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Chapter Twenty One: Comfort

Yesterday was eventful to say the least. I knew my dad wasn't going to be thrilled, but I didn't think he would say some of the horrible things he did. It hurt so much hearing my dad talk to me like that. I had never felt so sad in that moment. It was almost like he had ripped out my heart and shattered it into pieces. It felt like he no longer loved me. It hurt a lot.

However, I was so glad my mom was there for me- at the end anyway. I remember her sticking up for me and holding me until I fell asleep, while she whispered comforting words into my ear. I don't know what I would do if my mom wasn't so accepting. I honestly can't thank her enough for being there for me.

Anyway today is a new day; I just hope it will be better than yesterday.

I opened my eyes and felt someone's arms around me. I looked at my mom who was still asleep holding me. I closed my eyes and concentrated on the feeling of my mom comforting me. She may not have said anything yet, but sometimes actions speak louder than words.

For a fraction of a second I forgot what happened yesterday. But it doesn't last long and then I replay the conversation I had with my dad. By the time I've replayed it what feels like a million times, I'm sobbing. I instantly felt my mom wake up at my sobbing. She pulled me closer to her and wrapped her arms around me. She held me until I had I calmed down.

"Sorry" I spoke, my voice a little hoarse from crying. I wasn't really sure what I was exactly apologising for. I just felt that I had to.

"Santana, look at me." My mom commanded. "You have nothing to be sorry for."She spoke as I looked into her eyes. My mom waited a moment until she spoke again. "What are you apologising for?" She asked curiously.

"I don't know. I just don't want you and dad to fall out because of me." I saw a few tears appear in my eyes. "I don't want you and dad to be disappointed with me."Tears rolled down both of our faces.

"Honey, your dad's reaction is not your fault. I'm sure after I talk to him he'll understand. It just might take him a little time. Also neither of us is disappointed in you. We love you. We both do. Your dad needs some time to think. But we will never be disappointed in you." My mom spoke with certainty. She passed me a tissue and I dried my eyes, as did she.

"Thanks, but I don't think he will change his mind. I just have to accept the fact that he won't love me anymore." I said quietly. I saw sadness in my mom's eyes. I was grateful for her kind words but I had to be realistic and I knew that there was a great change that my dad would never accept me for who I am.

"That's not true. He still loves you and always will." My mom spoke before she changed the subject. "So what are you going to do today?" She asked me.

"Nothing. Probably just stay in bed." I mumbled. I was slightly annoyed that she was saying my dad loves me when I can see he obviously doesn't. I pulled away from her embrace and saw a hurt look on her face. But then as if magic had happened she looked like she understood why I was behaving the way I was.

"You and Brittany could do something." The suggestion shocked me. I knew that if my dad saw me with her he would be even angrier than he already was.

"I don't think that's such a good idea." It wasn't that I didn't want to see the blue-eyed girl, but that I couldn't cope with my dad saying more stuff about me.

"Don't worry about your dad. He's already gone to work. He won't see you two together." My mom reassured me. "I can go out if you two want the house to yourselves. You two probably have a lot to talk about." I smiled at my mom. She really is the best mom anyone could wish for.

"Thanks, but you don't have to do that." I told her. "I think I want to get out of the house. I'll ask her if she wants to go to the park or something." My mom nodded.

"Do you want any breakfast before you go?" My mom asked as she walked to the kitchen.

"No thanks, I'm not hungry." I said as I started to make my way to the stairs.

"You have to eat, mija!" I heard mom say in a half-joke, half-serious voice. I chuckled and carried on upstairs.

After I showered I got changed into some grey jeans, a black hoodie and some black converse. I turned my phone on and typed out a text to Brittany.

To Brittany: Do you fancy going to the park today?

I waited a few minutes before I got a reply.

To Santana: Yeah, sounds like fun. Can we feed the ducks? B x

I smiled as I read the text. Brittany had a childlike quality that was simply adorable. I quickly typed out another message.

