A month passed and the twins were much more work than I had ever expected. I had to call my mom numerous times to figure out how she did it. It's a good thing the day care knew how to take care of Ella and Nick while James and I were at work. Carlos and Alicia and Logan and Valyn had a double wedding at the courthouse, so now the whole gang was married.

I arrived home with the kids one day after work and looked at Caitlyn. "Caitie, go play with Liam while I put the twins down for a nap and I'll get a snack ready."

Caitlyn nodded. "Yes mommy. C'mon Liam."

Liam smiled and followed Caitlyn as they ran to the toy room.

I shook my head and smiled at Ella and Nick as I took them to the nursery. After I put the twins down after feeding them, I went into the kitchen and grabbed some goldfish crackers for Caitlyn and Liam.

"Caitlyn, Liam, snack is ready." I called as I heard them walking to the kitchen. I picked Liam up, putting him in his booster seat as Caitlyn climbed into her chair and I put the bowls of crackers in front of them.

"Mommy?" Liam asked.

"yes baby?" I asked him.

"Where's daddy?"

"Daddy will be home soon. Daddy's working."

Liam nodded and ate his crackers.

"Mama…can I have some more?" Caitlyn asked.

"A few more baby. You can't spoil your appetite for dinner." I looked at her, giving her a few more goldfish.

She nodded. "Thank you."

I smiled. "You're welcome."

My phone rang as the kids snacked. It was Kendall. "Hey Kenny."

"Hey…Lilly, are you alone right now?"

"Why? What's wrong?" I went into the living room.

"James was in a car accident."

I gasped. "Is he ok?"

"He's at the hospital right now. I don't know how bad it is. I'm at the hospital with Carlos and Logan. Try and get down here as soon as you can."

I nodded, holding back my tears. "Alright. I will call Katie and have her come watch the kids."

"Alright. See you soon Lils."

I hung up and called Katie, asking her if she'd come watch the kids after I explained what happened. She said she'd be right over. After Katie arrived, I told her that the twins were asleep, and to make mac n cheese for supper. She nodded and told me to get going.

I kissed Liam and Caitlyn goodbye as I got into my car, driving to the hospital, tears spilling from my eyes. For the first time in a long time, I prayed. "Lord, please let James be ok. Please. I can't lose him."

After arriving at the hospital, I saw Kendall and the boys in the waiting room. All three of them ran up and hugged me. I cried. Hard.

"Any word?" I asked through my tears.

"He had to go into surgery to stop the brain bleeding, but other than that, we haven't heard anything." Carlos said quietly.

I nodded, and sat down as I continued to cry. "I can't lose him."

Kendall rubbed my back. "I know, Lilly. We can't lose him either. He's our best friend."

"I can't raise four kids on my own if I lose him Kenny….I just can't!" I sobbed as Kendall hugged me tight, stroking my hair.

It seemed like forever before the doctor came out. "Diamond?"

All four of us stood up at the same time.

"How is he?" I asked. All my tears had left my eyes.

"he's awake right now, the surgery went smoothly. We were able to stop the bleeding, and cast his broken bones."

"Can I see him?" I asked.

"You are?"

"His wife." I told the doctor.

"Of course, right this way." The doctor said, leading me to James' room.

I wanted to cry again as I saw him hooked up to the machines. "James…" I said through a cracked voice.

"Lilly." James smiled at me.

I walked over to him, grabbing his hand. "are you alright baby?"

"Where are the kids?" he asked.

"With Katie. I didn't tell them where I was going."

James nodded. "It was horrible Lilly."

"I'm sorry baby. " I kissed his lips and crawled into bed next to him. His broken leg was held up in a sling and his face had scratches along with bruises and other scratches everywhere else. I rested my head on his chest and then the guys came in. They visited for about an hour and I stayed the entire time.

A week later James was able to come home. After I got him home, I set him on the bed. "Daddy!" Caitlyn and Liam said as the climbed on the bed, going to go snuggle with James. I smiled softly and went into the nursery to check on the twins.

I sat in the rocking chair, thinking about what went on. I was so thankful I didn't lose James. I was thankful for my children, my family and friends. I looked at Ella and Nick sleeping and smiled. My children gave me hope. I went back to the bedroom and smiled as I saw James and the kids snuggled together and sleeping. I knew that from this day on, I should be thankful for everything I had because I never knew when it was going to disappear.