- All my life you stood by me when no one else was there... -
- Baby, you're my only reason... -
- As long as you love me nobody can drag me down... -
- I got fire for heart... -
- Nothing left... -
Phil heard soft singing through his sleep. He didn't know where it come from but it was so beautiful. so heartbreaking.
Phil opened his eyes to see where it come from.
- nobody, nobody can drag me down... -
where it come from?
- you love me... you love me... -
Phil got up and walked out his room.
soft piano sounds led him to Dan's room.
He looked inside to see Dan sitting to his piano singing softly and hitting keys with his bare foot.
Phil just stand there and watched how calm Dan looked.
He knew how playing piano calm Dan down.
And it was so beautiful.
Phil loved when Dan played his piano.
Suddenly Dan stopped and turned around making Phil jump a little.
- Good morning. - Phil let out small smile and went closer to Dan.
- Morning. - Dan looked out the window.
- What's wrong? - Phil was now standing between Dan's legs.
Dan looked up at Phil and got lost in soft blue that was Phil's eyes.
- Nothing, I just couldn't sleep. How did you sleep? - Dan didn't break eye contact he knew will drive Phil crazy.
- Good. I love hearing you playing piano. It's always so beautiful and calming. - Phil said leaning down closer to Dan.
Dan didn't waste any time and crash his lips against Phil's soft ones.
Phil answered his kiss and let his hands travel into Dan's soft hair.
- I have something to show you... - Dan whisper through kiss.
- mhm... - Phil mumbled and kept kissing Dan.
He never got enough of that boy. He loved him so much.
Phil felt small brush against his crotch area and that made him break the sweet kiss and look down.
Dan was smiling like crazy.
His bony fingers was brushing over Phil's crotch making Phil's eyes to open wide.
- You can move your fingers! - Phil screamed little bit too loud.
- Oh my, Phil! No need to scream in my ear. - Dan said letting his hand fall back down between them.
- Sorry, just that's so amazing! - Phil took Dan's hand in his and kissed every knuckle.
- That tickle. - Dan let out small lough.
- I'm so so happy! what a good morning! - Phil said pulling Dan into a bear hug.
- Phil! - Dan was lost of breath.
- Oh, sorry. - Phil let hug lose a bit but didn't let go of Dan.
- I think that I will need to work out with all my body not just arms. or you will crush me one day. - Dan murmured loving to feel Phil's arms around his thin body.
- I won't crush you. You just need to get some meat on your bones. that's all. - Phil said still holding Dan into hug.
Dan stiffen and sit back down.
- My body form is okay. I don't need to get any fatter than I already am. - Dan snapped at Phil.
All good mood was gone.
Phil was getting tired of all the mood changes.
- You really should drink these pills doctor give you... - Phil said in sad note and left the room.
- Of course! Run away from fat druggie I am! Fuck it! - Dan screamed after Phil making tears run to Phil's eyes.
Phil was so tired of it all.
He liked playful Dan better. But now he was gone and Phil had no idea when he will be back.
Phil crush down into his bed and let tears run.
He felt so tired.
He understand that it's not Dan's fault that he was so broken but it just hurt Phil so much.
He was just tired.
- Philly...? - Dan's soft voice whisper next to his ear.
- Just let it go, Dan. I'm too tired for you to snap at me. - Phil mumbled in broken voice.
- I'm sorry... I didn't want to hurt you... I... - Dan take deep breath, - I just still have problems of seeing my body the way other see it, I'm still stuck in the eating disorder I was in for long time. I am trying hard to see myself the way you see me but it's hard and when some jokes come out i break down, I lose it all and slip back. I have hated myself for too long to be able to love myself right a way. But i am trying my hardest for you... - It sound that Dan was on the edge of tears.
- I am so so sorry that I hurt you... Please don't cry... - Dan said with his voice breaking.
Phil turned around too look at Dan through the blur that come from tears.
Dan was standing there smaller than ever. So scared and breakable.
Phil pulled him into hug and put his face between his neck and shoulder.
Dan climb into his lap to be closer to Phil and tried his hardest to move his arms closer to Phil's body.
His left hand dropped right on Phil's crotch making them both laugh.
- Can't stop touching me even in situation like this? - Phil asked laughing out loud.
- Nah, you're to sexy. - Dan laugh back and kissed Phil on lips.
- Oh, you are driving me crazy, you know that? - Phil asked putting his forehead against Dan's.
- Of course. But you love me too strong. or maybe you love my dick but still love me. - Dan said laughing.
