The Pack… by ishotsherlock.
A/N: TO ALL MY READERS, please note that the first part of this chapter deals with THE ABUSE Sara suffered as a child, I know it's a hard subject to deal with, and I could have gone around it, like a lot of other writers have, but I think for Sara to have a complete relationship with Gil or any man it has to be brought out in the open. For those of you who would rather not read this chapter I will post a second one with out the child abuse, but please know it will be mentioned, but I wont go into detail.
Chapter 20. A
Gil willingly parted his lips and let her tongue explore his mouth, his hand began undoing the buttons of her shirt, then unsnapping the front clasp of her bra. Ending the kiss he trailed his tongue down the side of her neck, nipping as he went. When he reached her breasts he sucked a nipple into his mouth and began running his tongue around it. He gently took her hand and placed it at the waistband of his loose fitting jeans and encouraged her to slip her hand in, which she willingly did, he gasped as her hand found his quickly hardening length and began softly stroking him, gently gliding her thumb over the head on each up stroke. Her other hand, which had been running through his hair, slowly slipped down his back until she reached the hem of his t-shirt. Her hand found the bare skin underneath, following the scars for a few seconds then continued down to the firm globes of his ass, she dug her nails through the thin fabric, pushing his groin more firmly into hers.
She let out a moan at the new pressure and her eyes snapped open again as she thought "What the hell am I doing, its only been a week since I agreed to spend the month with him and now look at me, I have to stoooo." she didn't get to finish her thought as his hand found its way into her jeans, finding that one sweet aroused spot that sent her mind into outer space. After that there was no stopping, they ripped each others clothes off, then she was guiding his hard dick into her body, she wrapped her legs around his as her nails sunk into his ass forcing him deeper. She met him thrust for thrust until he pulled out and turned her over, lifting her onto her hands and knees as he sunk his length back into her. Her arms buckled with the force of his thrusts, she landed on her elbows, he sunk deeper and deeper into her, his nails leaving bloody crescents on her hips as he dug them deeper into her. This was the first time since she was a child, had she been taken like this, all the other men she had been with, though there was only a few since she had become an adult, had been face to face. But now in this moment with Gil thrusting hard into her from behind, brought back memories that had been buried deep in her mind, of her childhood and the things her father and brother had done to her.
They climaxed within moments of each other, Sara collapsed onto her stomach with the weight of Gil on her back, both of them panting and trying to catch their breaths. She felt him slowly pull out of her, but other than that he didn't move. She began crying at the now fresh memories.
"Did I hurt you." came his worried voice.
She shook her head, but then scrambled out from underneath him and ran into the small bathroom and locked the door, she collapsed with her back against the wall as the tears came harder, sliding down the wall until she was sitting with her knees drawn up to her chin and her arms clasped around her legs she let herself cry as she began rocking back and forth, something she hadn't done since she was a child.
"Sara are you okay." he asked as he stood on the other side of the door. He could hear her crying and it was breaking his heart. He didn't know what to do, he had only been with four women in his long life and they had all trusted him enough as their pack leader and as their husband to tell him what was bothering them, so this was new to him, but he knew he had to get her out of the bathroom and if she wouldn't open the door to him he knew he would have to open the door to her.
"Sara, honey please open the door." he could still hear her crying and by the sound he knew she was not moving so he gripped the door handle and pulled. The door didn't budge for a few seconds but when he used all his strength it ripped free and swung open. He stepped into the small space and knelt by her side, she flinched when he gently placed his hand on her shoulder and tightened her grip around her legs.
Seeing her flinch at his touch and the lost look in her glazed eyes he instantly knew she was reliving something bad from her past, he had to bring her back somehow and all he knew he could do at the moment was to try and hold her. He sat on the floor next to her, then gently manoeuvred her until she was sitting on his lap, he enveloped her in his arms and began talking very softly to her "Its okay Sara, I'm here and not going to let anything happen to you, you're safe with me." he continued like this for over an hour until she relaxed and slipped her arms around his neck, after a few minutes he could tell she had drifted off to sleep. Gently and carefully he got to his feet and carried her to the couch, he lay her down then lay beside her still telling her that she was going to be safe with him, until finally after a further hour he joined her in sleep.
Even though she was still exhausted Sara woke up first, the first thing she realised was that she was completely naked and the second thing was that Gil was naked as well. She tried to move but he held onto her so tightly, as she tried to remove his hand , that was gripping her arm, she noticed that he had woken up "Can you let me go, I need to use the bathroom." he kissed her on the forehead and released her from his protective grip.
He watched her as she got up and walked to the bathroom and close the door, he saw the surprised look on her face as she sat down on the toilet and the door creaked open, he smiled then turned over and put his fingers in his ears and began humming to give her a little privacy.
