"Happy. What are you doing here?" Perry asked as she stalked out across the front lawn to meet him at his bike.

"I wanna know what's goin' on Perry."

"Happy I told you. I need space for a while."

"That's not what you said Perry. You said it's over."

"Okay. Yes, I did. So what are you doing here?"

"I just don't get why your pushing me away. Was it something I did?"

"No. I just can't handle a relationship right now Hap."

"Is that all it is? Cos I feel like there's something you're not tellin' me."

Perry sighed and swallowed. "Yes Hap. That's all it is. Besides my mom is staying in town for a while and I'd kind of like to be able to spend some time with her."

"Sounds like a bunch of excuses Perry." He said trying hard not to growl at her.

"Think what you like Happy but I just can't do this right now." She answered, he could tell getting edgier the longer their conversation went on.

"Yeah. 'Kay." Happy said sighing in defeat. "Listen Perry. I really like you okay? And I don't get why you're doing this but I'll respect your space or whatever it is that you need. Maybe you could come by the lot sometime when you're ready. A Friday night maybe?"

"You know I probably won't Hap."

"Look Perry take whatever time you need. I'll be waiting for you when you're ready okay?"

"Don't wait for me Hap."

"Perry," He began.

"No." She interrupted. "I mean it Hap. It's over. It should never have been more than that first night anyhow. Don't wait for me okay?"

"Fuck Perry. You don't really mean that do you?"

"Yes Happy. I do. Listen I have things to do. Are we done here?"

"Yeah. I guess we fuckin' are." He growled as he turned back toward his bike. He half expected her to call him back, hoped even that she would. Instead she turned and headed back inside without a word, making his frustration turn to anger as he mounted his bike and brought it to life beneath him.

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He walked his bike back into its usual spot, dismounted and stormed across the lot toward the clubhouse. He slammed his fist down on the bar so hard that he startled the prospect who stood behind it.

"Whisky." He barked. "Forget the glass."

"Um …. Sure." Phil mumbled as he grabbed Happy a bottle of the shelf behind him. "You know it's not even midday right?"

"Did I ask for a fuckin' conversation?" he growled before taking a swig from the bottle and stalking away from the bar to take a seat on the sofa of the otherwise empty clubroom.

Normally he'd ride to make sense of everything running through his head, but this he could make no sense of. He'd never fallen so hard for a chick only to have her push him away. Her pushing him away. That had never happened before. He'd always told them when to leave. When he grew bored of the same thing in bed. When they wanted to cuddle afterwards. When they spoke too much or got too clingy. He hated clingy chicks. He knew he'd never grow bored of Perry. He couldn't get enough of her hands all over him afterward, or the beautiful smoothness of her honey colored skin as she lay at his side. And she could never talk too much, especially when that accent slipped out. Hell he'd happily listen to her all day if he had too. And he knew she wasn't the clingy type. Hell she proved that this morning hadn't she. He'd met his match and he knew it so why was she done with him? Why was she so hell bent on ending it? So hung up on saying it should have only been one night? Did she blame him for everything that had transpired with her family? He guessed he could see her reasoning. But could she really deny the chemistry there had been between them right from that first night?

"Hey Hap. Thought you were getting Perry this morning." Tig's voice interrupted his thoughts.

"I did." Happy snapped taking a large swig. Tig gave a concerned glance to Kate at his side.

"And so why do I find you in the company of a bottle and not her?"

"Bitch ended it."

"Wait. She what?" Kate asked stepping forward.

"You heard me blondie. She ended it."

"But she couldn't wait for you to come get her when I spoke to her."

"Well somethin' changed 'er tune then." He growled taking another swig.

"Kate's right Hap. I was with 'er at the hospital this morning. Perry sure had no plans to end it."

"Well she sure as hell just fuckin' did. If you don't mind, I'll be in my dorm." He said rising from the couch as he chucked the bottle up to take a large swig, near half the bottle already gone.

