"I cant do this"

"AJ COME BACK!"

"I cant do this."

"AJ!"

I was walking away, just like she had so many years ago. I wasn't looking up so I was walking into people, barging past pissed off women and men, trying to make my way to the door.

"AJ stop!" James pulled me around so we were now face to face.

"Let me go." I said trying not to cry, trying desperately to break free from his grip.

"AJ please." He looked at me with pleading eyes so I stopped fighting and put my hands over my eyes. "Please don't cry." He said pulling me into a hug.

"Why is she here? I mean why?" I was panting uncontrollably. I was angry. Livid. Horrified.

"Its ok, look ive been through this before with Logan." He said.

"What?" A look of confusing spread across my face.

"His parents got divorced a year or so ago. It was tough for him." I shrugged.

"This isn't the same. My mom, walked out on me, a four year old kid, and left me alone with a dad whose best friend was a bottle of jack." I scrunched my face. I was not going to cry. "Whatever, im over it, wheres the drinks?" I said searching the room.

"Is that a good idea?" He looked at me concerned. I hadn't seen that look before. It was filled with care and love.

"Its always a good idea. Logan, get the tequilas in."

It wasn't a good idea. A round of tequila led to two, then three, then I cant remember. Logan and I were wasted. In all honesty I wasn't sure why Logan had joined in, I think it was to keep me company, after all James said he'd been through something similar. Before I knew it, we were wasted. Blabbering, dancing inappropriately and getting some horrific looks.

"Classic AJ, wasted at a company party!" A girl said to me, she smiled with brilliantly white teeth that contrasted with her tanned skin. Her long chocolate brown hair waved neatly to her chest and she wore a flowing black maxi dress.

"Hi April!" I said smiling back. "April, this is Logan." I pointed to him, who was staring open mouthed at April. "He can speak I think you've just momentarily disabled him." We both laughed as he continued to stare.

"Anyway, I better keep working the room or your dad will have my ass!" She laughed then saw the look on my face. "Fire me AJ, not...that." She laughed again, waved and left.

"She is amazing!" Logan whispered.

"She is yes." I said turning back to the bar, signalling the bartender. "Shes an intern I think shes like 20. Pretty much the only person in the entire company who pays me any attention, including my father" I said as I sipped a dry martini, but by this point, it tasted like water to me. "She's a player though, which I love. I like a girl with a bit of spice." I saw an excited look spread across his face. "Take that lesbian fantasy out of your mind!"

Logan grabbed my hand and lead me to the dancefloor. We stumbled embarrassingly to the crowded floor and he spun me around. Pulling me close we moved to the sound of Michael Buble's 'Save The Last Dance'. We raised eyebrows at eachother in a joking fashion as his hand rested on my butt cheek. I rested mine on the back of his neck. Logan was a very good looking guy and everyone knew it. I could tell we were getting looks. He threw me out in a spin and I tumbled into a couple who were making out. Through tears of uncontrollable laughter I apologised and stumbled back to Logan. We couldn't stop laughing. For the rest of the song, we swung each other around the dance floor violently, and got far too sexual in our bump and grinds. Our heads were close together as we giggled, and before I even realised it we were kissing inbetween didn't mean anything. Its all a blur. I didn't even know what was happening. He spun me around so my back was resting against his front as I scanned the room. I suddenly felt very dizzy.

"I need to sit...yeah." I mumbled as I dragged Logan to a bench poolside. "My head hurts." I slurred.

"Me too. Did we eat something bad?" He had a confused innocent look on his face.

"Maybe. Though" I said mid burp. "My tummy hurts too. Bad salmon."

He nodded in agreement. "Salmon. Yeah. Oh!" He grabbed four drinks off a waiter as he walked past. "Merci!" He yelled to him. "Cheers!" We clinked out glasses and chugged our vodka cokes in a matter of seconds. Messes.

"Golddigger?" He said pointing his head towards a woman sat in dazzling furs.

"Yes."

"There?" To a woman with snake skin boots.

"Wannabe. But no one will have her." We both laughed.

"Her?" He pointed his head to a girl in a black dress, sat on the lap of a tall sandy brown haired guy. I stood up slowly, breathing heavily. Staring, horrified.

"Thats April! And Kendall! What the fuck?" I yelled angrily. "Who the fuck is she!" I mumbled drunkenly. "Im gonna fucking, fuck, the shit" I was now walking, walking towards her.

"AJ?" Logan said, I now realised, I was running.

"YOU SCUM BAG WHOREY FACED PENIS!" I yelled as I dived through the air.

I was suddenly caught in a pair of masculine arms. James arms. "Let me go! Im gonna kick her fucking ass!" I did not sound threatening at all. Looking back, I was slurring so badly, nobody could probably understand what I was saying. "Hes mine!" I yelled. "You fucking spongebob licking scoundrel. Let me go James! Let me go. I have fallen for him and he wants me! Me! Youre disgusting. And gross. Yeah gross. Im gonna rip off her."

James' hand was suddenly over my mouth. I continued to yell but the sound was muffled. I then realised I was being carried out by two larger men. I was thrown outside of the hotel front door and left on the sidewalk.

So there I sat, sat in the stench of shame, embarrassment and sick. Yes to top off the night, id thrown up on myself. Im not sure when, I hoped it had just happened. But to be honest, I had absolutely, no idea.