Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful. Beautiful boy.

Okay.

Okay, okay, okay.

Sirius most definitely has a thing for me. He blushed, he blushed, when I had complimented him. And he was adorable in the process, but he blushed, you only ever blush if its someone you like. He likes me.

HE LIKES ME.

Or at least I think so, but I´m allowed to believe in the thought, and Angeline had told me just that. This boy I have had an insanely crush on since the day I saw him, likes me back. Just… I´m so happy.

Of course, I promised I would come and see him Wednesday too, so I was on my way on the bus again, I wonder how much of the book he had been reading. If he has even read anything at all. I wonder if the book is good, I haven´t actually read it myself, though I heard it was good.

I went for the bookshop again, if the book has come out, I would want to read it too, it could be something I would read while I wait in the waiting area. The girl from the day before smiled when she saw me.

"Wasn´t the special someone happy for the book?" she asked a bit worried.

"No, no, he loved it, I´m here to get one for myself too" I explained.

She smiled and quickly found it from one of the shelves. "So, this special person is not your girlfriend?" she asked casually.

I bit my lip, this doesn´t happen a lot, but from time to time girls ask me about this kind of stuff, and I just hate to hurt them. "No-"

"So, you won´t mind going on a date sometime?" she asked quickly forgetting to be casual about it.

"I would mind… because I´m gay" I tried to say it the same way someone tells you they aren´t your type. It´s a fact the world has to face, now I just hope she isn´t homophobic.

"Oh…" I paid for the book and she gave it to me, I was about to leave the shop when she stopped me. "Sorry, I didn´t mean for it to come out like that" she exclaimed. "I just think you are cute, so I asked, but you know of course we can't… uh, the special someone, is he your boyfriend?"

Sirius Black is my boyfriend. That sounds nice and I wish I could say yes, but the thing is that I can't. Yet. "No, but I hope he will soon…"

"Good luck with that" she smiled, I smiled back and left the shop. Well, at least she did a good effort in trying to act like it didn´t bother her, but honestly, it would have been the same if I was straight and just wasn´t attracted to her.

I began reading the book as I sat in the waiting area, though I couldn´t concentrate too much on it, again Sirius took my all thoughts and threw them out of the window, so there is only space for him. I smiled as Angeline came towards me.

"He is really glad for the book you gave him," she told as we took the lift again.

"That´s nice to hear" I stated. We walked a bit in silence, I was thinking about Sirius again. "Is he getting better at eating?" I asked before we reached his room.

"Not that much," she told. "He eats now without us having to force him, though he really dislikes it and I have caught him throwing it all up right after."

"Hmm…"

"But I don´t think you should begin to talk about this with him just yet, he already sees the others as the 'enemy' and if you start to talk about it, he might see you like that too" before I could reply she opened the door to Sirius´ room, he was sitting on the bed just like any other day, though today he was reading the book I gave him.

He quickly put it away when he saw me. "Hi" he greeted mumbling.

"Hi, is the book good?" I asked interested, Angeline left the room.

"Yeah… I have…" he paused and looked at his desk, I looked there too, it was messy. He looked at me again, then slowly got out of the bed and moved towards it, taking a piece of paper and really slowly walked towards me. But he wasn´t hesitant.

Sirius stood as far away from me as he could and raised his arms to give me the paper, I stretched my arm and took it. He walked back but didn´t sit down on the bed again. "I, uhh, made this as a thank you for the book."

I looked at it. It was a wolf in a forest that had caught a ball in its mouth, it was still jumping. I would begin to describe how well he had made shadows and stuff, but I don't know a lot about that, let me just tell you that it was amazing.

"Wauw" I was speechless, honestly, I was surprised that he had made something like this for me, and that he had walked out of the bed to give it to me. "It´s really pretty, Thanks I'll frame it when I go home" I took one last glance before putting it in my bag, I didn´t miss the little smile on his lips.

"So… am I invited for your birthday party on Saturday?" I asked smiling.

He shook his head. "I don´t like parties."

"Hmm… then am I invited for your non-birthday party on Saturday?" I asked teasingly.

"There isn´t going to be a party" he suddenly turned very sad.

"Why?" I asked without thinking, of course, he doesn´t want to talk about whatever upset him and is the reason he doesn´t want a party. "No, wait… you don´t have to tell me if you don´t want to" I quickly said before he could answer.

Sirius gave me a judging look, his arms were crossed, he looked down and drew circles with his foot. "It´s not like I don´t want it, I just… no one would come, and then there isn´t a party."

I relaxed, this could easily be solved. "I can smuggle balloons in, and muffins…" he gave me a little smile but flinched when I said the next thing. "…we can even invite Peter and James-"

"No" he exclaimed suddenly. "No… I don´t want that" he said in a softer tone.

"Okay, then we don't" I offered him a smile. "Then just the two of us? Maybe Angeline if you want, and what about the muffins and balloons" he was still standing in front of me, which surprised me very much, I had thought he would have sat down on his bed again.

"Uhh… I think Angeline can bring an actual cake… and balloons sounds cool, but I… I don´t need a party."

"Of course, you don't need it, but it´s still fun with a party, and being celebrated and stuff."

Sirius looked down and played with his fingers, drew circles and stuff, he sighed and seemed to gather courage. "No, I mean… I know you are only here because Angeline asked, so if you don´t want to-"

"That´s not why I come, I come because I like you, you are a really great person and a nice friend. I like hanging out with you, Angeline told you were here, and offered me to come, but I only come because I want to" I told truthfully. "But if it´s because you don´t want me here-"

"No, I… I like that you come, you are a good friend too."

But you are the best cause you never hurt me as I hurt you.

/That was it of this chapter, hope you enjoyed/