A/N: Holy Update Batman! I know send out the army I actually have a chapter for you. There are no excuses I know. I am so sorry. I have no excuses but I have reasons. Real life has been hell for me the past few weeks. I had computer issues, followed by work issues, followed by rehearsal issues and now school issues. GEESH! I know. Still I needed to get this chapter written and here it is. I hope it is okay for everyone. This chapter opens with a song it's split like this…

Edward

Bella

Both

The song is Seether and Amy Lee's Broken. I love this song so much and it totally fits. Also after that the chapter song is Evanescence's Breathe no More. It's also epic. Well see you at the end.

BPOV-

I wanted you to know
That I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph
And I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

You've gone away
You don't feel me here...anymore

The worst is over now
And we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There's so much left to learn
And no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

[Instruments]

cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone

...away

You're gone away
You don't feel me here...anymore

"Ladies and Gentlemen that's the newest from Edward Cullen and Bella Swan. There has been a lot of talk regarding these two lately, we actually have the couple here with us to close out this morning. How are you two?" the morning show host spoke into her microphone and turned her attention to us.

"Fantastic," I replied at the same time that Edward answered, "Great."

"So let's just get right to it. There's been a lot of talk lately mostly dealing with the most beautiful baby in the whole world that's waiting right outside these studio doors…yes he's here…"

"Yeah. I just can't stand to be separated from him for long even though he's already a few months old. It's still so new to me, this being a mom thing."

"She's fantastic at it; don't let her tell you otherwise." Edward cut in and I blushed.

"Did you have your doubts?"

"Don't all new mothers? All things considered he's a wonderfully behaved baby. Isn't he?"

"Oh yes. We've been lucky on that front. Charlie sleeps pretty regularly now. At first he would wake every few hours to feed but now. He sleeps the same amount of time each night."

"It was about a month after we brought him home from the hospital that I really started to wonder if I was cut out to be a mother. He got sick. It was just a cold but he would just cry and cry and cry and nothing I could do would stop him. I felt like a total failure."

"However, after the doctor gave us some medication for him he settled and you were still recovering yourself." Edward pointed out.

"Will you tell us a little about the reasons you were in the hospital before the baby's birth? Is it true that he was premature?"

"Yes he was premature. Um…I was in the hospital due to unforeseen circumstances. I was on my way back from a photo shoot and I was hit by a drunk driver. They had to perform an emergency C-section in order to save Charlie. I had several other injuries and my time in the hospital was spent recovering from them. That was actually when Edward wrote the song."

"Tell us about the song. It's special to you both isn't it?"

I looked at Edward and he smiled as he answered. "Yes it is very special to both of us. As Bella said, I started writing the song while she was in the hospital. It was on one of those nights when sleep just wouldn't come. I'm not going to lie it was a hard time for both of us. I felt so hopeless and I just wanted to steal her pain away, but I couldn't. She was so broken and I didn't know if I would get the chance to see her again, but I did. I know though that some people aren't as lucky."

"When I got home Edward showed me the lyrics and as soon as I could hobble to the piano we started working on it. Here we are about five months later…" I smiled over at Edward fondly.

"But there is something else about this song isn't there?" the woman pressed I knew what she was after and I answered her willingly.

"Yes actually. We are joining an effort to raise awareness against Drunk Driving and substance use in general. So we're donating twenty percent of the proceeds of the sale of this single to start branches of a national program called SADD at many of the local high schools."

"And Sad is?"

"SADD stands for Students Against Destructive Decisions and basically it's a student run organization that attempts to provide students with the best prevention tools possible to deal with the issues of underage drinking, other drug use, impaired driving and other destructive decisions."

"How did you find out about this program?"

"There was a program like this at my old high school."

"Did you ever use it?"

"I never did, but I know that a lot of people did." I looked over at Edward once more.

"You?" the woman raised an eyebrow at Edward.

"Yes me. Believe it or not I've not always been perfect…Umf. You didn't have to hit me that hard dear." I had indeed hit him, right in the stomach.

"You two are too cute. Well that's all the time we have for today, thank you both for being her with us. You've been listening to Melinda in the Morning I'll see you same time tomorrow. Bye now." With that she pushes some buttons and the on air light went off. "Thanks for coming out you guys really."

"Oh it's no problem Melinda, really. Thank you for having us."

"Any time, Any time." She said with a wave of her hand and the door opened and Alice came in holding Charlie. "There he is." Melinda cooed at him and Charlie giggled and smiled at her. "He's just so precious. I can't believe he was a premi. He's so big."

"Oh I know. I have to lug him around all day." I said as I took him from Alice. "Not that I'd have it any other way. Hi sweetie." Edward came up behind me and put his hands on my waist and rested his chin on my shoulder. I could feel him hiding a yawn into my shoulder. "I think Daddy's tired," I chuckled down and he smiled back at me.

