Disclaimer:
I do not own Durarara! Or its characters. This is a fan fiction made purely for the enjoyment of others. Before reading this story there are 2 things you should know;
1 This story contains MALExMALE relationships.
If you do not like that sort of thing then this story is not for you.
2 This story contains child abuse on a high level, if you have a problem with that then once again this story is not for you.
Thank you.
This is a story created by me and Kurgy. The main concept was developed by both her and I, so any credit for this story also goes to her.
Just so everyone knows, the entire chapter takes place in Izaya's dream. :P So yeah. Enjoy.
Izaya's POV:
Cold.
So, so cold.
Where am I?
How did I get here?
Why
am
I
here?
Alone.
I'm alone.
No.
No.
No.
NO!
It's dark…I'm scared…Help…Someone help!…Save me…Please… I don't want… to be alone. Some…one… please… Anyone…It hurts…hurts so much…Why?
…
…Mom…?
I'm scared…mom…help…please…don't hate me…not my fault…love…mom…please…I love you…mom…
S
C
A
R
E
D
So Scared.
"You're Filthy."
Mom…
"Disgusting."
Why?
"I hate you."
So sorry…
"Just die."
Please no mom…
"JUST DIE!"
NO!
.
.
.
.
.
…
…
…mom…?
Where did you go?
Why did you leave?
"It's your fault."
My fault.
"You killed her."
Me?
"She hung herself."
"Suicide."
"Because of you."
"What about me?"
"Will you kill me too?"
"Do it."
Seikyou-san?
"I dare you."
No…
"Kill me too."
No please…
"Do it."
Kill…
"Do it."
Kill…you?
"Come on."
Yes…
I want you to die. I want to kill you. Not my fault. Your fault your fault YOUR FAULT! Because of you…
…not me…
You should die…I want to kill you.
"Do it."
It'll all be ok. No more sadness. They wont be sad…I wont be sad…
I WANT YOU TO DIE!
Kill you…
Strangle…
I'll kill you.
Wrap my hand's around your throat…
Suffocate…die…
"Do it."
I'll kill you!
"…!"
That's right…don't make a sound…die…just die…I can feel it…no more air…you can't breathe…hurry up!…Hurry up and die! …Disappear…I hate your existence…I just want you dead…
Hurts…crushing your wind pipe…
"…Izaya…"
What…?
"…I-Izaya…!"
Stop saying that…
"…S-Stop…Izaya…"
Stop talking!
"…s-stop…"
JUST HURRY UP AND DIE!
"I-Izaya!"
SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP!
"…I…"
Shut up…
"…za…"
Stop it…
"…ya…"
Stop saying my name…My name…?…Is that…my name…?
Orihara Izaya Orihara Izaya Orihara Izaya Orihara Izaya Orihara Izaya Orihara Izaya Orihara Izaya Orihara Izaya Orihara Izaya Orihara Izaya Orihara Izaya Orihara Izaya
Orihara…Izaya…Ori…hara…I…za…ya…
Izaya.
"Izaya…"
…Izaya…
"I-Izaya!"
So loud…
"Wake up!"
Wake…up…?
"Izaya…!"
…wake…up…
"IZAYA!"
I gasped loudly as someone screamed my name.
What's…going on? Where am I?
"Iza-nii! STOP!" Shrill voices came screaming from behind me.
Mairu and…Kururi?
"…I-Izaya…ugh…"
There's something under me. What is it?
As my vision began to clear, something beneath me jerked up, hands clamped down onto my fore arms as muffled shouts came from the top of the stairs.
Wait…stairs? Wasn't I in my room? How did I get down here? Why are the twins screaming like that? What are they saying? I can't…hear…I cant move my arms…They hurt. What's going on?
"I-Izaya!" Whatever seemed to be sitting underneath me began coughing and hacking violently, but I still cant see.
It's too dark. My hands…squeezing too hard…what is it? I feel scared…Shizu-chan… Where's Shizu-chan?
And just like that it hit me.
My vision cleared completely as I bolted up off the couch, Mairu and Kururi running to my side and grabbing both of my arms.
My arms fell limp to my sides as he sat up, caressing his throat gently as fresh air began flooding into his screaming lungs. Through clouded eyes, he looked up at me, small coughs escaping his mouth as he panted loudly.
"…why…?" Was all he said as he stared me down. Confused, hurt, and angry.
His eyes wanted answer's, answer's that I didn't know myself. My chest tightened in pain as the full realization settled within me.
I just tried to kill Shizu-chan.
Author's note's:
Ha-Ha! Confusing wasn't it? I was trying a different kind of writing for this chapter since it was the chapter of Izaya's nightmare. O.o Anyway, I tried writing my weird dream sequence chapter differently. Does it work? I know a lot of people dont like the centered writing, but i promise it's just for this chapter. I don't think I'm ever going to be doing it again, because this was a pain in the ass. I just wanted to experiment a little. :/ Anyway, this was a super short chapter!
Any and all reviews are greatly appreciated! Thank you for reading chapter 21!