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Chapter 21
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Juice hadn't moved from her side the entire night. He hadn't slept that well either. He ended up just watching her as she slept soundly in his arms. She had almost woken up a few times crying, but he had managed to get her to calm down and get back to sleep. He had his arm wrapped around her protectively, her head resting on his other one. She was snuggled into his side, seeking his protection even if all they were doing was sleeping. His chin was rested on her head, their legs entwined together. The sheet wasn't covering him at all. He had wrapped it around only her, wanting to make sure that she was extra warm that night. He didn't want her to be any colder than she already felt.
He had woken up a few minutes ago, but he couldn't bring himself to move. He didn't want to chance waking her up. She had finally gotten asleep and was able to stay asleep this time. He didn't know what she was dreaming about, or if she was even dreaming at all, but he was hoping that it was something nice. He brushed back her hair and pressed his lips against her head, letting his lips linger on her hair for a long moment. "I love you, Savannah, and I'm so sorry for what I did to you." he whispered down to her, knowing fully well that she wouldn't hear him. He didn't want her to hear it, mostly because he wasn't ready for her to. He was still trying to get through the guilt of lying to her about the cheating. He couldn't hurt her more by saying something he wasn't ready for.
He shifted himself closer to her, just wanting to hold onto her as much as he could. It felt like a dream, a nightmare actually. Just yesterday they had been looking at their house together, planning on what colors to use and where to put all the furniture. He wasn't sure if he could take her there again and not upset her more. "Sorry 'bout what, Juice?" a voice said out to him. He jumped, not having expected for someone to come in. He looked back to see that it was just Jax, and he didn't look happy. He motioned for him to follow him out in the hall, and Juice had a feeling that he should do as he said. With one last look to Savannah, he kissed her head before slipping out from the sheets and left the bed.
He moved across the room as quietly as he could. He wouldn't make the mistake of going too far from the room again. He walked through the door and closed it softly behind him. He wasn't even fully turned around before Jax grabbed his neck and pushed him against the door. "Don't. Talk." he threatened him. He just nodded his head and watched on as Jax took pictures out from his back pocket. "I got these today after getting a pair of scissors stabbed into my leg. I know you told Savannah before that nothing happened on that last ride, so explain these to me. Now." he demanded as he pushed the pictures into his chest before letting him go and taking a step away from him.
Juice hesitated before looking down at the pictures Jax had just gave him. He felt suddenly sick as he took in the sight of just the first one. It was of him and that girl he had taken into the back. Instead of just standing around, like he had told Savannah they had done, who ever had taken the shot had gotten a good angle of him fucking her. "You're lucky I was at home to get the mail and she was here. It was addressed to her, asking if she knew what her baby daddy was up to while she was back here in Charming worrying." Jax filled him in, his tone just seconds away from yelling. He was only staying calm because he didn't want to make a scene and wake up Savannah. He had seen her, she was a mess. She needed all the sleep that she could get. He wasn't about to take that away from her.
Juice looked like a deer caught in the headlights just standing there with the pictures in his hands. These could blow up everything he had gotten back with Savannah. They could out his cheating, and his lying, to her. She was going to hate him, and just his luck, it was her brother to have found them. "Jax, man, I know this looks back, but . . . but I panicked. I couldn't look her in the face and tell her the truth. Especially not after she told me she was pregnant." he tried to explain to him, but he knew that it wasn't doing him any good. Jax was Savannah's brother, he wasn't just going to except that the guy she's with was cheating on her and then lied to her about it. If it had been in him in place, he knew that he wouldn't have.
Jax looked ready to kill him there and then, but the fact that Savannah was sleeping just on the other side of the door had stopped him. He wouldn't do anything to upset her more, she had already gone through enough as it was. He didn't want to do anything else that would upset her, which was why he needed all of the facts about this from Juice before he did do something. He looked around before grabbing Juice by the back of the neck and pushing him forward down the hall. "Come on. We've got some talking to do." he told him as he dragged him off. Juice got in one last look to Savannah's room before Jax pushed him off around the corner. He just hoped that nothing happened to her this time while he was gone.
