disclaimer. i dont own twilight. i havent the last 20 chapters and i still dont. :(

authors note. sorry its so late.

21; home sweet home

"So Alice when the wedding?" I asked Alice.

We had unloaded all of my stuff and the twins' and now we were in the kitchen talking.

Gabrielle and Danielle were asleep for a little while, and I had the baby monitor next to me.

"Well jasper and me were thinking July. Of course you and rose will be my bridesmaids." Alice said.

I nodded. "Who did jasper choose for the best man?" I asked

Alices face got all dark when I asked her, like she didn't want to tell me something.

She took a deep breath and said "Emmett and …Edward"

I nodded, and looked down at the baby monitor. "So I'm going to have to see him. Joy!" I said with fake enthusiasm.

"When is he getting here?" I asked hoping that I would get Atleast a few more days without seeing him.

"Umm. He's already here," Alice said in a small voice. Great I thought.

Just then Edward, Rose, Emmett, and Jasper came into the room.

Rose screamed and said "Bella! When did you get here? Wow you already have your figure back. Where are the twins!" she said it all in one breath. She kind of reminded me of Alice

I laughed and said, "Rose! Like around 7 or 8. Thanks, and upstairs sleeping."

She laughed and sat down next to me. Everyone else took at seat to.

We all started talking, but I had to excuse myself to check on the twins when they started crying.

Of course rose and everyone else followed me. I laughed and continued upstairs.

"Hurry up Bella! I want to see how much they look like you!" rose exclaimed

"Yea. I wonder if when they are older if they will blush like you and fall like you!" Emmett said.

I laughed a sarcastic laugh and opened the door.

They were both crying but quieted when I picked them up.

"Bella they are adorable" rose said, "Can I hold one. What ware their names?!"

"Sure. You can hold this one." I handed her Danielle.

"What's her name?" rose asked again

"You are holding Danielle Elizabeth Rosalie swan," I said

"Bella! You named one after me!" rose said with pure joy in her face

I nodded and laughed.

Then she said, "What's the others name?"

"Gabrielle Alice Angela swan" I said looking down at the baby in my arms.

When I looked up I noticed everyone looking at me.

"What?" I asked

"You really have changed Bella" what was more surprising was that it was jasper that said it

I laughed and said "I haven't changed that much"

They all shook their heads.

Jasper and Emmett had things to discuss about the wedding so they left. Alice and rose left to saying they had something to do and that they should leave me alone or something.

I thought everyone had left, but then I felt his piercing eyes on my face. I looked up at him to see him watching me.

"You want to meet your daughters?" I asked in an angry sort of tone

He nodded and I waved him over.

I was going to say "well then you shouldn't have ditched me" but I didn't have the heart to.

When he got to their cribs, he asked "how do you tell them apart?"

I laughed and said "their eyes"

Edward gave me a confused expression so I said, "Gabrielle has your eyes, green all the way. Danielle however has green eyes, with specks of brown."

He nodded. "Do you want to hold one?"

Again he nodded, so I picked up Gabrielle and handed her to him.

Gabi gazed up at him, surprisingly didn't cry instead she giggled.

They were so cute together. Father and daughter. It's just a shame that a year ago he wanted nothing to do with me.

I took out my phone and noticed the date. June 12 2008. It was exactly a year ago that I told Edward I was pregnant and my whole world came crashing down.

I snorted and thought yea he didn't want them then but he probably wants them a year later!

Edward looked over at me and said "what?"

I mentally kicked myself "its nothing"

He said, "I don't believe you. You just got this look of pure hatred on your face, you don't do that when it's nothing"

"Fine. I was just thinking, it's been one year; one year since my whole world came crashing down. Why because some stupid guy told me he didn't want his precious daughters, but he does a year later" I said it in one breath and immediately regretted it when I saw the look on his face.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said that." I said

"Its fine I deserved it. I was a jerk, and I'm so sorry for that" he said

I nodded. Gabrielle had fallen asleep in his arms so I took her from him and laid her down in her crib. Danielle was already asleep, but I made sure her blanket covered her. I then turned on the baby monitor and walked out of the room with Edward by my side.

Alice came running up the stairs screaming "Bella. Lets go! You have to get your dress"

"Alice!" I hissed pointing to the door "their sleeping"

"Oops. Well anyway. Come on bells!" she said pulling my towards the stairs

I heard Edward laughing behind me. I turned around and shot him a dirty look; it just caused him to laugh harder.

"Alice I have tried on like 18 dresses, can I please have a break?" I exclaimed

"Bella!" she whined

"Alice!" I said whining.

"One more. I think you will like it. It looks a lot like roses which is good, its even the same color as hers." She said with a pleading voice.

I groaned and nodded.

Alice then shoved me into the dressing room with, hopefully my last dress of the day.

I put on the dress and I actually liked it.

Alice had decided to go with a blue wedding. The flowers were baby blue. There was going to be blue ribbon on every chair. The ceiling was going to have blue hangings on it. Rose was dressed in blue, and now so was I.