To Brittany: Of course we can. What time shall we meet?

I heard the doorbell ring as I received another text. I was going to leave the door but my mom shouted for me to open it as she was on the phone to one of her patients. I sighed and walked downstairs. I opened the text message.

To Santana: I'm outside your door. Hurry up! I want kiss you. =D

I was more enthusiastic now about opening the door. I ran down the last few steps, saw my mom give me weird look form the table at me running. Then opened the door to be greeted with the most beautiful girl I had ever laid eyes upon. I smiled and motioned for her to come in.

"Hi." I spoke shyly. I didn't what it was but Brittany had a weird effect on me. But it was a good one.

"Hey."Brittany smiled and I saw her looking at my lips. I internally fist pumped the air as I saw the effect I had in her as well.

"So you want to kiss me?" I smirked, referring to her text. I looked at Brittany and saw a faint blush on her cheeks.

"Well yeah. It's just it feels like I haven't seen you in ages. I know it was only yesterday, but I couldn't stop thinking about you. It's like you're always in my head and it's scary but also great. I can't seem to stop thinking about you." Brittany rambled. I was amused at what she said because that was how I felt about her.

I moved closer to her, not caring if my mom saw us kissing from her spot on the table. My eyes flickered between her eyes and lips. I caught her doing the same. I closed the gap and pressed my lips to her soft ones. I was just supposed me a quick kiss, but as I started to pull away Brittany held the back of my neck and crashed our lips together. I enjoyed her lips moving against mine and I moaned as she sucked on my bottom lip. I was too caught up in the feeling of Brittany's lips to notice my mom was walking our way. I ran my hands through Brittany's hair as she moved her hands down my body, to my bum. But before her hands reached their destination my mom cleared her throat loudly.

"I'm so sorry Mrs Lopez. I didn't know you were here. We were just... just ..." We quickly pulled apart. Brittany spoke up; she looked extremely flustered and embarrassed which mirrored what I probably looked like. She tried to explain what was happening but it was pretty obvious what we were doing. Although I didn't mind my mom seeing us kissing, it was okay with small pecks and mouse kisses, but to see us nearly making out was a little bit awkward.

"Hello Brittany, I could see what you were doing." My mom smirked. "Have a good day girls!" my mom said as she disappeared upstairs.

I stood there and couldn't help but chuckle at Brittany's face. Brittany turned to look at me and stared at me questioningly.

"It's not funny. That was so embarrassing!" Brittany exclaimed. I nodded my head and stopped laughing.

"Well you were the one who was about to grab my ass!" I said playfully. I saw a hint of amusement cross Brittany's face before she spoke.

"By the moans you were making I didn't hear you complaining." Brittany husked in my ear. I wondered how everything was suddenly so hot. I felt like I couldn't breathe. I felt her words straight to me centre and I tried to cross my legs to get rid of the feeling. Unfortunately Brittany noticed what I was doing and spoke again. "Do you need help with anything?" Brittany asked in a low voice.

"N-No, no." I stammered. She was making me feel so many things but I had to remember that my mom was upstairs and I wanted our first time to be special.

"Let's go!" Brittany grabbed my hand and practically dragged me out the door with excitement. I just laughed at how she could incredibly sexy one minute and then cute the next.

On the way to the park we held hands the whole way and whilst Brittany talked about her love of ducks and all cute animals. I wondered how I was so lucky to have her as my girlfriend. Although I hadn't forgotten what my dad had said and I was still sad, Brittany managed to cheer me up by just simply being in her presence. I was going to talk to her and tell her my mom and dad knew I was gay.

"We're here!" Brittany broke me out of my thoughts and I didn't notice we were at the park already until she ran towards the duck pond; effectively making me run as well as our hands were still linked.

"Slow down! I can't run as fast as you!" I said as I struggled to keep hold of her hand and run with her. She slowed down and we resumed walking at a normal pace.

