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Chapter 21: The Battle within

The beautiful sunny day outside didn't fit the astrosphere inside. It was more like war zone here that was about to break lose. Well, I think the war had just begun and it's all going down hill from here. Like me becoming a spy to get information from Josh who could give even at least a little bit of a hint or some leak of inform for me to take and set up my traps.

The fact that Syaoran avoiding me like I'm the plague that well bring the end of the world to him. Whenever we do meet it's like a firewall is there to protect him from me. Just like the old days where he wouldn't even talk to me without saying a bad thing to me. I wished that Melan would have kept that big, stupid mouth to herself.

Touya and Tomoyo are still there to help me fight this battle and the problem with Josh.

So why do I feel so alone with more enemy then allies?

Why do I feel like the weakest link and with one more event it's going to be late to fix it?

Was becoming a boy with all these problems, worth it?

Maybe I should have really died.

Because the only one that is getting more hurt here is me and I'm bring everyone that really important down with me.

Maybe there no blood on this battle field but it's much worse.

I rather have blood then this. Blood you can see and heal. Your body can heal itself and fight against it again if it came again.

However this you can't see and you can't heal so fast. Or even worse you'll never heal at all.

Whenever, I see Yelan alone I can hear her crying. Now when my dad and Yelan meet up with each other there is no love not even a little bit. At least before they had a little bit of love and happiness when I didn't come inference in their affair.

Now all there is…

Hurt.

How can one event change so much?

Why could I be so blind to see really what well happen?

Did I really need Syaoran to avoid me now?

Maybe if things just changed the way it should be. Syaoran not even caring what happen or talked to me. If Touya and Tomoyo still believe I was died. If Josh and Yume never enter my life and we never meet on that faithful day. If Eriol never exchanged a nice word or been a great friend so far. If the maybe not the best but okay relationship with Yelan and my dad wasn't ruined since I came along. If my mom never made me then she wouldn't be died.

Did I do anything right?

Did I bring some kind of joy to someone?

No, all I brought was hurt to everyone.

Maybe if I told the whole world that I went to all boys' school and got arrested or something.

Will all wrong turn right?

Well Syaoran look at me at pitiful before turning around leaving me alone. Well Josh finally gets whatever he wanted and Melan have someone to love that loves her back. Well Yume feel satisfied that it's now my turn to get what I got when I hurt him so badly so long ago. Well Tomoyo look at his pathetic cousin and be shame at me like my dad. Well Touya disown me like dad so clearly stated. Well Yelan have a happily ever after since her source of sadness is finally got what it deserved.

Will I be able to fix right from wrong?

If I just stopped trying to get information out of Josh and let every sin I did get out.

Will I be able to fix right from wrong?

If I let Melan go and just take Syaoran from me without fighting back.

Will I be able to fix right from wrong?

If I stopped lying well Touya and Tomoyo finally be happy.

Will I be able to fix right from wrong?

If I let all I worked for go down the drain so the most important people I cared were getting hurt anymore.

Will I be able to fix right from wrong?!

If I did this well anything good happen.

WILL I BE ABLE TO FIX RIGHT FROM WRONG?

No, I wouldn't.

Even if I wish with every bone and body filbert within me it wouldn't be that easy fix up. I can't ignore this just like that and think it will fix itself. Look what happen when I thought that?

To many bad things happen that way.

No I well fight…

I won't be the weak link anymore and anyways what Melan with Josh did to me was to cruel to ignore.

I well fight and prove once and for all I am worth it.

To anyone who doubts me and thinks that I'm the dirty under their foot.

I well protect the few people that care for me.

I'll fix the relationship with Syaoran and maybe make it into something more.

No! I shouldn't be thinking this now but when I did think about it.

My heart flutter and I blush to myself.

I will be the one that brings the event that well turn an all out war.

However this time I won't be the weak link.

Since I'm going to be the event that changes it…

All I need is a little help and Josh to be the idiot he is.

The war is on.

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TBC

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LoL! How do you like that as cliffhanger?

PLEASE READ: So you know why this a short chapter and the sometimes different personality change for Sakura. I just wanted to show how Sakura really feeling because there is a war going inside herself. She wants be anger and just kill the people that hurting her. However, she does know that she is hurting the people that are precious to her. She really is having two wars right now, one with herself and the other one outside with the people. I know I showed more with the war outside in detail but I never showed how she really felt inside. That why her personality change to chapter to chapter and I just wanted to point that out if you are confused why I'm doing it. That is why I felt this chapter should be left alone and didn't make it longer.

So please review and tell how you like it. Please!!