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Juice was coming back a few minutes later after his talk with Jax, his skin as pale as he could get. He wasn't dead yet, that had to be the upside, but Jax now had the leverage over him. He could blow his relationship with Savannah out of the water whenever he wanted to. If he didn't keep Savannah as happy as Jax wanted her to be, he was going to tell her exactly what he had found out. What made it worse, was that she was laughing when he got back, and it wasn't because of him. He peeked his head inside and saw that she was awake now, but she wasn't as alone as he had left her to be. Half Sack was sitting with her, and he was making her laugh. That was something he had yet to do since this had happened. "What's going on in here?" he asked out, his temper getting the best of him.
He hadn't meant to snap, but seeing Half Sack with her and making her laugh like she was, that got to him. All he could see when he saw them together now was them kissing outside of the club house. He knew that it hadn't meant anything to Savannah, she cared about him and not Half Sack, but he had seen the prospect's face too. It had meant the world to him that she had kissed him. Having his own girl regardless, he still had feelings for Savannah. "Oh, hey baby. Half Sack was here when I woke up, he was just telling me about the boxing tournament that the guys are entering him in." she said out happily to him. She had no clue that he was upset, but it didn't take her long to see it.
She knew Juice like the back of her hands most of time, this being one of those times. He was already on edge, and now he was upset on top of that. She didn't know what had put him on edge, but she did know what was upsetting him now. She also knew that he didn't have a reason to be upset that Half Sack was here with her. She still wanted to be with him, baby or no baby. She wasn't sure how he felt about her now, but she was hoping that it was the same as her. "You woke her up? Do you know how hard it was to just get her to sleep?" he snapped again, talking to him as if she wasn't even there. He knew that he wasn't really upset about this at all. He was upset because of his talk with Jax, but he needed something to take it out on, and Half Sack was perfect for that position.
Half Sack looked nervously between them, not knowing what to say. He hadn't meant to wake her up. She had been just stirring when he came inside of the room. He didn't think he had woken her up, but he didn't know how to say that to Juice. Savannah shot him a look to cut it out. Half Sack had done nothing wrong this time. He didn't deserve to be picked on like this from Juice. "He didn't wake me up. I was already waking up when he came in, Juice. I got cold and I realized you were gone." she explained to him. She knew that it was more than just the prospect teasing, there was something wrong with Juice, but that still didn't give him a right to take it out on him.
Half Sack could see that there was something else bothering Juice. He looked to Savannah and knew that she could handle whatever it was. Though, he knew that it would go over better if he wasn't there. He almost didn't want to leave them alone. He hated that Juice got away with the cheating. He never believed that he hadn't done anything with that sweet butt that day. He would have said something, but then he had seen how happy Savannah was. He couldn't ruin that for her, especially since she had been pregnant at the time. Things were different now. The baby was gone, but he knew that now was the worst possible moment to say anything. She was already going through enough, she didn't need Juice not only lying, but cheating as well, to make it worse. "I was just gettin' ready to leave anyway. I'll, uh, leave you two alone." he told them as he got ready to leave. "I'll see you tomorrow with the trophy, Savvy." he said to her with a quick smile before leaning forward and making the mistake of kissing her cheek.
"Okay, I think I heard Jax calling you, so you might want to find him." Juice blurted out.
Half Sack nodded his head and was off, brushing past Juice in the doorway without another word to him. He closed the door behind him, leaving Juice and Savannah in the room alone together. Savannah shot him a look as she shifted around, trying to sit up more without causing herself any pain. She was still sore, but she knew that it would go away after a while, along with the memory of her unborn child. "He was only trying to cheer me up. No need to be jealous, Juice." she said out to him as she pulled her legs up to her chest, wrapping her arms around them as she rested her chin down on top of her knees. She knew that it was more than just him being jealous, but she could see that he didn't want to talk about whatever that was about.
