I sat at a table at the designated bar area holding a cup in my hand gently drumming my fingers around my cup wordlessly, it had been two days since the incident at the village. The guard detail had practically doubled since then and I hated to admit it but I didn't blame them they could strike at any moment. I took a sip of my drink nearly sighing as I raised a brow seeing Bellamy and Clarke sitting at a table a ways a way talking over something making me narrow my eyes. I'm not saying I don't trust the two of them together but let's be honest Raven slept with Bellamy because she was mad at Finn and hurt me in the process and Clarke slept with Finn kind of leading that to happen. Now I'm not pointing fingers but I would lie if I said I didn't get jealous but it wasn't like I could do anything about it at the moment, not after my dad freaked out finding I left camp to go find Finn and Murphy-

I walked back into camp my head down blood still staining my hands Bellamy walking in between Octavia and I, I hadn't even been able to look at Finn since the first glance I saw of him emotions swirling all around me every time I even tried to talk myself up to looking at him. The fact was that I was scared for Finn-he had just killed eighteen people and he didn't even seem fazed by it, he just seemed happy and content that Clarke was safe. I could see the light of camp shinning above me as I walked through the gate along with the others there guns all being taken away as we were forced to stay put no doubt to be yelled at by Abby. I was looking at the ground silently when a strong grasp filled my hand making me look up to see Bellamy holding my hand tightly. He looked at me with concern in his dark eyes and I offered him a small forced smile as I squeezed his hand back happy for the comfort he provided.

"Corey Samuels!" I nearly flinched at the anger in my fathers tone as I looked over seeing him march over to the group of teens, Abby Griffin right next to him both of them visibly pissed off. I swore I almost saw my father falter as his eyes landed on Bellamy's and my hands being interlocked before he composed himself and spoke loudly. "What in the hell were you kids thinking?! You could have been killed!" I saw everyone kind of look down a little at the scolding and my father spoke loudly. "And you young lady, I just got you back and you want to go risking your life!" I looked up in surprise, my father never having spoken to me like this.

"Dad I-"

"No! I don't want to hear any excuses, in fact I don't want you leaving this camp ever again!"-
Needless to say it only got more awkward from there. Basically I was forbid from ever leaving camp, or from taking to boys, or doing anything stupid, basically he didn't want me to leave his sight.

"Check it out salvaged Monty's still from the drop ship. Now I guess, you know, if they could just salvage Monty, huh?" I raised a brow at Murphy sitting down next to me and I spoke with a raised brow.

"Unless you brought two hit the road." Murphy raised his brows in amusement before pushing a cup towards me and I smirked taking it and spoke taking a deep drink from my new cup. "I assume you got cleared?" Murphy shrugged and leaned back as he spoke with a smirk.

"How'd you guess?"

"Cockroaches like you always survive Murphy." Murphy let out a low whistle and spoke lowly as he looked down at his drink.

"Ouch. And I thought you were the nice one." I sent Murphy an exaggerated smile and spoke.

"I am, after all do you see anyone else talking to you?" Murphy pursed his lips and nodded to himself before speaking raising a brow as Bellamy walked passed us. "Trouble in paradise?" I rolled my eyes and spoke with a shrug taking a long drink.

"Trouble? No, more like someone let it slip that Raven and Bellamy had sex...a little too late if you tell me." Murphy raised a brow at me and spoke with a shrug.

"So? Bellamy's had sex with tons of girls-"

"Way to make me feel better Murphy." I looked over at him with a slight glare as his eyes searched mine and he spoke sounding confused.

"Are you actually intimidated by Raven?" I rolled my eyes and shook my head taking a drink as I spoke not wanting to explain myself to Murphy of all people.

"You just don't get it-"

"Look I know this means nothing coming from me. okay, I've been an ass. But I'm trying alright, so believe me when I tell you I get what it's like to feel like second best. Like once you find something worth fighting for it gets taken away by someone better than you." I looked up at Murphy searching his eyes for any sign of a lie or anything but I couldn't find anything, I slowly went to say something before a gruff voice sounded.

"Hit the road Murphy." I looked up to see Bellamy glaring at Murphy and I rolled my eyes as Murphy silently left with a roll of his eyes and I took a long drink as Bellamy sat next to me and he took a sniff of my cup once I set it down and he spoke. "Monty's moonshine? What's eating you?" I had to stop myself from mocking the handsome boy in front me before I spoke with a shrug.

"Nothing I'm great. Just great-" Bellamy looked at me in concern as he gently laid a hand on my own and he spoke gently.

"Corey."

"Am I second best to you-" I immediately slammed a hand over my mouth trying to take back the words I had just spit out in a semi drunken state that I wasn't even sure meant something to how I was feeling. Bellamy looked at me in confusion before he spoke.

"What are you talking about?"

"I-it's just...I feel...like no matter what I do I'm always gonna be second best. I was the second twin, the one given away; I was the second best medical student behind Clarke-if she had gotten to Articus...she could have saved him-"

"Corey, hey there was nothing anyone could do for those people...have you talked to Finn?"

"I haven't even been able to look at him since we saw him in the village...I just can't get the image of all those people lying on the ground dead, because of him."

"We're at war Corey, we've all done things." I nodded my head knowing I was no saint by any means either but that didn't make it any easier. "You're not second best Corey...sure you might have been given up but you without your help a lot of use wouldn't be here right now, you matter alright? Your never going to be second best to any one." I nodded and Bellamy gently took the cup of moonshine away from me before he spoke with a gentle smirk. "But maybe you should cut down on Monty's moonshine last time you had some of this you practically threw yourself at me in my tent." I couldn't help but blush slightly at the memory of Unity Day as I chuckled lightly. Suddenly I felt someone standing behind me and I raised my brow as Bellamy's attention was over my shoulder and I turned a little surprised to see Finn looking at me sheepishly.

"Hey...can we talk?" I felt my mouth go dry and I forced myself to look at Finn and I spoke gently shaking my head.

"Bellamy was actually just going to help me back to my tent, I'm not feeling very well." Finn nodded looking down for a moment before looking at me in concern offering me a small forced smile.

"O-okay...feel better."