The dress I was wearing right now was gorgeous. It was simple but amazing. It had a v-neck and tied around my neck. The dress hung to my curves until it reached my hips. Their it became loose, but fitted. The dress came down to my feet, but Alice was going to make me wear heels so it wasn't a problem, except I had to walk down the isle in heels without tripping.

I walked out of the dressing room and Alice looked up from the twins.

She gasped when she saw me "Bella you look beautiful, I think we have found our dress."

I nodded, and went back into the dressing room, to get changed. I was ready to be done with this shopping trip. It had probably taking years off my life.

Alice bought the dress, and we left the store. Each of us had a twin in our hands.

When we got into the car Alice said "Bella!"

"Yea"

"Can we got shopping for the twins?" she was pouting

"Alice no!" I exclaimed

"C'mon Bella!"

"Alice. No! I told you before I am not letting you spoil them" I said

I had promised myself months ago I wasn't gong let the twins grow up being spoiled brats, and I wasn't going to give up now.

When we got back to the house I told Alice I would be in my room and then walked upstairs and into my room.

I laid the twins on my bed and played with them.

They were so cute; I just knew that they were going to be heartbreakers when they grew up. I could already see them going on their first dates and such. No! They haven't even spoken a word yet and I'm imagining them dating! Gahh, no.

During the wedding Esme was going to watch the twins. She said it was her duty since she was their grandmother, which I gladly accepted. The wedding was in 3 weeks. July 2, and there was so much to do. I swear Alice was going to pop if she didn't calm down sometimes. She is so freaked that everything won't get done in time and her wedding will be a disaster.

I personally don't see why she had to have a big wedding. I would much prefer a small wedding with no one but my closest friends.

"Alice is silly. Promise me you wont ever be as nuts as her" I said to the twins.

They giggled and I took that as an ok. I laughed. My phone went off, so I got up to get it.

It was a text from Jake 'hey bells, miss the twins. Cant wait til school starts so I can see them again'

I rolled my eyes and quickly typed 'thanks! Glad to know you miss me. Jake you know I might not come back in fall'

I walked back over to the bed. They both started crying and when I looked at the time, I figured that the were hungry. I carried them downstairs and made them both a bottle.

I fed them and then burped them. For such small babies they sure eat a lot. When my phone went off I carefully put Danielle down, and picked up my phone.

Jake replied 'you know I miss you! Lol. And I can still hope. I want you to come back.'

'I no Jake. I just don't know if I can handle it. I want to go back. I want to be with everyone, and finish college, I just … I just don't know.'

I walked back over to Danielle and picked her back up and finished feeding her.

When I was done, I picked them back up and walked back upstairs.

I laid them both on my bed, and got them ready for bed. I changed them both into the pajamas and laid them both down in their cribs. I quietly hummed, the song Edward composed for me a couple years ago, for our one month anniversary.

It hurt to think about those times, but most of the memories brought a smile to my face. The lullaby he had written, also put Gabrielle and Danielle right to sleep.

About five minutes later, the twins were silent, and asleep. it was about 8 o'clock and I hadn't had dinner yet. So I turned the baby monitor on, and walked downstairs. I was glad I wasn't in the room when I got the reply from Jake, because the twins would defiantly have woken up.

He wrote 'I'm always here to help. I could baby-sit, or do your work for you. Anything. Just please come back.'

I smiled to myself and wrote 'Thanks Jake, but no thanks. I couldn't do that.'

When I got to the kitchen I fixed myself a bowl of cinnamon toast crunch. I sat down at the table and ate my dinner. When I was halfway through my bowl of cereal Jake replied.

He wrote; 'fine. But bells please think hard about coming back.'

'Jake you know I will. I want to. I truly do.' While I was typing the message I heard somebody come in the door. I knew immediately that it was Edward, and I suddenly became aware of what I was wearing.

At the moment I was dressed in short-shorts and a camisole. Not exactly the thing you want to wear in front of your ex, but hell let him suffer, I thought thinking of everything he put me through.

I watched as he walked over to the fridge and got out a can of coke.

He turned around and caught my eye. I quickly looked at my phone, glad I had a distraction cause as soon as I looked away Jake texted me back.

He had written 'so come back bella'

I sighed a little to loudly 'its not that simple'

"whats wrong?" I jumped when Edward spoke.

I looked up and saw him looking at me intently. I quickly looked away and said "nothing. Jake just keeps bugging me to go back to Florida. To go back to collage, but I don't know if I can" it shocked me that I was so open to him, especially since I wanted to kill him.

He nodded and said "why cant you?"

I looked at him like he was insane "how in the world do you expect me to raise twins on my own and go to collage at the same time!" I had practically screamed at him.

I looked up at him and saw many emotions playing in his eyes. Mostly I saw sadness, and regret.

I sighed and stood up. I grabbed my bowl and dumped it into the sink. Then I put the dish in the dishwasher and left Edward in the kitchen.

When I got upstairs I was about to walk into my room when alice came into the hallway and practically dragged me into her room.

"oww. Whats your deal alice" I said as I tried to wiggle free.

"well I needed to discuss something with you." She said

"so go on. " I said

"ok. So I was thinking tomorrow we could go shopping for the twins. Please Bella. Please." She said giving me her puppy dog face.