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Perry's hands shook and tears welled at the corners of her eyes as she dialed Tara's number. She was going to take longer to think about what she was about to do but knew her decision would be no different the longer that she thought.

"Hey Perry. How's being home treating you?" Tara answered sooner than Perry was ready for her to.

"Hey Tara. Yeah home's okay." She answered biting her lip and swallowing hard before she continued. "Listen Tara you said this morning you'd be there if I needed anything right?"

"Yeah I did Perry. What's up?"

"Does that include helping me to … um … take care of a certain situation?"

"You mean terminating the pregnancy?" Tara asked a little hesitantly.

Perry took a deep breath. "Yes." She answered.

"I have connections. I can set something up for you if you want."

"Yes please do." Perry said swallowing back the lump that was forming in her throat.

"Are you sure this is what you want Perry?" Tara asked.

"Yeah it is. And Tara?"

"Yeah?"

"I know I need to take someone with me and well I haven't told anyone about it. Could you maybe come with me?"

"Of course I can but you mean you haven't told Happy?"

"No and I don't intend to."

"Perry I think perhaps he deserves to know."

"It's probably not even his Tara. This is my decision. I don't want to tell him."

"Okay well I'll make an appointment for you and I'll be there with you okay?" Tara said with a sigh.

"Thanks Tara. I appreciate it."

"No problem Perry. I'll let you know when."

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"What the hell Pez? Why are you pushing Happy away?" Kate exploded as she entered the kitchen later that night.

"Oh hi to you too K. I thought you'd be hanging out with Tig more these days."

"I am but when we came across Happy drowning his sorrows with a bottle of whisky, and swearing about you I decided I needed to find out why."

"It doesn't matter Kate okay? I ended it because I couldn't see us working out."

"That's certainly not what he thinks."

"Well I'm not interested in what he thinks."

"Perry what the fuck is going on? This isn't like you at all."

"Look Kate not that it's any of your business but it's the club okay?" Perry snapped at her friend, she knew unnecessarily. They had never fought in the entire time they'd known each other. "I can't handle the club and Happy and the club go hand in hand. Can't have one without the other."

"It didn't seem to bother you before." Kate tried to reason.

"Well it does now." Perry snapped as her phone rang from where it sat on the kitchen table. She picked it up and saw it was Tara.

"Hey." She answered as she walked from the kitchen leaving Kate wide mouthed behind her.

"I managed to get you in for tomorrow if you're still wanting to go through with it." Came Tara's voice down the line.

"Thanks Tara. Tomorrow is great."

"Okay well your appointment is at 9am in Stockton so I'll pick you up at 8 to be on the safe side?"

"Yeah thanks again Tara." Perry said ending the call as she closed her bedroom door and sank to the floor against it. Tears welled in her eyes as she looked around her. She hadn't been here since the day she'd come back to get her things. Since the day Happy had beaten Nikolai to a pulp. She guessed that it looked exactly as Nikolai had left it his last morning here. Was that before or after she'd ended up in a Stockton hospital? Or was it the morning she'd laid bleeding out in her father's safe house?

She placed her hand against her stomach for the first time since she'd found out what grew there. She allowed herself a moment to entertain the idea of a baby. She couldn't bear the thought of it being Nikolai's. But what if it were Happy's? Why was she pushing him away? Because if it had only been one night then none of this would ever have happened. If she hadn't become so involved with Happy Lowman she wouldn't be sitting here now not knowing whose child she was pregnant with. He had saved her from the hell that had been her life for as long as she could remember she supposed and for that she was grateful. But she couldn't tell him about this. She didn't know how else to approach it other than to push him away.

She thought ahead to tomorrow and what she planned to do. It has to be this way. She told herself. If only she were convinced it were true.

A/N: So I am aware that this chapter is perhaps not leading in the direction that many had hoped but Perry's road was never going to be an easy one and I didn't feel after everything she'd been through at the hands of her family that she and Happy would easily fall back together.