Sara finished using the bathroom, washed her hands then quietly walked to the bag Catherine had sent them, she pulled out the toiletries then crept over to where their clothes were stored on the desk. She picked up some underwear, a t-shirt and another pair of jeans but as she turned around she found Gil standing right in front of her, she dropped everything she was holding but it didn't hit the floor because he caught it and placed it back on the desk.
"Sara I think we need to talk about what happened earlier." he said gently.
"I don't want to remember." she said in a childlike voice "Let me get dressed and I'll make something to eat."
"We can eat and dress later, right now you need to tell me what I did wrong, I need to know if I hurt you so I never do it again." he gently guided her back to the couch and sat her down, once again he sat down and pulled her onto his lap, he pulled the large quilt over them, staring into her tear filled eyes "Please Sara talk to me."
She turned her head away so she wouldn't have to look into his eyes, she didn't know if she would like what she would eventually see in them. She took a few deep breath "You didn't do anything to hurt me." she gently put her hand on his chest over his heart where she could feel the gentle rhythmic beating "I … I… just need it put it all behind me again, it was from a long time ago and should stay in the past." she tried to get up but he held he firmly to him.
"It might be better if you told me, I might be able to help, please let me in Sara, I don't know what to do. I saw and heard you crying and it broke my heart knowing I couldn't do anything. If you hurt I hurt, I just want you to be happy."
"I'd be happy if I didn't have to talk about it." she said as she rested her head just above her hand, listening to the gently thump thump of his heart.
"No Sara." he said more forcefully, making her jump slightly "You need to get this out, tell me what upset you… please."
She put her head back on his chest, knowing he wouldn't let this go, she began to talk "How much do you know about my childhood."
"Only what your mother told me, she said her husband was abusive to her mentally and physically, she thought that he was going to be the same when you got older. She had got my number from your uncle who was a member of my pack back then. She pleaded with me to help, she was even going to send you to another pack on the other side of the country so he wouldn't be able to hurt you, but when he found out he threatened to burn your house with all of you inside if he ever found out that she was going to send you away, he couldn't have you or your brother telling someone else what went on in your house."
"I think she always knew, sometimes she would look at me with pity in her eyes when my dad said he was taking me out for the day. But when my brother started to say the same thing she would smile, she didn't know what my brother was doing to me when he took me out of the house. Sometimes my dad would give my mom some money and tell her to go shopping, he would give her a list of stores that she needed to go to, they were scattered all over town just to make sure she was out of the house for a long time. She offered to take me with her once and he beat her so badly that she ended up in hospital for the night, he had to stay with her and left my brother in charge."
"Why didn't she phone me sooner." he said trying to control the anger building up in him.
"She was probably too frightened to call, that and my dad had a lock on the house phone so only he could use it."
"She could have found a way, she could have written to your uncle to get me to come sooner."
"No she couldn't, he picked out all her clothes and would check the pockets and her purse before she went out and when she came back, he also told her to get receipts from everywhere she went and would then count the change she brought home to make sure it was all there."
"I should have come as soon as she called me, but she said you and your brother were okay, I waited until after the lectures then came down, that's when I first saw you. You were sitting in your back yard under a tree reading a tattered book, you looked so peaceful while you were reading. Your mom told me you were reading Alice in wonderland and that the last chapter was missing because your dad had ripped it out when he found you reading it instead of doing your chores. I brought you a new copy and gave it to you the next day, your dad tried to snatch it away but I had a little talk with him."
"I used to wish I could follow the rabbit down that hole and never return, I still have that book, its in the lock up with all my other stuff back in Vegas, I do miss it there sometimes but then I walk outside here and look around, but that's all going to change now isn't it."
"Okay I think we have got a little side tracked, you were telling me about your childhood." he gestured for her to continue.
She nodded and continued talking into his chest "I don't know how long my dad had been coming into my room at night but I do remember my fifth birthday. I had gone to school and all of the other children sang happy birthday to me, I was so happy until I got home, as soon as I walked through the front door my brother said happy birthday you useless little bitch and kicked me in the stomach. My dad was standing behind him laughing, he picked me up by the collar of my dress and told me to wait in my room for my present.
"I ran up stairs and hid under the bath, I could hear them shouting for me, but I didn't move, I shut my eyes and pretended I was the door mouse from my book, hiding in the tea pot. But then my dad found me, he yanked me out from under the bath and threw me into my room where my brother was waiting for me." she began to cry as the memories flooded her mind, she clung to him harder as the tears fell "My dad he… he made my brother hold me as he ripped my dress and underwear off, I was begging and pleading with them not to hurt me, but all they did was laugh at me."
