Chapter 20

Christmas

BPOV

Christmas time, wow, how I did not look forward to this.

Our families always spent the holidays together and I knew this was going to be difficult.

Everyone knew Jasper and I were engaged and to top things off, Alice would only be here for a while, her parents reluctantly let her fly to be with Dmitri and his family for Christmas day.

Jasper and I volunteered to take her to the airport on Christmas Eve, Charlie wasn't happy about it, but I just gave him puppy dog eyes and he broke "Fine, but no messing around, it takes 35 minutes each way, in horrible weather, so you've got an hour and a half to get her there and get back and join in these family festivities Charlie scolded.

"Yes, sir.!" Jasper fake saluted him and smiled, Charlie busted out laughing, as did everyone else, except Edward, I could tell he was hurt from the banter between those two, he and Charlie never really got along, they always were just 'there'.

Jasper and I left to take Alice to the airport, me not wanting her to go, but she said she had girlfriend 'duties' and of course, Jasper being a male said 'hhmmm, a Christmas BJ, that sounds great. How 'bout it Bells….' I smacked him and giggled.

Alice groaned "No idiot, this is my first 'real' social outing with Dmitri and his family, to see if I'm accepted by the who's who… I'm so excited!!!" Alice squealed.

We arrived at the airport and I got out and gave her a hug, telling her I'd see her on New Year's Eve.

Jasper and I rode back in silence, not uncomfortable, relaxed.

We got to the house and everyone was out back, the guys were playing flag football, Jasper ran to get into the game and I went to the kitchen to help Esme.

"So, how are things with Jasper?" Esme asked.

"Oh, they're going great. I'm sorry things didn't work out the way you'd hoped for Esme. I still consider you my second mom, you know that right?" I hugged her tight.

"You know, Edward is breaking off his engagement to Tonya after the holidays." she whispered in my ear.

I gasped and looked at her, "Why would that matter to me now Esme? I have Jasper and I love him, truly, even more than I loved Edward. He just gets me, unlike Edward, he was always placing me so high up on a pedestal, that I couldn't stand on my own 2 feet." I smiled at her and hoped she understood. "Edward will always be my first in many ways and I'd love to be friends with him once again, but right now, it's not possible." I hugged Esme and left the kitchen.

"Darlin' what's the matter?" Jasper asked.

"Nothing, Can't we leave now? I'm getting a headache." I tried to smile.

Jasper and I said bye to everyone and left, headed to his place.

"Jasper, I really just wanted to go to my house, I just need to sleep, please" I asked.

"Sure." he sounded upset.

We reached my house and I leaned over, giving him a kiss, telling him I'd like him to just be alone.

He wasn't happy about it but left.

I climbed the stairs to my bed, I felt like shit and I couldn't really place my finger on it.

I decided to just lay down and go to sleep, hoping I'd feel better when I woke up.

I awoke to sweet kisses on my face and neck "MMM, Edward." I said.

"What the fuck Bella!" I bolted up to see Jasper in my room.

"Oh, I'm so sorry! I don't know what happened Jasper." I said, tears coming down my face.

"How could you do that Bells? That's some low shit! He hasn't even been broken up and on the market for 20 minutes and you're already screaming his name. That's what was bothering you last night, wasn't it?" Jasper was screaming now.

"No! it wasn't… I truly have a massive headache, I guess he was in my thoughts and that's where he always kissed me to wake me up, SHIT! I'm so sorry Jasper." I buried my head in his chest and cried.

"Darlin' it's O.K., I'm sorry I snapped. It just hurt that you said his name and I was kissing you." Jasper pouted.

I straddled his lap and gave him the most passionate kiss I could manage.

"You up for a party tonight? I know a Frat house that has a killer after Christmas party." he smiled.

"No, but you go ahead, I just need some more sleep. I'll see you in the morning." I smiled.

"Are you sure you don't mind? Bells." he grabbed my chin and kissed me, I shook my head yes.

"I'll call you when I get home sweetheart." Jasper called over his shoulder.

Charlie was gone for the weekend, so I called and ordered a pizza and salad and put in my favorite movie Mr. & Mrs. Smith and relaxed.

20 minutes later, there was a knock at the door, I grabbed my cash and went to the door.

My money fell to the ground… "Edward" I gasped.

"Bella" he smiled and walked in with my pizza and salad. "I got here the same time as the pizza guy, I paid and delivered it to you, I hope you don't mind." he smiled.

I just smiled and ushered him in from the rain.

"Would you like some?" I asked.

"Yes, that would be great." Edward smiled.

"You look like shit Edward." I replied.

"Yeah, having your life turned upside down does that to you." he frowned.

"Yeah, I know. It hurts like hell, doesn't it!" I spat.

"Bells, I didn't come here to yell love, I came to tell you I was sorry for all the wrong I did to you. I can't believe you'd just forget me and go to Jasper, Jasper, your best friends EX!!! That's just low Bella." he scolded.

"Fuck you Edward! I'm not the one who said 'you'll never be the flavor of the week/ I love you/ I'll never hurt you!!!' You said all that and more to me! And yet, you went away to college, threw away me, like I was trash, because I wasn't going to college yet and you were too frightened to fight for me, because you knew you'd want to stick your dick somewhere else! Because I wasn't giving it up!!! Well FUCK YOU EDWARD CULLEN!!! I gave it up to the man I'm going to MARRY!! I was screaming at this point.

We sat in silence for about 45 minutes, nothing being said and then my phone rang, indicating a message.

I flipped it up and pressed the link.

As soon as I looked at it, I dropped the phone and screamed for Edward to get out, he picked up my phone and handed it to me, looking at the picture and growling as he walked out.

I looked at the picture and seen a very drunk Jasper sucking on a very naked girls body. He was looking straight at the camera it looked like.

I dropped the phone and laid on the couch, crying myself to sleep.

An hour later another picture came through with Jasper sleeping with 2 women.

I awoke to the house phone ringing off the hook, I ran to get it and Alice was beaming on the other end.

"Alice, look, I'm not in the mood right now, can this wait." I asked while sniffling.

"Bells, what's up? What happened?" she asked, her good mood gone.

"Take a look at this, I'm sending it to your phone now. I'll talk to you later." I hung up and laid back down, crying myself to sleep again.

JPOV

I tried to convince Bells to come with me to this party, I knew these weren't her thing, they did tend to get wild. But, everyone always had a good time and my baseball friends would be there, so that would be cool as well.

I met up with some friends and we played quarters and then after an hour of that, I was coxed into a Beer Bong, so I chugged that, along with smoking a couple of joints and then a few shots, then I vaguely remember being offered to do body shots.

I woke up in bed with a strange blond and red head next to me…

I had no idea what happened, all I knew was that we were all shirtless, but our pants were on, that had to be a good sign, right?

UUGGGHHHH, how was I going to tell Bella about this. She will surely leave me know, I acted liked Edward, no matter what I did or didn't end up doing, she wouldn't see it that way.

Why did I go to this without her and I had to go see her now!

A/N:

Sorry, kinda short again, but more to come…

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