Juice scoffed from where he stood across the room from her. He hadn't moved a step away from the door, not even after Half Sack had left. He was still on edge about his conversation with Jax, and she could see that as clear as day. She might not know what it was about, but she knew that something had upset him. "I wasn't jealous of Half Sack, Savvy." he told her as he refused to look at her. He knew that he was only a little bit jealous, but that was within reason since he knew that Half Sack had legit feelings for her. He knew that the prospect was better for her too. He wouldn't cheat on her and then lie to her about it for one thing. "I just know that you needed your rest and he shouldn't have woken you up." he told her, trying to pass that off as the truth. He knew that she saw right through it though. He didn't think that she wouldn't either, he was off his game today. He couldn't hold his poker face for the life of him.
She rolled her eyes at him, knowing that that was far from the reason he would even think to be jealous. He knew that it was more about the kiss if anything else. They hadn't really talked about that day since he told her that he hadn't cheated on her. Still, that didn't give him a reason to treat Half Sack like that. "I told you that he didn't wake me up, Juice. I got cold and woke up, and then he came in." she explained to him. She just wanted him to get over whatever the reason of his jealousy was. It was stupid, and she was tired of it. She just wanted to be able to sleep in her boyfriend's arms and not worry about him being jealous of someone else. Her own friend to make it worse.
He still wasn't sure about this. He knew that Savannah had only been nice to the prospect when he was new because that was what she did. That was who she was. She had done it to him when he was a prospect as well, but like with him, she had really become friends with Half Sack. He was worried that history would repeat itself and she'd end up with him when Juice really screwed up. Not that he hadn't already screwed up enough. "Well, you could have called me." he said out almost bitterly to her. "Do you want me to see if I can get you another blanket if you're cold?" he asked her as he motioned to the hallway behind him. He would gladly do anything she asked him to, especially if it helped her get back to sleep.
She shook her head, not wanting anymore blankets. She knew that it was stupid, but all she wanted was his arms around her again. She just wanted to feel normal again, and that was as normal as it got with her. He kept her safe and warm when he held her, and that was all she wanted back. "No, I just . . ." she started to tell him, but then decided against it. She didn't want to look stupid in front of him. "I don't know. It's silly. I-I'm fine." she tried to tell him, hoping that he would just leave it alone, but this was Juice. He never dropped anything when it came to her and what she needed.
Juice was especially ready to do anything she wanted after that talk with Jax. He wanted her to be as happy as she could possibly be. Not that he expected her to be that happy after losing the baby, but as happy as he could make her. He wanted to make her laugh like Half Sack had just done. He hadn't been able to do that yet, and he felt like he should have already done it. He was suppose to be there for her and make this all better, but he didn't know how to do that. He was still feeling the lost like she was, but he didn't want to let someone else take his job from him. "No, what is it, Savannah? What can I do to help you out? Just tell me. You need to be comfortable." he told her as he shifted around nervously, looking around the room as if the answer would be just there for him to find.
She looked at him shyly, hiding her face in her knees. She felt stupid and cheesy for even bringing this up. She knew that she had just lost her baby, but it was times like now where she didn't feel as numb about it. She needed, no craved, for touch. She just didn't know how to say that to Juice. "I liked having your arms around me again." she finally just told him. "It felt familiar and safe. I could sleep without having any nightmares." she confessed to him, hoping that she didn't sound silly while telling him all of that. That was the last thing that she wanted him to think of her. She just wanted his embrace, his touch, back. She wanted to feel loved again, like she wasn't lost and broken.
Juice gave her a weak twitch of a grin upon hearing that. She still wanted him. She wanted his arms around her, his love. Not Half Sack's, and not anyone elses. Just his. Maybe he did still stand a chance in all of this. "Well, I think I could help you with that." he said happily to her as he finally crossed the room to get to her. She smiled shyly as she held her hand out for him to take. His grin only seemed to widened at that as he took her smaller hand in his. He climbed into the bed with her, being careful of the wires that she was hooked up to. She snuggled up into his side once she could and got comfortable in his arms again. She took him by surprise and leaned up, kissing him quickly. She had expected for him to kiss her back, just like he always had, but he didn't. He just smiled at her and kissed her head. She lowered her head back down to his chest, hiding the look of disappointment on her face. Maybe she was wrong? Maybe Juice didn't really still want to be with her?