"Here you go." Brittany said handing me a piece of bread I looked at her with confusion. Was I supposed to eat it? I thought. "It's for the ducks silly."Brittany explained.

"Oh, yeah I knew that." I said as threw chunks of bread to the ducks in the water. Brittany just smirked and she let a chuckle escape her lips. I turned towards her and gave her my best death glare which in turn made her laugh more.

"Was that supposed to scare me?" Brittany teased around a giggle. I just huffed and continued to throw bits of bread to the ducks. "I was just joking." Before I knew what was happening I felt Brittany place a small kiss to my lips. This was our first kiss in public.

I quickly started to feel self-conscious and looked around to see if anybody was staring at us or about to give us hateful comments. There were a few kids playing tag, a woman walking her dog and then I saw an elderly couple who had stopped near us. The woman looked at us and I feared the worst. I heard her say to her husband 'what a cute couple'. The woman then smiled at me and I smiled back.

"Hey what are you smiling at?" Brittany asked as she followed my line of sight. "Who are they?" Brittany asked waiting for me to speak.

"Nobody." I said as I leaned in and placed a quick peck against her lips. She just shrugged and turned back to the pond with a smile on her face.

"So why did you wanna go to the park today?" Brittany asked as we had finished throwing the last of the bread to the ducks. I really wanted to talk to her about things but I found it incredibly hard. I was scared as to what she would say. I was scared that although we were dating it wasn't really what she wanted. I scared about so many things.

"I wanted to talk to you about something." I looked at Brittany and saw confusion flash across her face. "Let's sit down." I motioned to the bench that was under a tree. We walked over to the bench hand in hand and sat down. I looked down at my hands and saw they were shaking. I tried to still them but they wouldn't stop moving. I looked at Brittany to find worry and concern written across her face.

"What's wrong, Honey?" Brittany asked as she stroked her thumb across my hand, trying to comfort me. I didn't say anything; I didn't know what to say. A lot of things were wrong. I had a hard time trying to calm down and focus on answering her question.

"Everything." I answered simply. I knew that wasn't really an answer to her question, but I couldn't think of how to condense all that was happening at the moment.

"What do you mean 'everything'?" Brittany asked confused. My hands had stopped shaking by now as I started to recoup my composure.

"Well you know my mom knows we're dating." Brittany nodded, so I continued. "I told her I'm g-gay." I looked at Brittany to gage her reaction but she was just looking at me with a blank face. "I told her earlier on this week, I told her everything that happened between us, and I told her that I really like you. I told her how I've always known deep down, but I pushed those feelings away because I couldn't accept that I was different."I looked at Brittany and saw a smile grace her face but then quickly disappear.

"You told her about me?" Brittany asked in a soft tone. I nodded and smiled at her. "So I presume she's okay with us. Because she hasn't said anything to me and she seems really nice." Brittany seemed shocked that I would talk to my mom about her but it was pretty obvious that my mom was cool with us as she had seen us kiss and she had even invited Brittany round for some food when we weren't talking to each other.

"I told her and she accepts me. She told me that she will always love me no matter what. Also that although she was surprised at first she wasn't disappointed or angry. I was so thrilled that by her reaction, I thought she wouldn't understand. I mean it was hard telling her but I'm glad I did. I kept all of those feelings and thoughts in for so long it felt good to finally tell someone. I feel like I can talk to her about anything now. I think we've grown closer as well." I finished and saw Brittany looking at me with what I thought was admiration.

"It's great that your mom accepts you. I'm so happy that she's ok with us dating as well. You mom is pretty awesome!" Brittany exclaimed which made me giggle.

"She is. It's a shame the same thing can't be said for my dad though." I finished on a sombre note. I looked at her and saw her smile fade as well.

"You told your dad." Brittany stated more rather than questioned."So I take it he didn't take it well then?" Brittany asked.

"I didn't tell him." I looked at Brittany and she looked confused again. "He saw us kissing." I saw shock on Brittany's face and thought she probably had a whole lot of questions.