- Oh, yes, yes, your dick is just like candy to me. And that sexy ass. - Phil said gripping Dan's ass making Dan jump in surprise.
- I will never get used to dirty talking Phil. - Dan said starting to laugh.
- Was that even dirty? I didn't say how I would love to push my way inside that juicy ass and than fuck you till you scream out my name in pleasure. - Phil whisper into Dan's ear making him shudder.
- Phil, you are making me hard. - Dan let out pushing himself closer to Phil.
- Oh, am I? didn't notice. was too cough up in my thoughts about what I could do to that sexy ass. - Phil slid his hands over Dan's ass.
- Phil... - Dan breath out.
- Yes? Do you want anything, Danny? - Phil asked in innocent voice.
- Yes! Hell, yes! I want you to pin me down to bed and fuck me. - Dan needed to feel some friction against his now rock hard dick.
- Oh, let me think. I can't now. It's time to go eat breakfast. - Phil said moving his hands away from Dan's ass knowing that he is making Dan crazy with all this teasing.
- Damn, Phil! You can't do that! - Dan let out in frustration.
- I can. - Phil put small kiss on Dan's cheek starting to stand up.
- No! Fuck, no! - Dan screamed in sudden anger and pushed Phil down on to bed making them both surprised.
Dan's hands was pushed against Phil's chest. His eyes wide open in fear and surprise of what he just did.
Phil was surprised too. Dan just used his arms for the first time. without even understanding it.
Dan was looking down at his arms.
It looked that he will break down in any second.
- My strong boy. - Phil said pulling Dan down on top of him and kissing him hard to make Dan calm down.
- I... I... - Dan tried to speak.
- Sh... just kiss me. - Phil pushed one hand into Dan's hair and other to hold him close to his chest.
Dan answered Phil's kiss calming down almost straight away.
Phil was happy that his plan how to calm Dan down worked. He didn't want Dan to freak out and than break down.
- I love you so much... - Phil whisper pushing his hips up making sure to brush his hard on against Dan's hard on.
-I love you more... - Dan let out small moan.
They kept kissing each other for couple more mins.
Dan moved his hips harder to feel Phil.
Suddenly Phil pushed Dan of off him softly putting him next to him.
- Wha...? - Dan didn't get to finish his sentence when Phil pulled off his boxers and trowed them away doing the same thing with his.
- Can't leave my needy baby hard. - Phil said sitting back down in the bed. - Come here. - Phil pulled Dan into his lap.
- what...? - Dan was a little bit confused.
- It will be more comfortable like this. trust me. - Phil said pulling Dan back into soft but needy kiss.
Dan trusted Phil fully. Always.
And when Phil's hand slid between them and grip them both starting to pump their hard on's together all confusion was gone.
Dan moaned into Phil mouth making Phil moan too.
- I need you so much... - Dan was murmuring while Phil's hand started to move faster getting them closer to the edge.
Phil put his lips against Dan's neck and bite and suck there hitting Dan's soft spot making Dan moan out loud.
- Phil... Fuck! Phil! - Dan moaned out ready to be trowed over that sweet edge.
Only hearing Dan was enough for Phil to fall over that edge.
- Dan! - He moaned out griping them both tighter and making them both come in the same time.
It felt so good that they both moaned together brushing together through aftershock.
soon they fall back down into pillows panting hard but finding each other lips and connecting them into sweet sloppy kiss.
when they have calmed down Phil looked down and saw the mess they made between each other.
- Look what a mess we have created. - He said with small laugh.
- You started it after all. But i loved it. - Dan said kissing Phil one more time.
- Let's get into shower to clean us up. - Phil said ready to get up.
- Phil? can we talked about what happened? - Dan asked in somehow scared voice.
- What? we jerked off together making sexy mess between us. - Phil said putting small kiss to Dan's forehead.
- You know that i wasn't talking about that but how i pushed you down... - Dan said looking up at Phil.
- It can happen when you get a lot of adrenaline running through your body. It's nothing wrong, baby. And don't worry, you didn't hurt me. You just surprised us both with that. - Phil said pushing Dan's hair back from his forehead.
- I didn't even think about doing it. it just happened. i felt angry and... and needy... and it just... - Dan was stumbling over words.
- It's okay, baby. It's normal. And look what beautiful end it give us. - Phil said with smile kissing Dan slowly.
- Yeah... - Dan breathed out letting Phil's kiss to overcome him.
- But now we need shower. and oh my, how hungry i am. - Phil laughed making Dan laugh too.