"Well someone had to wake up this morning and feed him, and it wasn't his mommy."

"Nope." I said popping the p at the end. "That would be Daddy duty. Isn't that right?" I asked Charlie and he laughed.

"Hey. Squirt you're supposed to have my side remember. We've talked about this."

"Besides you get your manly man bonding out of the way before Aunt Ali and Mommy get a hold of you for the day isn't that right, Daddy?"

Instead of answering Edward leaned forward slightly and kissed my nose. "Aw you two are so sweet." Melinda sighed. I looked up and felt instantly guilty for forgetting her and Alice were even in the room.

"Yeah…try being around it for a long period of time. I go into sugar shock after about an hour," Alice responded smiling the whole time.

"Well I can't help it if she's too tempting to ignore," Edward mumbled into my neck while he nuzzled his nose there.

"Edward…"

I felt his smile against my skin. "What?"

"Stop."

He chuckled and then kissed the skin there before he pulled away. "Okay."

After we had fully exited the building and were in the car Alice started again. "Okay so while you guys were in there I called and your dress is ready for your fitting so we need to get there sometime soon. Oh and I'll need the final guest list by the end of the week because the restaurant just keeps calling and calling wanting final numbers…" I eventually tuned her out. I knew that I would hear this exact spiel again in about three to four hours so I took a few moments to snuggle into Edward's arms and reflect on the past few months as I uh-huhed without knowing what she was saying.

It had been difficult after I first got back, but Edward was right Charlie was a relatively well behaved baby. He was so much like his namesake it was scary. Dad was never one for unnecessary noise, and neither was little Charlie. He would cry when he needed changed or was hungry but other than that he was content to amuse himself, which was handy because as soon as I could I had to get back out there. We released a press statement about his birth and that we were taking some time off to be a family. In that time Edward and I were in the studio working on our next collaboration as well as some new singles for me that Carlisle wanted me to get out. For the first month of Charlie's life I don't think he was ever put down. He was the most spoiled baby in LA…well maybe not…but he definitely was spoiled.

My accident was big news when it got out. I couldn't go anywhere without seeing my face on the cover of some magazine. Most were very supportive there were a few that grossly exaggerated the story and some that changed it completely saying that I was admitted for a drug overdose, but then again it was the enquirer that did that and they quickly retracted that story. The first single I released after the accident was one called Breathe No More and it was just me and piano and I was very proud of it. It went double platinum in three weeks…

Now we were in prepare mode. Preparation for the Grammy's this month as well as well as the wedding that was coming up in four months. Alice has taken the role of Plannerzilla, even though I tried to tell her that I could hire someone to help with the wedding she insisted she do it all herself. She'd found our outfits for the Grammy's relatively early. I was wearing a dress that was from a young up and coming fashion designer, that I picked out myself. He was also doing my performance outfit for the show. So once the Grammies were taken care of it was all Wedding all the time. Rose of course was helping with that because I couldn't chose between her and Alice for who would be my maid of honor so they were both going to fill the role. Edward had chuckled and told me I was cheating but Jasper and Emmett were filling the best men roles for him so that argument didn't last long.

We were planning on having it at one of LA's more luxurious hotels because besides moving it out of the country completely and not inviting anyone there was no other way to work out the security issues that come with a high profile wedding. And much to my dismay Edward and I were high profile. I had seen the space several times and it was beautiful. Alice had this grand plan that involved lights and flours and fabric to transform it into the perfect space. I personally didn't care much if it was the perfect space. I was going to be marrying my perfect man.

"Bella are you even listening to me?" Alice's voice interrupted my thoughts.

"How angry will you be if I told you no?" I asked biting my lip to hold back a laugh at the expression that she gave me.

After a moment she sighed, "I won't be angry. It doesn't surprise me in the least anymore. Really you'd think you'd want to be more involved."

"Ali I told you just don't go to over board and I'll have the guest list for you by the day after tomorrow. How does that sound?" She nodded appeased and looked out the window and I smiled and snuggled deeper into my soon-to-be-husbands arms as our little baby boy slept soundly in his car seat beside us. I looked up at Edward to see him smiling down at me. No he wasn't perfect, but he was perfect for me. "I love you." I whispered.

"As I love you, Always." He whispered back before he kissed my forehead and I leaned against his chest and fell asleep to his even breathing.

End notes: Okay what do you think? I actually was a peer mediator for my schools SADD program. I totally support the program and think that every school should have one. There is only one more chapter and a epi left for this one guys. So tell me what you think and what you think a good wedding song for our couple would be…TTFN