I tried my best to resist but failed miserably "ugh. I know I am so going to regret this but fine. But i'm limiting you."

"to what"

"you cant spend anymore than 1000 dollars" I said smiling to myself

"Bella! That's not a lot! How about $2000" she whined

"no. how about 1500" I said

"$1900" she challenged

"$1750" I said

"$1800" she said

I gave in and said "fine, but not a penny more"

"yay! I love you Bella" she exclaimed throwing her arms around my neck.

I sighed and thought to myself 'home sweet home'

"and… " she paused like she was deciding whether or not to finish what she was saying.

"and what?" I asked

"and.. ease up on Edward." She said in a quiet voice "he knows he made a mistake, and he regrets it. I know he does."

I looked at her like she was insane.

"let me get this straight. You want me to be nicer to Edward. The guy who ruined my life, and left me, because you think he regrets it."

"Bella, just listen to me. I know he's sorry, just please give him a chance." She said pleading

"alice, you know I cant do that. When I say he broke my heart, I mean I ripped it out of my chest, and put it in a paper shredder. Then he stomped on it and set it on fire. Why should I forgive him for that?" with each word my voice got louder and louder

"Bella…" she said but I cut her off

"alice, I cant. Even if I tried, I cant" I said with tears streaming down my face. "even if I wanted to I couldn't."

I got up and left her room. I stood in the hallway for a few minutes, tears racking through my body.

When I was somewhat under control I walked down the hallway to my room. When I got in I leaned against the door and slid down it. I tried to keep quiet so I wouldn't wake the twins, but I failed miserably.

Gabrielle started crying then Danielle started. I pulled my self together and walked over to them. I picked them both up and walked over to my bed.

I laid down on it, with them in my arms.

"shh shhh its okk. " I murmured over and over again til they quieted.

Once they were quiet, I sat up and put them back in their cribs. When I was sure they were ok I laid back down on my bed and thought over the conversation with alice.

I knew I needed him. I knew I wanted him. But I also knew I wouldn't be able to forgive him that easily. I fell asleep thinking of the past. How everything was before everything happened.

I walked down the stairs the next morning, dreading the fact that I had to spend hours in a mall, shopping, with alice.

When I got to the kitchen alice and rose were in there, talking about wedding plans. I made myself a bowl of cereal and sat down next to them.

"Bella, I am so sorry for last night" alice said

I looked down and said "its cool alice forget about it."

"ok well is it ok if we go shopping for the twins tomorrow and work on the wedding today?" alice asked me

I nodded and said "yea sounds great"

"okk, well we already picked out the invitations, and everything. We just have to send them" rose said

"ok. Then we have to make sure all the decorations are set, and pick them up. Hopefully we will have time to set some of them up in the hall"

"sounds like we got a busy day. So what am I gonna do with the twins?" I asked

"the guys all have their day planned, and esme and Carlisle are at work. So I guess they are coming with us."

I groaned and stood up "well i'm gonna go get them ready then. When are we leaving?"

"in an hour" rose said getting up as well.

We all went our separate to get ready.

When I got to my room I changed into a light blue cami and put a dark blue v-neck quarter sleeve shirt over it. Then I put on light blue jeans. I put my hair up into a messy bun.

When I was done getting ready I picked up Gabrielle. I changed her into a cute little outfit. When she was ready I picked Danielle up and changed her. I put Danielle in the same outfit, just with different color.

When they were ready I picked them up, along with the baby bag full of diapers and other stuff, and walked into the hallway and down the steps. When I got to the living room I turned to my right and walked into the kitchen. I put the twins down and made them both a bottle.

When their bottles were ready I fed them and burped them. Once they were done I packed some bottles into the bag, and walked back into the living room.

Rose and alice were waiting for me in there.

"ready?" alice asked and I nodded.

We walked out the door and to my car since it was the only one with car seats. Alice got in the drivers seat and rose in the passenger seat, while I strapped the girls in and got in the back seat. When everyone was strapped in Alice drove off.

7 hours later Alice pulled up to her house. In the car were two very cranky babies, a hyperactive Alice, and a drained rose and me.

We had gone to the reception hall, and started decorating there, and we had gone to hall where the wedding is going to be to make sure everything was set there. We had also sent out all the invites, and somehow alice managed to spend 900 dollars of the money that I told her she could spend on the twins.

All in all it was a very tiring day and everyone was tired.

authors note. IMPORTANTE!

i know it took a while to get this chapter up but i have good reasons. these also go for the next couple chapters, so i am really sorry if i dont update in a while i will absolutly try my best. well these took so long because my brother came home from college and took our ethernet cord. if youy dnt know wht tht is its the thing you connect to your computer to get internet, so i couldnt get on for like a week. plus softball just started so there goes 2 hours of my time 3 days a week. i have to start working harder at school. my mom will flip if i get another B. not to mention msa was this week and i have science msa in like less then a month. i have my algebra HSA (high school assesment) in like a month. not to mention i have to pass a spanish 1 and algebra final in may or june, and a 3rd marking period assesment in spanish that i can not fail. so ya school is like taking over and its quite mean. :(

again i will try my absolute best to update a.s.a.p. but no promises.