"What?!Where?! When?!" She looked like she was annoyed with herself for some reason.

"Outside my front door after our date." I told her. She turned towards me and looked me in the eyes. I waited for her to say something. I didn't know what she was thinking. I presumed that she was angry at herself.

"I'm so so so sorry, Santana. This is my entire fault. If I didn't kiss you he wouldn't have found out. I'm so stupid!" Brittany's apology shocked me. I didn't understand how she could think my dad finding out was her fault. I grabbed her other hand and held it tightly.

"Listen to me. It's not your fault. Don't call yourself stupid either, you're not. You are one of the smartest people I know." I told her. I leaned in and connected our lips. The kiss was gentle and showed that we were there for one another. I pulled back with a smile on my face.

"So what did he say?" Brittany asked. I was still holding both of her hands and I felt her squeeze my hands, essentially telling me I could tell her. I took a nervous breath before I speak.

"Well when I went inside he told me we needed to talk and he looked really angry. I told him that I went on a date with you and that I lov- that I really like you." I can't believe I almost told her I love her. I mean I know I do, but I think it's a bit soon to tell her as we haven't even been dating for a week. I looked at her and saw her eyes literally sparkle with hope. Does she love me too? I thought.

"What happened after that?" Brittany asked as a few minutes of silence had settled in.

"He said that he didn't understand why I went on a date with a girl. He told me that it was a sin to be with someone of the same sex. He called me horrible names that I don't want to repeat. Then worst of all he started saying things about you. I couldn't cope with him talking like that about you. So I told him it wasn't a sin. He told that he didn't recognise me anymore and that I wasn't normal. He said that mom wouldn't like what I had become either. I told him that she already knew and that she was fine with it. My mom walked in and saw us. My dad asked her how she could accept me and she told him. He rushed upstairs and then I fell apart. I started to sob and fell asleep in my mom's arms."

I looked at Brittany and saw tears streaming down her face. I hadn't realised until know, but I was crying as well. She pulled me into a hug and whispered into my ear "Everything is going to be okay." We stayed like that for about five minutes. I felt at home being in Brittany's arms.

"Can I ask you a question?" I looked at Brittany as I broke the silence.

"Of course you can." Brittany answered softly. We had both stopped crying by now.

"Do you think you might be gay?" I asked her. I didn't want to put pressure on her into finding an answer. I was just curious.

"I don't know. I mean I like you and you're a girl. But then I guess I'm also attracted to boys as well." Brittany spoke and I was glad that she felt comfortable talking about this with me.

"So have you told your parents about you and me?" I asked. I didn't whether she had talked to them about me or not.

"I haven't. But I want to. I want to with you there." Brittany said as she looked me deep in the eyes. I felt tears of happiness at her words. I couldn't believe she wanted me to be there when she told her mom and dad that we were an item.

"When do you want to tell them?" I asked. I wasn't sure if I was ready enough to tell other people about us.

"Not yet. But soon. Maybe a couple of weeks." Brittany answered. I was happy with her answer.

"Okay, whenever you're ready. I'll be there." I told her sweetly.

After our chat we walked hand in hand back through the park, stopped at an ice cream shop and then headed home. I enjoyed holding Brittany's hand in public it felt right. I didn't feel scared I felt proud of how far I had come. We approached our houses and stopped on the sidewalk. We looked at each other for a while until Brittany spoke.

"So can I take you to school tomorrow?" Brittany asked around a smile. I replied by kissing her on the lips. "I'll take that as a yes." Brittany spoke as I pulled back.

"Bye Brittany!" I said as hugged Brittany.

"Bye Santana!" Brittany and I both walked to our front doors and waved at each other before we went in our own houses.

I closed the front door and thought about my day with Brittany. I had told her about my parents finding out I am gay and their reactions. We had talked about how she feels and about her parents. Brittany was amazing today, as she listened to me talk. She knew when to say something or ask questions. She knew the right thing to say.

I knew in that moment that Brittany was all the comfort I needed.

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