Chapter Twenty is dedicated to: LunaSibuna, NobodyKnowsButMe, Bearybeach, MissTaco and Ainsworth 123-who are the first to review my new stories!

Song: Are We There Yet by Ingrid Michaelson

~*~20. House of I Love You~*~

The ceiling is about to fall on me. It should; the walls will collapse and the white popcorn layer will come crashing down on me. Nina thought, her body propped up and her head staring at the ceiling in her hospital room. But of course it won't, so here I am right now. Waiting. Waiting for it to crash.The heavy breathing of the other patient behind the curtain was distracting and Nina slipped under the flannel blue blanket, the fuzzy material scratching her bare ankles. Her hospital gown felt like a thin peice of paper-a barrier from her to the world.

"Hello there sleepy Chosen One." Nina looked up suprised, expecting it to be a nurse. But of course it wasn't-it couldn't, nobody knew her as the 'Chosen One'. Amber set a tray of Coffee down on the wobbly bed-side table. Nina hated when she did that, she hated when Amber brought coffee even though Nina couldn't have it-of course she didn't tell her that. Amber took her black blazer off leaving her in her frilled hot pink blouse. Amber was still a fashion designer and fashion and if you were smart enough you could figure out that Amber never zipped up her bag so while her back was turning you could slip into her bag and take her iPad.

"How are you feeling this morning?" She walked over to the wall behind Nina and pressed a button that moved Nina's bed upwards so she was sitting properly. "Good," Nina murmered she still wasn't a hundred percent comfortable with talking to her old friend, Amber's clicking heels blocked out the noise of the heavy breathing patient. "That's good." Amber sat down at the end of Nina's bed.

Amber adjusted her body so she was sitting outward but her head, faced Nina. "The nurse said they would have to take a sample again." The blonde tried a smile but Nina just let out a sigh. "So exciting-." Nina muttered. From Amber's bag she pulled a clear vial with a sticker that displayed random numbers. "You know the drill. I'll be outside." Amber passed the vial to Nina and stood up and left.

'You know the drill. I'll be outside.' Yeah of course I know the drill.

Fabian's closed his eyes and gripped Hedi's waist tightly. He felt free, like a bird finally unlatched from a thousand bounds of chains and locks. Something has been lifted off his shoulders when he got onto Hedi's motorcycle. "Enjoying the ride? We'll be at your office soon." She screamed over the roaring engine. Fabian didn't say a word-and not because Hedi's curls whipped in his face but because he wanted to suck this up. He wanted to suck up the surging feeling as the sped down the highway on her bike.

He was going to scream. That was it. Fabian Rutter was about to scream. To shake his head, open his eyes and let his mouth describe his excitment, he'd never felt like this since he was a teenager, young, free, and head-over-heels in love. In love. A feeling that made him want to shake his head, open his eyes, and scream...just like now.

"I know it was the right thing to let him go...but I'm not sure it was the right way and now I'm afraid that if he knows now it'll hurt him worse than it would hurt him if he knew now." Nina admitted while her fragile state sunk into the mattress. "Why does it hurts so much?" She let out a breath and closed her eyes. It hurts so much.

"Are you sure it's not the cancer or maybe the horrid smell in here that hurt?" Amber joked but neither her or Nina laughed. Laughing wasn't something either of them were interested in. Amber swallowed and took a risk by continuing. "I don't know, I just can't...I'd like to tell you I have all the answers, but honestly," Amber looked down into her lap. This was the first time Nina had every seen her so serious." I'm still having problems with Alfie, and I know that its not time to talk about me and all..." Amber trailed off, her eyes getting watery. "You and Alfie were dating?" Amber chuckled sarcastically at Nina's confusion.

"Yeah after you left that second term to go on European tour Alfie passed the tests. We finally got to together, and then broke up...we never got back together and now that he is in a long term reletionship with Piper, I wouldn't be suprised if they were the next to get married after Patricia and Jerome...anyways what I'm trying to say is that-trust what I'm about to say because it comes from experience-it hurts much more finding out after then before because then your not even giving Fabian the chance he deserves. You love him, I know you do but your not allowed to make executive descisions for him."

Nina looked down and swallowed not opening her lips. She could feel her bad breath in her mouth and she was ashamed at the state she was in and of what Amber said.

Amber got off the bed and brushed off her black skinny jeans. "I have to go make a call Nina, you'll be OK here right?" Amber looked at her old friend. Nina was as thin as a skeleton, her face was getting paler everyday and beneath her eyes grew light purple blotches. She was unrecognizable unless someone told you who she was. "I think I'll be fine in the end." Nina promised and slipped back down to take a nap. Tommorow they were moving Nina to her own room.

Hedi's bike slowed in the underground parking lot of the second work building location. Fabian let go of her waist and tried to catch his breath as he stumbled off the bike. "Whoa cowboy, breath!" She teased taking off her helmet, Fabian could feel his headgear strapped tightly to his head. "That was A-M-A-Z-I-N-G! Hedi your my new best friend!" He joked and took of his helmet. Hedi laughed, her voice sounding like bells. Fabian joined in laughing but when it died down he stared at his feet.

When it's over you just feel numb, like the excitment that happened before never really existed. Hedi gave a sad smile. "You look like a man in trouble." She said and leaned against her bike. Fabian just nodded, why was it that ever second of the day Nina was on his mind? He'd try pushing her away, locking his feelings, burning them...but here he was, with a really sweet, pretty and nice woman but he thought about nothing besides his 'High School Sweetheart'.

He was pretty pathetic then.

"Well there is this girl." He started and fiddled with his fingers. Hedi gave him a look of encouragment, "A girl what?" He sighed. "There is this girl that I've liked since high school-year 9 and she left and then came back, then left went of to get married then well called it off, then became my best friend after what six years and then I kissed her and she rejected me." Hedi laughed and Fabian looked at her confused, did she find his reconstructing romance funny.

"What?" He asked not realizing that he himself was smiling and holding back giggles. "Well isn't it obvious?" She stopped laughing and grabbed his freezing hand that tensed in her grasp. "Fabian Rutter you aren't just in love she's your I don't know...soulmate?"