She looked up into his tear filled eyes "Can you believe it, they are laughing at a five year old who was begging them not to hurt her." he wiped the tears from her cheeks. She put her head back on his chest "My dad picked me up and threw me on my bed, then they both undressed, then my brother put me in that position, on my hands and knees, I was begging them not to hurt me but all my dad did was hit me on the head and told me to shut up as he forced himself in me. When he finished my brother took his turn, for the rest of the evening and through the night they kept passing me between them and laughing. I don't know how many times I lost consciousness but when I finally woke up three days later I was in hospital, my dad told them he found me in a local park, he had got worried when I didn't come home from playing out with friends, before the cops got there he had already carried me home."
"Where was your mom when all of this was happening."
"My dad had locked her in the basement, she was unconscious for five days after he had beaten her and thrown her down the stairs, when he finally released her she came running up to my room, she had dried blood covering her face… it scared me so much I screamed and hid under the covers. My brother dragged me out of my room two days later to make him something to eat, my dad had told my school that I had a bad bug and he didn't think it was wise to send me in."
She took a deep breath "They left me alone for a few weeks, then my brother picked me up from school and took me to his friends house, my dad joined him later in the evening he had told my mom that he and us kids were going camping for a few days with some friends. You have to remember that my brother was a lot older than me and his friends parents had gone on holiday so he had the house to himself. They kept me and another young girl there for six days. Miranda was one of my brothers friends sister, and you could tell she had been going through this for a while now, it was the dead look in her eyes when they stripped us, that look still haunts me to this day whenever I close my eyes."
Gil pulled her in as close to his chest as he could "I am so sorry." he said trying to hold back more tears.
"I went through hell in those six days mentally and physically, by the time I got home I was so beaten up and drawn into myself that my mom started to worry about me. My dad said I had had a falling out with one of the children in the camp, I don't think she believed him but there was nothing else she could do. Every day for years I wished and prayed for someone to come and take me away from that hell, my brother shared me with his friends and my dad did the same. He would come home drunk with a bunch of strangers, who would stay for weeks at a time, my mom thought that if she did what my dad said that they would leave me alone, but she didn't know that while she was downstairs being used by the men my dad had brought home that he and my brother and some of the men were upstairs in my room, I was gagged and tied and raped over and over.
"When they finally left, my dad raped my mom and locked her in the basement while he did the same to me, she got out by breaking the window, she later told me that she didn't know that they were upstairs with me, she stole some money and phoned you. Then a few weeks later she walked past my room and saw him on top of me, he was passed out drunk, she came in and told me to go to the basement and not to come out no matter what I heard. I sat down there for a while then I heard a lot of growling and screams, I put my fingers in my ears and hummed as loud as I could. I don't know how much later but a man cam down and picked me up, I thought he was going to rape me like before, but he took me to the kitchen and made me a sandwich and a glass of hot milk. He put his jacket around me and told me I was safe now and that my dad wouldn't touch me ever again. He said I was going to go to a new home and that they would look after me properly. He was right, the new people did look after me.
"I believed him until my brother showed up and took me to a remote part of a local park where his friends were waiting, he told me to get undressed and into the position, I begged them to let me go and that I wouldn't tell anyone, but one of my brothers friends hit me around the head he said "Bitch you have forgot your training, you do what your masters say when they say it." and he kicked me in the stomach then held a knife to my throat to make sure I did what they said. After they had finished they took me back to my foster parents but I began to lash out at them so they sent me to the next place.
"Gil I hate that position, please never put me like that again." she began to get hysterical "Please Gil, promise you will never put me like that again, please I will do what ever you want, I will even submit to you in front of the rest of the pack just don't make me do it again, please Gil please."
All he could do was hold her as she broke down, she began to hyperventilate as the tears poured down her cheeks. He tried to get her to calm down but all she heard was the voices of her dad and brother. Before he could do anything else she passed out. He panicked for a few seconds but then put his fingers on her neck and found a strong pulse, he held her to him as he finally let himself cry while his thoughts scrambled for attention "I should have gone there sooner, I should have taken her with me when I first saw her, she would have been safe with me I could have changed her while she was a little girl, she could have been out playing with the other cubs instead of being raped by all those people." he wanted to kill something, then a sudden thought sprung up in his mind he grinned evilly then picked her up off his lap and lay her down on the couch, he kissed her head and checked her pulse once more before he got up grabbing his phone on the way to the bathroom he closed the door as best he could as he pressed speed dial two then waited.
"Brass."
"Jim I need a favour."
"What do you need." he asked as he could hear that Gil was not calling for a chat.
"Do you still have the records from Frisco."
"Yeah there in my attic with all the others."
"I want you to get doc to get them and look the addresses of Peter sidles friends."
"From when he was young or later on."
"I want the ones from when Sara turned five, also see if he was hanging with the same friends when she went into foster care, if not I want their address as well."
"Can I ask why you want them."
