If I named my chapter's this would probably be Mail's advice. I thought it was sweet, but RAWR IT's SO SHORT . well it's still TBC but it's almost done. I think it'll only be 1 or 2 more chapters left, but I'm not 100% sure. Sorry this has been getting inconsistent, but I'm trying to end it, then schools getting ready to start back up again... T.T yay school...

Lawliet looked at the letter and scowled. He really didn't know how to react from the letter. Did Kamika actually send him this stupid letter, or was Light just teasing him? It was obvious that he wanted to see Light but he felt betrayed. Light was never meant to be God. He was, however meant to be with him. Lawliet just couldn't exactly conceive that his time with Light wasn't... planned.

It was just too perfect. God and Light switched places? It was just so... easy. They wanted to kill Light before. Now they'd have to bow to him. No, something was definitely wrong. Or at least… staged.

If he came to Light who knew what would happen? If he didn't then what? Lawliet put his thumb to his lips biting the nail gently as he thought of endless possibilities. Was this just Light sending a letter from the naive angel to draw him in? Did Light even have knowledge of this? Was this only Kamika's—

Kamika! What if there was something different about her? After all, the person with the least amount of pure hate, jealousy, or... anything evil for that matter would be the person you least expected. But what if there was more to it than that...

Lawliet pulled away from his thoughts when he tasted the sweet, irony liquid. He bit his thumb too hard. Lawliet watched aimlessly as his blood fill in his thumb nail, then stopped all together. This place was just so... contradictory.

"You okay, Lawlz?" Lawliet saw Mail leaning against the door way. He was playing his DS staring blankly at the screen.

"I'm fine," Lawliet muttered through solemn eyes.

Mail looked up at Lawliet before he paused his game. He turned a chair around sitting with legs on both sides of it. He rested his chin on the back of the chair, "Don't let what Mihael said get to you. He usually says things he doesn't mean."

"It's fine Mail. I don't need anyone to comfort me."

"Fine Lawliet, but I understand what you're going through more than you realize."

"What are you talking about?"

"How do you think I felt when my boyfriend joined the Mafia? I was so pissed 'cause he didn't tell me anything. I locked myself in silence for over a week."Mail smiled at the memory.

"But I thought you joined the mafia?"

"Oh I did. I was a computer hacker for Mihael's unit. I hated the fact that he was risking his life on stupid missions everyday really made my blood boil… Then one day I realized that I could wake up alone." Mail studied the floor trying to get his thoughts in order before continuing. "So I confronted Mihael about joining him. Of course he refused, but I threatened to leave. Well, it wasn't the most full proof plan, but he did cave eventually. I didn't go on any missions with him unless I was told to. I only went on missions where I had to hack into major facilities and corporations.

"Then it was just me and Mello," Mail chuckled at the thought. "Kira killed off an entire unit... well we knew it was L's doing. Light was L at the time, so then we had to go undercover and work privately with Nate and constantly moved around so we couldn't be tracked. Then there was also the fact that Miheal hated Nate, or at least wanted to prove he was better than him."

Mail had tears shaking in his emerald eyes. "Mihael was never the same after the explosion. H-he always talked about how ugly he was and why I should leave him because he didn't deserve to be loved by someone like me." The tears started falling as his voice cracked. "But I d-didn't care how he looked. I still don't. I'll always love him more than anything."

L reached out and placed his hand on Mail's shoulder. Mail wiped his eyes and nose with his hand. "Then when Mihael asked me to help him with that mission. I didn't hesitate once. He needed me and I wasn't going to let him down. I knew the whole thing was risky but at that moment I was just absorbed in helping Mihael." Mail caressed his face with his own hands, "If-if I wasn't acting like some lovesick school girl, then maybe he would've been safe. I-if I rationalized the situation with him then maybe we-" Mails voice broken as he covered his face in his hands.

Mihael had heard the conversation and was almost shaken to tears himself. He saw his lover looking defeated which only added to his strain. He was happy because of the memories and comments made by Mail.

Mihael wrapped his arms around Mail as he continued to cry into his hands. "Sorry," Mihael muttered to Lawliet, "once he starts crying he can't stop." Mihael pulled Mail close to his chest and stroked his hair. "Mail, you know that wasn't your fault."

Mail continued crying and didn't try meeting Mihael's eyes. Mihael gripped Mail's wrists pulling them away from mail's face. "Mail, look at me." Mail kept his head down. Miheal replied firmer, "Mail. look. at. me."

Mail slowly lifted his head now meeting the soft sapphire eyes. Mihael ran a hand through Mail's hair, "Don't talk like that Mail. You know that wasn't your fault." Mail wrapped his arms around Miheal's waist burring himself into his chest.

Lawliet looked the two and was reminded of him and Light. His heart ached when he realized he needed Light. He sighed getting up and leaving the room. "I'm sorry for what I said earlier Lawliet," Mihael said before Lawliet was gone.

"…Yeah…" Lawliet muttered before leaving.

Light was feeling a little better after he started killing off most of the criminals he'd failed to finish off in life. He was compelled to kill the task force members, but most of all… he wanted Nate River dead. Light knew that if he killed them the world would be losing honest, hard working police officers. Not to mention that Lawliet would probably hate him even more if he did.

His thoughts always returned to Lawliet. He hated it, but they did. He just wanted to forget him so that he could rein as a god for many years to come. He smiled when he pictured Lawliet by his side. He was running his fingers through his hair…

Light looked down at the slight bulge that had formed in his pants. Light jumped up, "No, I'm not going to go that far! I-he can't win every battle. I won't stoop down that far!" Light looked around at no one. He sighed sitting back on his throne.

Light shut his eyes in embarrassment as he unhooked the buttons of his pants. He slipped a hand under his boxers and gripped his hardened erection. He began to move his hand slowly, but quickened soon after he was immersed in the dream of Lawliet being with him.

"…Lawliet…" Light winced leaning back into his chair. He continued his ministrations till he eventually came in his hand. Light sat up panting and gasping. Light felt his hand being brought up beside him. Something cold and wet trailed over Light's hand.

He looked back and saw Lawliet licking the traces of cum off his hand. "You didn't have to put on a show for me, Light."

Light stared dumbfounded at him. "W-when did… How did—"

"I've been here for quite some time Light. Kamika-Chan invited me." Lawliet was taking pleasure in Light's awed expression.

Lawliet ruffled Light's hair causing him to blush in front of him as he pulled up his pants, clasping the buttons back together. "I'm glad you're here, Lawliet."

"Me too," Lawliet said before placing a kiss on Light's lips. "I missed you."

"I missed you too. W-why'd you come? I thought you hated me."

"I could never hate you Light, but I'm not happy with your decision. I know you've wanted this but when you tried to be God when you were alive nothing good came out of it. Your intensions were good, but your motives were evil. Light, there's always going to be criminals in the world. You can't reduce the amount because there will always be evil people in the world. It's human nature… and how the world works."

Light's eyes were wide. He didn't know what to say, for once. His throat went dry as he tried to form words.

Lawliet tried struggled to form the words, but continued. "Light I'm happy you were able to succeed in having your dream become reality. I'm just feeling worried. I'm asking this for both of our benefits." Lawliet sunk down on his knees at Light's feet. "Please, don't be God any more Light."