look my way.
I swallowed hard again but it didn't stop the tears that began to escaped, Caitlyn pulled me into her hugging me swiftly before turning me around and leading me towards our cabin.
"Oh my god." Someone cooed.
I rolled my eyes slightly were they taken pity on me now because I finally broke?
"Can you believe how much he's hurting?"
I looked up in confusion, there were three girls walking in front of us gossiping oblivious to our presence so they weren't taken pity on me.
"I can't believe she had the cheek to rub how happy and moved on she is in his face."
What? "Moved on"? What planet were they on? They weren't even listening to my song! I obviously wasn't able to please anyone this night.
A/N: Just wanted to let you all know I'm making progress with the final chapter it will be up some time this week :) x