"Because when we get out of here the pack is going on a hunt, those people were molesting children when they were younger and probably still doing it to this day. Those bastards did things to Sara when she was little, she was a child Jim and they … they raped her for years, they need to be dealt with and I think it will be good for Sara to be in on the hunt with us." he heard Jim growl low in his throat.
"I'll call doc and get him to get the names and I'll call you back."
"Tell him if he needs any help tracking those bastards down to go and use my computer, there is a slip of paper under miss piggy with codes on tell him to use Ecklie's password and that will access the entire federal data base."
"Okay I'll let him know and get back to you." he disconnected.
Gil used the bathroom and washed his hands, he then had a quick wash and got dressed, he went back out to the other room and checked on Sara again, once he was sure she was okay he started to make something to eat while he waited for the coffee to heat up. He thought about the things he and the pack were going to do to the men once they had been found.
He was brought out of his thoughts by Sara mumbling in her sleep "I promise to be good, I promise, I promise, please don't hurt me please please please."
He went over to her and sat down, he began to stroke her head as he put his head near hers as he began talking to her "It's okay Sara, I'm here, they cant hurt you anymore and I wont let them, you hear me I will not let them hurt you." he continued like this until she calmed down then opened her eyes.
"Hey." she said in a quiet voice.
"Hi, how are you feeling now." he asked gently, still stroking her head.
"I feel like shit, but also lighter, like some great weight has been lifted off my chest."
"The weight might come back from time to time but if you need it you can talk to me anytime you want."
"I might do that, there is so much I have bottled up over the years and I think its getting to the time I told someone about it all."
"You can tell me anything you want, if you need to scream and shout at someone then you are welcome to scream and shout at me just give me a warning if you need to hit something because I have seen your right hook."
"I would never hit you, not even if you really annoyed me, I don't think I could ever hit anybody." she said looking down at her hands.
"How about in the new house I build you a gym with a lot of punching bags in it, you could take all of your anger out on that."
"That sounds good, you could even put one in the cabin back in Vegas."
"If you want one there I'll build you a gym next to my cabin."
She looked up at him "I was only joking."
"I wasn't, if you want a gym in Vegas I'll build you one, if you want a cabin next to mine I will build you one there as well."
"You don't have to do that. You know I have never been to your cabin."
"When this is all over I'll take you up there."
They finished the rest of their food in silence, Sara thinking of what they had just talked about and Gil thinking of what they were going to do to put her demons to rest. His phone ringing and a loud bang from above brought them both back to the present, Gil looked at the caller id and thought about telling Sara of his plans for the men from her past.
"Yeah go ahead Jim." Sara looked at him expectantly but he just held his finger up to her, he would explain everything afterwards. Jim told him what doc had found out about the people from her past "Okay thank you for that Jim, I'll call you before we get out of here so we can get this sorted."
He hung up the phone and looked at Sara "How about I get us some coffee and I'll explain everything, okay."
"Okay no more secrets okay."
"No more secrets." he said as he got up kissing her on the forehead, then went to get more coffee.
Once the drinks were made he brought them back to the couch, placing them on the table then sitting back on the couch. He gathered his thoughts then turned to her "After you told me about your childhood, I was so mad I phoned Jim." she looked scared "I didn't tell him what you had said to me." she still looked scared, but he knew he had to continue. He told the about the conversation they had had, when he finished he looked at her.
"I wish you hadn't done that, I just want it all to be left in the past."
"Sara, Jim just told me that they are all still molesting little children, we have been keeping an eye on them since you were little, just in case they showed signs of being infected. I thought it would be a good idea if you came on the hunt with us, we were going to invite them all up to the cabin in Vegas, where you get to confront them about what they did or we could all be in wolf form and have some fun with them."
"You call hunting and killing them fun."
"Sara after what they did to you I would hunt them down and kill them slowly one by one, and the only pleasure would be knowing that they could never hurt you again." she could see the anger in his eyes.
"Gil, sweetie, they are not worth it."
"Sara, sweetheart, they have been hurting children for years and its now time something was done about it. We don't have enough evidence for the courts to deal with them so I think we should do it."
"What about their family's."
"What about the children they have hurt for all these years, including you, don't you want them dealt with."
"Yes I have dreamed for years that they all died painfully, but … but."
"Sara this is the therapy that you need, it will help with your healing, dealing with these people will help you let go of the pain in your past."
"Yeah but then it will give me new pain, pain about killing them now."
"Sara please think about it." he pleaded.
"I will, can we drop this now, I have talked about this enough for now."
"Sure. So what do you want to talk about now."
"Anything but something happy."
"How about the night we spent in that tent, that was one of the best nights of my long life."
"Seriously Gil, you must have had better than that."
"Sara I have only been with four women in my entire life, and I can honestly say you are the only one I picked myself, I have loved the others to some degree but you captured my heart the moment I saw you. I have loved you and I still love you."
"Gil, I …"
TO BE CONTINUED.