Glitched Rebirth
Time went by here in Alphys's lab, how much I'm not sure of. After she came back from throwing away my old clothes, she showed me around her lab, showing me the inventions she made. I was impressed and in awe at what she has down thus far for I never seen stuff like this in my whole life. I was use to seeing the ground, blood, dead people, my old bed in the cramped closet, one of their rooms, old buildings, trash cans, barrels of guns, the glints of knives being thrusted my way to stab me, and lastly the old building where the crocked doctor lived. Seeing stuff like this in the world under Ebott was amazing becasue it shows how far they all gone in their time down here.
"It is all so awesome Alphys. All of this look so...complex yet so simple to you. I don't think I can wrap my mind around stuff like this." I complamented and from the corner of my eye I saw her blush. "Th-thanks Antreas but I honestly think you have a brain in that head of your's waiting to learn more," she said and I let out a dry chuckle as I turn to look at her from the weird bubbly pink vials of cemicals. "Sure, and I have a husband up on the surface waiting for his launrgy to be brought in," I said to which Mettaton replied to after he walked into the room, startling me. "I didn't know you were married sis. I honestly assumed you weren't because I saw no wedding ring," he said with a confused look on his face. "I'm not..I was joking. Like hell if I ever marry someone. I'm no good so whats the point?" I asked casually like it was the most normal thing in the world to say.
They both glare at me and I started to get nervous, scared even, thinking that they'll beat me for saying something like that. The first one of the two is my newly aquired big brother Mettaton, who stood before me with his arms crossed over his chest. I unconsiously tried to make myself smaller, showing that I will not fight him and I closed my eyes, waiting for the hit. The hit that never came. All I felt was arms wrapping themselves around and being pulled close to Mettaton so I could hear the fans and other do-dads in his chest. I open my eyes and look at him from the corner of my eye, shocked for this was something I was not expecting.
Next thing that shocked me was Alphys wrapping her arms around us both. For the second time in my life after meeting the third Toriel, that I felt comfort in the hugs I was recieveing. "Don't ever say things like that about yourself sis. Those words are not true. Do not let them ring through your ears that easily. I have not known you long and only know what you have told me but I can tell you are a strong young person, that doesn't deserve to hurt like this," Mettaton whispered to me and I felt my heart and SOUL ached and I returned the hugs, as silent tears run down my eyes. We all stayed this way and I'm surprised they have not found the gun I'm hiding in my waistband nor asked about the scars on my face or did they make any notcion of saying they found my tattoos on the back of neck.
Once they let go Mettaton gently placed a hand on my cheek, encourging me to look into his LED light eyes. He smiled softly at me as he wripped the tears away with is other hand. "Don't say you are no good. I can tell you have are worth more then you know. The scars you have, may look as bad reminders of your old life on the surface but make them into reminders of your strength. A strength that helped you go through your hard times. Make them posative reminders to show you that you made it this far and beyond in your life." He said and I really felt myself taking his words to heart.
"He's right Antreas. I don't know much about you other then what I saw on my cameras, told to me by Sans, Papyrus, and Mettaton but I can tell just by a single look in your eye that you have seen alot of bad in life that made into the person you are now but you don't have to let it rule you for you can over come them." Alphys said as I turn my head to look at her. She had the same smile as big bro and that made me feel better more. "I would also like to say that if you do ever have bad thoughts then well.." She trailed off and her smile to that of mischif which scared me a little. "W-w-well w-what?" I asked. "Well then we just have to chase them with..." she trailed off again before pulling me into a tight hug. "With hugs!" she cried out while I slumped in her arms in shock before smiling, laughing and returning the hug.
"Thank you big sis." I said unknowlingly which caused Alphys to hug me tighter. Not enough to hurt me but enough to tell me that she liked being call sis. Soon, from what both my new siblings are telling me is that it's night time here in the underground and they escorted me to my temporey room, that I was going to be staying in. The room was plain and normal but I liked it. I hugged them both goodnight then laid down and was out like a light.
Sleep did not go well for me at all. Not since I started having my nightmares again or they might as well be night terrors for how much they scare me. I felt my pluse race through me as the blired images of the dream flash before my eyes. I cry sliently as I curl up in a ball. 'I'm worthless. I'm fucking worthless. Why live if I'm just going to break down more and more?' I thought as all sorts of negative thoughts entered my mind. I reached behind me and pulled out the gun from my waistband. I looked at the side of the barrel, staring at my own eyes, looking back me. My pathitic dull eyes. I sighed before putting the gun to the side of my head.
I go to pull back the hammer of the gun but something stopped me. More rather then a voice stopped me. 'I would also like to say that if you do ever have bad thoughts then well then we just have to chase them with hugs!' Alphys's voice rang through my ears. I look over to the closed door, the gun slightly lower from my head. 'Alphys..Mettaton...mom..' at the thought of all three of them had me feeling guilty to my very core that I was about to do what I thought about doing. Killing myself. I lowered my gun and placed it under the pillow before getting up from the bed.
I quietly left my room and walked around a bit before stopping when I heard familier voices. I crept over to the corner and saw my new siblings over by Alphys's work bench. "I just don't get it Mettaton. The blood sample I took from her old clothes is just to tampered with because of the tear gas to get any clear read on what made her as Papyrus said glitched the way she did." "I honestly say, earn her trust and let her come to us, Alphys. So long as we show we are of course not threats to her in anyway, she will trust us more and tell us all the answers you want to know. Go at her suddenly, hammering her with questions she may not have answers to will scare her off and lack more trust in you. We somehow got lucky to gain as much trust as we have now from her but that doesn't mean we won't lose it just as easily." I heard Mettaton say, which rang true with me.
"Hrmm..you're right Metta. She does seem to be the type to be un-trustworthy towards others with whatever past she has. I just.." "I know you want to find out all sorts of answers but going straight to her, frantic won't help you." Mettaton said, putting a hand on her shoulder. "You're right. Let's go check up on her and see if she is alright." Alphys said, turning around and looked up, surprised to see me. I stood there shocked as they both look at me. "Antreas...what are you doing up and how much have you heard?" Alphys asked while looking around nervously. "I-I-I had a bad dream. I couldn't sleep. So I thought a walk around would help me. I also heard the part where you said the blood sample was tampered." I said as I came out from behind the corner.
Alphys looks me straight in the eyes and sighs, "Yes. I took a sample of blood from your old clothes to test because what I have seen Antreas from you is not normal by any means for a human. A monster, if have the power like Sans, can teleport but what you do is different. I wanted to see if I could find answers but as I said the tear gas, tampered with it. I won't ask you to give a new blood sample or force you to answer any questions. I want to earn your trust and let you come to me like Mettaton said." "She is right sis. We just want you to trust us more to fully help you and to figure out this strange power Alphys said you have. For now want to talk about that bad dream of your's or do you just want to go back to bed and sleep?" Mettaton offered me with a comforting smile.
"I...I don't want to talk about it..I just want to go back to sleep." I said and they both came over to me and escorted me back to my room. I laid down in bed and they both kissed my forehead goodnight then left. From there I fell into a dreamless sleep with my hand on the pistol under my pillow.